Murong paper on the snow mountain

Although I knew it a long time ago, Xie Lv probably didn't suddenly realize his conscience - but no matter what, the child stumbled and got injured outside, and he still knew where his home was.

No matter what he encountered outside, even if he did something unacceptable and was cast aside by the world, provoked someone who shouldn't be provoked and was hunted down by the rivers and lakes, as long as he came back, he would still listen to Xiao Jiang from Xuegong.

As long as he returns for sure, Murong Zhi will guard this piece of cleanliness for him, and no one outside will ever try to bully him again.

However, that child did not encounter setbacks outside, but went smoothly and prospered all the way, and everyone admired him and left his name in history.The reason for coming back was because of feeling sad and disheartened, which made Murong Zhi feel very hopeless.

I cherished you so much in the past, and it’s fine if you don’t care, but after finally finding out that someone you like doesn’t treat you sincerely, I want to come back to me...

Xie Li, then what am I?

Is it just a person who you can think of to rely on when you are injured, tired and dying?Indulging in the gentle village for so many years without seeing my way back, it was only when I finally discovered the hypocrisy of others that I remembered my sincerity again?

Someone treats you badly, so you want to make it up to me?

During these days, I have been tired of me all day long, and I can't get rid of it. All you want is a "good for you", right?

……

You know, I am far from the only person in this world who is willing to treat you sincerely.

As lively as you are, you can attract people's liking for no reason when you smile, if you want someone to take you in, if you want someone to treat you well, there are thousands of others in this world, so what am I?

If that's the case, are you going to abandon me casually?

……

Murong Zhi knew that Xie Lu might not have the chance to abandon him again in this life.

He will not live to that time.So as long as I am willing to pretend to be a fool and not bother with him, that's enough—accompany him every day during his last days, hold his hand tenderly, and deceive him as well as myself, that's enough !

Who cares what he has in mind?Who does he really like?After all, the last thing he looked at was himself and not others, after all, the last name he read was "A Zhi" and not others, wouldn't that be all right?

However, it couldn't be done.

Such a simple thing, but Murong Zhi found that he couldn't do it.

He was about to die, just because he was about to die, if he let him go, let him go too.Obviously he thought so, but why bursts of hot malice rose from his heart, even though he tried hard to grit his teeth, he couldn't help it.

"You were wronged by others, and when you were hurt, you wanted to turn around... find someone who won't hurt you?"

"But Xie Lu, don't forget that I... am no longer the Murong Zhi I was ten years ago. I am not clean, and I am no longer the same to you. You want to find someone who is right for you, but I am no longer the same. I will treat you as well as before, and in the future... never again."

"There is actually no love between you and me. The reason why I take care of you a little is not because I still remember you, but to see that you have a few days to live, and I just feel sorry for you!"

"If you can still live a good life, do you think I will take you in? I told you to get out of this snow mountain a long time ago. The farther you get, the better!"

After Murong Zhi said these words, his usually pale face was stained with a tinge of redness, he thought that every sentence was hurtful.Unexpectedly, Xie Lu just nodded and hurriedly got out of bed as if he didn't hear it.

"I know, I know all this! Ah Zhi, I'm sorry, you, don't be angry! Where are you going?"

"Where do you care about me? I can go anywhere, as long as I don't have you, it's the same wherever I go!"

"A Zhi, don't get angry, just listen to me..."

"Listen to you? Xie Lu, you will never change. You said it yourself, saying that you would tell me 'all' about you and King Ning—but did you tell me? Didn't you lie to me in the end?! "

"..."

"You are like this. You always tell lies, you always try to lie to me, and you are never trustworthy! What kind of relationship between master and servant? What about Mrs. Xi? What about innocence?! Oh, Xie Lv! You really think I am so Easy to lie? Do you really think it’s so fun to lie to me?!”

"Ah Zhi, I, I didn't mean to lie to you! I just, just..."

"Don't say any more."

"You don't want to say it, just right, and I don't want to hear it, and I don't want to hear it at all if you want to say anything to me in the future. Why don't you just leave and go to that palace in Yunjin City, anyway, your prince and master Didn’t you always want to find you? Wouldn’t it be good if you go back?! Wouldn’t it be good to go back to him?”

"..."

"I can't save you, I couldn't save you in the past, and I won't be able to save you in the future. You are going to die anyway after a while, so why stay here and deceive yourself and others with your true thoughts? You don't have a few days to live, so why bother Are you facing the person you tried to turn your back on in the past, but deliberately avoiding the person you really want to see?"

"What's wronged, what's not angry, what's not letting go, what's so affectionate. Xie Lv, go talk to the person you really want to talk about, and make it clear."

"Don't...don't lie to me here again."

"You...have lied to me once before, and I let you lie to me too. Please...please, for the sake of taking care of you, don't lie to me again this time, okay? ?”

……

***

"A Zhi, I, I didn't mean to hide you. I'm sorry, it's all my fault, really it's all my fault!"

In Zangshu Pavilion, Murong Zhi sat on the ground without looking sideways, and slowly turned another page.

"Ah Zhi..." Xie Lv has been kneeling for several hours, kneeling until his knees are blue, and now there is a torn book under each knee, at least he slowed down and continued to kneel.

"I don't want to listen to you. I still want to read this book, so don't bother me here."

……

"Ah Zhi, I really didn't mean to hide everything from you about King Ning. It's just...but I really didn't dare to tell you, but it made you even more angry. I'm sorry! I will never do this again."

"I'm angry? Oh, I'm not angry. Why should I be angry?"

"Azhi, you don't know... I have never dared to say it because I was afraid of you, afraid that you would get angry, and that you would miss me like this..."

"Am I wrong?"

"Ah Zhi! I, I really didn't ask him for nothing. I thought you were good to me before I retreated to you. You believe me, I, I and King Ning... From the day we left Beijing, I and Ning The king was cut in two! During the time I was with you, I never thought about him again!"

"Who you like to think about has nothing to do with me. Shut up."

"A Zhi!" Xie Lv pressed the ancient book he was reading: "Don't read it! Look at me! I really didn't lie this time! I never thought about him after that, and I never touched him before. I did not lie to you!"

But his chest was suddenly covered by Murong Zhi's icy cold hands, his fingers hooked the buttons of the skirt, and he couldn't help but start to take off Xie Lv's coat.

"Uh, Ah Zhi? You, what do you want to do?" Xie Lv blushed, pretending to resist.

Why all of a sudden...but it's so cold in this library hall, especially the floor is covered with green bricks and crumbling, isn't it good?

Isn't the bed nice?But you never wanted to.

At that time, I refused to ask for it, but now my body, cough, is not as good as before, and I have no strength to walk, and I don’t know if I can still do it...

Uh, that's all, if you really want it that much suddenly, then I, I will work hard...

Take off the coat, tear off the middle coat.Murong Zhi's face was as cold as ice, and he stared coldly at a hideous scar lying across Xie Lv's waist.

Slowly stroking the protruding scar lines with his fingers, he looked up at Xie Lv sharply.

"You suffered this injury for him, didn't you?"

"..."

"The injury was so severe that it was almost cut in half. Xie Lu, how much life do you have to live to this day?!"

I... I am really lucky, Xie Lu has to admit this.This injury was caused by Beimo soldiers during the war. If it is said that it was caused by King Ning, after all, King Ning recommended him to fight that battle, and it cannot be said otherwise.

But even if he wanted to blame it, he should probably blame himself for not being good at martial arts... But facing Murong Zhi's sullen expression, he didn't dare to speak.

"You are willing to suffer such a serious injury for him, and you will lose your life."

"... Ah Zhi!" Xie Lv hurriedly said, "I can, in the future, suffer more serious injuries for you! It doesn't matter if I die for you!"

"Who wants you—"

"As long as you believe in me, you can do anything you want me to do! Ah Zhi, this is not just talk! What do you want me to do? What can I do for you? What do I do to make you believe me? I I can do anything for you!"

"I don't want you to do anything for me. Xie Lv, I just want to ask you, what if you died from this injury back then?"

"Hey……?"

"You're not afraid, right? It's great. To die for the most beloved master is a worthy death. And I... Anyway, you died outside, in a place I don't know, and I'm the same... No How sad it will be, shouldn’t it be like this?”

"..."

"Xie Lu, the bond between us is not so deep. You asked me before why I didn't go down the mountain to find you. Yes, you are right. If I... really like you as much as I like Tang Ji Why, why haven't you come down the mountain to look for you for so many years? It's better that your loyal prince and master saw you leave the capital and searched for you all the way to find you here!"

"Ah Zhi! You... don't speak angry words. What about Tang Ji, you, you don't care about him at all, why bother to block me with those words?"