everything about loving you

Red, but I can't shed tears.

He just opened his eyes sourly, deepening Lin Xiao's appearance.

Remember this person well in case something happens.

He's always the one who makes you obsessed and willing.

"The patient's condition is very unstable, and he may have been greatly stimulated, causing a certain shadow to women. I hope the patient's family members can enlighten him, and I will prescribe some tranquilizers..." The doctor chattered to Lin Xiao speak.

Said a lot of medical terms.

I can't hear anything.

"Besides, the patient was given chili water, and the vocal cords were worn out. I am afraid that he lost his voice for a while. The stomach tissue also had nausea and throbbing pain due to the absorption of chili water. If it is more serious, an operation may be required. Stay in the hospital for observation first. A few days, see how the condition is before making a decision."

Lin Xiao said with a heavy face, "Okay, thank you doctor."

He came towards me and hugged me again.

Avoid the bandaged wound on my mouth.

I have lost the feeling in my throat, and when I speak, there is really no sound.Whenever I move my voice when pronouncing, there will be a burst of burning pain.

"Are you hungry?" Lin Xiao asked me worriedly.

I glanced at the reinserted nutrient solution needle, shook my head, and wrote "I don't have any appetite for the time being" on Lin Xiao's palm.

"Then call me when you have an appetite."

I continued to write on his palm: "Brother-in-law doesn't have to go to work today?"

"I heard that something happened to you, so I took a few days off to take care of you."

Huddled in Lin Xiao's arms, the two of them used such an intimate posture, it didn't look like a brother-in-law and brother-in-law relationship at all.

Weird, right?

It's obviously not that kind of relationship, but they use such an intimate gesture.

A flaw that no one can see.

Is it because I am too deep into the drama or Lin Xiao's sympathy is overflowing.

Lin Xiao's eyes were full of distress, he stroked the marks on my face that had been tied up, afraid of irritating me, his voice softened a lot: "How did you get the injury on your body, where did you go when you didn't go home. "

I can't say Qin Zilan's revenge.

Seeing that I was unwilling to speak, Lin Xiao stopped asking me.

"Have a good rest, I'll go home and make some soup for you."

Warm hands touched my face, then put my hands into the quilt, and after tucking the quilt for me, Lin Xiao left in peace.

Hold down the beating heart, but at this moment, I just want Lin Xiao not to come back.

People instinctively run away from things that they feel are dangerous.I am no exception, even if Lin Xiao falls in love with him, even if he keeps persuading himself.

The woman who tormented me smelled of men's perfume the second time she came in.Very light, but caught in the disgusting smell at that time, it was very obvious.It is the same scent as the perfume Lin Xiao is using now.

How to explain these.

Or is it just a coincidence?

I looked out the window, and the sunlight came in through the seams of dense leaves.It's only September now, why is my hands so cold that there is no warmth.

Taking out the phone from under the pillow, several cracks appeared on the screen.When the woman threw me on the street after I passed out, she didn't take my phone.

Open the album, there are my dirty pictures.

This is a warning.

Remind me not to be willful.

Since I can take pictures, it means that there are still negatives left.If I rush to call the police, I'm afraid the end will not be the out-of-control ending I can accept.

Only accept it.

How calm?

Lin Xiao, if lies are the love you weave, then am I something that can be sacrificed at will.Even if you destroy me, you won't feel sorry?

I want to love you and want you to give me a chance.

But what about you?

Laugh at my extremes.

Then I have no choice but to hypnotize myself, stubbornly thinking that you are my escape route.

Qin Zilan.

When I think of this name, I feel disgusted from the bottom of my heart.

It cannot be counted like this.

Opened the mailbox and missed calls, as I expected.I received many calls and text messages from Dong Gumeng on my mobile phone. I only said that I was in the hospital and did not mention anything else.

The text message bell rings.

I soon received a text message from Dong Gumeng.

She asked me what happened.

I have limited mobility, and my fingers are wrapped in gauze. I can only type out the pinyin one by one with great difficulty.

Dong Gumeng asked me if Qin Zilan had done something to me.

I turned off the phone and ignored her.

Pretending to be a helpless victim.

But in fact, it is true.

I am indeed a victim.

About half an hour later, I heard urgent footsteps in the corridor.

Dong Gumeng came sooner than I thought.

"Mr. Ji!"

She cried out in surprise when she saw me like this.

☆, 19

I asked her with my mouth: why are you here.

"Mr. Ji, how did you become like this, your injury...you can't talk anymore?" Dong Gumeng was angry and hated, she asked me: "Did Qin Zilan do it?"

Dong Gumeng saw me in a panic, and froze on the spot, not daring to approach me.Her heart was too turbulent and excited, and she forcibly suppressed her anger.

"how so!"

She raised my hand cautiously and gently, trembling in disbelief.

The doctor said whether it can get better is still a problem.

The bone is broken, and after being picked up, it may be difficult to even hold a pen in the future.

I opened my mouth to try to reassure her, I'm fine, I'm fine.

"Mr. Ji, you are always too gentle." Dong Gumeng's exquisite eyebrows were twisted together. She said this to me many times before.

Enduring the pain, I wrote on the quilt: Nothing, don't mess around.

I struggled to smile more naturally, but in the end I hurt the wound, and the pain made my eyes blink.

Dong Gumeng became domineering because of her anger, she just said in bits and pieces: "All expenses during the hospitalization will be charged to my account, Mr. Ji, please rest assured to recuperate, as for other things, don't think too much."

How could this be……

She sees through my mind.

"Mr. Ji, please don't refuse. If Mr. Ji refuses again, it will make me feel even more guilty...be ashamed to make friends with Mr. Ji."

Dong Gumeng stood up, walked to the window, and closed it.

Turning his back to me, he continued: "It's really shameful to drag such an innocent person like Mr. Ji into the women's war. So, there will be no such thing next time."

Don't know when it started.

Dong Gumeng cared a little too much for me.

Like some kind of fanatical obsession.

It's all drama.

In this complex and dark relationship layer.

There is no normal person anymore.

"Qin Zilan's goal is me. She has a grudge against my sister. In order to help my sister vent my anger, I asked someone to investigate her thoroughly." Dong Gumeng began to talk about her past with Qin Zilan, how she had a grudge against Qin Zilan, and how it happened. hate each other.

"In the end, the black history hidden in the depths of the crime was revealed, and she became an enemy of us without hesitation. It is a pity that she has no inheritance rights of the Qin family at all, and cannot take action against us in business. Qin Zilan, a woman, has been waiting for an opportunity Bite us back."

"It's just that I didn't expect that Qin Zilan would... attack Mr. Ji."

"Mr. Ji, please rest assured that such a thing will never happen again."

I closed my eyes and didn't want to mention what happened that day.

Thinking of this, I curled up in uncontrollable pain.

On the surface, everything happened, so let's forget it... Maybe, Miss Qin just did it in a fit of anger.

I was thinking of something else in my heart.

For example, just wait for Dong Gumeng's next move.

"Mr. Ji!"

It took me a while to force myself to ignore the panic in my heart.

I wrote: I'm fine... Didn't scare you?

Dong Gumeng bit his lip before shaking his head.

In order not to bring back those terrible memories in me.

She tried to divert my attention.

I'm also trying to make myself happy.

The strange thing is that I'm afraid of women, but I'm not afraid of Dong Gumeng's approach, and I never thought of running away even when I came into contact with her.

It was getting late, and Dong Gu dreamed that it was getting late, so he got up and said to me, "Mr. Ji, I'm going back first, and I'll see you tomorrow."

it is good.

No, wait a while.

I got up anxiously to hold Dong Gumeng, the movement was too wide, the wound on my finger seemed to be split open, and I could see the blood seeping through the bandage.

"Mr. Ji, don't move around, I'll call the doctor right away!"

Dong Gumeng calmed down my emotions, turned around and opened the door, just at this very moment, Lin Xiao came.

Lin Xiao was wearing a heavy black suit, like the god of death who came to take my life.His indifferent and handsome face carried a dangerous look, and he was still holding a thermos in his hand.

The time is just right.

No one noticed that one of my smiles was fleeting.

"Lin, Mr. Lin..."

Lin Xiao glanced at me, then at Dong Gumeng, his expression became unsightly in an instant, and he asked indifferently, "Why is Mrs. Zhou here?"

Dong Gumeng faltered and explained: "I heard that something happened to Mr. Ji, so I came to see him..."

I raised my injured hand to Lin Xiao.

"Thank you, Mrs. Zhou." The expression on Lin Xiao's face eased a lot, but he still said bluntly: "It's very late, Mrs. Zhou should go home first, so that Mr. Zhou won't worry, I'll take care of Xiao Mo gone."

By the way, he turned sideways and signaled Dong Gumeng to leave quickly.

He sat by my bed, straightened my collar, and served me another bowl of soup.

It's Coconut Chicken Soup.

"Be careful of the heat."

Lin Xiao specially brought a small spoon, which is convenient for patients like me with mouth injuries to eat.

After drinking a bowl, the chicken soup was too greasy for me to swallow. Lin Xiao took out a handkerchief from his pocket and wiped the grease stains from the corners of my mouth.

This is the Lin Xiao I know?

I really don't know his sudden warmth.

It is the premise of making any idea.

Hate me for overestimating myself and pretending to be calm.

Faced with Lin Xiao's actions, he was unexpectedly moved.

Seeing that I stopped talking, he asked me: "Are you full? Do you want to eat something?"

I shook my head, even if I want to eat, judging by the current situation, I guess I won't be able to eat what I want for a long time.

Dong Gumeng called the doctor, and the doctor took medicine and bandages to clean and replace me.

There was a female nurse behind the doctor. When I saw people I didn't know, I became agitated and didn't want them to approach me.

"Give it to me." Lin Xiao took the potion.

"Mr. Ji..." Dong Gumeng stood beside him with concerned eyes.

Lin Xiao said with a bit of wariness and displeasure: "Mrs. Zhou, let's go back first. Xiaomo's situation is very unstable now. To be precise, he is afraid of women."

"Then..." Dong Gumeng hesitated.

"It's fine for Xiao Mo to have me." Lin Xiao opened the door directly and made a "please" gesture.

He waited for Dong Gumeng to go out, and quickly closed the door, for fear that the woman would come back again.

Brother-in-law, I am not afraid of Dong Gumeng.

When Lin Xiao saw what I wrote, he said coldly, "I hate her."

I followed closely and asked: Are you jealous?

"Put your hands away."

He changed the subject and stopped talking about Dong Gumeng with me.

"Xiao Mo, just listen to the doctor's orders obediently in the ward during this time. You're not in good spirits, it's better not to see unnecessary people. Otherwise, it's not good to be exhausted."

This is what Lin Xiao told me.

What does this mean?

☆, 20

What Lin Xiao said made me worry for a long time.

These two really dishonest people are pretending to be ignorant and getting close to each other, with ulterior motives.If one day I can meet Lin Xiao honestly, that would be a terrible idea.

I finally figured out why I lost the strength to love others except Lin Xiao.

Just loving Lin Xiao is exhausting.

Even if it is scarred.

They all love him unwaveringly.

Selfish to unreasonable trouble.

10:00 in the evening.

I am prone to insomnia, but now I have Lin Xiao who will stay to watch over me, so I can't sleep because of anxiety.Close your eyes in pure silence, adjust your mood and fall asleep.

After tossing and turning, I woke up again.

"Can't sleep?"

Lin Xiao touched my forehead, and then gently covered me with the quilt.

I saw him pull a storybook out of his briefcase.

Can't help laughing out.

In the end, he didn't realize that his injury was still there, and coughed while laughing.

Unbelievable, the stern Lin Xiao sat on a chair in a gentle manner, picked up a book of fairy tales for children, and read them affectionately.

This makes me forget the pain.

damn it.

Why do you always do things that make me change my mind when I'm about to give up on you?Or is it that I am a person who has no courage at all, and I just keep saying bluff to myself.

"Brother-in-law."

I knocked on the side of the bed and made a sound.

Lin Xiao asked me seriously: "What's the matter? Don't you like this story? Then I'll change it."

He moved his throat and lowered his chest with his hand, and could make a weak sound.I whispered, "I want to hear the story of Bluebeard. My sister used to tell me this story."

He paused and said "OK".

Once upon a time there was a man whose family was rich and enjoyed endless glory and wealth.But the man was unlucky, with an ugly blue beard, and when the women saw him, they turned and ran away in fright.

There was an old woman who had three beautiful daughters.The old woman's husband owes Blue Beard money, and Blue Beard has always wanted to marry the old woman's daughter, but both the eldest sister and the second sister shirk and refuse.Except for the old woman's youngest daughter, she said yes.They are very taboo, Blue Beard has married several wives, but no one has ever known the whereabouts of those women.

So I lived a life of singing and dancing every day.

Whatever the younger daughter wanted, Blue Beard would satisfy her.

Later, when Bluebeard was going on a long journey, he gave his little daughter a bunch of keys, twelve in all.

These twelve keys can open twelve doors respectively.

Blue Beard repeatedly told his youngest daughter not to open door No.12, otherwise the consequences would be disastrous.

The little daughter agreed, but her curiosity and greed were stimulating her crazily.

In the end, the youngest daughter also paid the price for her curiosity.

Lin Xiao suddenly asked me: "What do you think is inside after opening the No.12 door?"

I also asked my sister this question, why did Bluebeard execute his youngest daughter? Aren't they husband and wife?Don't they love each other?

I can't remember my sister's answer.

I only know that my sister told me that sometimes you can't just look at the surface from a distance.Love doesn't necessarily mean being able to forgive each other unconditionally, and husband and wife, being able to be together doesn't have to be sex.

Because behind that door.

It is betrayal.

Bluebeard is angry that his little daughter is not keeping promises.

Obviously promised not to watch, but violated the promise.

This is a big taboo among couples.

At that time, I couldn't understand what my sister said, but I just felt it was a pity.

I asked Lin Xiao back, "What do you think?"

"loyalty."

"The little girl is really poor."

When Lin Xiao heard my words, he smiled playfully: "Why is the little girl so pitiful?"

"...You said that what a husband and wife need is loyalty, but he didn't tell the younger daughter what was inside that door. The premise of the younger daughter's betrayal to Blue Beard was first concealed by Blue Beard. If he said it earlier, he would not It will make the little girl think about it."

"If it was Xiao Mo, would he open that door?"

Unable to answer the question he asked knowingly.

I want to know everything about Lin Xiao.

If the key is in my hand...

I will be the same as my younger daughter.

I am silent.

Nesting in Lin Xiao's arms, listening to his heartbeat, the symptoms of insomnia disappeared without a trace.Surprisingly, Lin Xiao didn't dislike me for touching him, and he didn't make a sound despite my greedy demands.

So, is Lin Xiao a good medicine or a drug?

the next day.

Successful isolation.

Lin Xiao took my mobile phone after I fell asleep, and he hasn't shown up until now, instead he asked someone to deliver the meal.

Very light tofu kelp soup and mushroom porridge.

The porridge could be felt sliding down the injured throat, causing a fiery sting.After coughing a few times, I had to swallow and finish my food.

I can't contact the outside world, not even...Qi Si.

Why did Lin Xiao do this.

I just want to get out and get some air.

The room was so monotonous and a bit empty, as soon as I got irritable, I couldn't help but want to smoke a cigarette to relieve myself.Habitually touched his pocket, only to realize that he was wearing a hospital gown.

The onset of cravings.

His hands trembled uncontrollably.

Drinking warm water over and over again, to dilute the commotion.

Even the teeth are chattering.

He clenched his teeth desperately and rubbed his teeth to resist the itching.

This is probably what the book says about scratching one's heart with one hundred claws, unable to concentrate, full of mind wandering, all thinking about nicotine.

"hiss……"

A burst of anger came up, and I slammed the water glass to the ground.

The clear glass shattered into pieces.

I cover my forehead.

Fear is taking over my body, it's taking over my thoughts.

Changing back and forth between the painful cracks, such a depressing atmosphere reminded me of that empty house, that woman, who forced me to do such a thing.

Unbearable.

Tear off the cloth strips wrapped around his body, the bandage on his wrist seems to be hemp rope.I pulled hard, desperately trying to break free.

Don't tie me up... let me out...

Seeing the fragments on the ground, he couldn't resist the impulse to pick up a few pieces in a hurry, and made deep and wide wounds on his body.

Yes, it is this kind of pain... that can stop the addiction.

The doctor outside the door saw the scene through the window and immediately opened the door.Three doctors and nurses circled around me.

What are they going to do?

I looked at them in horror, they held my hands to prevent me from struggling.

Don't come here...brought out the pain of forced forgetting, and it flashed before my eyes countless times.I don't want to struggle, I just want to beg for mercy.

Hope my compromise is correct.

Don't hold me back with this damn hurt.

I wanted to tell them to stop, the vocal cords were so torn that they could only utter a few modal particles.

I just had to watch...

The doctor holds a needle.

Raised my arm, found my blood vessel, and injected the medicine into it.

I stabilize...

I don't have the strength...to react in any way.

The mood was so calm that I thought it was dead for a moment.Touching the left chest, I felt the slow beating heartbeat.

still alive.

The doctor let me go and told me to rest well. They hurried out of the ward and left me here alone.I don't have any desire or impulse at all, and I'm even a little sleepy.

Could it be that I have been deprived of my right to be myself?

☆, 21

"The patient's condition has become worse because the spirit has suffered some kind of blow. Judging from the current situation, it should be replaced by mild depression..."

The doctor spoke to Lin Xiao cautiously.

I looked at him erratically.

Then raise a smile.

The doctor left, Lin Xiao closed the door, and stared at me coldly.

Bit by bit it ate me away.

He is jealous of me, and I am avoiding him.

"Brother-in-law, I want to go home. I don't like the hospital, I hate here..."

The sound is basically better, but the damage to the sound ray is serious.Coupled with long-term smoking, the throat has not been well maintained, and it no longer becomes crisp and a little muffled.

I stretched out my arms to him, and Lin Xiao hugged me, and I felt the warmth in his arms.It would be great if it could always be like this.

If hugging is two lonely people warming each other, then love is even saving.

Lin Xiao let go of me, his fingers slid over my lips.The wound around the mouth has his remaining warmth, his thoughtfulness, and his subtle tenderness...

They will become a sharp weapon to deprive me.

"Xiao Mo, you will always listen to your brother-in-law like that, right?"

"……Yes."

Hate yourself for not living up to expectations.

At the end of the season, there is no cure for you.

So Lin Xiao was released without charge?

"Xiao Mo." Lin Xiao hugged me, playing with the ends of my hair with his fingers.

too close.

The demeanor is too gentle.

"You can't see anyone during this time, or I will be angry."

I twisted his clothes tightly and just asked, "Why?"

"You don't have to know."

"What if I say I must know?"

"Look at you, you are becoming disobedient again."

Because of the relationship between the sedatives, the emotions can't arouse much spark.But I know that I should be angry, and I have to do something to express my anger.

But the drug broke out, and I couldn't do anything drastic.

I had to grab his tie: "Please tell me, what happened..."

Lin Xiao pushed me on the bed, his rough movements were completely different from him just now.He saw my thoughts, and even his tone was indifferent: "People who are disobedient don't deserve to be treated with kind words."

"Why do you treat me like this...I want to go home, I don't want to stay here, I want to see Qi Si...Brother-in-law, why do you trap me here."

He let go of me and straightened my tie.

"Why? I am your brother-in-law, your guardian, and I am obliged to take care of you. What's more, Xiao Mo, you are a sick person now, so you can't run around."

Fingers caressed my face delicately, trembling seeing me trying to calm down.

I calmed down and said to him very seriously: "I'm fine, I'm sober now, and I know what I'm doing."

Lin Xiao laughed.

"That's all you want to know?"

Startled for a moment, then nodded slowly.

He gently massaged my fingers and bones.

"Your good sister really caught me by surprise. I didn't expect to keep a hand. She took the news of Qin Zilan's abortion in her hands, and then contacted major news newspapers. She specially distributed the newspaper for free that day and even printed it as a flyer."

"It can be said that everyone knows it now, and it made the old man Qin half dead. He announced the severance of father-daughter relationship with Qin Zilan on the same day, and specially published a news, saying that Qin Zilan and Qin's father have nothing to do with each other. Now, the Qin family can be said to be No face left."

I looked at him without a smile on my face, and said word by word: "Really? Then I really missed a good show, and I can't see Qin Yulan's distraught face."

No longer look at him with nostalgic eyes.

Lin Xiao held my hand and pressed hard on the injured part, appreciating my distorted expression in pain.Cai said calmly: "Since you are so curious, I can't tell you that after these things happened, Dong Gumeng's house was set on fire, and the child in her sister's womb was aborted."

"..."

You don't need to look to know how scary my face is at this time.

Qin Zilan is now in such a state of desperation, without the support of the Qin family, it is impossible to rashly hurt Dong Gumeng, there must be someone behind her to help her, so she is so arrogant.

And this person.

It can't be the Qin family.

They suffered a dumb loss. If they planned to continue to cooperate with the Zhou family of the Dong family, they would not dare to continue to make small moves, and they would not spend a lot of time to announce that they would sever all ties with Qin Zilan.

Journalists love to play catch-up.

So the Qin family will become very cautious and will not do such ignorant behavior.

Lin Xiao squeezed my face, and kissed my forehead as if rewarding me.

This is the first time he kissed me.

I am so uncomfortable.

"However, the appearance of the two ladies tearing their faces is really not elegant at all. After all, I want to thank Xiao Mo."

"What do you mean?"

"Do you know, together with your intention to encourage Dong Gumeng to help you take revenge on Qin Zilan, it's all under my control."

Lin Xiao's words.

terrifying.

After thinking for a long time, I was short of words and thought of this word to describe it.

Seeing that I didn't respond, he continued, "Xiao Mo is really obedient, and she follows my every step, so she really helped my brother-in-law a lot."

"Sure enough, Su Xiao shouldn't have let you go too early in the first place." Lin Xiao's smile became amused, "It seems that being too kind to you is really not a good thing."

There is only one thought, and that is to want to smoke.

Just smoke.

You can put all the bad things behind you.

Don't want anything sober anymore.

"I'm just a fuse, responsible for igniting Qin Zilan's resentment towards Dong Gumeng. Everyone is awake, and I'm the only one who comforts me ignorantly to believe you." I buried myself in the quilt, and growled almost hoarsely.

Sucked away all thoughts.

It's funny to say it.

Lin Xiao sneered: "Ah, so you know everything, and you're not as stupid as you imagined."

In fact, I have always known that it was only because that person was you that I chose to forget it.

He squeezed the quilt tightly and heard a few "pops".The finger bone that the doctor finally connected was broken by me again.

Severe pain was conveyed to my nerves.

Even too long and a little paralyzed.

I could feel my fingers under the gauze, getting swollen.

The pain made me break out in a cold sweat.

But the injury Lin Xiao brought to me was that all the blood flowed back to my heart, oppressing me until I couldn't breathe.Not only that, but the arteries and veins in the atrium are also blocked.

Although they are clamoring all the time, they want you to enjoy their ardor and squander their feelings by the way.

But you don't bother to ask for it.

If only time could be stopped.

I want to watch you lose sleep.

Loving you has become dependent.

I lowered my head and looked at the reddened fingers of the gauze.

"Lin Xiao."

This is the first time I have called Lin Xiao directly by his name.

"I'm the one who's the victim... Could it be that my efforts don't work, you always want to put me to death."

Close your eyes, don't want to look at Lin Xiao.

"I thought I could touch you one day. Even if you don't like me, it doesn't matter. I can live in such a relationship."

"But why did you do this to me with that woman..."

What happened, like a movie, clearly reappeared in front of my eyes.

A broken finger doesn't matter.

It's okay to threaten me.

Perhaps in the eyes of others, I earned it.

I am a man after all, and a woman who has sex with me is the one to blame anyway, even if I was forced to do it against my will.

Lin Xiao didn't feel any guilt, on the contrary, he enjoyed it a little bit.

"Because I hate you."

"When Ji Ya was alive, besides me, she was most worried about you. Even the day before she died, she never forgot to tell me to take good care of you."

Is it out of jealousy?

Lin Xiao will also be jealous?

Did he ever have such feelings?

"So, at the end of the season, you are really an eyesore."

……

No wonder Lin Xiao never smiled at me when I was pestering my sister.At the same time, at the beginning, Lin Xiao was dating her sister, and I was not happy that my sister was taken away.

Three people form a complex triangle.

It was me who abstracted away the relationship.

If I didn't have this kind of affection for my brother-in-law, if I didn't rely on my sister so much, the three of us would be the best relatives.

but i...

Thoughts that shouldn't have arisen.

I don't want others to take away the people I can rely on.

The contradiction split into countless voices, clamoring in my ears about the right and wrong actions.

This is of course my fault, convincing enough to make you hate me.

Lin Xiao saw that I was silent, he didn't see me venting my dissatisfaction in giving up on myself, and I couldn't meet his satisfied expression, so he was extremely disappointed.

"It would be great if Xiaomo's memory was stronger, so she wouldn't always be injured and forget the pain."

I only heard his words, followed by what seemed to be more than half a century of silence, I looked up numbly, there was no one in the ward except me.

I was so stupid that I didn't even notice when he was gone.

☆, 22

If you want to talk about why it must be Lin Xiao.

Probably lack of love to some extent.

Be in a starlight.

My mind went back to the age of 17, selectively remembering those good things.

At that time, because I was too shy, Qi Si was the only friend in my class.Don't dare to take the initiative to talk to others, always too slow and care about other people's feelings.I timidly hid in a place with few people, hoping that no one would see me.

For Lin Xiao.

Just thinking that this is the man who took my sister away.

Hostile towards him, and rarely gets emotional in defense of his sister.

How do you like Lin Xiao?

I remembered.

One night, when my sister was not at home, it happened that Lin Xiao came to look for her.He saw that I was doing my homework, so he sat beside me very naturally.

The strangeness broke into my own world, which made me shrink back involuntarily.

He just rubbed my hair, looked at the English question I did, smiled helplessly and said, "You did this question wrong."

This sentence really made me blush and want to find a place to bury myself.

"I'll teach you."

On the contrary, Lin Xiao had nothing to do with it, and carefully analyzed it for me sentence by sentence.His concentration made me look at him fascinated, and I could no longer concentrate on my studies.

"Understood?" He pointed to my wrong question,

I lowered my head, not daring to answer, fearing that what I said would make people laugh intermittently, so I had to say "huh".

Lin Xiao took out a stick of Heshi candy from his pocket, untied it, took out one and put it on my palm.

"Here, this is a reward."

When I opened this candy, I saw the words "The heart is omnipotent" written on the candy wrapper.

"Does Xiao Mo have any hobbies that he particularly likes?"

Still hanging his head, he said softly: "Probably painting..."

"Then, can I ask Xiao Mo to draw a picture for me?"

I raised my head and looked at Lin Xiao.

Lin Xiao's eyes were shining brightly, it didn't look like he was joking at all.

"Okay."

The courage suddenly came to me, and I took out my pencil and sketchbook in a decent manner, fiddled with it for a long time, and out of bad intentions, I drew a picture of four different images for Lin Xiao.

At that time, Lin Xiao made a very deep impression on me.

Even if it's not a suit and leather shoes, it smells like a book.He was just wearing a loose gray long sleeve, and sat on a chair in a gentle and gentle manner.The soft hair is parted to reveal the forehead, and the slightly curly tail is a little fluffy.

It looks clean and tidy, it's hard not to be tempted.

It's a world of difference from the unkind Lin Xiao now.

I didn't realize that I could be gay, and I would still dream of sheltering under the roof with girls on a rainy day.

It's just now that I feel like I'm gradually starting to fall in love with a man.And that man is about to become my brother-in-law.

Handing the four-faced painting to Lin Xiao, he showed a beautiful smile, and then held it carefully, for fear of being crushed.

"Is this the image I have in Xiao Mo's heart?"

"Well……"

Probably because of this move.

Let me have the urge to shelter and treasure.

Later, Lin Xiao would reward me with candies from time to time, which made me fall in love with eating sweets.

I don't hate Lin Xiao as much as I imagined.

"Guess what it tastes like this time?" Lin Xiao raised a fist unexpectedly.

I opened his fingers, grabbed the candy, and couldn't help but add: "Childish..."

The sugar melts in the mouth and is stirred with the tongue.

Very sweet.

"Greedy." Lin Xiao pinched my face dotingly, "Xiao Mo's face is really soft and easy to pinch, just looking at it makes people want to bully."

I touched the cheek touched by Lin Xiao, and it was slightly hot.There is no disgust or rejection of being intimate with him.

Then Lin Xiao married his sister.

In the beautiful hall, the elder sister wore an elegant wedding dress, and walked to the priest with Lin Xiao on her arm to swear oaths to each other.Their loving embrace was so dazzling that I couldn't take my eyes off it.

A sense of abandonment for no reason made me almost walk away immediately.

The two most important people in life are about to abandon the third.

Grief spreads from the beating heart on the left.

The loss that poured out brought a bit of heart-piercing pain.

I thought, maybe I fell in love with Lin Xiao.

Ever since Lin Xiao and his sister got married, he never rewarded me with candy like before.After a long time, I forgot what sweet taste is.

A person who is deeply lonely, even if it is a spark given by others, if it is magnified enough, it will gradually become the love he wants.

This is, like the illusion.

Illusions turned into obsessions.

Obsession degenerates into delusion.

When my sister got into a car accident, in fact, my memory of that period was blank, and I couldn't remember the specific situation.The only thing I can remember clearly is that when I was standing on the roof of the hospital, I once thought