I accepted this police [Qiangqiang]

To grow up is to break out of the shell and fight with yourself and the world. This is a very, very, very difficult thing. Unless you are talented or have a strong family background, ordinary people will never win the society, and in the end they will only be burdened by themselves. Seriously injured, slowly adapting to society while healing alone.

Cheng Xinyuan was in great pain, he was in pain for "Xiao Cheng" and also for "Xiao Cheng".When he liked Zhao Xunyue four years ago, he withdrew with kindness and good intentions. On the one hand, he saw the gap between himself and Zhao Xunyue's family, and Sun Xiaocheng's inferiority complex. open.On the other hand, he didn't want to "bend" Zhao Xunyue and let Zhao Xunyue's family experience this kind of human tragedy.

After Cheng Xinyuan returned to Linchen County, he felt that Zhao Xunyue had grown up and matured. He was somewhat relieved and also somewhat afraid.Zhao Xunyue used to be an excellent police student, but now he has become an excellent policeman. Cheng Xinyuan loves and cherishes his talents, of course he is gratified.So what is he afraid of?He was afraid that after four years of separation, he would fall in love with this child again.When Cheng Xinyuan noticed that Zhao Xunyue was approaching him, holding some kind of feelings about to burst out, Cheng Xinyuan was afraid that if the two of them really punctured the window paper, what awaited Zhao Xunyue would be a tragedy like Sun Xiaocheng.

The tragedy of Sun Xiaocheng is the tragedy of all homosexuals.Even if Cheng Xinyuan's own family didn't get to that point, there are still countless people who are suppressed, concealed, and unable to live freely.The source of Cheng Xinyuan's pain is that he, Sun Xiaocheng, and other homosexuals, no one is better off than the other.

Cheng Xinyuan was silent for a long time, and Zhao Xun became more and more unbearable with depression: "What do you mean by what you said, huh? If you don't say it, I won't let you go."

"What did I say?..."

Cheng Xinyuan thought, what am I talking about?Said I went to see Sun Xiaocheng, said I was bored, said I like men; the more Zhao Xun thought about it, said where did you go, why were you so depressed, did you like men too.

The night is getting deeper and the sky is getting darker. It seems that if it goes on, the sky will be bright.But at dawn, will they have results?Cheng Xinyuan bypassed Zhao Xunyue and walked towards his dormitory: "...I'm tired, I want to sleep."

After Cheng Xinyuan returned to Linchen County, Zhao Xunyue always felt that they were infinitely close, but Cheng Xinyuan suddenly moved infinitely far away.

"No, you have to say it!" Zhao Xunyue followed to the door of his dormitory, Cheng Xinyuan took out the key to open the door, Zhao Xunyue still held the washbasin in his hand, and pestered Cheng Xinyuan.

Zhao Xunyue didn't see Cheng Xinyuan for a whole day, his pretentiousness and inner emptiness filled the day, and only at night could he mess around like a child.His nonsense and entanglement are all because of his impatience. He likes Cheng Xinyuan to the point of impatience. The kind of closeness but conscientiousness that he can't get what he wants is really maddening.

Zhao Xunyue blocked the door, Cheng Xinyuan said helplessly, "You want to hear that so much?"

"I want to hear it, I want to hear it."

Cheng Xinyuan said perfunctorily: "Okay, let me tell you. I went to see Sun Xiaocheng. What happened to their family made me very sad. Is it okay?...I want to rest."

"Why...why...why are you sad."

Zhao Xunyue seemed to be nervous, and he had to repeat the sentence "why" three times.He looked at Cheng Xinyuan very seriously, with his unique, stubborn, and tough eyes.

Why do you always look at me like this?Cheng Xinyuan looked back at Zhao Xun and thought more and more.Zhao Xunyue's eyes had a kind of excitement, roughness and strength, as if the next second Zhao Xunyue couldn't hold himself back, and wanted to swallow his day and night thoughts.

Cheng Xinyuan was thinking, am I your dream?You see, Sun Xiaocheng's family is in such a miserable state, are you still eager to try?Can you bear the result of two men being together?

Cheng Xinyuan was sad and tired, he still had the last bit of reason, and reason told him not to entangle, let go of Zhao Xunyue as soon as possible.He stretched out his hand to push the man and said, "Get up and drive away."

Of course Zhao Xunyue didn't leave, he was losing his mind.Why did Cheng Xinyuan feel sad for Sun Xiaocheng's family? What does a gay graduate in a small county have to do with a policeman who has worked in the police force for ten years?Zhao Xunyue was surprised to discover some kind of hidden possibility, so that he was embarrassed and overjoyed, completely ignoring Cheng Xinyuan's fatigue and injury, and said persistently:

"When I was an intern in the team, and after you returned to the border squadron, you always avoided me intentionally or unintentionally, or kept a careful distance from me. Why?"

Zhao Xunyue's words can be said to be forcing Cheng Xinyuan, forcing him to express, forcing him to admit.Zhao Xunyue's hand holding the washbasin clenched tightly, as if he heard the answer the next second, no matter whether it was satisfactory or not, the pressure in his heart was too great, and he wanted to throw the washbasin on the ground to vent.

Cheng Xinyuan's eyes were a little turbulent, and the answer was ready to come out.Cheng Xinyuan was still sane a second ago, but the remaining calm in this second is gone.He felt angry, why did Zhao Xunyue obstinately force him and push the two of them into the "abyss" together?Couldn't Zhao Xunyue see Cheng Xinyuan's kindness, worry and distress?Is Zhao Xunyue reconciled to this brat who insists on facing the end of no turning back, like Sun Xiaocheng making the whole family fight to the death?

Cheng Xinyuan's good intentions fed the dog, he thought Zhao Xunyue, good job, don't you want an answer, then you just prick up your ears and let me hear it.

Cheng Xinyuan stared at Zhao Xunyue with a decisive look that sees through everything, and said, "Because, I am also gay."

In the next second, Zhao Xunyue's washbasin fell to the ground, and all the shampoo, soap, towels and other things in the basin fell out, and fell to the ground with a clang.

Zhao Xunyue's hands were trembling, he finally received the answer, the paranoia and long-standing confusion in his heart, like thick fog welcoming the sun, the fog dissipated and smoke disappeared.Just as Zhao Xunyue was about to speak, someone behind him suddenly called: "Is that Xunyue? Do you want to take a bath?"

"what?"

Zhao Xunyue turned around abruptly, Cheng Xinyuan quickly opened the door and entered the room, and when Zhao Xunyue reacted, Cheng Xinyuan slammed the door hard.

"Hey--!"

Zhao Xunyue wanted to knock on the door, but a policeman approached behind him and said, "It's really Xunyue, hurry up and wash, the water doesn't seem to be hot today. Why did you drop all your things?"

Zhao Xunyue saw clearly that it was the police officer who was going to be his partner tomorrow, so he quickly knelt down to pick up something: "It's all right, I'll go."

"Yeah, rest early, see you tomorrow."

"it is good."

After Zhao Xunyue picked up the things in the washbasin, he watched the policeman walk away.The windows of Cheng Xinyuan were not lit. Zhao Xunyue approached the door, but he couldn't hear the slightest sound in the room. Zhao Xunyue gritted his teeth and thought that today should be forgotten.

He carried the washbasin to the public bathroom. Although it was a quiet night, his heart was very open.He is about to win, his love is about to come, he wants to confess, and when he meets Cheng Xinyuan tomorrow, he will confess.

Tonight belongs to Zhao Xunyue's night, and tomorrow night will also belong to him. From now on, all the nights in Linchen County, Border Squadron, and with Cheng Xinyuan will be his hot nights.Zhao Xunyue is about to taste the feeling of being happy like a fairy.

Early the next morning, Zhao Xunyue went on patrol with his partner.He left early, of course there was no movement in Cheng Xinyuan's house, Zhao Xunyue was not in a hurry, thinking about going to Cheng Xinyuan when he came back at noon.But when he returned to the police force at noon, Cheng Xinyuan was not there again.The more Zhao Xun thought that the person might have gone to see Sun Xiaocheng again, Zhao Xunyue sent him a WeChat message, but the other party still didn't reply, Zhao Xunyue comforted himself not to be in a hurry, not in a hurry.

After Zhao Xunyue finished his duties in the afternoon, Cheng Xinyuan still hadn't returned to the police force, when the sky started to rain.Si Qianye informed the police officers on duty today that they would still be on duty after dinner to prevent sudden heavy rain and be on duty temporarily.Zhao Xunyue and his partner were eating in the cafeteria, Zhao Xunyue's phone rang, and the caller on the phone screen turned out to be "Zhao Chang'an".Zhao Xunyue was surprised, Zhao Chang'an would not take the initiative to call him if there was no serious matter, he said to his partner, "I'll answer the call."

"okay."

It was raining outside, so Zhao Xunyue simply went to the dormitory to answer the phone.Before Wei Chenping came back from duty, Zhao Xunyue was alone in the room. He opened the phone screen and asked, "Hey, what's the matter?"

Zhao Xunyue is not clingy, and Zhao Chang'an lacks too much in his growth path, Zhao Xunyue only regards him as a father, and has no heart-to-heart and intimacy with his father.When the two were at home, he seldom called "Dad", and when chatting with Zhao Chang'an, he was only fulfilling his duties as a "son".Zhao Chang'an was busy with his career, and the two rarely met each other. The unexpected phone call gave Zhao Xunyue a bad feeling.

Sure enough, Zhao Chang'an asked on the phone: "You didn't go to the blind date arranged for you?"