I accepted this police [Qiangqiang]

Wei Chenping pulled Ma Quanquan out of the cafeteria, while Zhao Xunyue idly picked up cold dishes with chopsticks while looking at Cheng Xinyuan's table.Zhao Xunyue had saved it before, a photo of him and Si Qianye was posted in Cheng Xinyuan's circle of friends.Zhao Xunyue was very anxious. He couldn't see Cheng Xinyuan, Si Qianye, and Cao Chong having fun, but he couldn't help but look at it. Every time he looked at it, he was upset, and every time he was upset, he would look at it again. It seemed that he was using this method to aggravate the pain. feel.

Finally, when he saw Cheng Xinyuan put a hand on the back of Si Qianye's chair sleepily, from Zhao Xunyue's point of view, that person seemed to be hugging Si Qianye, Zhao Xunyue finally endured. Unable to stop, he knocked the chopsticks on the table with a bang.

This voice caught the attention of Cheng Xinyuan's table.Zhao Xunyue stood up, lowered his head, and left the cafeteria angrily.The others didn't care about him at all, only Cheng Xinyuan thought of saying Zhao Xunyue "you are sick" at noon, felt sorry, stood up and said to Si Qianye, "I'm going to the bathroom."

He followed Zhao Xunyue out of the cafeteria, and saw that the man didn't go back to the dormitory, but walked towards the gate of the police force.

"Hey, why are you going?"

Zhao Xunyue didn't expect Cheng Xinyuan to follow him, so he stopped, feeling even more angry in his heart, as if he had to show his resentment, and said unhappily, "Go buy cigarettes!"

Cheng Xinyuan remembered that he smoked only when he was upset, and asked with concern: "What's the matter, what happened?"

"It's nothing, I just want to smoke."

Cheng Xinyuan, a veteran cadre, was possessed and taught, "Smoking is harmful to your health. If you have nothing to do, smoke less. Look at us old people, who smokes. Do I smoke? Do you smoke? ... Even Cao Chong doesn't smoke."

Zhao Xunyue heard the names of those two people, and blurted out: "If you don't smoke, can I not smoke?"

Zhao Xunyue didn't have any opinion on Si Qianye and Cao Chong himself, and even respected them very much, but as long as the two of them got together with Cheng Xinyuan, he would be particularly upset.Cheng Xinyuan heard the dissatisfaction in his tone, frowned and said: "Tsk, I'm trying to persuade you, what kind of tone are you talking about?"

Zhao Xunyue realized that his tone was too strong. He clearly longed for Cheng Xinyuan's concern, but when he saw the other party's concern, his mentality became unbalanced and he couldn't control his emotions.Where there is no strong liking, there will be no strong jealousy, Zhao Xunyue said forcefully, as if deliberately making Cheng Xinyuan angry, "I just want to smoke."

Cheng Xinyuan's brows became heavier, thinking that this kid took gunpowder today, so angry.If it was the former "Captain Cheng", he would definitely be on the fence with Zhao Xunyue, and he would directly yell at him, "I won't let you smoke today", "You dare to step out of the gate of the compound", "You dare to smoke me I dare to beat you!"; and Zhao Xunyue looked at Cheng Xinyuan with his neck straightened, like a silent protest, as if he was saying "I will smoke", "I will dare", "you beat me".

But the Cheng Xinyuan four years later is not the Cheng Xinyuan four years ago, what fades away with the heartbeat, and there is still a persistent attitude.If you are not attached, you don't have to get angry.

"All right, all right, no firewood, no oil, no salt, go, go..."

Cheng Xinyuan waved his hand, not bothering him.Wouldn't it be nice to continue drinking and chatting with Si Qianye and Cao Chong? Why bother with this kid?But when he turned around and was about to leave, he heard Zhao Xunyue shout:

"Cheng Xinyuan!"

Tsk, it's really not big or small!It was okay not to be called "captain" before, but now even "deputy captain" refuses to be called.You can die if you call me by a title, why do you have to call me by my full name? !

Cheng Xinyuan yelled at him irritably: "What's wrong with you?"

"If I were the captain of the division, or Brother Chong, and they went to buy cigarettes in a bad mood, would you ignore them and let them go?"

Cheng Xinyuan stopped suddenly.He understood that Zhao Xunyue was in a bad mood, maybe it was because he left them alone today, or maybe he accidentally cursed "You are sick", never expected that Si Qianye and Cao Chong would be involved.When Zhao Xunyue mentioned those two names, Cheng Xinyuan suddenly thought, this kid is not jealous, is he?

Cheng Xinyuan's relationship with Si Qianye and Cao Chong is not comparable to that of Zhao Xunyue.The three of them had actually been together in the Frontier Squadron for many years, at the age when each other was at its most vigorous and flamboyant.When Cheng Xinyuan got along with those two people, he was the most relaxed and equal. When Zhao Xunyue joined the team, Cheng Xinyuan was already the captain and very mature.

The "mature" Cheng Xinyuan has a set of patterns and coping methods for actions and handling, and even puts on airs when facing newcomers.In front of Zhao Xunyue, he had the attitude of some seniors and superiors, which doomed the distance between them.Cheng Xinyuan once wanted to break through this distance and get closer to Zhao Xunyue, but the gap, worries and fate did not bring them closer.Just like two parallel lines, no matter how short the distance is, they will never meet.

Does Zhao Xunyue understand this truth?It was obvious he didn't understand.He looked at Cheng Xinyuan stubbornly, and thought to himself, you won't let Captain Si and Brother Chong go to buy cigarettes easily, you will ask them clearly what happened, and you will find ways to enlighten them, comfort them, and stay by their side.You can't deal with them, alienate them, dislike them, you like being with them, so why do you...

Zhao Xunyue couldn't hold back, and asked directly: "Then why can't you take care of me?"

Take care of me, come and see me.Why do I always dream about you in my dreams, why do I have strange emotions towards you, can you tell me?

Zhao Xunyue felt that he was like an outsider in front of those three people, and he wished so much to be Cheng Xinyuan's "one of his own".Every movement and every word of Cheng Xinyuan and those two people pierced him like an invisible thorn. Zhao Xunyue was restless and hostile to everyone.

But Cheng Xinyuan asked back: "...Why should I care about you?"

Cheng Xinyuan once wanted to control Zhao Xunyue.Four years ago, when Zhao Xunyue was smoking with his friends in that bar in Zuocheng District, Cheng Xinyuan didn't want him to smoke.Cheng Xinyuan wanted to control Zhao Xunyue, to be close to him, to educate him, to train him, to enlighten him, and even to love him.It was the purest yearning, love and longing for a young police cadet from a man who was about to turn thirty.

If you knew how much I struggled to let you go, then you wouldn't be so angry at me, and you might still feel sorry for me.

"...Go and buy cigarettes. If you smoke, maybe you can calm down."

Cheng Xinyuan left after saying this.Even though Zhao Xunyue has grown up compared to four years ago, knows how to take care of others, and is more prudent in doing things, Cheng Xinyuan still feels that there is a kind of irritability in him. I don't know if this irritability is a temper that Zhao Xunyue has not changed, or it is only for Cheng Xinyuan. Some anxious.

Zhao Xunyue, who was thrown on the spot, stared at Cheng Xinyuan's back, and said in a subtle voice: "I don't want to smoke anymore, I want to..."

He wants to smoke himself.Zhao Xunyue's heart was so swollen that he wanted to crush it with his own hands, but he held the broken heart in front of Cheng Xinyuan for him to see, he was afraid that it would hurt him.Zhao Xunyue is in too much pain, his frizz is like a teenager who is still in adolescence, he feels that he is rough and reckless, sad and ridiculous.

He stood there silently for a while, and finally went out of the gate of the police force to buy cigarettes at the commissary.He didn't really want to smoke, but felt that the nonsense just now and buying a pack of cigarettes would be considered as the end of this self-sorrowful, self-happy, helpless and painful scene.He returned to the dormitory with the cigarette and lighter. He didn't smoke at all, but put it on the table and collapsed on the bed.Wei Chenping, who was sitting on the bed reading a book, saw the cigarette case and asked:

"Have you gone to buy cigarettes?"

"...Mmm." Zhao Xunyue lay on the bed with his eyes closed.

"No smoking?" Wei Chenping asked again.

Zhao Xunyue said absently, "I don't want to smoke anymore."

Wei Chenping closed the book, thought for a moment, walked to the table, stared at the cigarette case and said, "Then, can I have one?"

"Huh?" Zhao Xunyue was a little surprised, and opened his eyes to look at him, "It's ok... But, I don't think you usually smoke much."

"It's a little annoying, so I'll take it."

"okay."

Wei Chenping took out a cigarette from the cigarette case, and Zhao Xunyue asked curiously, "What bothers you?"

Wei Chenping picked up the lighter and walked towards the door of the dormitory, opened the door, and said abruptly, "... Let's go to the world."

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Thank you Wurun Jiamu for giving me the nutrient solution~