Hiding Deep: Overwhelming Gao Fushuai

.You haven't been with me for half a year.Didn't you say you would always be by my side?But, why, I feel that I am so lonely. "

Lu Chen was silent on the other end of the phone for a long time, his voice was like a feather passing through Shen Hao's heart: "I'm sorry, I didn't take good care of you."

Shen Hao thought that during the busiest period of time, Lu Chen didn't even have time to eat, and he was so exhausted when he returned home every day, that he fell asleep on the bed a few times without changing his clothes.Maybe Yuan Ye was right, Lu Chen was working so hard, but he couldn't understand, and even held him back, what was not important to him, might be very important to Lu Chen.He has clearly realized this point, and knows that they are indeed different people, but he is still reluctant and unable to let him go back to his way.Moreover, why didn't he think that Lu Chen wasn't made by iron, could it be that he was willing to work so hard and so hard?Lu Chen had suffered a lot in the first place, so it was fine if he couldn't do anything for him, and he had to worry about it, perhaps, it was also his fault.

Shen Hao shook his head and said: "I made trouble for no reason." After thinking for a while, Shen Hao felt that he couldn't talk anymore on the phone, and continued: "Go back early, I will wait for you."

Lu Chen hesitated for a moment, then responded inaudibly.

Shen Hao plucked up his courage, and finally said: "Lu Chen, I miss you very much."

Shen Hao didn't dare to wait for Lu Chen's response, so he quickly cut off the phone, retracted into the quilt again, and took a long breath while holding the phone.

Shen Hao felt that it was God's will to make people say that, for a young man like him who has no ambitions, he should also find someone who relies on his family background and doesn't have to work hard, but also loves freedom. He is chic and happy with him, and the two can have their own Things to do, but most of the time they are energetic and active, and they don't have to run around for livelihood, study, work, or even quarrel.

And Lu Chen should find someone who can fight with him, support him, understand him, preferably as capable as him, they can advance and retreat together, make a difference, and get what they want.

But it would be great if things were really that simple, no one would have to torture anyone, but knowing that the difference is so big, he still couldn't like anyone other than Lu Chen, and couldn't accept that Lu Chen liked anyone else.

In the third year of junior high school, Shen Hao and his group flew back to City B. After returning, they would also visit relatives and friends for tea parties, but they were mostly with his father and visiting elders, which was very boring.Shen Hao hasn't called Lu Chen since that day, nor has he received a call from Lu Chen, but he feels much better because he knows that Lu Chen will come back eventually.

After finally reaching the eighth day of the lunar new year, Shen Hao was absent-minded all day long. When he was eating, he removed the shrimp and put the shells in his father's bowl. His father was so angry that he almost threw the chopsticks over impulsively.

Shen Hao's father is about to start work. As soon as Shen Zhongtian went out, Shen Hao quickly dialed Lu Chen's number, pretending to be calm and said: "Lu Chen, are you back? Shall I pick you up?"

There was no emotion in Lu Chen's voice, he just said, "I'm on my way, I'm going back to school soon."

Shen Hao frowned and said: "The eighth day of the school hasn't started yet, maybe the heating isn't turned on, and hot water shouldn't be provided, right? Why...don't you go home?"

"Home?" Lu Chen hesitated for a while, as if reflecting, he sighed and said, "Forget it."

Shen Hao froze for a moment, he didn't understand what "forget it" meant, even though it was only a house he rented temporarily, it was still the "home" of the two of them after all, this is Lu Chen, Don't plan to go back?

Shen Hao was a little anxious, and couldn't explain it, so he hammered the sofa and said quickly: "Lu Chen, I'll go back to school to find you, just wait!"

Shen Hao put on a coat and drove to the school, and parked the car downstairs in the dormitory. During the winter vacation, he had to register his name with the dormitory manager when he returned to school. When Shen Hao saw that the last column read "Lu Chen", the handwriting was elegant and sassy, Quite a celebrity style, Shen Hao bit the bullet and wrote his name, dormitory number, and school return time under Lu Chen in his own Gou Crawling characters, only feeling the malice in the world.

052. Just this once

Shen Hao climbed up the stairs in one breath, he pushed open the door and rushed in with a shake of his hand under the impulsive mind, almost losing his balance.Shen Hao was out of breath and straightened up, just as Lu Chen turned his head, his eyes met, Shen Hao felt his heart pounding, mixed feelings, he didn't even know where to put his hands.

Lu Chen was making the bed. He was wearing a brown turtleneck sweater. His skin was fair and his eyes were dark. Lu Chen seemed to be a little thinner. His hair was cut short on his forehead, revealing overly delicate eyebrows and eyes. When Lu Chen was not smiling, , the eyes are like lancets with a cold light, narrow and bright, but a little frightening.

Seeing Shen Hao standing there blankly, Lu Chen put down the things in his hands, and stood face to face with Shen Hao, without speaking.

Lu Chen had never been so silent and serious before, he was almost expressionless, Shen Hao felt sorry for him, he took two steps back and closed the door, then walked back to Lu Chen's side, and said bravely, "Lu Chen, don't Pack it up, come back with me..."

Lu Chen shook his head lightly, his tone could be considered mild, but what he said made Shen Hao dumbfounded.

"I've already moved back, so I'll just live here. I've lived here for so long, so I'm used to it."

Shen Hao wanted to cry without tears, Lu Chen did this on purpose, Shen Hao pulled Lu Chen's hand resignedly, Lu Chen's hand was also very beautiful, although the palm was a little callused, but the fingers were slender and the knuckles were smooth , there was a faint scar on the tiger's mouth, which was left when he blocked the knife for Shen Hao.Shen Hao touched Lu Chen's cold hand, compromised: "Lu Chen, there is no heating here, it will get cold, you and I can go back."

Lu Chen withdrew his hand, and started changing the sheets again, saying while he was busy: "Shen Hao, you should think about it again, I really can't do it like this."

Shen Hao stood awkwardly at the same spot, looking at Lu Chen's detached figure, feeling infinitely wronged in his heart, it is true that he proposed to break up, but will he have a better day?He begged again and again, how could Lu Chen, who was so gentle and talkative before, be so cold?

Shen Hao thought about how he was so muddled and exhausted physically and mentally during that time, and it was not only his fault that he had come to this day, he had never been so wronged and uncomfortable in his life.

Standing where he was, Shen Hao felt sad, and tears fell uncontrollably.

Lu Chen stopped what he was doing, looked at Shen Hao wiping his tears with his head down, walked over, hesitantly held Shen Hao's face.

Shen Hao saw Lu Chen smile bitterly, the smile was infinitely exhausted, Shen Hao felt uncomfortable, and grabbed the hem of Lu Chen's clothes.

Lu Chen wiped away the tears on Shen Hao's face with his sleeve, Lu Chen retreated back to the bed and sat down, laughed at himself, stared at the ground and said: "Why are you crying, you just know it, once you cry I will My heart softened."

Shen Hao walked over and sat next to Lu Chen, stretched out his arms and hugged Lu Chen tightly, knocked his forehead on Lu Chen's shoulder, and said weakly: "Could you go back with me, I made a mistake this time, and I will never do it again." Will."

"When you came home during that time, you smelled of cigarettes, wine, perfume, and even stayed away all night. I thought you would figure it out after a while, but what I waited for was your giving up. You said you were tired, But am I invulnerable? I also began to wonder, maybe I can’t give you what you want, so it’s better not to delay you? "

Shen Hao strangled Lu Chen severely, shook his head and said, "I don't want anything, it's enough for you to come back."

Lu Chen reached out and rubbed Shen Hao's hair, then turned around and looked at Shen Hao: "Since we met, whatever you do, scold me, beat me, get angry with me, I can forgive you, whatever you do for you, I will forgive you." I am also willing. I am reluctant to say a serious word to you. You like to see me smile, so no matter what my mood is, I try my best to smile in front of you. But Shen Hao, I can’t stand it. You say break up, you say Giving up is just a few words to you, but to me, it's like killing me once."

Lu Chen's voice sounded like a sigh: "When I moved out from there, I was panicked like a bereaved dog. I loved someone so much that it made me so unbearable. I have never hated this world so much like that moment."

Shen Hao's body trembled a little, he knew that Lu Chen always had a natural sense of inferiority and self-defense, he was actually the most insecure.

Shen Hao grabbed Lu Chen's clothes, shook his head desperately and said: "Lu Chen, no more, never again, trust me, I will not let you down."

There was a flash of light in Lu Chen's eyes, he stretched out his arms to hug Shen Hao and said, "I still can't bear it. Shen Hao, just this one time, I don't want to be played with by others, I need an equal response between applause. If you You will regret it if you leave me again."

Shen Hao relaxed his body as if relieved from a heavy burden, and said with a wry smile: "Just this one time is enough for me to regret it, isn't this a crime?"

Finally, at the beginning of school, Shen Hao persuaded him to come back again. If he had known why he would have done it today, Shen Hao still has lingering fears.He and Lu Chen moved back to the house in Shuiquanwan again. Shen Hao and Lu Chen said that his father had basically decided to take him to the United States, and Lu Chen had also basically decided to go to Princeton. All her savings were given to her mother, but she was still not at ease about leaving her alone in China in the future, but from what Lu Chen said, his mother was very supportive of him going abroad for further studies.

The matter of Lu Chen's going abroad has basically been settled, and he no longer seems so entangled and hesitant. Lu Chen finished writing his graduation thesis and graduation design early, and gradually handed over the work of the student union. There are only three months left to prepare for graduation birth party