I heard that the male god missed his life [network distribution]

There was no talking all the way. When we arrived at the hospital, Jiang Liansheng went straight to the infusion room. The little nurse brought Dr. Zheng. Dr. Zheng wiped him with iodine, raised his head and asked him: "Do you feel better today? You can leave work earlier."

Jiang Liansheng lowered her eyebrows and turned a blind eye to the glances that Dr. Zheng handed over. Her voice was not as cold as usual, but rather hoarse: "I have to go back to school today. I have something to do in class."

Dr. Zheng adjusted the dropper to an appropriate speed, and raised his eyebrows: "I didn't expect you to be an engineer of the human soul."

Jiang Liansheng chuckled: "You are a beast in clothes, you have to pretend."

Dr. Zheng saw that he was not in a good mood today, so he didn't say much, and just told him to call the nurse after the infusion.

Miao Yi sat down beside him, and the two of them remained silent.After a while, Jiang Liansheng couldn't help it anymore, "Didn't you come to say goodbye, come on, say goodbye and go home."

Miao Yi couldn't help but smile wryly: "You really don't want to see me that much?"

Probably this question was a bit heavy, Jiang Liansheng put away his smile, thought for a while, put away the thought of stabbing him, and said seriously: "No."

Miao Yi said, "Then why do you always want me to leave?"

Jiang Liansheng closed her eyes, raised her forehead and said, "Because it's meaningless for you to spend time with me. I don't want to waste your time, and I don't want to waste my time. There is no possibility for the two of us. From the time I met you to now we I don’t know how many times I’ve said it, I really don’t want to say it anymore. Go find someone else, you have such good conditions, you can definitely find someone better than me.”

Even Jiang Liansheng himself didn't believe these words, he hated others to give him a good person card, but now in order to reject Miao Yi, he even gave Miao Yi a good person card.The old saying, do not do to others what you do not want to be done to others, has been fed to the dogs.

Miao Yi has also issued good person cards to people before. Maybe this is a tactful way of refusing, but for the person who has been issued a card, it is much more cruel than directly refusing.Most of the time, people will inadvertently use their own will and ideas to speculate on others without knowing it.Miao Yi thought, it turned out that the good person cards issued before were all waiting here, and the power was doubled as expected.He couldn't help but smiled wryly: "But I don't want to find anyone else. From the first moment I saw you, I recognized you."

If Jiang Lian heard this when he was born, he would probably still be moved by it.But he is no longer the boy who just fell in love, he is already 28, if nothing else happens, his life has gone through a third of the time.Although he still looks extremely young and handsome, few people know that his heart is as dry as a stick of ashes. He has been dying inch by inch since the night Li Yan left four years ago, and he has long been unable to revive.

Li Yan is undoubtedly the cruelest person in the world, he pampers him lawlessly, his temper is so bad that only he can bear it.At the beginning, he said triumphantly that this way no one would rob him.In the countless nights after he left, Jiang Liansheng burst into tears and gritted his teeth in the dark, wishing he could pick up Li Yan's corpse and whip him.He left just like that, irresponsible at all, leaving him alone to face the hustle and bustle of the world, and he could no longer tolerate anyone in his eyes.

Jiang Liansheng suspected countless times whether Li Yan was his enemy in his previous life.Came to him intentionally, cared for him in every possible way, gave him tender and considerate love, pampered him like a person who didn't know the sufferings of the world, innocent and willful like a child.When he also loves him so much that he can't wait to stick to him for the rest of his life, then he leaves him unexpectedly, and uses such a tragic and decisive way.

He couldn't figure it out all the time, how could someone who used to be reluctant to let him lose at chess be willing to leave him alone in this world?

Miao Yi's words made Jiang Liansheng a little dazed. This sentence was inexplicably familiar. Li Yan had told him countless times in his ear, with the sweet taste he liked, but now it sounds bitter.

Jiang Lian was born with a smiling face, even if he didn't smile, it would give people the illusion that he was actually smiling.For a long time, he has relied on his appearance to confuse others, and he has hardly been frustrated.

Jiang Liansheng: "That's why I said you have no vision. Someone told me that before, but he left me not long after. If you say that now, even if you are sincere, I will think it is fake. You just Just slept with me, how much do you think you know about me? I admit that my mother gave me a good look, but it's all a lie, Sao Nian, you don't understand me. I have a bad temper Now, what is in front of you is just the tip of the iceberg. If you are really with me, you will suffer. Have you ever liked someone before? I don’t believe that your ideal type is like me. You have to try Get in touch with other people," said Jiang Liansheng almost earnestly afterwards: "What's the matter with hanging around me all the time, forget about that night, okay, I don't care about it, what else do you care about?"

Miao Yi couldn't speak for a long time, and said after a while, "It's my first time."

Jiang Liansheng talked a lot, she was thirsty, she drank from a glass beside her, almost spit all over the floor. "No, isn't it, the first time?"

Miao Yi said seriously: "It's the first time, I..."

"Wait," Jiang Liansheng interrupted him: "The first time you were so persistent? The first time you were so skilled? Don't tell me there is talent in this thing, I won't believe it!" Are you kidding me? , he actually slept with a baby?Oh my god, this kid won't use this to threaten him and make him responsible?His eyeballs were rolling, and he was thinking about it, thinking, what's the matter!It was a rare time for him to get drunk, and it was a rare time for him to indulge after drinking, but he didn't expect to cause himself trouble in sleeping!Thinking of this, he couldn't help but feel sad. Could it be that he will live with his right hand for the rest of his life? What's the difference between this and a salted fish!He doesn't want to talk about feelings with people, he just wants to talk about one-night stands.

Miao Yi said helplessly: "What I wanted that night was not to hurt you, so I moved very gently and restrained."

Jiang Liansheng was even more speechless when he heard the words, and after a while, he said coldly: "You call it restraint? I almost couldn't get out of bed for a week!"

Miao Yi: "I'm sorry, I was really restrained, but I like you so much, I couldn't restrain myself later."

Jiang Liansheng waved him to stop, a little speechless, didn't he come to say goodbye, why don't you come to this topic?Stop it, can't go on any longer, or let him be responsible next.He didn't answer Miao Yi's words, and continued after a long time: "Thank you for your liking, I really can't accept it."

Miao Yi hesitated to speak, but Jiang Liansheng interrupted him, "Don't talk yet, wait until I finish. I know you probably won't give up if I don't make it clear to you today."

Jiang Liansheng took off the watch that had been on his wrist all the time, revealing a circle of pink marks. He rarely let people see this mark. If it wasn't for Miao Yi, he probably wouldn't have remembered it for a long time.

Miao Yi froze for a moment, "This is..."

Jiang Liansheng rubbed the marks on his wrist, and said lightly: "When I was 25 years old, um, that is your age, I had a very serious illness. At that time, I even thought I was going to die. Yes. For a long time, I couldn’t distinguish between day and night, and I couldn’t distinguish between nightmares and reality. I was like being trapped in a nightmare, and I couldn’t get out of it anyway. I live in nightmares every day, see It was all darkness, and I kept thinking about a question during that time, why should I live, since it is so painful, why should I linger in this world? One day I finally figured it out, and it suddenly dawned on me. I took a fruit knife and scratched it on my hand. The blood spurted out all of a sudden, like a fountain. You have seen American TV series, it is exactly the same as in American TV series. It is very strange that I see Seeing so much blood gushing out, I was so happy and didn’t feel any pain. I sat in the bathroom and just watched it go on and on, and it didn’t stop for a long, long time. I thought it was weird at the time , There is so much blood in my body, how long will it take for it to flow out?"

When Miao Yi saw the scar, he could probably guess what he had experienced in his heart. He was so shocked that he couldn't speak, and it took him a long time to find his voice, "Why?"

Jiang Liansheng thought for a while and said, "Because I want to find someone and ask him why he left me."

Miao Yi's voice was so harsh that even he himself felt unable to listen: "Is it your daughter's... mother?"

It seemed that this word pleased Jiang Liansheng, he couldn't help laughing: "Yeah, although he never admits it, he always loves to compete with me for the position of father."

"But he couldn't compete with me before he was alive. After all, I was so domineering. He was good at everything, let me do everything, did everything for me, and even gave me his life. But he is such a good person, But he walked in front of me. I was really unwilling, so I wanted to go to him to argue. The result was unsuccessful, and my daughter found out. My daughter went to my mother, and then my action failed. Hey , As expected, the daughter is the mother's little padded jacket. After raising it for so long, I don't even know that it is biased towards me, so I have to beat it when I go back."

"Look, I'm such a widower who takes care of his children. Do you still want to?"

Jiang Liansheng took a deep breath after finishing this long paragraph. Now he should know the difficulty and retreat, and it is estimated that he will not pester him in the future.

Unexpectedly, Miao Yi took a fixed look at him, and said with prudence: "Yes."

Jiang Liansheng: "..."

Jiang Liansheng rolled her eyes, well, that's for nothing.