I heard that the male god missed his life [network distribution]

In Kou Ran's memory, this is the second time Song Jinnian called him that.The first time was after the last time I was drunk, and the second time is now.His name was followed by a question, a question so shocking that he couldn't speak, he forgot to answer it.

He was afraid that when he opened his mouth, the butterflies in his heart would fly out.

Song Jinnian didn't realize what happened until after he said this sentence, he was also tormented by allergies and was dizzy, why did he even say such a thing?

In the past five years, he has imagined the scene where he confessed to Kou Ran countless times.Probably everyone who has a crush will be like this. Every night, he tosses and turns, thinking about convincing himself, trying to gather enough courage for himself to express his heart to his beloved one on a sunny day.However, on the second day, the courage that was so hard to accumulate last night will be wiped out with the rising sun. I always think about waiting, waiting, the time is not yet ripe, what if he refuses, what if he refuses? What if he hates me because of this, what if he can never be friends again?

Because I care too much, I look forward and backward, worrying about gains and losses.However, who ever thought that there is actually no difference between not getting and losing.

Waiting like this, the best time has not yet come, and the worst despair has already come.When Song Jinnian came to this city, came to Kou Ran, and learned that he already had a fiancée, he knew that his indecision and indecision had already made him lose him.

Unexpectedly, the world is unpredictable, and the heart is already ashamed, but I don't want to have a little hope again.

Maybe the brain has long been fed up with his looking forward and backward, so it spontaneously made a decision for him.As soon as the words came out, not only Kou Ran was stunned, Song Jinnian was also stunned speechless.

Although he was always blushing when facing Kou Ran, his ears were red and his heart was beating faster, but for some reason today, he reacted very quickly. Before Kou Ran could speak, he spontaneously continued to speak, because he was worried that he would not speak again. There will be no more chances in the future.

"Don't answer me first, wait until I finish. I have actually liked you for a long, long time, so long that I can't even tell whether I like you or not. From the first time I saw you, I didn't realize it I was attracted by you, I thought it was because I was too young and had no father, so I wanted to find a sustenance. But after so many years, I have been able to tell the difference."

"When I knew that you had a fiancée, I didn't know what to do. I kept thinking, I have to wait until I grow up and be independent before telling you my heart, otherwise you will think that I Childish. But when I really grow up, become independent, and can stand in front of you and say such things to you, it will be too late. You don’t even know how jealous I am every time I see you together , but what can I do, I can't do anything except pretending not to care and greet you."

"On 520, when I inadvertently found out that you broke up with your fiancée, you didn't know how happy I was. I admit that I was a bit despicable. I have never shown such dark thoughts in front of others, but for this I don't know why I think that. I've been thinking since that day, now that you're alone, do I have a chance?"

"I've been thinking about how to tell you about this, but I didn't expect to be in a situation like this evening. I'm probably really confused. I don't care that you have a hidden disease, I really don't care at all, I even thought about talking to you about Plato love for the rest of my life." When it came to this question, Song Jinnian couldn't help but blush, he lowered his head, his face was flushed, his white earlobes seemed to be dripping with blood, and he clenched the quilt tightly with both hands, The palms began to sweat: "I'm a little nervous... If you feel sick, you can just pretend that nothing happened tonight, and I will never appear in front of you again, and I will never meet you at school on purpose again Now, I will disappear from your life, don't worry, I'm not the kind of person who stalks..." After speaking, his breathing was a little short, and he began to stammer.

Kou Ran has recovered from the shock. He never expected that the person he liked for five years also liked him for five years.What a lucky thing this should be, what is his virtue and ability to be able to get such a true love.

He remembered that when he first met him, he was only 15 years old, and he was shorter than the average boy, but he couldn't help him to look good. Standing among a group of students, he seemed to stand out from the crowd.He was wearing a white shirt at that time, and he looked as fresh and charming as Xiuzhu after the rain.At that time, Kou Ran only went to his school for a symbolic inspection, but he did not expect to meet such a person who would haunt him for the next five years.

He even once wondered if he was sick. He was only 15 years old, and he had such thoughts on him. How is this different from Humbert who likes Lolita?

After he came back from his investigation, he decisively established the Foundation for Outstanding Difficult Students. As if to hide something, he supported several other students at the same time.Every year, I would find some reason to go to his school, ostensibly for the foundation, but in fact, I just wanted to see him.He still remembers one time, just as he sat down in the principal's office, the principal went to a meeting, and then there was a knock on the door.The half-open door was pushed open after three knocks, and 16-year-old Song Jinnian appeared in front of him with a flushed face, as if he had run for a long distance, and his chest was even heaving slightly.The first time he saw him, he bent his eyes and smiled, calling him softly: "Uncle Kou..."

The young man's young and soft voice carried a unique green taste, just like the fresh breath on his body, which made his heart tremble.He almost hardened on the spot when he called him.He kept scolding himself as a beast in his heart, but no matter what, he couldn't control the throbbing and heartbeat in his heart.

He looked at him with a smile on his face, like a real uncle, talked to him, cared about his study and life, and listened to him softly calling him uncle, but what he was thinking was not very funny.Looking at his delicate and small chin and beautiful red lips, he almost couldn't control himself.

Since then, the two met once or twice a year, and Kou Ran would bring him a small gift every time he went, and the relationship between the two gradually became closer.Song Jinnian would write to him every month and occasionally call him. Kou Ran couldn't help being elated every time he saw his letter, although the content of the letter was only about study and life.Like a young boy who just fell in love, he treasured every word of his sweetheart, chewed every sentence repeatedly, and wanted to extract some special meaning to him from it.

He always thought, wait until he is a little older, a little older.But before his baby grew up, his father suddenly collapsed, and before he died, he even booked him a marriage. What he said is still resonant to this day: You may not care about your own future, or the future of the Kou family, but you can't stop thinking about that child.

He was startled, not knowing where he was showing his clues.Father's words were like a thunderbolt, yes, he doesn't care about himself, but can he not care about Xiao Jin?His parents are gone, and there is only one grandma in the family. Does a family like them not care about the issue of children?

He finally chose to get engaged to Fan Xiaoxi. Perhaps without his interruption, Xiaojin would follow the life trajectory of most people in the future, marry a wife and have children, and have a lot of children and grandchildren.

So when he saw him and Wu Siqi together on campus, even though his heart ached beyond measure, there was still a tinge of happiness in his heart.

It's just that I didn't expect that, by mistake, the two fell in love on the same day and the same place at the same time.Is this a chance given to him by God? If he doesn't grasp it well, then he deserves to be born alone.

Kou Ran originally planned to boil the frog in warm water, and he took it step by step. He didn't know if Song Jinnian really had this tendency, after all, he had a girlfriend before.He never expected that fate would give him such a surprise that made him ecstatic, that he had always liked him!Kou Ran looked at Song Jinnian who was so nervous that he could not help himself with his head down, he couldn't help but smile.

However, how did he know that he would not lift it?Where did the conclusions come from?What else do you want to talk about with him for a lifetime of platonic love?Even if he wanted to, he couldn't do it, okay?Also, what does it mean to never appear in front of him again?

Uncle Kou, who was dazzled by love, was so surprised that he couldn't speak for a while, and Song Jinnian, who had just confessed his feelings, was nervously waiting for the answer, shy and nervous, and didn't dare to look up Uncle Kou, I didn't see Uncle Kou's almost cannibalistic eyes at all.

Song Jinnian waited and waited, waited and waited, waited and waited, waited for a long time but did not see Kou Ran's reaction, his shy and nervous heart sank slowly, his face also slowly began to fade, his whole heart seemed to be A basin of ice water was poured on his face, which made him shiver.

Could it be that he is really self-indulgent? Are those meticulous and considerate, those gentle and watery eyes all his illusions?

Song Jinnian's eyes couldn't help turning red. It turned out that he was really self-indulgent.He thought to himself, if he knew it earlier, he wouldn't have confessed, at least he could "encounter" at school once in a while, eating together, taking a walk or something.It's good now, he just said that he will never appear in front of him again, can he go back on his word?

While thinking wildly, the bowl in his hand was taken away by a pair of bony hands.

Song Jinnian froze for a moment, and couldn't help raising his head to look at Kou Ran.

At this time, Song Jinnian seemed to Kou Ran to be extremely soft and cute, and even the slightly red eye circles were all seductive.The little beast in his heart had broken through the ice, and he couldn't help bumping around.

Kou Ran sat sideways on the bed, his eyes were so gentle that they seemed to corrode the air.He smiled, stretched out his hand, and stroked Song Jinnian's small and delicate chin, his voice was low and hoarse: "Can I not answer your question for now?"

Song Jinnian was stunned: "..." What do you mean?He couldn't turn the corner.

Before he could answer, Kou Ran leaned over, his warm breath lingering with his: "I can't help it."

With a sigh, he lowered his head and kissed his lips.