teenage mind

High school courses are always boring. The teacher kept on talking on the podium, and Qin Yue was dumbfounded off the stage.Qin Yue can be regarded as a sunny, cheerful, good boy and good student, with above-average grades. Like most boys of this age, he loves sports. He is good at basketball, football, and swimming. He has no bad habits, and his family conditions are also good. Very superior, his father is a high-level executive of a state-owned enterprise, his mother is a well-known fashion designer in China, his parents love him and his family is harmonious. The biggest trouble in my 16 years of life.

The cause of the matter is probably like this. Teenagers are always so energetic that they are very prone to some kind of impulse even without any provocation.However, since Qin Yue's first wet dream at the age of 15, he has never had a moment of strong desire. Most of his energy has been spent on study and sports. Qin Yue has never felt that there is anything wrong with this, but that his desire It's relatively light, and even if he hears his classmates discussing beautiful girls, he doesn't react much, and he can't understand the desire of his buddies for the opposite sex.

Until one day, when he was watching anime, the thin upper body of the male protagonist appeared on the screen. Immediately, some longings arose in his heart for no reason, and then a long-lost impulse arose in his body.

This frightened Qin Yue. In the general environment where the level of sex education in the whole society is very low, the affairs of men and women are obscure and mysterious, let alone men and women who have been regarded as heresy for a long time. Crime and mental illness exist, not to mention that Qin Yue is just a simple high school student.

He felt fear, worry, and comforted himself in his heart: Maybe it was just that the people in the comics were too beautiful, blurring gender, so he couldn't help himself when he saw a beautiful body.So he began to deliberately observe whether he would respond to seeing men in reality, and finally came to the conclusion that he would respond to the young, fit and vigorous bodies of some boys, but not at all to girls.

Qin Yue was a little desperate, because this could basically confirm his sexual orientation, after all, he only reacted to boys.Qin Yue was afraid, helpless, and confused. He didn't dare to tell his family and friends. He didn't even take part in his favorite sports, and his grades began to decline.

Fortunately, there is such a thing as the Internet in the world, which is Qin Yue's savior at the moment.He consulted a lot of information, browsed some more authoritative forums, and finally, he let go of his hanging heart a little bit. Thanks to the efforts of fellow seniors, modern society no longer regards homosexuality as a heinous thing. It's just a rare but normal phenomenon, but the living environment is still difficult, but it's much better than before.

After that, Qin Yue tried to accept his sexuality, but he was still depressed and confused, and he didn't know where he was going, so he decided to find a place where no one was going to think quietly, even if he didn't think about anything, just be alone It's okay to stay for a while, and then he bumped into Shen Shi.

Shen Shi's sudden intrusion was like a hole that appeared out of thin air when God closed his doors and windows.This hole connected his originally closed heart with the outside world.There is wind, light, and sound outside the cave, guiding him to go out of his own world, and let him discover, ah, it turns out that I am not the only one.This is not to say that Shen Shi did anything, in fact he didn't even say a few words to Qin Yue, but this did not prevent Qin Yue from treating him as a guiding star.Just like in class, when you are bored and depressed, just look in that direction and see a figure that is more pleasing to the eye, he (she) will somehow become your pointer in class, as long as you see him or her (She), regardless of his character, personality, or achievements, will feel better.Or in a quiet and empty space, just you and another person, even though you don't know him (her), it doesn't prevent you from feeling his (her) existence and hearing his (her) breathing I am no longer alone.

Shen Shi is such an existence.He appeared in Qin Yue's world at the right time and at the right place, cold and gentle. If he was just a stranger, Qin Yue would only thank him silently in his heart, but he happened to be someone Qin Yue knew well People, after Qin Yue realized his own sexuality, a ripple inevitably appeared in Qin Yue's heart, but he also understood that not everyone was like him, so he could only approach Shen Yue slowly. hour.

A morning class is boring and long, and the patience of the students is about to run out.The bell for the end of school rang at this time as if it had a sense of perception. The teachers also understood this group of children in pain, and immediately announced that the get out of class was over, and the students rushed out of the classroom in a swarm.

As always, Shen Shi walked out of the classroom slowly and prepared to go to the restaurant for dinner.Qin Yue secretly looked at Shen Shi while pretending to pack his things, saw that he was about to leave, so he hurried over and said:

"Shen Shi, let's go eat together!"

Shen Shi had long seen him dawdling beside him, not running away as soon as school was over as usual, and would not expose his tricks, after all, this was his only friend with whom he could develop a relationship.

"Okay."