first love is a substitute

Gao Jun studied finance at B University.

Although B University's finance is second to none in China, everyone was surprised when he made this decision.

Everyone originally thought that he would choose to study abroad.

A few days after the college entrance examination scores came out, Gao Jun decisively wrote the content on the volunteer form.

Gao Yi was stunned by Gao Jun's action, and he was stunned for a long time before he could speak.

"God, I thought you took the college entrance examination just to prove your IQ, but I didn't expect you to play for real..."

Gao Jun glanced at his brother, picked up the college entrance examination application form, and replied flatly, "I won't go out."

Gao Yi fell silent when he heard Gao Jun say this. Although Gao Jun still had a cold face, these five short words made Gao Yi feel extremely sad.

Gao Yi always remembered Gao Jun's appearance after the boy left, as if he had lost his soul.

I heard that the child is going abroad to study.

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So, in the hot September, Gao Jun entered B University.

Gao Feng was not that surprised by Gao Jun's choice. Gao Yi was a life of good fortune in his life. He was doted on by his parents when he was a child, and he was doted on by Jiang Cheng when he grew up. Train Gao Jun to be his successor.

Therefore, since Gao Jun entered B University, he moved out by himself. The academic pressure of the university is light, and Gao Jun spends most of the rest of his time in Gao's.

Gao Jun was a famous figure in middle school, and even more so when he was in college. Although he never lived in school, never joined clubs, and it was difficult to see him in school except during class time, he still became the object of frequent discussion among girls. A goal that boys want to strive to surpass.

But it's just such a person, and I've never seen anyone around him.

In Gao Jun's junior year, Guan Qing was going to go abroad for further study, Gao Jun practiced it for him, and Guan Qing entrusted his younger brother to him.

"The atmosphere of the country suits me, the country is too boring."

Gao Jun smiled and said nothing.

Guan Qing looked at Gao Jun, then at Guan Jianing, who was sitting next to Gao Jun with an unhappy expression on his face, "Gao Jun, I'll leave this kid to you, I wanted to take him away, but he insisted on staying in City B, and he was so shameless." If you say you want to be a star, he has always listened to you, and if he doesn’t listen to you, you can just teach him for me.”

Guan Jianing snorted unhappily when he heard this, then put his arms around Gao Jun's arm and said, "Brother Gao Jun is not willing to teach me a lesson."

However, Gao Jun picked up the wine glass and touched Guan Qing, and then agreed, "I will take good care of Jianing, you can leave at ease."

It was rare for Guan Qing to put away his joking expression, hesitating as if he still had something to say, but in the end he just picked up the wine glass and touched Guan Qing.

On the day Guan Qing left, Gao Jun went to the airport to see him off. Before leaving, Guan Qing hesitated again and again, but still said what he had been holding back for a long time.

"Brother, treat yourself well, no one can't forget it, you have to give yourself a chance," Guan Qing patted him on the shoulder, and then smiled, "I hope you will not be single when I come back next time." After finishing speaking, Guan Qing smiled and turned around without looking back.

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In Gao Jun's first year in Gao's, he successfully expanded Gao's entertainment, signed Guan Jianing, made him popular, and Guan Jianing won the best newcomer award.

Gao Jun drank a little too much that night, Guan Jianing chased away the beautiful boy next to Gao Jun who looked very much like him, and then sat beside Gao Jun and hugged his arm.

"Brother Gao Jun, thank you for making my dream come true."

In fact, Gao Jun has always been restrained, but tonight he intentionally got himself drunk.Because this is not only Guan Jianing's celebration banquet, but also his.

A few hours ago, his father had also called to congratulate him on his achievements as a superior. Facing everyone's pursuit and praise, Gao Jun looked at the somewhat similar face in his arms, and finally stopped walking around. Can't hold back the emotions in my heart.

Hearing Guan Jianing's words, it took Gao Jun a long time to raise his head suddenly. Looking at the smiling face in front of him, he was stunned for a moment, and then smiled wryly.

The man would never smile at him like that.

Gao Jun felt that the noise here made him feel like he had a splitting headache, so he gently broke away from Guan Jianing's arm, stood up unsteadily and walked out, Guan Jianing looked at him, but he just waved his hand.

Only he himself knows that he is just fulfilling a dream for himself.

The prosperity of Gao's entertainment made Gao Jun suddenly famous and became a veritable business upstart.

In those days newspapers and magazines were full of reports about him.

A man who is used to killing and making decisions in the mall has worked tirelessly for a year, but he just has a stupid and naive idea.

He should have seen it.

he will see.

Although his own success will not become a classic that can be written into textbooks, it is a fact that he has gained fame.

In Gao Jun's heart, there is such a hateful and sad fantasy: After seeing his current achievements, will he have even the slightest regret, regretting that he left too decisively back then.

Gao Jun was too drunk to drive, and it was Xing Chen who sent him home.

Gao Jun rejected the assistant's idea of ​​sending him in, swung his body and slammed the car door, and walked towards the door staggeringly.

It took him a long time to finally open the door. Once he opened the door, the room was dark and silent.

Gao Jun's leather shoes made a sound when he stepped on the floor, he closed the door behind his back, leaned his head against the door, and suddenly clutched his chest in pain.

I miss him so much.

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No amount of anticipation will eventually be exhausted by long and fruitless waiting.

The days seemed to pass quickly, and Gao Jun spent the second and third years in the Gao family...

Gradually, he began to take charge of his own affairs and became more and more busy, and Gao's senior management gradually became convinced by him...

He often feels that he has everything, but feels that he has nothing.

Because he waited for everything, but he didn't wait for that person.

In these years, Gao Jun had imagined countless times, if that person came back to him again, how they would meet, what kind of opening remarks they would say...

Later, in the long years, he finally understood that no matter how hard he worked, how much wealth he had, and how much he achieved, that person would never come back.

Perhaps, from the moment he left, he never planned to look back.

Gao Jun couldn't help ridiculing himself, he was ready to be trampled on by him willingly, but he didn't even give him the chance to be mean.

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I don't know how many years it has been, Gao Jun has completely become the head of the Gao family, Guan Jianing has also changed from a small star holding the rookie award back then to a first-line niche with superstar demeanor.

The people around him also changed a few, and he knew in his heart that they all had a face somewhat similar to that person.

Some are like eyes, and some may be like mouths.

But only Gao Jun knew that he was just torturing himself.

Ten years have passed, and he can still remember his eyes, his mouth, the way he smiled, and the way he spoke.

He still appeared in his dreams, stabbed in his heart forever.

I don't know if God heard his prayer, or because he was so pitiful and wanted to give him a chance even if it hurt.

During such a long and endless wait, the person he had missed for ten years suddenly appeared in his sight.

At that moment, Gao Jun really felt the feeling of a pause in his heartbeat.

It's just that he is too different from what he imagined.

He didn't look high-spirited at all, he was still thin and small, wrapped in a shabby coat, at this moment he was looking at himself in surprise, Gao Jun's hand behind him suddenly tightened, as hard as a To crush the bones deeply.

He almost exhausted all his strength to suppress the urge to rush over to hug him, but said a few words to Guan Jianing lightly, and brought him into the car by the way.

Along the way, Gao Jun even felt that he couldn't even concentrate. He frequently looked back from the rearview mirror, but from the rearview mirror, he could only see the man huddled in a small corner of the car and looked down. head.

He is not having a good time.

Gao Jun came to this conclusion very easily, but he didn't feel any pleasure in his heart.

At this moment, all his attention was on the slightly trembling body of the man, and he was agitated for a while, so he stretched out his hand to turn up the air conditioner.

And after he finished this action, he couldn't help laughing wryly at himself, still thanking God in his heart, at least for giving him a chance to be mean.

Gao Jun drove the car very fast, and he felt that his heart was like this speeding car at the moment.

Those scenes that he had deliberately hidden for many years were flooding towards him like a tide at this moment, Gao Jun closed his eyes heavily, and lightly clasped his hands on the steering wheel.

The hot spring hotel will arrive soon.

Guan Jianing was still angry, and dragged Tang Yue to the front.

Gao Jun walked behind and looked at the man's back, the flame that had been extinguished in his heart for ten years slowly began to be rekindled.

The feeling of lost and found quickly infected him like a virus. He didn't know if it was fate, but what he knew was that this time, no matter what, he would never let him go again.

Even if you lock this person up, just lock him up.

Put it by your side, close it for a lifetime, don't need him to love yourself, as long as you love him humblely.