first love is a substitute

Probably like all first loves, because of the childishness and impulsiveness at that age, the result will always end without a problem.

Gao Jun originally thought that Cheng Cong did not sentence him to death. Although he spoke so decisively, he could still watch him quietly not far away.

But what he never expected was that a week later, the head teacher regretfully announced to everyone at the class meeting that Cheng Cong had transferred to another school and left.

Gao Jun couldn't tell what he felt at that moment, he just felt like a sharp knife had been slashed across his heart.

Later, he came to Cheng Cong's house, which was already empty. He stood at the door and knocked frantically. The neighbor next door opened the door and comforted him, "Young man, don't knock, the family has already moved away. His son has Good luck, I heard that I went to study abroad."

Gao Jun's hands froze, and his whole body seemed to lose his soul in an instant.

Seeing that he didn't respond, the neighbor shook his head and closed the door.

He was the only one left in the empty corridor at the moment, and Gao Jun stood in front of the cold door with a wry smile.

He remembered everything Cheng Cong said to him and everything he did.

He remembered that Cheng Cong couldn't play game consoles with him because he didn't have enough money, and couldn't attend Qiu Lili's birthday party.

From then on, Gao Jun secretly swore in his heart that he would work harder every day in the future than before, so that Cheng Cong would never worry about money again.

Although he grew up in a wealthy family, he didn't want to rely on his family.

Even, he thought too much about their future...

Cheng Cong's grades are not good enough, and I have to help him with a lot of tutoring when he is admitted to No. [-] Middle School in City B... In the future, the two of them can go abroad to study together, even if Cheng Cong doesn't have that much money, at least he still has himself...

But... He never expected that Cheng Cong would disappear from his life in such a resolute way.

"My son is promising. I heard that he has gone abroad to study."

The neighbor's words were like the last straw that overwhelmed Gao Jun's entire spiritual world.

He felt that he was really stupid and hopelessly stupid. He believed everything Cheng Cong said. He had clearly planned his life quietly, but you were still worrying about him.

You have him in your life, but you have never been in his life.

……

Gao Jun had dinner at home that night, he ate in silence, and Gao Yi was the only one chatting on the table.

"I'm stuffed."

Gao Jun wiped his mouth, said politely and left the restaurant.

In the evening, Gao Yi sneaked into Gao Jun's room and found that his younger brother was sitting at the table staring at his mobile phone.

"what happened to you?"

Hearing Gao Yi's voice, Gao Jun pressed the phone in his hand, then turned to look at Gao Yi.For the first time, his eyes showed a little bit of fragility that a child of this age should have. Gao Yi saw him shaking his head slightly at him.

"It's nothing, it's just that I suddenly realized that I was stupid too."

After so many years, Gao Yi heard Gao Jun talk about himself for the first time. In his usual impression, his younger brother was always proud and restrained.

Gao Yi looked at his younger brother's back and suddenly felt a little distressed. He walked over and pressed the other's head into his arms a little helplessly.

For the first time, he comforted him like a little adult, "No...Gao Jun...Maybe, maybe it's just because you are too young...In the future...you will get better in the future."

Gao Jun didn't speak, just buried his head in his brother's arms again.

……

When Gao Jun appeared in front of everyone again, he seemed to be the same as before.

He was alone, but his grades were still against the sky. He was admitted to the No. [-] Middle School of City B without any pressure. Under the approval of the teacher and the envious eyes of his classmates, he became so lofty again, as if he was different from everyone else. is isolated.

The girls secretly called him Bingshan behind his back, but they couldn't help but look at him secretly.

Later, some people quietly popularized it to other girls: "Actually, Gao Jun was not so unapproachable in the past. When he was in junior high school, he had a good relationship with a boy in the class. They were together every day after class. I always give him lectures, but...the boy transferred to another school...and I have never seen Gao Jun so close to anyone..."

"Oh... what a pity." The girls sighed after hearing this, they have never seen a male god giving a lecture to others!

……

After entering high school, his studies became tense, but this didn't seem to have changed much for Gao Jun. He still lived his life like that every day, and even demanded himself a little pervertedly.

Of course, sometimes when he was extremely tired, a figure would involuntarily pop up in his mind.

He would twitch the corners of his mouth in a self-deprecating manner, and then continue to punish himself with countless math problems in a masochistic manner, forgetting that stupid past.

In Gao Junfa's second year of high school, Guan Qing's parents divorced, and his mother took him and his younger brother Guan Jianing back to City B.

It was the first time Gao Jun saw Guan Jianing, but he was stunned for half a minute.

Until Guan Qing laughed and called his name to make fun of him, "Gao Jun, is my brother so good-looking?"

At that time, Guan Jianing was still young, but when he heard this, he acted like a baby to his brother with a proud look, "I'm good-looking."

Gao Jun came back to his senses and fooled around with a smile, but his eyes were gloomy one after another.

Like he... especially those eyes.

But the smile is not the same, Guan Jianing's smile is proud and willful, but Cheng Cong's smile always has a sense of satisfaction and care...

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When Gao Jun withdrew from these unsalty memories, he had already drunk the wine in the bottle to the bottom.

Gao Yi didn't know when he left, probably because he couldn't stand his drunken appearance.

Gao Jun twitched the corner of his mouth, and put the cup in his hand on the coffee table with a bang.

No matter whether he was willing to admit it or not, ten years later, that person still couldn't dissipate from his heart.

He masochistically changes the people around him, eager to prove something, but the funny thing is, those people around him always have a face similar to his.

Gao Jun closed his eyes in pain, he was wrong ten years ago.

In fact... from the moment I met him, I was doomed to be stupid for the rest of my life.

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When Xing Chen walked into Gao Jun's house the next day, he was startled by the messy wine bottles in his living room.

Before he could finish making up his mind, his boss had already walked out wearing a tie.

"What's the rush so early in the morning?"

When Gao Jun asked Xing Chen, he came back to his senses, and quickly handed over the information, "It's Guan Jianing's contract for a recent show. There is one episode that requires his family to accompany him to participate. I thought I would refuse it completely, but Guan Jianing said he If Mr. Guan can't come back, let you go with him."

"Reject it."

Gao Jun didn't even look at the material, so he said directly.

Xing Chen froze for a moment, but didn't say much, just nodded and drew a cross on the material.

Gao Jun took his suit from the hanger, put it on and said, "You go first, I'll go to the hospital first and then go to the company."

Xing Chen nodded, turned around and left first.

Gao Jun made a detour to buy breakfast before going to the hospital, but when he was standing at the door of the ward with the lunch box, he did not expect that the bed had become empty.

"Where are the patients in this room?" Gao Jun grabbed a little nurse and asked.

"I packed my things and left the hospital early in the morning."

Suddenly, Gao Jun was furious. How anxious was he to go back to his damn crew.

There was no need to eat breakfast, Gao Jun turned around and strode away, threw the waste in his hand into the trash can, returned to the parking lot, sat in the driver's seat, stepped on the accelerator and walked away.

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The director was a little surprised when he saw Tang Yue on the set. He was really shocked when Tang Yue fainted that day, but he didn't expect him to come back so soon.

"Are you okay?" The director couldn't help but confirm with him again and again. Although he was only a supporting role, he was a member of the Gao family after all, so it was hard to explain what happened.

"I'm fine, let you worry about the director."

Tang Yue smiled at the crew members who came up, and then went to the changing room to change costumes.

Everyone was stunned by Tang Yue's appearance, but at the same time, he was also a little shy. He didn't have anything to do with him. After all, there are not many young actors who are so dedicated these days.

Perhaps Tang Yue's humble and docile temperament was recognized by the director. On the day he finished filming, the director introduced him to a good character in a play.

The director of this show is his friend, not a well-known director, but has a good reputation in the circle, and often makes some low-cost movies.

The drama to be filmed this time is about a forbidden love. It tells the story of a crazy and slightly dark brother who falls in love with his half-brother.

There are many taboos on homosexual themes, and this drama is a brotherly love, so it is a fierce collision of two elements.

"Director, director, no, I've never played the leading role..."

Tang Yue subconsciously refused. It is still okay for him to play some small supporting roles and small tricks, but if he wants to play the leading role...he will always be subconsciously nervous, so that his whole face is extremely stiff.

"Think about it for yourself, anyway, I think you are quite suitable."

The director threw him the recruitment materials for the crew, lit a cigarette and walked away.

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In Gao's meeting room, Zhou Yang quickly flipped through the script called "Bond".

He closed the last page, then raised his head and said to Tang Yue who had been silent beside him, "I don't think we should give up on this script, after all, your acting career has just entered the right track, and you should try your best at this time." Mainstream roles... Besides, the role of younger brother is typically autistic, and it may be too difficult for a newcomer like you. Such a role is thankless, and I don't agree with taking on this role."

After Zhou Yang finished his point of view, Tang Yue was in a daze and didn't respond. Zhou Yang couldn't help but patted him on the shoulder, thinking that he was not feeling well, "Xiaotang, what's wrong with you?"

It was only then that Tang Yue came back to his senses slowly. He looked at Zhou Yang, then looked down at the script spread out in front of him, and said in a low voice after a while, "I think... maybe I can try."

Zhou Yang frowned, and just about to speak to continue to persuade him, he heard him softly say, "I...had autism once."

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So, the next afternoon, Tang Yue participated in the casting audition for "Bondage" on time, and the actor who played the role of "brother" was the actor who had already been selected to play the role of brother, a young student who had just become popular recently.

Tang Yue, whose name was called, quickly got up and walked to the audition room, and as soon as he opened the door, Tao Xuan, who had been standing in the middle of the room playing for his "brother", couldn't help but whistled at Tang Yue, Then he turned his head and joked with the director who was sitting in the middle, "Director, it's him, this 'brother' looks to my liking."