yellow spring blossoms

I followed Gu Youning all the way from the door of the dormitory to the gate of the school.Along the way, I imagined the appearance of the person on the other end of the phone countless times, but when I actually saw that person, I was shocked.

In the dark night, Ziqing stood straight by the iron gate of the school. The black windbreaker on her body fluttered slightly with the night wind, and her messy long hair seemed to blend with the night.

"Coming?" Ziqing greeted Gu Youning with slightly raised lips.

"En." Gu Youning walked to her side, turned his head and pointed towards the dark and deserted path beside him: "Let's go?"

I saw Ziqing nodded, and then the two walked away side by side.I felt my heart pounding in my chest as if it was about to burst out of my mouth.

After being absent-minded for a long time, I found my thoughts and chased after him.The overwhelming darkness surrounded me, and for the first time I felt no fear.Because the two bright lights in my life are now in this endless darkness.

"If you're looking for me, just take a walk." Ziqing walked for a while, then stopped to look at Gu Youning.

I also stopped and stood in the bushes far away from them. Even if I have excellent hearing, I can barely hear small conversations in this position.

"Of course not." Gu Youning also stopped, and asked after a long time: "Did you kill the people in the school?"

My heart seemed to be pierced by a sharp sword, I seemed to hear the funniest joke in the world, and the person who told this joke was Gu Youning.

"Why do you ask that?" Ziqing, who was in sight, didn't react too much, but asked calmly with calm eyes.

"Someone saw it." Gu Youning said, "But I'm not sure, it looks like you."

"Who?" Ziqing asked.

Gu Youning stood there without saying a word, but stared at Ziqing's face cautiously.Ziqing was amused by her eyes. She bent her eyes and jokingly said to Gu Youning: "Why are you so nervous? Are you afraid that I will kill someone to silence you?"

"Don't laugh, tell me if it's you?" Gu Youning was annoyed by her attitude, and tightly clasped Ziqing's wrist to make her recover.

"It's me." Ziqing replied, "Do you believe it?"

"Speak seriously." Gu Youning frowned, gasping for breath, as if he couldn't accept the result.

"I said yes, what result do you want?" Ziqing looked at Gu Youning, in sharp contrast to her impetuousness: "Or do you want me to answer no? But...does it matter?"

I saw Ziqing shake off Gu Youning's hand, turned her back and said, "If you have the ability, use the evidence to arrest me."

"Have you ever thought about Ziyan when you did these things!" Seeing that Ziqing was about to leave, Gu Youning suddenly yelled at her.

"Ziyan will never know." Ziqing said, "Forever."

Soon, there was nothing left in the darkness except myself.

Those who died...what did they have to do with Ziqing.

That night, I asked myself this question countless times.

But how can not get the answer.

I can feel that Ziqing is avoiding me.Whenever I want to get close to her, she will always leave first. She always walks very close to Xie Lin, and she no longer has lunch with me and Gu Youning.I just watched her face paler day by day, as if something was fading away.This feeling scared me, and I knew I had to grab her and ask.

During breaks, I stood outside Ziqing's classroom and watched her in class. She still likes to sit in the center of the classroom.I saw her with her long hair tied up in the bright sunlight, taking notes quickly, with a cute appearance.Xie Rin was sitting next to her, burying her head in her arms and feeling drowsy, but I wasn't worried about her grades. I clearly remembered that she and Ziqing were top students who skipped two grades in a row.

I just looked at Ziqing like this, and I don't know how long it took until they finally got out of class.I moved forward anxiously, and saw Ziqing surrounded by many people walking towards me.

"Ziqing..." I called her, and found that Ziqing walked by me without looking at me.

"Ziqing, Ziyan is behind." Seeing me, Xie Rin pulled Ziqing's clothes, Ziqing gave her a sideways look, pulled the clothes and left.

I followed Ziqing like an abandoned puppy, watching her back all the way forward.

I always feel that this situation is very familiar, just like when I was very young.Ziqing also always ignored me, just walking ahead proudly.But I didn't give up and kept following her, she finally couldn't bear it anymore and turned around and pinched my cheek and asked, "Why are you following me?"

I was pinched by her and looked at her, with tears in my eyes, I said: "Ziqing, I like to follow you."

"why?"

"I don't know." I was pinched and hurt, shaking my head with tears in my eyes, and said.

"I don't know?" Ziqing raised his eyebrows, and a red mark popped up on my forehead: "You want to cry again, don't you? Then you can cry, and cry for your parents, crybaby."

I kept my mouth shut and continued to follow her, not daring to make a sound.

Ziqing didn't know how long he had been walking, and finally stopped and asked me a little bluntly, "Well... do you want to play games together?"

"Hey, okay." I ran over happily, hugged her, immediately forgot about the pain in my head from being bounced by her, and said happily, "Let's play together, what are we playing?"

"Stay away from me." Ziqing pushed me with some disgust, but found that she couldn't push her away, so she finally gave up and let me hug her.She turned her head to look at me, finally smiled, and said, "Fool."

Those long-ago things seem to be right in front of you.

Everything is just a repeat of yesterday.

Only this time, Ziqing's back was more determined than before, as if... he really wanted to leave me where I was.

I followed Ziqing all the time, watching her chat with her classmates, go to the cafeteria to eat, go to the library to borrow books, and didn't go back to the dormitory until dark.

"Ziyan, what's the matter?" Ziqing took off her light coat and hung it in the closet. I saw her unbutton the top two buttons of her shirt, sit in a chair and look at me with her legs crossed.

"Do you still know who I am?" I stood in front of her and said with a frown.

"I know." Ziqing replied, "Are you my sister?"

"Why are you avoiding me?" I asked straight to the point, but Ziqing smiled.She looked at me with a smile, and then asked back: "Why should I avoid you? You are living the life you want, and I am living the life I want, isn't it great?"

"What you want is a life where I don't exist." Looking at Ziqing's smile, I felt strange, and my eyes were covered with water vapor again.

"What? Can't stand me leaving you?"

"You have become very strange." Listening to Ziqing's question, I couldn't feel the slightest tenderness from it.

"I'm just so weird." Ziqing replied, then stood up straight and said to me: "It's getting late, I'm going to rest, Xie Lin will be back soon, you can go."

"Can't it be like this..." The first time I was chased away by Ziqing, my heart was overwhelmed, and I almost couldn't help but shed tears again.

"No." Ziqing came to me, grabbed my wrist, and was about to drag me out of the door: "It's late, the school is not safe, go back quickly."

"I don't!!" I shook off Ziqing's hand and yelled at her, "You give me back Ziqing! You give me back Fang Ziqing!"

Ziqing was stunned by my reaction, and hugged the crying me into his arms: "Don't make trouble, Ziyan."

"What's the matter with you...you tell me, okay...I know there must be something wrong with you, why don't you tell me..."

Ziqing hugged me and didn't say a word for a long time.

After what felt like a long time, she finally pulled me out of her arms.I thought she was going to say something to me, but unexpectedly she reached out and pinched my chin, and kissed me.

Feeling that my lips were covered by Ziqing's breath, my heart seemed to be struck by thunder, and I was so frightened that I even forgot to cry.I felt Ziqing hugging my waist, and her soft lips were entangled with mine.I pushed her away, took two steps back, and asked her, "What are you doing?!"

"What do you think I'm going to do?" Ziqing walked straight up to me, turned his cheek and kissed my lips again.

"Don't do this." I stretched out my hand to push her, but she pushed her down on the bed and continued to kiss her.

"If you don't leave and cry here, don't you just want me to treat you like this." Ziqing tore off my clothes while kissing. My underwear straps are undone.

"I didn't!" I wanted to push her off me, but found that Ziqing couldn't be held back at all.

"Fang Ziyan, you asked me what I want to do? I'll tell you right now. I want to do everything Gu Youning has done. I also want to do things she hasn't done. Do you understand?" Looking at me, hands have lifted my skirt up.

"No..." I was trembling, I couldn't breathe, I was holding my skirt desperately with both hands, I was so frightened by this strange Fang Ziqing that my soul flew away.I looked at the person in front of me in despair with a hoarse crying voice: "You are not Ziqing...you are not...!"

"Can you give up Gu Youning and stay with me? Can you satisfy all my desires?" Ziqing stopped his hands and looked at me: "If you can't, don't come to me again, you understand."

In the silent night, there was no more sound, Ziqing got up from me, and I watched her put her shoes on, straighten her clothes, and go out.

Xie Lin has been waiting outside the dormitory, but did not come in.She didn't go up to say hello until Fang Ziqing came out, but Fang Ziqing ignored her.Xie Lin followed Fang Ziqing all the way, and finally couldn't stand it anymore and said, "The reluctance you have kept for so many years has been destroyed by your own hands like this. This is still the way."

Fang Ziqing didn't answer her, but just wrapped his hands around himself, as if he was afraid of the cold.

"Are you okay?" Xie Lin was a little worried about her, so he took off his coat and put it on for Fang Ziqing.

But she found that Fang Ziqing's eyes were full of tears, as long as she blinked a little, the tears would flow down her cheeks.Xie Lin couldn't bear to talk to her anymore, so he walked aimlessly with her.

I don't know how long it took before Xie Lin finally heard Fang Ziqing say: "In this way, Ziyan won't look for me again, will she. In this way...she will be safe...isn't it...in this way...I will never It will hurt her...isn't it..."

"You..." Xie Rin gritted his teeth, feeling pain in his heart.

She hugged Fang Ziqing into her arms and strangled her so tightly that she couldn't even say a word of comfort.

The author has something to say: Has anyone ever felt sorry for the way you cry?