yellow spring blossoms

Gu Youning let me sleep in the bed, and she slept next to the door.I lay down tired, but couldn't fall asleep.His eyes stared at the door for a while, and then at the roof for a while.

"Before I came, were you like this?"

Gu Youning's sudden question startled me, I thought she had fallen asleep.

"Well." I replied.

"And then it's like that until the next morning?"

"Ah."

"So you doze off every day in class?"

"Ah."

I absent-mindedly answered Gu Youning's question, but when I heard her suddenly laugh, I asked her, "Why are you laughing?"

Gu Youning shook his head, then looked at my face and said, "So you had this expression when you answered yes."

"Huh?" I couldn't understand what Gu Youning was saying.

"But why do you keep answering me. I'm not a strange man."

Strange man...?

When I heard Gu Youning say this, something floated through my mind, but I couldn't grasp it.There is a subtle sense of familiarity.Gu Youning saw that I was dazed, so she didn't continue anymore. She reached out and hugged me into her arms, and whispered in my ear: "Don't look...close your eyes and go to sleep."

"I'm afraid to close my eyes." I let her hold me, eroded by despair. "But... now... I don't even dare to open my eyes."

"Still thinking about the train station?" Gu Youning asked.

"I really saw it..." I grabbed the quilt tightly, with cold sweat on my forehead, calmed down for a while and said, "I think...she might have come out of a dream..."

"Ziyan." Gu Youning took my hand from under the quilt. "How about we go to the hospital to see, your condition seems to be serious."

When I heard about the hospital, I felt my whole body tense up, and I didn't want to say a word.Gu Youning seemed to notice that I was trembling, so she turned my face away and made me face her.I looked into her serious eyes, as if I had gained strength.

"Ziyan, I believe there are no ghosts in this world. Everyone has nightmares and occasionally hallucinations. But your dreams have reached the point where they affect our lives, so we should see a doctor. The hospital is not a scary place , it can relieve your pain." Gu Youning's voice was very gentle, as if leading me to another path. "If it's cured, you can sleep well. If it's not cured, I'll find another way, okay?"

Can I get a good night's sleep when I'm cured?

I thought about it.

It seems that there is nothing wrong with going there.

"That's it." Seeing that my expression was relaxed, Gu Youning said so, and I nodded in agreement.

"Gu Youning, do you know... I never thought that I could get so close to a stranger... We could eat and live together... We could even go to the hospital together." I closed my eyes: "All of this... For me Amazing."

"There are so many things you didn't expect." Gu Youning smiled, and I felt that she also closed her eyes, and whispered in my ear: "We can still go to the supermarket together, watch movies together, commute to get off work together, and go to work together." travel……"

"Where are you going to travel..." I heard her describe the future, feeling relieved and sleepy.

"Go anywhere, where you want to go." Gu Youning replied.

"Graduated... can we be together?"

"It's okay to be together forever."

"A lifetime..." I changed my comfortable position and squinted my eyes, and murmured sleepily, "A lifetime is a long time..."

"Well... a long time..."

When I woke up in the morning, it was already dawn, I hurriedly made breakfast, ate with Gu Youning and went out.The morning air was so cold it made me shiver.Gu Youning wrapped the shawl around me: "I knew you would be cold."

On the way there, Gu Youning was on the phone all the time. From what I heard from her, she probably made an appointment with a doctor.Sure enough, after she hung up the phone, she said to me: "I asked my friend to help me make an appointment with the best psychiatrist. Don't be afraid when you go."

"Well." I should.

The car was speeding on the road, and I looked at the scenery swept back, and I felt a glimmer of hope in my heart.

The doctor Gu Youning made an appointment for was Zhu Lin, who seemed to be a gentle person.I saw many people resting on big chairs similar to massage chairs in her consulting room.They had inexplicable patches on their heads and earphones on their ears.

"They are all insomniacs." Seeing me staring at those people intently, Dr. Zhu Lin explained to me. "I can't sleep at night, and I just rely on these machines to sleep lightly during the day."

"Do they have nightmares?" I asked.

"I can't even sleep, what a nightmare." Dr. Zhu Lin laughed, and I blushed, so I quickly shut up.

I walked forward with Dr. Zhu Lin, walked around a deep corridor to a closed house.Then she turned around and said to Gu Youning who was beside me: "It's fine for the family members to wait outside. Next, I need to talk to Miss Fang."

Gu Youning patted my head worriedly and said, "Go, I'll wait outside."

The interior of that room was very dark, and the plush carpet made no sound after stepping on it.Dr. Zhu Lin closed the door, and the whole room became even more silent.I looked around, there was nothing special in the room, just a few rows of sofas, a coffee table, floor-to-ceiling curtains blocked the sunlight, leaving only a small bright gap.

Dr. Zhu Lin made me sit on the sofa, and she sat in the chair behind the gap.

"Don't worry Ziyan, I'm just chatting with you, I won't do other things."

I nodded.

"You said, you often have nightmares. Naturally, the dreams are all scary things. Is there anything in common with these things?" The doctor asked. I thought about it carefully, but found that most of the dreams had been forgotten by me. Only the vague figure of a girl remained.

"There's a girl..." I thought vaguely. "With high heels...this girl knows my name..."

"What else?" Dr. Zhu Lin asked.

"She asked me to go with her...and know my sister..." I recalled, cold sweat already streaming down.

"Your sister? You have a younger sister." Doctor Zhu Lin smiled.

"Ah."

"What kind of person is it?" she asked.

"Very good person." I replied, relieved from the tense atmosphere just now. "She takes good care of me, although she is younger than me...but everything is better than me..."

"As good-looking as you?"

"Much better looking than me." I blushed in embarrassment and replied. "Ziqing is the most beautiful person I've ever met..."

"Fang Ziqing."

"Ah."

"You said that girl knew your sister...and you too." Dr. Zhu Lin continued to ask. "Then does your sister know that girl?"

"I don't know." I replied, "I asked her, and she said she didn't know."

"But you know it." Dr. Zhu Lin asked, "Who is she?"

"I... I can't remember..."

"Tell me about your childhood?" Dr. Zhu Lin stood up, poured me a cup of hot water and put it in front of me.I looked at the dense mist on the water and started talking.Many scattered memories were pieced together, and Dr. Zhu Lin listened carefully, occasionally smiling.However, when I was halfway through, I found that my mind was blank.

"I was seriously ill once and was hospitalized... and then..."

Later... I closed my eyes, as if I went back to the day I was hospitalized, the sun was shining brightly on the lawn on the ground...

"What did you see later?" Dr. Zhu Lin asked in a low voice next to my ear.

"I see..." I felt like I was approaching the patch of sunlight, and there seemed to be someone squatting there in the light and shadow... That person was...

"Ziyan." A voice suddenly sounded in my ear, a girl's voice. "Ziyan...hehehehe..."

I suddenly felt out of breath, the light and shadow in my mind were scattered, and the girl's voice spread infinitely, permeating every corner of my body.I wanted to open my eyes but couldn't open them, and I couldn't open my mouth even if I wanted to call Dr. Zhu Lin.In a panic, I grabbed around, but to no avail, until I sank into darkness.

"Fang Ziyan...Fang Ziyan!"

I opened my eyes drenched in sweat, and felt a trace of air entering my nasal cavity, and the anxious faces of Dr. Zhu Lin and Gu Youning appeared in my sight. "You Ning..."

Gu Youning didn't say anything, just jumped down and hugged me in his arms.She seemed to be trembling, strangling me for breath.

"Youning...I can't breathe..." I whispered.

Gu Youning quickly let go of her hand, she patted the wet bangs on my forehead, and asked me: "How do you feel now? What happened just now? Dr. Zhu Lin saw you suddenly fell to the ground clutching your heart, and almost fell to the ground. No breath."

"I... I forgot..." I closed my eyes, feeling tired.

"Forget it." Gu Youning stayed by my side and stopped talking.

On the way home, Gu Youning took the tranquilizing Chinese medicine prescribed by the doctor for me, without saying a word.When I looked at her sideways, I saw that her brows were frowning and her expression was downcast.I stood in front of her and wouldn't let her go.

"Huh?" Gu Youning looked at me, not knowing why.

"I feel better!" I stretched, and then looked at her with a smile. "I'm so hungry, why don't we go and eat something before going back?"

"Okay. What do you want to eat?" Gu Youning finally had a smile on his face.

"Let's eat Japanese food." I replied. "I remember there is one outside the school, and all my classmates recommended it, saying it was delicious."

"it is good."

"Call Xia An and the others." I continued, "I haven't seen them for a long time. You tell her, I'll treat you!"

Gu Youning squinted at me: "I'm not afraid of bankruptcy."

"Just this one meal...it's not enough." I touched my wallet and said guiltily.

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