Youth Training Manual

At the beginning of August, when Beijing was at its hottest, they returned to Beijing from Tibet, and had their last and most important in-team test a week later.

Wu Huai and Zhanyan's results were among the best, and they were successfully selected for the list of the Texas World Championships in the United States. Brother Nian mixed up a reserve list and could go for a walk, but he didn't have a chance to play. Brother Liu's test results Not very good, but because he is an experienced veteran, after discussing with the team, he was still given a chance.

Before the expedition, CCTV arranged for reporters to do interviews. The swimming team made an appointment with the main players of the expedition to do key interviews, including Wu Huai and Zhanyan of the men's team. At the same time, Brother Liu also interviewed a little bit. He mentioned that he is not in a good state this year, but Brother Liu also said on the spot that he would adjust himself as soon as possible.

Zhanyan then quietly asked Wu Huai: "You said that Lao Liu's recent behavior has been influenced by us."

Wu Huai rolled his eyes: "Persecution paranoia? Why do we put everything on us? Brother Liu is so old, can't he adjust himself? You see, when I was not with you, I was sad for a while and happy for a while. Yes, I’ve never traveled on business, don’t you think?”

Zhanyan thinks about it too, and he is not interested in putting the shit bowl on his head, so the matter of why Lao Liu's grades are not so good suddenly has become an eternal unsolved case.

After the test was over and the final list was confirmed, the 34-member national swimming team flew to the United States to participate in this year's World Swimming Championships.

In this battle, Zhanyan once again won the world championship. Wu Huai only won a silver medal in two events.

Disappointment is unavoidable, but fortunately, his swimming is not bad. He has swam out of his best level and gained experience in the World Series. Everything is being prepared for next year's Olympic Games.

The day before returning from the United States, Wu Huai asked Zhanyan what to do after returning.

Zhanyan said: "The team will definitely have a holiday. I will go home for about a week. We will meet again at that time."

Wu Huai said enthusiastically: "We must also have a holiday. I won't go back this time. I'll go to your house with you. I'll pay attention to it so that your family won't find anything wrong. I'll just go Identify the door, I want to see the home where you were born, and your parents, I want to get to know them, and I can say hello when we meet in the future..." After speaking, Wu Huai found Zhanyan's expression Very wrong, he lowered his voice and asked in doubt, "What's wrong?"

Zhanyan shook her head, wanted to say something, then paused, frowned and thought for a while before continuing: "Wu Huai, there is something I haven't said all this time, you may not quite understand why I act like that Resist us, I will tell you the truth today, you may be able to come out to your parents, but I can't, I can't tell my family that I like you in this life."

"..." Wu Huai's eyes widened.

At this time, it was just dark, the moon had not yet risen, and the sun was still struggling at the end of the horizon. In the twilight, Zhanyan stood by the window and said slowly: "My mother is a very strong person. , my father left when I was six years old, and she brought up my sister and me alone, in a single-parent family. In fact, the family environment is very average, not even very good. I was not very sensible when I was young, and my studies were average. The coaches at the sports school seem to have learned how to swim, and they are also lucky. The navy was formed when I was eight years old, and everyone knows that there are many young swimmers in Hangzhou. That’s when I was recruited by Colonel Nie to the People’s Liberation Army.”

"Speaking of this, I just want to tell you that I have walked the right path now, and my family environment has improved a lot. In fact, it should be very good. I have been learning to swim outside. As you said, we are all independent. Our family has no say in the decisions we make, because we are financially independent and can do whatever we want.”

"It's a good idea, but it's only suitable for some families, at least not in my family."

Wu Huai frowned, he heard the heaviness in Zhanyan's words.Zhanyan had never talked about his own family affairs. Before that, Wu Huai always thought that the topic did not fall on that, so he didn't say it, but now he knows that there are more things in it that cannot be said.

Zhanyan said: "The accident probably happened when I was 15 years old. I was 17 years old when you met me. I basically had no achievements in the past few years. You may have thought about it and were curious about it. Let me tell you. At that time I really didn't get grades because I still had to take care of my mom."

"!" Wu Huai opened his eyes wide.

"My mother is a very strong person, but some accidents happened too suddenly. We didn't want it to happen, so it happened. It happened at that time. My sister got married at that time and soon had a child. My mother went to Taking care of her, everything was normal before this, but the accident happened in an instant. My mother slipped and fell when she came out of the kitchen, and subconsciously grabbed my sister who was four months pregnant at the time. After the two fell together , my mother is fine, but my sister had an accidental miscarriage."

"..."

"The child is gone, my sister is sad, my mother blames herself, and my in-laws also said some bad things. At that time, my mother may be in menopause again, and I am learning swimming in other places. No one pays attention to my mother's situation. , It wasn't until half a year later that she was about to jump off the building and was rescued, she didn't know that she was suffering from depression."

"..."

"You know about depression, right? I might just leave after some stimulus. At that time, I felt sorry for my sister, but at the same time complained about my sister. I gritted my teeth and insisted on bringing my mother to watch over me. I was fourteen and 15 years old in the past two years. , I guarded my mother for two years, although training was delayed, but I have no regrets, my mother is still alive and healthy."

Wu Huai looked at Zhanyan deeply, unable to speak, because he didn't have a personal experience, he couldn't feel the pain, but because he loved Zhanyan so much, he could suddenly understand Zhanyan's struggle back then.

Zhanyan wiped his face, and then smiled again: "Fortunately, my sister came out of the pain of miscarriage, discussed with her husband, and took my mother back. I trained hard One year, I have known you since I was 17. Wu Huai, you don’t even know how shining you were when you suddenly emerged from the corner, full of vigor like the sun. I remember you."

Wu Huai was a little complacent, and laughed out his little canine teeth.

Zhanyan continued: "However, everything after that got out of control. Things happened that I dare not even think about. There are too many things in my heart. I can't be as frank and fearless as you. You don't know, I have How envious of your daring to love and hate."

"..." Wu Huai's heart softened, it was the first time for Zhanyan to completely cut himself apart, in fact he didn't need to say anything, as long as he just listened quietly like this.

"Before this, I didn't dare to tell you, especially when you said that you told your parents about these things, and they would accept them sooner or later. I didn't dare to promise too much. Because I might not be able to say it, and I won't be able to tell my mother about us in this life. It's not fair to you."

"No, I can understand. You should have told me earlier." Wu Huai shook his head, "When we retire and have time, I support you to accompany your aunt to see a doctor. Depression can be cured, right?"

"Mental illness, you have to take medicine on time. If you take the medicine, you will be fine. But if you forget to take it, or if you are stimulated by something, no one is sure what will happen."

"Can it be cured abroad? Our money should be enough to go abroad for medical treatment."

Zhanyan didn't speak, looked deeply at Wu Huai, and suddenly reached out to hug him: "Thank you, she will be fine, and we will be fine."

"Speaking of which, isn't this our mother?"

Zhanyan buried her head in Wu Huai's neck, and smiled lowly.

The long-standing doubts were suddenly solved, but the truth was still powerless.

What can the old man do if he is sick?

After returning to Beijing from the United States and disbanding on the spot, Wu Huai never mentioned the past in Hangzhou. He could tell that Zhanyan didn't want him to meddle in his mother's affairs for the time being. Maybe it was because he was worried about the unforeseen changes on his mother's side. Of course It may also be that he thinks that he should not bear these for the time being. It is a restricted area that Zhanyan firmly guards behind, and he is not qualified to touch it yet.

Wu Huai can understand the reason why Zhanyan did this. In the current situation, he just needs to stay quietly and live as before, which is enough.

The planned trip to Hangzhou was unsuccessful, and Wu Huai did not go home. He bought a plane ticket and took his parents to Guangdong to play. He took them to have morning tea, go to see the sea, and even went to Hong Kong together. There was no day off for a week. Traveling everywhere is more tiring than usual training.

The parents are very satisfied, and there is nothing more satisfying to have such a son.

After visiting Times Square in Causeway Bay that day, I bought a set of clothes for my parents. When they returned to the hotel room, Wu Huai suddenly said, "Mom and Dad, are you happy?"

"Happy, my son is so capable, what else is there to be unhappy about?" The mother said with a smile.

"That's good. I'm old now, and I can take responsibility for my own life. Don't treat me like a child anymore. Don't worry too much. I will choose the life I want to live, and I will continue to live happily and competently." .”

"What's the matter?" The smile on the mother's face disappeared, and she stood up nervously.

Wu Huai pushed his mother back on the sofa, and then let his father sit down again. He squatted in front of his parents and said, "I want to say that I can really control my life and my future. Although some things are born , we are powerless to change it, but you must believe me, although I have some regrets, I will still live a good life."

The mother was about to cry from nervous tears, she grabbed Wu Huai's hand and asked him what's wrong.

Wu Huai wanted to confess, but found that the situation was imminent, and he couldn't speak at all. There seemed to be something blocked in his throat, feeling uncomfortable, and his eyes turned red.

He didn't think there was anything bad about liking Zhanyan, but he knew better, wouldn't it be better if he could make his parents happy and let the whole world bless him?So they suddenly understood Zhanyan's embarrassment directly, because they all just wanted to get more sunshine.