After saving Bai Yueguang's substitute

【Xu Zhinian's Diary-6】

August 2020, 9, sunny

I asked Mr. Jiang, did he regret anything in his life?

Mr. Jiang said there are many.

I do not believe.

Because I always think that Mr. Jiang is a person who will not regret it.

He always walked forward so resolutely and bravely, as if he would never be crushed by the past.

How could Mr. Jiang regret it.

But Mr. Jiang said: "My biggest regret is that I didn't meet you earlier."

I murmured and said, "This is beyond your control."

There was one more sentence I didn't say.

I think it's never too late to meet Mr. Jiang.

Because he was worth my long wait.

It is also worth spending my whole life loving him.

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1165

I am not surprised that Yan Zhizhe will return to China at this time.

Firstly, the Chinese New Year is coming soon, no matter how much he spends time outside, he still has to come back for the Chinese New Year.

The second is that Lin Shuqi has returned to China, and he has no other reason to continue to stay abroad.

1166

I thought that Yan Zhizhe would take the time to contact me after returning to China and ask about Xu Zhinian.

But I haven't received a call from him so far. It may have been more than half a year. He was so dazed by Lin Shuqi that he had long forgotten that there was Xu Zhinian.

That's good.

I do hope he never remembers.

1167

Of course, it may also be because he is too afraid of me to contact me.

This guess was made by Shi Jiazhi and me.

I thought about it, and there was some truth to it.

1168

Since Yan Zhizhe doesn't come to see me, I will ignore him for the time being.

But what I didn't expect was that another person came to me.

1169

One day, when I was preparing for an upcoming meeting at the company, my phone suddenly vibrated.

A text message from an unknown number.

The content is very concise.

[Excuse me, I'm Lin Shuqi, I want to talk to you about something, I wonder if you're free? 】

1170

I frowned slightly, not knowing what he could do for me.

Since he went abroad, I have never had any interaction with him.

My deepest impression of him is still in the scene when he confessed to me.

At that time, I simply refused, because he really wasn't my type.

1171

Lin Shuqi has a lofty and conceited personality, and likes to put on the airs of a male god. Yan Zhizhe seems to like him very much, and supports him everywhere.

I also have a strong temper, so I despise Lin Shuqi's superior attitude.

1172

I pretended not to see this text message and continued to deal with official business.

Not long after, he texted me again.

【I'll wait for you in the living room downstairs of your company. 】

[If you are busy with work, I can wait until you are done. 】

1173

I called Assistant Sun in and asked him, "Is anyone waiting for me in the living room today?"

Assistant Sun nodded and said, "It seems there is."

I frowned and asked, "Did he say who he is?"

Assistant Sun thought for a while and said, "It seems that the surname is Lin. I didn't say anything else."

I asked, "Why didn't anyone tell me?"

Assistant Sun said: "He didn't have an appointment, and the front desk registered him, but he had to stay and wait, so the front desk had to call me, but there is a meeting coming up, and you probably won't be able to get away. I wanted to wait until the meeting was over. I'll talk to you after the meeting."

He said, pushed his glasses, and asked me again: "Is it some important guest? Mr. Jiang wants to see him now?"

I shook my head and said blankly: "For those who don't matter, just let him wait."

1174

After the meeting, I left the heads of various departments and asked them to do a good job in this year's year-end summary report.

By the time I was completely busy, several hours had passed.

I asked Assistant Sun: "Are the people in the living room still waiting?"

Assistant Sun said, "I don't know, I'll ask the front desk."

After asking, he said that people are still waiting.

1175

When I arrived at the living room, Lin Shuqi was still there.

He was wearing a beige cashmere sweater with a thin high collar, which made his figure very slender.

I watched it, but only thought about it.

Wouldn't it be cold for him to dress like this?

1176

Xu Zhinian would never dress like this.

He is afraid of the cold, and his bones are not good. At home, Mrs. Wang can't wait to wrap him into a ball, let alone go out.

That's basically full armor.

1177

Seeing me, Lin Shuqi's eyes lit up, she stood up and called me, "Jiang Mingyi."

I nodded at him.

He said: "We haven't seen each other for several years, right? I don't know how you have been these years? I remember that you still..."

I interrupted him and said, "There shouldn't be anything old between us to talk about?"

Lin Shuqi paused.

1178

I looked at him calmly and asked, "You said you have something to talk to me about, what is it?"

"It's like this." Lin Shuqi took out a ticket and handed it to me, "I want to invite you to listen to my concert live."

I didn't answer and rejected him coldly: "Sorry, I'm not free."

Lin Shuqi said: "It's just this Saturday night. It's a VIP ticket. The location is very good. It's in the middle of the first row. Many people are rushing to get it. I specially reserved it for you."

I said, "No need."

Lin Shuqi said: "This is the last stop of my concert tour. I hope you can come to the scene. It's only 2 hours, and it won't waste much of your time."

1179

His talking to himself exhausted what little patience I had left.

I stood up, lowered my voice and said, "Lin Shuqi, I hope you can understand a few things."

Lin Shuqi looked up at me.

I said, "First, I really don't have time."

Lin Shuqi wanted to say something else, but under my indifferent gaze, she slowly shut up.

I went on to say, "Second, I'm not interested in piano, nor in recitals."

"Third, I don't have the slightest interest in you."

1180

An unnatural expression flashed across Lin Shuqi's face: "Jiang Mingyi, I..."

I said, "I made it very clear to you a long time ago."

Lin Shuqi took a deep breath and said, "I thought we were still friends."

I raised my eyebrows: "A friend I haven't contacted for a few years?"

He seemed to be choking on me.

1181

I ignored his expression and said, "I don't like flirting with people, and I don't want to play any friend's tricks with you. Since many people are rushing to get this ticket, you can give it to them."

Lin Shuqi couldn't help but said, "I specially left this for you."

I said lightly, "Even if you give it to me, I won't go."

Lin Shuqi said: "Then I will leave it empty!"

I glanced at him and said, "It's up to you."

1182

It was probably too long since no one had talked to him like this, and Lin Shuqi's chest heaved twice in anger at my categorical rejection.

"Jiang Mingyi." He said, "What the hell is wrong with me?"

I said, "I can't say I hate it, but I can't say I like it either."

He took two steps closer to me, his face turning blue and white.

1183

Only then did I realize that there seemed to be a mole in the corner of Lin Shuqi's eye.

The mole became more conspicuous as his face turned pale.

I frowned and asked him, "Your mole..."

He was puzzled by my sudden change of subject: "What?"

I said coldly, "Have you always had this mole in the corner of your eye?"

He nodded: "Yes, I have had it since I was a child, what's the matter?"

"It's nothing." I lowered my eyes, and my expression became more and more gloomy.

1184

Lin Shuqi made fun of me, and soon left with a cold face.

And I kept thinking about the mole in the corner of his eye.

It looks a little familiar.

1185

I remembered that when I saw Xu Zhinian's face for the first time, he also had such a mole in the corner of his eye.

But it was painted on.

I was still complaining in my heart at the time, thinking that this mole ruined his good-looking face, and I didn't know why he wanted to draw it.

After that, Xu Zhinian never painted moles on his face again, and I gradually forgot about it.

1186

But I understand now.

Because of this mole, his profile was more like Lin Shuqi's.

1187

In Yan Zhizhe's eyes, Xu Zhinian will always be just a stand-in, a substitute for Lin Shuqi.

Because Lin Shuqi had such a mole at the corner of his eye, he also drew a mole on Xu Zhinian's face.

Because Lin Shuqi learned the piano, he forced Xu Zhinian to play the piano.

He wanted to erase Xu Zhinian's self and mold him into a second Lin Shuqi.

1188

For a moment.

I admit.

In the bottom of my heart, I did have an urge to kill Yan Zhizhe.

1189

I knew it was the possessive and destructive desire in my heart that was at work.

I have already enclosed Xu Zhinian in my territory, and when I think of the things that Yan Zhizhe did to him, it feels like a heavy stone is pressed against my chest.

In the past, I always restrained myself from thinking about this matter, because the past is something I cannot change.

I can only slowly guide Xu Zhinian out of the shadows and bring him a new life.

1190

But now I was caught off guard, and those emotions that had been suppressed for a long time burst out in an instant.

There seemed to be a fire burning in the heart, and it seemed that a small crack suddenly opened in the silent abyss.

Something leaked the slightest trace.

I can't wait to--

Can't wait to--

1191

Emotions surged, blood boiled.

I closed my eyes, suppressing the violent thoughts churning in my heart.

I think.

The pain and despair that Xu Zhinian has suffered, one day I will give it all back.

1192

When they got home, Xu Zhinian was making dumplings with Mrs. Wang.

He saw me and wanted to come over, but his hands were covered with flour, so he had to wash his hands first, and then he helped me take off my coat and put it on the hanger.

When he turned around, I hugged him from behind and kissed his neck.

Xu Zhinian's ears turned red all of a sudden: "Sister-in-law Wang, sister-in-law Wang is still watching...!"

1193

I hugged him for a while, then let him go slowly.

"What's wrong?" He asked me, "Mr. Jiang doesn't seem to be in a good mood today, what happened?"

I rubbed the back of his neck and said, "It's nothing, it's just that there are too many things to do in the company, and I'm too tired."

"Oh." Xu Zhinian didn't notice anything, and said, "The dumplings will be wrapped soon, and we'll eat them later."

I said, "Then I'll go take a shower first."

Xu Zhinian responded: "Okay, I'll call you."

1194

Back in the bedroom, I took a quick shower.

In the bathroom mirror, I saw my own face.

His eyes were bloodshot, with a palpitating red.

I dug out the medicine that Dr. Yao prescribed for me, and swallowed a few pills with no expression on my face.

The author has something to say: Moles are related in Chapter 1.

This chapter is very stuck, I hope to get some feedback_(:зゝ∠)_

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