The Swan Bay Murders

When summer came, Jiang Luo and I went to the cemetery in the south of the city to see Berlin.

Yes, we were timid and delayed facing him.

On weekend mornings, my parents went out for a walk with the dog. Jiang Luo and I had nothing to do after breakfast. He leaned on my shoulder and rubbed his belly, and suddenly said, "Brother, let's go see Berlin."

I glanced out the window, the sky was blue, the wind was sunny, and the whole world was clean and beautiful.

They went back to their rooms and changed their clothes, and when they came out of the bedroom, they found that both of them were wearing white shirts tacitly.

Probably, like me, he felt that this meeting with Berlin was very meaningful.

I rarely come to this cemetery in the south of the city.

At the beginning, I was afraid to come here, because when I thought of my brother's death, there was only this cold tombstone left to look at, and I felt uncomfortable.

Later, because I felt ashamed, I fell in love with the person he loved.

I still believe that Berlin loves Jiang Luo, but it's just the wrong way and the wrong path.

For my younger brother, I am still a little ashamed to face it, as if I robbed him of his treasure.

Along the way, Jiang Luo didn't speak much, and looked preoccupied.

"Let's go to the Arctic Village again around the summer solstice," I said.

"Huh?" He turned to look at me with a very cute blank look.

"The last time I went to the New Year's Eve, I didn't see the aurora. The tour guide said that it was easy to see around the summer solstice." We went to the parking lot of the cemetery, parked the car, and walked to the flower shop outside.

"What month is the summer solstice?" Jiang Luo approached me quietly, and the backs of our hands would accidentally touch each other when walking.

I simply held his hand, thought for a while and said, "It's late June, it shouldn't be busy then."

"That's good." Jiang Luo clasped my hand instead, and with the other hand he took out the cell phone in his pocket, "I'll check the date, it will be cheaper to book the ticket earlier, do you want to go with uncle and aunt?"

I looked at him with a smile, leaned into his ear and said, "If you don't take them with you, we'll go on our honeymoon."

Jiang Luo shrank his neck, let go of my hand and ran into the flower shop.

Each of us bought a bouquet of white lilies, and then we kept a distance of half a meter and walked towards Berlin.

The cemetery in the south of the city is surrounded by green plants, and large expanses of poplar trees surround the tombstone in the center.

I don't know if it's a psychological effect, but I always feel that the temperature here is lower than that in the urban area.

We walked up to Berlin and bent down to put down the flowers.

In the photo, he looked at us with a smile and an innocent look.

He is so young and handsome. This youth and handsomeness will always be maintained. When Jiang Luo and I are too old to see him, he will still look like a young man in high spirits.

Both Jiang Luo and I looked at him quietly, as if we were trying to figure out who would be the first to speak up.

I glanced at him and slowly approached him. Their arms were lightly pressed together, and the small arms exposed to the air because of the rolled up sleeves touched slightly.

He shook, and I clasped my fingers together with him.

"Berlin." I said, "I'm with Jiang Luo."

I imagined what Berlin would look like when he heard this sentence, and he would probably lose his temper with me angrily.

Suddenly, it was as if Berlin was actually standing in front of me, and I hurried to explain: "I'm sorry, but we really love each other."

This sentence sounds a little too much. I robbed his lover and used such words to hurt him.

I squeezed Jiang Luo's hand tightly, as if I was afraid that someone would snatch him away.

Jiang Luo said, "Berlin, long time no see, we miss you very much."

There was another silence, and the wind blew over, and a butterfly landed on the tombstone in Berlin.

The butterfly flapped its pale yellow wings twice, then stopped, as if waiting for us to continue talking seriously.

"Actually, I should have come a long time ago." I said, "But I was afraid you would be unhappy, so I delayed until now. I know you will be angry with me, and I apologize to you. I will take good care of Jiang Luo and I will also take good care of him in the future. Mom and Dad. Now we live together and the house is rented, but we are already paying attention to the housing supply and want to buy a house before the end of this year. After all, it is not the case to live in a rented house all the time."

I was embarrassed and didn't know what else to say.

The butterfly flew away, probably because our topic was too boring.

Jiang Luo continued: "When you first left, I really hated you."

I looked at him, his face was slightly red from the scorching sun, and beads of sweat oozed from the tip of his nose.

"It hurts me to think that you keep abandoning me." He kept staring at the tombstone in Berlin, "but at the same time I still love you, and I think every day why we have become like this. Until later, Brother Bai Chuan gave me the answer."

I was surprised because Jiang Luo and I had never discussed this issue.

Regarding Berlin and his tragic relationship with Berlin, we have always avoided it.

We can face many things together, but we can't face this past alone.

"Because we did something wrong from the beginning." He choked up, and I wanted to raise my hand to hug his shoulder, but Jiang Luo still refused to let go of my hand, "If we could be like me and Bai Chuan now If that's the case, then everything will not happen, Berlin, we all like to escape too much."

I understood what he meant, but thought shamefully, it was because of their evasion that I could have Jiang Luo today.

I dare not look at the photos of Berlin again. I think he must have heard the extremely disgusting thoughts just now.

"You're gone, but I'm better off now." Jiang Luo raised his other hand and wiped his eyes, "I still have to thank you, you didn't take me away, but pushed someone better to me in front of."

I didn't know what to say, I could only turn my head and look at the dense bushes next to me.

I heard Jiang Luo say: "I love Brother Bai Chuan very much, I'm sorry, but my savior is actually him."

From the cemetery in the south of the city, we went to the cemetery in the north of the city.

Jiang Luo said that his mother was buried there.

Jiang Luo often visits his mother, and I secretly followed him once before, but at that time, we didn't dare to face our hearts.

As usual, I went to buy flowers after getting off the car. He bought a bouquet of carnations and I bought a bouquet of red roses.

"You want to give this to my mom?" Jiang Luo widened his eyes.

I smiled without saying a word, and walked out with my arms around him.

Jiang Luo looked very much like his mother. The black and white photos of that young woman showed a kind of aura, with delicate features and beautiful eyes.

"I don't know what I was thinking when my mother passed away." There was sadness in his voice, "I didn't know much about love and love at that time, I just thought it was not worth it for her to suffer such torture for someone like my father. After something happened, I seldom chatted with me. I didn’t find the diary when I was packing up her belongings after her death. It was written before she completely collapsed. She resented herself for being blind, and hated that man for violating Chang Lun... ..."

Speaking of this, he frowned, and continued after a long while: "So at the beginning, I also hated my own sexual orientation. I never thought that I would inherit this from that man."

I understand his pain, but I don't know how to comfort him.

"Life seems to have to go through many hurdles. After passing one hurdle, there is another hurdle. Some people get stuck at a certain hurdle and can no longer move forward. Some people are lucky and are led all the way to the Broad road." Jiang Luo took a deep breath, then rubbed his eyebrows, turned to look at me with a smile, "I am the lucky one, until now, it seems that all difficult hurdles have passed, you will have a good time with me Going backwards, right?"

Overjoyed at his trust, I turned to face him, then slowly got down on one knee and handed him the bouquet of roses.

He obviously didn't expect me to act like this, and he was stunned again.

"I'm showing you love." I was actually very nervous when I said it, expressing love to loved ones at the cemetery, not sure if I was the only one.

"Why..." He couldn't stop talking, and took the bouquet of flowers.

"What do you think?" I was still kneeling there, looked up at him and said, "Look what's in the flowers."

He lowered his eyes and searched carefully, and found the ring I hid in the petals.

"Although it's a bit old-fashioned, I still have to think about it." The sun was so hot that I couldn't keep my eyes open, but I really wanted to see Jiang Luo's expression at the moment.

He was in a daze, hugging the flowers in his arms, and holding the ring I gave him in his hand.

He turned his head to the direction of the tombstone and said, "Mom, is this person proposing to me?"

At noon in summer, the sun was killing me.

I got down on one knee among a mass of tombstones, looking silly.

Mr. Li Jiangluo put on the ring by himself, and then took out a flower and handed it to me: "I didn't prepare anything else, this is a token of love, my mother probably... she should agree to us being together."

The author has something to say: Fanwai must be sweet!

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