The Swan Bay Murders

It seems that a new life is really starting, although I still get stuck in everything about Berlin from time to time.

However, it is a good thing not to continue to sink deeper and deeper.

The new year is here, and I'm going to set sail again.

I bought a new notebook and hid in my room at night secretly writing out my plans for the new year.

1. Work hard, no matter whether you stay with Brother Baichuan or go to other places, you can't continue to be decadent 2. Give gifts to your family during the Spring Festival

3. Cultivate one more hobby, such as growing flowers with uncle, or making cakes with auntie 4. Handle the relationship with Xu Zhao well

5. Gain ten pounds

6. Go see the Northern Lights once

When I went there during the New Year's Eve, I didn't get to see the Northern Lights. In fact, I still feel quite regretful.

At that time, I had a photo of Berlin in my pocket, and I always wanted to wait until the Northern Lights appeared, take it out, and take a look with Berlin.

We have come to the place where he last said he wanted to come before he was alive.

It was past ten o'clock when I closed the notebook, I hurried to wash up, and then lay down obediently under the covers.

I've also had very poor sleep these days, but it's slowly getting better, as is my appetite.

Recently, I started to work in Brother Bo Chuan's company. I am very busy every day. As a novice assistant, I have to study and adapt to many things, so naturally I dare not stay up late.

I have been there for almost a week, and I am busy with Brother Bai Chuan from morning to night every day, sorting out meeting notes, arranging his itinerary, and collecting project information...

So full that I don't have time to think about anything else.

Brother Bai Chuan basically worked overtime every night, but he rarely let me accompany him, instead he let me go home first when it was off work time.

I don't want to leave, I want to stay with him, even if I can't help much, it's good to go out and buy him a cup of coffee.

But he missed his uncles and aunts, so I had no choice but to come back.

I was lying in bed, unable to sleep, holding my phone to check the time every few minutes.

It's already 10:30, and Brother Bai Chuan hasn't come back yet.

I couldn't hold back and sent him a message.

The sound of the door opening was heard as soon as the news was sent out. It should be that he came back.

However, the message sent cannot be withdrawn, so I have to stand up so stupidly, pretending that I fell asleep after sending it.

I heard the sound of him going upstairs, his footsteps were very light, probably because he was afraid of waking up his uncle and aunt.

His room was facing the stairs, and I was on the right hand side of his room.

I don't know if it was my illusion, but I felt that he took a few steps towards my room, then hesitated for a moment, then turned back and pushed open his own door.

Soon, my cell phone rang, and it was a message from Brother Bai Chuan.

He didn't say anything else, just told me not to worry, he was home, and finally thanked me very politely.

I stared at the two rows of small print, and suddenly thought of Berlin.

I have to say that although the two brothers have different personalities, sometimes their styles are really similar. For example, the message he sent is very similar to the one Berlin once sent me.

At that time, we just became acquainted, and we had dinner together at night. He took a long way to see me when I got home before leaving. It was the same at that time. I couldn’t sleep, so I sent a message to ask him if he was home. His reply was similar to Brother Bai Chuan’s. exactly the same.

The dead of night brings back memories, which is really sad.

I turned off the phone and forced myself to fall asleep quickly.

I still had a nightmare. At three in the middle of the night, I woke up from the dream in a cold sweat.

In the dream, Berlin grabbed me and yelled, saying that I betrayed him and that I didn't love him.

I panicked and kept explaining that I had never betrayed him, let alone not loving him, but he didn't listen and just scolded me.

Sitting on the bed after waking up, a faint light seeps in through the thin curtains, the room is not too dark, and everything can be seen clearly.

I raised my hand to wipe the sweat from my forehead, my body was wet, and my pajamas were soaked with sweat.

That dream was so scary, it forced me to think of things I didn't want to think of.

It is said that dreams are reversed, and it seems to be true.

But not all of them.

Berlin's betrayal is true, but I still believe his love is also true.

I didn't want to think about it anymore, so I lifted the quilt to change into pajamas.

Just after changing, I heard the sound of walking outside.

I pushed open the door and found that the door of Brother Bai Chuan's room was open.

I was a little curious, so I leaned on the railing of the stairs and looked down. The floor lamp in the living room downstairs was on. Brother Bai Chuan was holding a glass of water and was sitting on the sofa drinking water while looking at his mobile phone.

I walked down slowly, he heard the voice raised his head to look at me.

"Woke you up?" he asked.

I shook my head, walked down and took a glass of water, and explained, "I had a nightmare."

He nodded and looked down at his phone again.

I stood aside, not sure if I should go back to my room or stay with him for a while.

"Aren't you going to sleep?" He suddenly raised his head and asked me.

I hesitated, wondering if my boss was here, should I go first.

He probably looked at me so stupidly, so he laughed.

"Since you don't want to sleep, come over and have a look at this with me. I always feel that there is something wrong with the proposal they sent tonight." He handed over the phone for me to hold, and then crossed his legs, leisurely drinking water.

My brain is not working at all right now, and I can't turn it around. After reading it, I just feel that something is missing, but I can't say what it is.

"Okay," Brother Bai Chuan rubbed my hair again, "Don't force yourself, I won't watch it either, let's talk about it tomorrow, go upstairs and sleep."

He took back his phone, turned off the screen, put the water glass on the table, stood up and stretched.

I looked up at him, and from this angle, he looked more like Berlin.

I was a little lost, until he patted me on the shoulder before I came back to my senses.

I felt so guilty that I thought Brother Bai Chuan was Berlin again.

This time, I didn't drink, but I was still distracted.

He followed behind him with his head drooping, and he was still in a trance when he went upstairs. It took a long time for Brother Bai Chuan to say "good night" to me before he realized it, then said "good night" to him in a panic and got into the room. bedroom.

I shouldn't be like this, I shouldn't think about Berlin anymore, let alone try to find the shadow of Berlin in Brother Bai Chuan.

I blame myself deeply and don't want to do this again.

I was very lethargic the next morning because I didn't sleep well the night before.

But after all, I have to go to work, so I still have to get up early, make breakfast for a family of four, and wait for them to wake up to eat together.

Uncles and aunts recently began to discuss whether to arrange cooking at home in turn because I was at work. Most of the time before, my aunt and I did the cooking. Since I started going to Brother Bai Chuan, I got up very early every day, so the last few times I'm doing it.

I'd love to do it, I'd do anything for this family.

"Let's make a rotation table." The uncle ate his porridge and said to his aunt, "Jiang Luo leaves early and returns late, it's too hard."

In fact, I don't feel tired at all. If I say tired, Brother Bai Chuan is the most tired.

"I don't work hard!" I said quickly, "Anyway, I get up early in the morning, so I don't need to take turns."

"No, no, no." The aunt said, "You can't spoil the two of them like this. We always cook, and they are almost too lazy to die."

So, when I went out with Brother Bai Chuan, my aunt was still saying: "How about this, Bai Chuan will make breakfast tomorrow morning, and if there is enough time, I will also make lunch with your dad."

I wanted to say that I would do it, but Brother Bai Chuan took the lead.

"No problem." He said, "Jiang Luo, think about what you want to eat tomorrow morning, and I will do whatever you say."

One of the questions I often think about recently is how can I meet such a family.

My own original family was torn apart, my father was killed by my mother, and my mother died after going crazy.

I thought that my so-called family would be me and Berlin in the future, but I didn't expect that one day, I would occupy his family.

Uncles, aunts, and Brother Bai Chuan, they are so kind that I am terrified.

I think every day, how can I repay them, the warmth they gave me, and what should I do to repay them.

As the Spring Festival approached, I began to prepare gifts for them.

Nothing of value, just a painting I drew secretly.

In fact, I didn't learn painting on purpose, I just learned it from him when I was with Berlin.

I painted a portrait of each of the three of them, which is not high-level, but full of my heart.

The care and warmth they gave me cannot be repaid with money. If you want to be grateful, you can only use your heart.

I have gradually learned to look away from the pictures of Berlin and back to myself, and I already know that I have to let myself go as far as I used to.

Suddenly, I found out that I was actually very good-for-nothing.

He used to want to live hard for Berlin, but now for his parents and brother, he wants to live a good life with all his might.

In addition to the three paintings, I secretly prepared another gift for Brother Bai Chuan. It was a pair of cufflinks displayed in the window of a small shop I passed by after work one day.

He doesn't seem to have the habit of using cufflinks, but when I saw it, my first reaction was to buy it as a gift for Brother Bai Chuan.

Its price is indeed a bit expensive for me who has just returned to the workplace, but money is the least important thing to me, so I bought it without hesitation.

I personally put the pair of cufflinks into a dark blue velvet box, then carefully wrapped them in beautiful wrapping paper, and tied them with ribbons from the merchant.

This gift has been sleeping in my drawer for a whole month, but I never had the right time to give it to Brother Bai Chuan.

As the Spring Festival approached, I originally agreed that it would be easier after the cooperation was negotiated, but now I know that what he meant by ease was that he didn’t have to work overtime until late at night for two days a week.

It hurts me to see him working so hard.

I already regard him as my own brother, although I never had my own brother, but now I do, he is still a very gentle person.

He still doesn't let me accompany him to work overtime in the company, but I also have my own idea. Every night when I go back, I will accompany my uncle and aunt for a while, and then return to the company. I will go to the coffee shop downstairs to buy two cups of coffee, one for him and one for him. Own.

In the slightly cold office, we are wrapped in thick coats, drinking hot coffee, and busy with work.

I found that I really fell in love with this kind of life.