I have a soft spot for eternal life

He played the piano for Zhang Yang every day, let her read books, and arranged flowers.Zhang Yang told me that she was about to collapse.Actually, I'm also jealous.

But it didn't take long, I became more and more painful, coughing more and more, he couldn't care about anything else.Sometimes I fantasize about how I should say goodbye to him and what to say before I die.Thinking about it, I became irritable, wishing I could die all at once.He doesn't know what I think, but he still worries every day.I looked at him and had suicidal thoughts.