Live up to the Tathagata and fail the Qing

I was actually born by a woman in the Goulanyuan. I didn’t even know who my mother was. No one recognized me, and no one loved me.

Before I picked up the customers, I had to do chores. I went out to buy carmine powder for the most popular brand in the building as usual that day. Who would have thought that I would encounter molestation. Although I will always serve men in my future life, it does not mean that I can tolerate being molested in the street.But the onlookers didn't want to save me, they were still making fun of me. I felt hopeless and wanted to accept my fate and follow them back.

Unexpectedly, a carriage stopped not far away, and then a person came to save me. I thanked him, but he said that his master saved him, so I had no choice but to follow him to thank his master.

The person in the carriage lifted the curtain, glanced at me, and asked, "Girl, which family are you from?"

His voice was so nice, I hesitated to say where I lived, and for the first time felt that God was unfair to me, why was I born in that kind of place?

He thought for a while, let me get into the carriage, I huddled in a corner in the carriage, and he ordered someone to go to the brothel to redeem me, and then kept looking at my face, maybe I lowered my head too much, and heard him say: " Hold your head up."

I raised my head in fear, and closed my eyes tightly, not daring to look at him.

When the carriage stopped, I saw that I had arrived in the palace. I looked at him hastily, and he comforted me and said, "Follow him later, and he will make arrangements for you."

"I'm afraid." I said the fear in my heart.

"Don't be afraid, I will see you." After he finished speaking, he asked someone to take me away, and he walked in another direction.

When I was not far from him, I seemed to hear him say: "I hope she won't be used in the future."

she?

Is it me?What use am I?

Sure enough, he kept his promise to visit me, but not often. When he came, I was learning etiquette from my mother, and he just watched from a distance, not intending to approach me.

But I remember that he wore bright yellow clothes every time he came back, and I remember that every time he looked at me with envious eyes, I often didn't know what to envy, his eyes were actually more desolate and lonely.Later, he asked me to go to the study, and I saw a man kneeling in front of him. He asked the man named Chu Rui to marry me, and Chu Rui agreed. He turned his back to Chu Rui and faced me. I could clearly see the despair and sadness in his eyes, and I really wanted to comfort him, but I was not qualified. In the end, I followed Chu Rui back home, and Chu Rui set a date to marry me.

Chu Rui treats me very well, but the better Chu Rui treats me, the more I think of his eyes.I finally understood his feelings for Chu Rui, and occasionally wondered if Chu Rui would be happier if he treated him so well, I have never seen him happy.

I treat Chu Rui the same as Chu Rui treats me. On the surface, we respect each other like a guest. In fact, everyone has no feelings for each other. Chu Rui often looks at me in a daze, as if looking at another person through me. I understand that marrying Chu Rui When I was Rui Rui, I understood the reason why he chose me, because my eyebrows and eyes resembled his.However, I don't care, I am very happy that I can do one thing for him.

Later, he sent a secret guard to send a message, asking me to take Chu Rui to the teahouse, and I obediently took Chu Rui there.

Since then, I have never seen him again. Chu Rui returned to the mansion depressed and treated me as usual, but Chu Rui often locked himself in the study. I went in once and saw Chu Rui draw a lot His portrait, but no matter how many paintings there are, it is useless. I remember the broken eyes in his eyes when he left the restaurant. Chu Rui will never see him again.

Sure enough, as I guessed, he was sick and Chu Rui was worried, and wanted to go in to see him, but he refused.On the day of his death, he didn't let Chu Rui see him for the last time.Seeing Chu Rui's heartbroken look, I laughed in my heart that Chu Rui didn't cherish her.

I didn't say the above to Chu Rui, because after I gave birth to my son, he sent someone to secretly send me a letter. The letter was very short, and the content probably hoped that I could treat Chu Rui well, that I could get happiness.

I will do it, bring my lovely son together, I ask my master to teach my son to read and write, I hope my son can be as good as him.

I am very happy, really.