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dor", in the words of his mother), severely punished Severus, who admitted his motives, and demanded that his mother hand over a fine of 10 Galleons. —Merlin knew that 10 Galleons meant that Severus' whole family After being starved for several days, Severus and his mother were beaten by his father several times. The beatings from his father were nothing, and Severus was used to it. But what made him extremely sad was that for those ten Galleons, his mother The first time he hit him hard. After that, his mother dropped Severus out of school, and she herself taught Severus occasionally in her spare time at home.

During that time, for Severus who dropped out of school, meeting Lily, a little witch who didn't dislike him or laugh at him, was simply a blessing from heaven.However, he also knew that there were too few people like Lily, and he couldn't expect everyone to be as good as Lily.

With previous experience, Severus naturally didn't dare to get close to Lucius, he was afraid that he would become the object of ridicule again.

The truth was, greasy-haired, ugly, withdrawn Severus really didn't need much help in becoming the laughing stock of the school.Even Severus' outstanding academic performance became the reason for his exclusion.

In depression, coming to provoke James Potter and Sirius Black is really the best target to vent their anger.In terms of magic, Severus didn't have the slightest problem single-handedly with any of them, but with the two together... there are still some problems.At the very beginning, James Potter and Sirius Black also tried to use their strong bodies grown under good nutrition conditions to beat Severus in the Muggle way, but how could Severus, who has survived in the Muggle slums until now, be afraid of two people? The fighting skills of a rich young master?Relying on his stalking and extremely shameless hand-to-hand style, he quickly made the whole school understand a truth: when fighting, you must never appear within the reach of Severus Snape's arms.

Soon, there were three people who beat Severus: James Potter, Sirius Black, and Peter Pettigrew.The two young masters, who had been defeated and fought repeatedly, felt that they had an extra helper on their side, and they should be able to suppress that snot-nosed man in hand-to-hand combat. Severus' reaction was to push Pettigrew, the only one of the three opponents who was shorter than himself, into a corner, and let Potter and Black kick him, which was to beat Pettigrew who kept begging for mercy.

One of the results of that gang fight was that Pettigrew had mental barriers to even raising his wand against Severus, let alone fighting with Severus, so James Potter and Sirius Black had to turn the provocative method into a magic duel again—only When they were two, they suffered too much in hand-to-hand combat.

Another achievement was to make Lucius really notice Severus Snape.

Lucius later admitted that he had taken a liking to the lone wolf ruthlessness in Severus.Among the Slytherins who generally pride themselves on cunning and intrigue, there is nothing special about a first-year freshman who is good at potions, but that kind of indomitable momentum, ignoring his own life and the lives of others, is what connects most Gryffindor students. Neither are available.

Lucius the prefect didn't hesitate to punish the Gryffindors for the brawl, and escorted the victim, Severus, to the hospital wing himself.Lucius slipped a chocolate frog into Severus' palm while the medi-witch was furious at him for sending herself to the ward again.

The black-haired child who always looked at Lucius quietly never imagined that the god-like boy would be so kind to him.He had hidden the chocolate frog for a long time, and he was reluctant to eat it.

After that, Lucius would occasionally show up at the right moment when Severus was dueling with James Potter and others (that is, when Severus was at a disadvantage), scolded the young Gryffindor, and then took Severus to the medical wing, or stuffed Severus A few bottles of potions.

When this happened a few times, Severus suddenly took the initiative to find Lucius.He put a few bottles of blood tonic, wound cleanser, and nutritional potion that he brewed on the table one by one, and expressed his gratitude stiffly with unfamiliar etiquette.At the same time, he said with embarrassing self-confidence that these potions were brewed by himself, and the effect should be comparable to that given to him by Lucius.

How could Lucius have believed at that time that a first-year little bean could brew a potion that was on par with the advanced potions on the market.However, out of politeness, he still tasted the potions.The conclusion was - well, with his not-so-low level of potions, he couldn't tell which one was better, but at least Severus' potions were of a good quality.

According to Lucius' own admission, he later mailed the potions to several potion masters outside to let them evaluate the effects of these potions.The conclusion reached was that the quality of the potion produced by Severus was indeed comparable to the middle and high-grade potions sold in the market.

As an adult, Severus guessed that it was that experience that made his status in Lucius' heart, from a cold-blooded killer he carefully bought, to a potion master to be trained.However, Severus in the first year only knew that Lucius treated him better: Lucius bought a lot of potion ingredients for him, and what he asked for in return was only three quarters of the finished product.The young Severus was very excited, and brewed a lot of potions related to trauma treatment in one go, which made Lucius dumbfounded. (Later, Lucius joked to Severus, who was making a lot of healing potions for the medical wing, that the healing potions he received in a few months were enough to last the Hogwarts medical wing for a year, which also foretold Severus will spend most of his life on providing potions for the medical wing. Another: At that time, Lucius purchased a large number of raw materials for healing potions and sold finished products, which caused the price of raw materials to rise and the price of finished products to fall, which made Lucius' profit fall more than expected a lot.)

Before the first year's summer break, Severus mustered up his courage and approached Headmaster Dumbledore for the first time: he wanted to apply for summer stay.

The old headmaster, who was smiling at the students all the time, offered Severus a candy, while rejecting Severus' request: "Severus, I don't think that's a good idea. Children should spend more time with their families, shouldn't they?"

Of course Severus wanted to be with his mother, but when he thought of his father's fist, he didn't shudder. After much deliberation, Severus decided to use his expertise to concoct a potion that could make people lose their strength for a long time and could no longer hit people.

Lucius just sighed at Severus when he found out about it, and wished him luck.

Soon, Severus learned the reason for Lucius' sigh. At the end of the summer vacation, Severus finally found the opportunity to drink the potion in Tobias Snape's spirits. Sure enough, there was no beating that night, only a disgusting man who was as soft as mud.

Severus' overexcited expression aroused the suspicion of the Prince's witch.After checking, she quickly discovered her husband's poisoning.And the residual potion found in her son's room told her who the culprit who seemed to be making a show of merit was.The witch, who was blinded by the love in her fantasy, beat her son half to death like crazy, and then hurried to Diagon Alley to buy the raw materials of the antidote and brew the antidote for her husband.

The 12-year-old boy was lying on the bed, not wanting to drink those healing potions that he had hidden: what's the use of drinking them?It's okay to be beaten by that man, but my mother...

Severus had never been so disappointed in that witch.

Unknowingly poisoned and detoxified, Tobias Snape woke up energetically and beat his wife and children again.Only this time, the woman who was always dodging looked at him with joyful eyes.This made the man even more upset, so his fist landed harder.

The boy who had been beaten again ran out of the house and limped alone in the early morning streets.Only during this time, he knew, did the dangerous nocturnal creatures of the slums appear less frequently on the streets.

When Severus saw Lucius only two blocks away from his house, he thought he must be hallucinating: how could Lucius Malfoy be in such a place?

Unexpectedly, Lucius not only really appeared, but also came to find him. Lucius took him to his personal witch doctor and politely exited the consulting room.At that time, Severus really appreciated Lucius' advance and retreat: he really didn't want Lucius to see his ugly, scarred body.

After Severus came out of the consulting room, Lucius looked at Severus sincerely and said, "Severus, let me protect you."

——What kind of feeling does it feel to be protected and cared for?

Severus might have had that experience before showing his magical talent, but he really couldn't remember it now.Looking at the angelic Lucius, the black-haired child foolishly nodded to the platinum-haired boy.

"In the wizarding world, parents hold the natural control over their children, and I have no right to interfere with anything your parents do to you now." Lucius said regretfully.

"Then... what should I do?" Severus clenched his fists nervously, fearing that he would be rejected again.

Lucius' face was serious: "Unless I take you away from your parents."

Severus bit his lip nervously: Of course he wanted to leave that disgusting man, but Mom...

The 12-year-old boy couldn't make decisions for a while.

Lucius continued to seduce Severus: "Then, you can follow me home, and there will be a room for you in Malfoy Manor. By the way, I told you that Malfoy Manor is recognized by the Ministry of Magic for educating young wizards." Where, are underage wizards allowed to perform magic during the holidays?"

The black-haired child rolled his eyes and couldn't help but ask, "Then... where are the books and potions?"

Lucius smiled broadly. "Of course! You could even have your own potions lab—well, technically mine, but my time there is basically negligible."

Then, Lucius hugged Severus gently: "There, there is more happiness than you can imagine."

Looking into Lucius's bewitching gray-blue eyes, Severus nodded blankly.

Severus doesn't know how Lucius got his parents to sign the contract, all he knows is that Lucius took advantage of the insane mind of a drunk Muggle man desperate for booze money, and a man who felt deeply that he didn't have it. The self-blame of a witch who can protect children.But those details were unimportant, what was important: Severus Snape had since become Lucius Malfoy's patron, part of the Malfoy family estate.

It is difficult for Severus to describe in words the shock he felt when he entered Malfoy Manor for the first time, but every time he thought about it, all he could think of was Abraxas Malfoy's disdainful eyes and mean words when he looked at him: "Lucius, I always thought You like beautiful and delicate things."

Being criticized by his father, Lucius hastily settled the frustrated Severus into a small house in the corner of the garden, and ran back to please his father.

Severus could figure out that the little house was for the servants of the manor, but that wasn't his concern: What if Lucius listened to his father and threw me out of the manor?

Of course, Severus wasn't kicked out of the manor.Only, during the last days of summer vacation, Severus never saw Lucius again.Even after school started, the dazzling Slytherin prefect never once spoke to him in public.His contact with Lucius was limited to potion materials and letters, lots of letters, from house-elves.

The Lucius in the letter is different from the Lucius who usually looks unattainable. He is humorous, ironic, and approachable.Most of all, he cared about Severus.In a letter, Lucius wrote: "Severus, please forgive me for not being able to express my concern for you in front of people. People always tend to hide their most precious things from others to see, and my most precious , it is you, my Severus."

Second-year Severus foolishly accepted this unusually retarded reason.To this day, Severus still believes that part of it was true, that it was something Lucius would actually do: seeing how Lucius sang a lullaby to Draco, who had soiled his well-groomed hair, with a smirk on his face People, would never doubt Lucius' love for Draco.However, Lucius clearly considered that love a weakness of his own.Therefore, when Draco was a little older, he pretended not to care about his son in front of almost everyone.

Before the second year was over, Lucius had written a letter asking Severus to live at Malfoy Manor during the summer.Thinking of Lucius' father's cold and contemptuous eyes, Severus didn't want to go to the manor: What if I go to live for a long time, and Lucius hates me like his father?When writing letters, he couldn't see my ugliness, but when we were face to face...

So, Severus asked to go back to his own house for a while on the grounds that he missed his mother.

Days after that letter was sent, Severus hadn't heard from Lucius.He thought dejectedly in his heart: It's over, now Lucius hates me too...

Unexpectedly, Lucius intercepted Severus on his way to the lab and dragged the boy to the Room of Requirement on the eighth floor.There, Severus saw the devil side of Lucius for the first time.The angelic-faced boy growled viciously, telling how ungrateful and ungrateful Severus was, how he fought against his father to keep Severus.

So, Severus ushered in his punishment, the punishment of tearing the 13-year-old's body apart.

Facing Severus who was cowering on the bed, the boy who was just as terrifying as a devil suddenly returned to his angelic appearance.He knelt beside Severus, crying as he healed the damage he had done, saying it was all because he cared too much for Severus, and he couldn't bear losing Severus.As long as Severus listened to him well, he would treat Severus well too.

As an adult, Severus had wondered how his life would have been different if he hadn't forgiven Lucius and instead turned to Dumbledore for help.Legally speaking, Lucius just took possession of his property, and even Dumbledore couldn't punish Lucius for it.However, Severus actually had a chance: when Abraxas was still alive, as long as Dumbledore could persuade the patriarch of the Malfoy family who didn't think much of Severus, it was still possible to redeem Severus' personal freedom.

Contrary to Severus' expectations, he did spend more than half of his second year's summer vacation at his own home: not long after he arrived at Malfoy Manor, Abraxas fell seriously ill. Lucius seemed to think that Severus was one of the causes of Abraxas' serious illness, and he couldn't wait to throw Severus back to the Muggle slums.

Just when Severus thought he was completely screwed, Lucius wrote another thick letter.In that letter, Lucius apologized for his faux pas, saying that his father's serious illness had caused him to lose his sanity.Then, as if nothing had happened, Lucius began to describe his feelings again.

After third year started, Severus almost watched Lucius wither away.The chairman of the male student union is busy with the business at home while dealing with homework and the tasks of the student council chairman. Severus still couldn't figure out how Lucius had found the time to write those increasingly thick letters.

Abraxas Malfoy had died during the second term of Severus' third year, leaving behind a large fortune and an heir who had since sealed himself off behind the perfect mask of aristocrat.During that time, the number of orders for energy potions and nutritional potions for Severus skyrocketed.

After Abraxas' death, Lucius didn't let Severus move back to Malfoy Manor, he just found a small villa outside to accommodate Severus during his vacation.This arrangement made Severus feel more comfortable: the portraits of the Malfoys (now with an extra Abraxas Malfoy) were so annoying!

Lucius, who was busy, always stayed with Severus less often, and when he occasionally visited, he couldn't say a few words, so he was so tired that he fell asleep on the sofa, and the rape that worried Severus never happened again.After a few times, Severus began to laugh at himself in his heart: what are you thinking about, how can someone as beautiful as Lucius have a crush on you?

Fourth grade without seeing Lucius had been extraordinarily difficult.Without the motivation of seeing Lucius every day, Severus became less and less concerned about his appearance.Despite hanging out with a bunch of would-be Death Eaters, Severus still suffered from the ostracism within Slytherin.He knew that the group of people brought him with them just to copy his Potions and Charms homework.But so what?Without Lucius' shadowy protection, he had to find a way to protect himself.

Fifth grade was a complete nightmare for Severus.With fond dreams of expelling the Gryffindor quartet, Severus walked into the tunnel, only to almost turn himself into a werewolf.Lucius, who came to hear the news, was furious, but in the end he helped Dumbledore, convincing himself to keep what Black was doing a secret.There was no other reason, but Lucius was going to marry the youngest daughter of the Black family.Although Lucius got a compensation from Black's family for him, Severus would rather not have that modest sum of money: because of that sum, both Sirius Black and James Potter knew that Severus was like Lucius' servant.Even though Black and Potter couldn't tell anyone directly about it, at Dumbledore's request, it was inevitable that people would call Severus "Malfoy's pug".For this reason, Severus hated Black and Potter even more, and Lucius with it.

Breaking up with Lily brought Severus' fifth year to a disastrous end.

Staying in the little villa where Lucius had placed him, reading the news that Lucius had married Narcissa, Severus felt that the world was coming to an end.

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The 16-year-old wizard didn't want to admit his love for Lucius, because that just represented how overwhelmed and delusional he was.

What the mixed-race teenager didn't expect was that on the third day of their wedding, Lucius visited him.That day, Lucius spoke sweet words that were more intoxicating than spirits to the resisting Severus, and finally took the boy to bed.That night, it was a bone-deep physical pleasure, an endless demand for anything and everything.

Despite knowing how immoral it was for him to be with a married man like this, Severus never once summoned up enough courage to say "no" to Lucius.

At that time, Severus comforted himself by saying: At least, I'm not a murderer like Black.But a mere year later, the facts proved that not only was Severus capable of murder, but the first murder was an unforgivable crime like "father killing".

One day during the summer break after sixth grade, Severus was called out of the lab by an alarm spell placed at home.When he showed up at home using the Portkey, the witch who had been named Prince could no longer open her eyes.Not even Severus, who was good at potions and healing spells, could bring back a lost soul.And the culprit of all this is still shouting and cursing at the top of the stairs, saying Eileen, you witch, why don't you bring water up. Severus was thinking about how to punish the man when Tobias Snape slipped, rolled down the stairs and broke his neck.As a grown Death Eater with dozens of lives on his hands, Severus still couldn't explain how calm and cold-blooded he was then. Severus stared blankly at the man gasping for air in a puddle of mud on the floor, his eyes hinting at his son using the wand he loathed to save him. Severus Snape just watched peacefully as Tobias Snape vomited blood, convulsed, and finally lost his life.

Then, Severus began to produce evidence of his innocence.He activated the portkey and went back to the small villa where he lived these days. A devil flame destroyed the portkey.Then, he rushed out of the villa, waved his wand to summon the Knight Bus, and anxiously urged the driver to drive away. Severus hopped off the bus on the block near home and made a spectacular dash all the way home.Under the malicious prying eyes of his Muggle neighbors, he opened the door with a key. Severus didn't need to feign grief over the loss of his mother.He frantically threw Healing and Resuscitating Charms at his mother until the Ministry of Magic staff, who had detected magic among the Muggles, arrived belatedly.But how many people can really blame a teenager who just lost his mother? Severus was quickly acquitted under Lucius' manipulation.

From the way Lucius looked at him, Severus knew that in Lucius' mind, he probably killed Tobias Snape with his own hands, instead of just watching him die. Severus thought that Lucius, who loved his father so much, would leave such a terrible patricide like him.Unexpectedly, Lucius instead saw a bigger direction for Severus' development: Death Eaters.

When the sharp Legilimency strangled Severus almost to death from the red-eyed wizard, the intrusion finally broke off.The Dark Lord saw what satisfied him: the same ambitious half-blood as himself, the same pure-blood but incompetent witch mother, the same disappointing Muggle father, and even the same crime of patricide. —Is there a better follower than this?

Being a half-blood, Severus quickly and surprisingly stood out from the crowd of pure-blood Death Eaters, achieving a high position that many people were envious of.Even after betraying the Dark Lord, Severus couldn't forget the kindness the Dark Lord had shown him.He admitted that without the guidance of the Dark Lord, he might not be able to become the master of black magic he is now.Another point, which he was reluctant to admit, was that the Dark Lord's attention allowed him to finally have an independent identity other than "Lucius' pug", even though that identity was a key member of a criminal group.

However, as the Dark Lord became more insane, Severus had to doubt his mentor's sanity. Severus had actually reported Trelawney's prophecy to the Dark Lord as a joke for mocking Dumbledore.He thought that this crazy woman's desperate (and very innovative) job application, plus Dumbledore's act of taking such a thing seriously, would make the Dark Lord smile and make him somehow forget that he had failed to apply to Dumbledore things, the punishment is slightly lighter.

Unexpectedly, Voldemort took that ridiculous prophecy seriously.Also, the prophesied baby could be Lily's son.

Severus was dumbfounded: Lily, the beautiful Lily, the sweet Lily, the only Lily who ever treated me sincerely, is going to be hunted down because of my mistake?

After pleading with the Dark Lord and only getting a few dozen Cruciatus Curse, Severus went to Lucius again.

That day, Severus tasted the Cruciatus Curse from Lucius for the first time.The light-blond long-haired Death Eater cursed Severus for his ignorance, now his lover, and even made him, a worthless half-breed, his son's godfather, and he Still thinking about that dirty bastard woman!

While Severus ostensibly succumbed to Lucius' violence-apology cycle, he privately wrote a letter to Dumbledore, and he's been a double agent ever since.

After Voldemort's first defeat, Severus walked out of the prison gates on Dumbledore's bail.He thought that Lucius would never forgive himself for his betrayal.

Unexpectedly, when they met again, Lucius just looked at Severus complicatedly, and sighed: "Unexpectedly, you have grown to such a big size!" and let Severus lightly go.

During the years of coaching, Dumbledore repeatedly reminded Severus of Lily's purity and beauty, and hinted that Lucius was not worthy of Severus' heart.Every time he thought of that scene, Severus felt ironic: I've already betrayed the Dark Lord for Lily, isn't that enough?Besides, Headmaster Dumbledore clearly had the right to refuse Lucius to enter the Potions Master's office along the fireplace, but he never did that once. What Dumbledore is really looking forward to is probably a double agent whose heart completely betrayed Lucius to act as Lucius' lover, and then go get information at the right time, right?

Among the long letters, short meetings, and co-teaching Draco, ten years of peaceful years slipped by like clouds, and now I can hardly grasp any details in retrospect.

Severus just knew that during this time, Lucius had grown closer spiritually to himself.Sometimes, two people's hearts are so close that there is only a layer of paper between them, and they will stick together with a light poke.But most of the time, the two people seem to be separated by the stone wall of Hogwarts Castle and the thick Black Lake. No matter how they try, there is a hard, cold and indestructible barrier between them.

With the admission of Draco and the Savior, the peaceful days were gone forever.It was as if Severus was cursing Dumbledore yesterday for taking the Philosopher's Stone as a savior clearance game prize, and the next day the little green-eyed bastard was captured by the Dark Lord and revived with his blood.

The days following the Dark Lord's resurrection were darker than ever for Lucius and Severus.The endless summoning and crazy killing made even a person like Lucius who insisted on pure blood and respected strength doubt the Dark Lord's sanity.In the end, Lucius made a rather unwise choice: he sent himself into Azkaban, thinking that by doing so he would escape the harsher reckoning that would follow the Dark Lord's inevitable defeat.

The Dark Lord's punishment for Lucius' failure was simple: hit Draco.

When Dumbledore asked Severus to kill him instead of Draco, Severus was angry and terrified.Because, that would mean Severus committed patricide again.

—Yes, "again".Only this time, Severus couldn't just watch the death of a criminal who had killed his own mother, but wanted to kill Dumbledore with his own hands, whom he considered a friend, and even an idealized father.

Severus couldn't recall that horrible night in the Astronomy Tower now.However, what he couldn't face even more was the child who was soft and kind until his death.If he could really save Draco's life, Severus would rather kill Dumbledore ten thousand times, or kill himself ten thousand times.

Therefore, when Severus heard the portrait of Draco needing help on the stairs of Malfoy Manor, he decided without hesitation to accompany Draco himself.

——As for the method, is there anything more suitable for himself, a patricide villain, than falling down the stairs?

Severus didn't even bat an eye, just