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Du Chaoan was afraid of early morning phone calls.

He had heard all kinds of bad news on the phone at this moment.For example, my mother jumped down from the [-]th floor in front of my father and his mistress, her first investment was swept away by her partner and she went bankrupt instantly, and Ruan Yu unfortunately fell off a cliff after returning to China to climb a mountain.

He is 40 years old this year, he is in a high position, and he has seen many storms and waves, but he was panicked that day, and even when the contact person went to pick up Ruan Yu, his voice choked up several times.

Ruan Yu was very special to him.It's a secret that can't be said under the heavy heart.

When he was 30 years old, he had a small success in his career, and it has been 6 years since he was calculated by his girlfriend and friends at the time to make him bankrupt.He made a comeback and was proud of himself.He does have a talent for business.

In his 30 years of life experience, he may be able to write a book about investment, but there is only one sentence about love, that is, the more serious he is, the sadder he will be. There is no scum left after being bitten.This is the nature of seeking advantages and avoiding disadvantages.

He felt that he was very handsome, he was not short of money, nor was he short of good friends, and if he wanted to have sex, people would line up to come.The more this kind of life is repeated, the more dependent it becomes, and the less I want to change.When many people summed up the most important decisions in his life, they said that Du Chao'an was brave, and his courage was beyond human reach.Only he himself knows that he is actually a coward.He was afraid of settling down with someone.

His father, Du Weiguo, was rigid and strict, beating and scolding him and his mother frequently. At that time, he was thinking of escaping from his father's control every day, but the teenage boy was sallow and thin, with marks of whipping on his body, and he seemed to never see the light of day. Can't live to escape the day.However, the mother has long been extreme and sharp in the beating, and sometimes even finds faults and beats him.It seemed that beating Du Weiguo's son was like beating Du Weiguo, and it gave her a perverted sense of satisfaction.

When he was a child, he heard that there was a kind of water ghost called a water monkey, which would drag the feet of a drowning person to prevent him from surfacing.He felt like he was being pulled by the water monkey of life.

Fortunately, he was quick-witted. He was admitted to the best local high school and immediately chose to live on campus. He practiced English every day. At that time, he was thinking about applying to study abroad as soon as possible and staying abroad.At that time, he had a PHS, which he bought from a part-time job, and occasionally used it to contact some places where he worked.

In the early morning of his sophomore year, he received a call from the police.His mother broke through the adultery, lost control and jumped off the building.

For a minute he was thankful for his mother, thinking that she was finally out of the sea of ​​suffering, and he was happy for himself, at least he didn't have to be beaten by his mother.I have no feelings for my mother at all.

Afterwards, he raised himself entirely by himself, determined to get rid of the shadow of his original family, so he pretended to be a dog, and everyone thought he came from a scholarly family with a loving father and mother.

When he thought he was completely free from those shadows, he found that no, he couldn't imagine himself having a family.Even, he hates family.When he sees a harmonious family of three on the street, he can't help showing malice in his heart. The man may have just had a good time, and the woman may complain that the man is incompetent, and they are not happy at all.

He was obsessed with the sensuality of the guild hall.

Ruan Yu was really thin at that time, with soft hair, delicate features, and the childishness of a teenager, and his eyes were full of dislikes.He noticed several times that when Ruan Yu thanked the guests, the indifference in his eyes and the sincerity of his expression were very inconsistent, but also cute.

He more or less learned about Ruan Yu from his mother Sang.

Inexplicably, I developed a caring mentality. Although I don't like to eat fruit plates, I will order some specially, and then put a little tip, hoping that the boy can live a better life.

This is probably a kind of compensatory psychology, like compensating for the past self.When he was a teenager, he hoped that someone would save him every day, but as long as there was one person who offered a helping hand, he would not have such a hard time.He gave Ruan Yu money and encouragement, as if he was giving to his former self.

He didn't expect Ruan Yu to fall in love with him.

Of course, no one will take young people's love seriously.A gust of wind passed.He himself can't remember who he liked when he was a teenager.

This was probably the wrong start, knowing that Ruan Yu liked her, but pretending not to see it.

But because he knew that the other party liked him, he paid more attention to it.So he fell in too.

He heard that Ruan Yu's sister had recently hooked up with an old man in his fifties, opened a factory, and had a lot of savings.The old man is intoxicated by the gentleness, so if he doesn't care about it, he will probably lose his head and marry such a woman.

He earnestly planned the lives of the children in the guild hall who had met for several times, and found that whether his sister found someone to take over and remarry, or remained a chicken for the rest of her life, the lives of the children were not very good.His sister really doesn't care about him.

At that time, his career in Europe was on the rise, and he was so busy every day that he was about to go there for development, and he didn't know when he would return to China.The more he thought about it, the more irritable he became, until Ruan Yu came to confess, he suddenly calmed down.

He wants to take this little friend with him.

But this decision was too impulsive, not his style.Besides, he has no plans to have children.So he said, "You take the IELTS test first, and if you pass the test, I'll think about it later."

It is a buffer period for each other.

On the first day when Ruan met Britain, I can vividly remember what his expression was, what he did and what he ate.

He touched the coin that Du Chaoan handed him, and kept rubbing it, saying that he would treasure it. This was the first time he saw foreign money.He poked his neck in the car and pointed at Du Chaoan, very excited.

His beginning is always like this: "Hey, Du Chaoan, look..."

He corrected him many times, asking Ruan Yu to call him elder brother and uncle, not his full name.But Ruan Yu would rather say "Hello" than change it.After three days of listening to "Hey, look..." Du Chaoan compromised.

Then there was another sound in my ear: "Hey, Duchao Anbalabala"

Ruan Yu is a person who can pretend things in his heart.

Du Chao'an also thought about whether it was because he felt like he was depending on others, so he was so cautious, wishing to figure out people's thoughts, and would not say a single wrong word.But I am really busy, the child is brought here, and there is no extra time to take care of it.

Later, he slept with Ruan Yu, which was something he had thought of, but also didn't think of.

He never objected to sleeping with Ruan Yu, but in his heart, he always felt that he couldn't mess with Ruan Yu.He felt that Ruan Yu should have a bright future instead of continuing to work in the guild hall in another place - if Ruan Yu stayed in the guild hall, he would probably follow his sister's old path.

He was particularly unwilling to regard Ruan Yu as a catharsis of desire.

But he did it anyway.I can't explain why, but I was impulsive.For several years afterwards, he indulged in having sex with Ruan Yu while feeling a strong sense of guilt.

The first time they were done, he was thinking that sooner or later they would be separated.Ruan Yu was too young, he didn't meet many people, so he only saw himself.If they are together, they will eventually tire of each other.Ruan Yu would think that this old man is very boring.Because he has no hobbies at all other than making money, and he doesn't even understand the Internet buzzwords of young people.Waiting until that time, it would be too miserable, it is better not to start.

It's good to be a bed partner.

He was willing to lay out a bright future for Ruan Yu.

When Ruan Yu walked back to his room with his clothes in his arms, his heart softened.I almost said a sentence you should stay and sleep with me.But hold back.Du Chaoan felt that he had strong restraint.Although he couldn't restrain his insomnia that night.

Maybe hug him and let him go.

Du Chaoan stubbed out the cigarette.

For about four years, Du Chaoan felt that being alive was something worth looking forward to.He would want to go home after he finished his work, although the guy at home might go to bed after finishing his homework.

He found that Ruan Yu seemed to like eating candy, and he liked to collect weird candy wrappers.He thought it was a collection habit, so every time he went on a business trip, he would buy sweets with beautiful wrappers and bring them back.Ruan Yu was very serious when eating candy, even more serious than when he was doing homework.Seriously cute.He will keep the candy in his mouth, and make a small circle on his cheek until the candy completely melts in his mouth, and then lick his own mouth with the tip of his tongue.Ruan Yu would be very disappointed after eating candy.He began to fold the candy wrappers, then carefully put them away.

After Ruan met university, he felt very lonely.

He came home empty.

After drinking two extra bottles of wine, he got under Ruan Yu's blanket.He slept soundly on Ruan Yu's small bed.

After waking up, Du Chaoan found a private detective and asked him to follow Ruan Yu, just take a few photos and report his current situation casually.

Ruan Yu's temper is very dull, and he doesn't like to take the initiative in everything. Sometimes he also hopes that Ruan Yu can make more phone calls, but he never does.Ruan Yu never took the initiative to contact him unless it was urgent.Sometimes he even suspects that Ruan Yu doesn't like him anymore, out of gratitude or other messy reasons, he has been reluctantly sleeping with him.Of course he couldn't bear to ask, after all, he was the one who said at the beginning that he was only a bed partner.

Later, his good friend Li Jingbai, um, Fu Guangxin's boyfriend, asked him if he was getting older and began to behave like a woman.He knew in his heart that his heart softened because of a kid who loves candy.That's really not a good sign.

The private detective sent him a picture of Ruan Yu playing hockey with someone, sweating profusely and smiling happily.

Du Chaoan felt that he had never seen Ruan Yu smile like that.He should really smile more.Although I really wanted to cover that smiling face, I was reluctant to show it to others.

He made a hasty decision.

Du Chaoan is already in his fourth year, but Ruan Yu is only in his early twenties, and he can't see anything now. In a few years, when he becomes a five-year-old man, Ruan Yu will still be in his best years.Du Chaoan had never been in a relationship before, so he didn't know that the relationship needed to be discussed by both parties, and he was not confident whether there was any relationship in it. He was used to being authoritarian, so he decided to withdraw first, while Ruan Yu was still young.

That day, he had talked business with Li Jingbai and Fu Guangxin, drank and chatted, but the doggy man opposite him was extremely bright and blind, and he didn't know how to write in a low-key private party.In particular, Fu Guangxin was wearing a low-necked T-shirt, revealing the marks of his neck being bitten by a dog.

Du Chaoan had a headache, and he was a little envious. He hadn't had sex with Ruan Yu for a long time.

As a result, halfway through drinking, he received a text message from the detective, saying that Ruan Yu had bought a ticket back to Du Chaoan's side, and it would take two hours to get home.

Du Chaoan looked at the indifferent young man sitting in the waiting room in the photo, rubbed his phone, and said to Fu Guangxin, "Can I help you?"

Sure enough, Ruan Yu ran away in anger.Ruan Yu is actually quite a self-respecting child.

He felt he would never come back.

Until Ruan Yu fell off the cliff, was unconscious, and was sent to him again.

He felt that he had a lot to say to Ruan Yu, but he didn't know how to say it.He wants to say that I know you are going to do the matching, but you don't have to be so kind. The matter between Lin Qi and me is to fool the media. She is dying, and she is using me as a cover to fight for her brother's family property; he wants to say You look so good in a bachelor’s uniform, attractive and abstinent; he wanted to say that I was always afraid that you would think I was old, do you think it’s too old for me to be in my teens? He wanted to say that I still keep the couplets you wrote, and I Later, I found someone to build a small Chinese-style villa. When will you go there to post Spring Festival couplets?

Just wait for him to wake up!When he woke up, all these words were spoken.

Of course Du Chaoan didn't have time to say it in the end.

Ruan Yu looked at him after waking up and said, "My lower back is so itchy, can you scratch it?"

Du Chaoan was stunned for a long while, then stretched out his hand, and Ruan Yu grabbed his hand before touching Ruan Yu's waist.

Ruan Yu said, "Are you married?"

Du Chaoan shook his head.

"You don't end up."

Du Chaoan looked at him, Ruan Yu was still expressionless, rubbing his fingers against Du Chaoan's knuckles.

Ruan Yu said: "I didn't die, it means God thinks I haven't lived yet, I regret it, I love you, you gave me all my money, and you will fall asleep if you hear about the education you can get. Direction, but I have one advantage, that is, I have perseverance. I have loved you for ten years, and I think I can persist in this matter for another 50 years. Basically, it is not a loss for you to choose me. I am ten years younger than Lin Qi If you are old, if you are paralyzed on the bed, she will not be able to hug you, only I will not dislike you. Think about it, will you agree to me. "

Du Chaoan was stunned for a long time, and asked: "Promise you... what?"

"Talking about love."

Du Chaoan was silent, he didn't realize the direction, and said, "Tsk, why am I paralyzed on the bed, look who is paralyzed on the bed now."

Ruan Yu blinked at him and said, "I'm paralyzed, so I'm even more afraid that you'll dump me. Do you agree or not? I'll give you another ten seconds. 10, 9, 8, 7—"

Without saying the word 6, Du Chaoan leaned over and kissed him.

The kiss made the two of them out of breath, Ruan Yu whispered in his ear: "At first I was very timid and didn't dare to wake up, but then I felt you holding my hand all the time, I thought to myself, maybe there is hope, just start The kid ran over."

Du Chaoan smiled softly: "Can you touch my hand?"

Ruan Yu also smiled: "I can find out where you are. When I recover, can you touch it?"

Du Chaoan kissed her again.

The author has something to say: Thank you for seeing the little angels here!