[Ghost Slayer] There is no me here

"How can a ghost slayer be with ghosts?"

Someone once questioned me.

Seeing the girl who is a ghost get into the box, and the moment the red-haired boy picked it up, I blurted out subconsciously.

"How can a ghost slayer be with ghosts?"

As soon as I got out of the car, I noticed that besides myself there were two ghosts, one of them was Yi Wo Zuo, and the other was the girl.

Is she the same as me, a free body freed from shackles.

Speaking of which, what happened to the person who asked me this sentence?

Appears to have been killed by the Ghost Slayer.

And how did I answer it?

The boy put on a defensive posture and raised the knife at me. The pure black blade reflected the twilight of the morning sun, which hurt my eyes.

"Nezuko is my younger sister, I will not give up my family."

"Yuichi is my friend, I trust him."

The words that overlapped with those in my memory were just reversed positions, but made me laugh inexplicably.

I laughed and laughed, as if hearing some nonsense, I couldn't help but shed tears from the laughter.

For a moment, I couldn't tell if I was laughing at the other party or at my innocent self.

"Why are you laughing, you are obviously sad...why are you still laughing?" A word with an unknown meaning interrupted me.

I froze, and the laughter stopped abruptly.

The talking red-haired boy's eyes were full of sadness, he seemed to be sympathizing with me, and looked straight at me from the other side of the darkness.

Who is he sympathizing with?Who is he pitying?

Is it me?

am i sad

It turned out that I was sad.

The appearance that had been maintained for 400 years was punctured, and I realized that I still couldn't let go of that incident after all.

It would be great if I didn't meet you.

"Stop your pity, who do you think you are pitying, I am a ghost, and the ghost killer actually pities a ghost? Your colleagues are all watching there."

I let out a murderous look in an instant, and the boy took a step back as if aware of it, but there was no fear in his eyes.

"Stove Gate Boy!" The ghost killer with blond hair shouted from a distance, his aura was different from that of ordinary people.

I understood, it turned out to be Zhu, no wonder he was able to fight against Yiwozuo.

It's a pity that human beings have limits after all, and the winding is not as easy to be defeated as the winding.

"...I'm fine!" The young man clutched his stomach, breathing hard, but even so, he didn't flinch in front of me.

I can't help but admire the kid a little bit.

"Don't kill me, I'm a ghost? My physical skills may not be as strong as Yiwozuo, but I can kill you easily."

Unexpectedly, the other party shook his head: "No, you won't, although you released murderous intent, but there is no killing intent, I can smell it."

Hearing this answer, I was immediately bored, and the malicious smile on my face disappeared completely. I looked down at him indifferently, as if I was looking at something worth mentioning.

"Boring, so boring."

"You are too weak to be worthy of me. Come to me after you become stronger."

I waved my hand in disgust, turned around and walked deep into the forest.

"At least, don't live up to your inherited will."

After entering the forest, I felt lost again.

Not knowing what to do, not knowing where to go.

I meditated, and habitually touched my waist with my left hand, and once again realized that the knife I had with me was gone.

That person gave me a saber and taught me how to use it, but he disappeared with my death after all.

At least I can't get it back, maybe it's waiting to rust and weather somewhere at this time.

Where to go?

From the corner of my eye, I inadvertently glanced at the wisteria family crest on the inside of the sleeve, and I rubbed it, my eyes lowered.

Just go there.

After wandering around in the forest until the evening, I got up and walked towards my destination. Although I could wrap myself up and barely endure the discomfort of the sun, I didn't want to wrong myself like that.

The house with the family pattern of wisteria flowers appeared in front of my eyes. Seeing the same pattern on the sleeve, I was a little anxious, and kept pacing outside the door, not daring to enter rashly.

Suddenly, the door was opened, and the heavy wooden door creaked, and an old woman walked out from inside.

"You are here again." The mother-in-law bowed slightly, her face was as kind as ever.

I nodded embarrassingly, like a child caught by a parent for doing something wrong: "Grandma, I'm here to bother you again."

The mother-in-law raised her head and looked at me with her eyes that seemed to be closed all year round, she turned sideways to make way, and said unhurriedly, "Please."

"... trouble."

As usual, I was taken to a separate room, which was remote and quiet. Occasionally, people from the Ghost Slayer Squad came to recuperate. Every time I came here, I tried to avoid meeting them.

As expected, there was no Ghost Slayer to stay in Fujiya this time, and I was very happy in this huge yard.

Lying on the bed, I couldn't help but think of the first time I came here by accident, I stood outside the gate in confusion and hesitation, staring at the vine pattern with burning eyes as if trying to make a hole.

And it was this mother-in-law who opened the door for me at that time, the owner of this rattan house.

Maybe she doesn't know that I'm a ghost, she just thinks I'm some kind of passing traveler?

I don't know what my mother-in-law is thinking, and she treats me the same way she treats everyone else.

Generally speaking, a wisteria house is built in a place full of wisterias, and ghosts can't avoid it. No ghosts will come near here, and even the ghost killing team rarely comes here.

But by such a coincidence, I accidentally found this yard.

I don't hate wisterias like other ghosts, and I even like them a little bit, but my own conditions don't allow them to get too close.

As for why I prefer it, I don’t remember very clearly. I only vaguely recall that I was a member of this family and that my mother liked to wear kimonos embroidered with wisteria patterns.

So, when I found this courtyard and saw the familiar family crest, I was speechless for a moment.

For thousands of years, the big family that used to be in Heian-kyo has now become the backbone of the Demon Slayer Squad.

If it wasn't for me, if it wasn't for that incident...the family probably wouldn't have embarked on this path.

"It's so pitiful, you look so ugly when you are dying."

"Saki, do you want to live?"

Who is speaking, like a devil's whisper, luring me into the abyss.

That man looked at me in the dark night with pity, and stretched out his hand to me, his eyes filled with excitement and excitement.

"Even if you are no longer human, even if you don't see the sun, even if you want to devour others... Do you want to live?"

"...think."

I heard my hoarse voice saying this, saying one more word seemed to overdraw my vitality.

I've never wanted to be alive so much.

Even if I'm no longer human, even if I don't see the light of day, even if... I want to devour others, whatever, I... I just want to live!

I am so selfish.

After getting the reply, the other party forcibly pulled me up from the sick bed, imprisoned me between his arms, and a low-pitched laughter rang in my ears.

"Good boy."

"I knew we were the same kind of people.

A fishy-sweet taste filled the mouth, accompanied by a heart-piercing pain that spread to all limbs.

That was a belated new student and the beginning of a nightmare.

I will never forget that night, the wisteria family crest in the house was stained red by splashed blood, and a woman in a kimono embroidered with wisterias grabbed my skirt and died in front of me.

That beautiful face never smiled at me again.

The author has something to say: There is a magic change here.