[Ghost Slayer] There is no me here

The brightness in front of my eyes was outrageous, as if I was in the dark underground all year round and saw the sun for the first time.

The breeze came slowly, and the luxuriant wisteria flowers swayed with the wind, and the scene in front of me gradually became clear.

The woman who had just given birth lay weakly on the couch, and carefully took the newborn baby from the maid.

A woman is a concubine who is not favored by this big family, which leads to the fact that even if it is childbirth, the head of the family will not take time out of his busy schedule to take a look.

"Ma'am, it's a young master."

The woman looked at the baby who was sleeping soundly in her arms, her red face was wrinkled together, but she could vaguely see eyebrows and eyes similar to hers.

"What's the name?"

She looked up and inadvertently saw the wisteria pouring down like a waterfall outside the window. Under the sunlight, the layers were so gorgeous and beautiful.The woman was stunned for a while, and it took a long time to finalize the name.

"Let's call it "Saki". "

The maid hesitated and said, "Is this name too feminine?"

"But there's no rule that boys can't use this. It would be good if he can be raised as a girl so that he can grow up safely." The woman smiled softly, and softly comforted the crying child who was woken up.

"The doctor said that it is a miracle that this child was born safely. Even so, there is a risk of early death."

"I don't expect him to live a long life, but I hope his life will be as bright as that beautiful flower, and that's enough."

The woman teased the child in her arms, even though she was exhausted from the previous childbirth, but when she saw her son opened his eyes and looked at her curiously, all the negative emotions were swept away, leaving only the new life in her arms joy.

"Xiaosaki, Xiaosaki, my dear baby." She lovingly kissed the baby's forehead as if holding a treasure in this world, and the baby in the swaddle waved her hands and giggled as if she had sensed it. , as a response.

Inside the house, mother and child depend on each other, and the years are quiet and beautiful.

I stood outside the house, looking at the revolving lantern scene in front of me from a third-person perspective, my heart ached to the point of suffocation.

Even if I squatted down with my mouth covered, whimpers could come out of the gap, and my eyes soon became blurred, and warm liquid couldn't stop overflowing my eye sockets.

"Woooo..."

I finally remembered.

——I was born with my mother's expectations.

Ever since I was a child, my mother has been the one who loves me the most and cares about me the most. In that indifferent big family, my mother is the only person close to me, but I...

But I accidentally killed her in order to prolong my life.

Thinking of that evil night, when I lost my human identity, I did something irreversible.

The strong smell of blood seemed to be still lingering, lingering at the tip of his nose.

A family of people almost disappeared from my hands.

I am a sinner, I should never be restored, I should go to hell——

"Little Saki."

A gentle and steady female voice came from within, and my heart couldn't help trembling.

I raised my head and looked up along the wisteria pattern on the hem of the dress. Everything around me seemed to disappear, except for the gentle woman smiling lovingly.

"Mother, mother..."

I couldn't believe it, I even forgot that I was still squatting, and I was about to lean forward when I was kneeling, wanting to touch it but daring not to touch it, for fear that this was just a dream of mine that would shatter if touched.

"Little Saki." My mother seemed to see what I was thinking, and stroked my head to reassure me, with tears welling up in her eyes.

"I've worked hard for you all these years."

"Mother--"

It wasn't a dream, I was sure, and smiled bitterly in my heart, after all, I was already dead, so seeing my mother wasn't too strange.

Thinking of this, I just sat on the ground and wiped away my tears. In front of my relatives, I had already burst into tears regardless of my image, as if I wanted to vent all the grievances and sorrows I had suffered for thousands of years.

"I'm sorry... Mother, I'm sorry, I'm a bad boy, I'm sorry."

"I was so scared at the time, but mother, you can no longer respond to me."

"Mother, I miss you so much, can you, can you forgive me?"

After listening, the mother chuckled lightly, her voice was trembling, it was the joy and helplessness that turned tears into laughter.

"Mother knows it all, so don't blame yourself so much."

"I don't blame you, no matter what, I am your mother, and you will always be my dearest child."

"This is the bond called love that anyone can cut."

After speaking, I suddenly felt that something heavy like a shackle disappeared from my body, and my whole body lightened.The clothes have already changed back to the clothes they used to be when they were human, and even the form has returned to everything, at an age as carefree as a child.

During this period, my mother and I were in a difficult situation in the family, but it was also the time when we had the least worries and worries. Compared with the later intrigues and deceptions, this period of time was like an indispensable light in a dark life.

Only now did it become clear.

"Mother! I'm back!"

"Saki, welcome back."

I yelled loudly and jumped into her arms, as if I was still that young and ignorant child, nestling in my mother's arms coquettishly and talking about innocent dreams, over and over again.

As if I had a premonition, I turned my head subconsciously, and saw a red figure standing under the wisteria in the distance, looking straight over. The man's slightly curly long hair was floating, and he was as independent as a banished fairy. Into a world.

I froze for a moment and then realized that I waved my hand in greeting, and the man raised his hand in response.

At this time, a man dressed in purple feathers came from the other side, who had the same appearance as the man in red, obviously a pair of brothers.At this moment, he said something to the latter, with an obviously unhappy expression.

Following my mother's footsteps, before I left, I glanced at the situation over there again, and saw the two people fighting in the wisteria forest, causing the petals to fall like a waterfall, quickly submerging the two, and forcibly stopped fighting.

I couldn't help but sweat for this pair of idiot brothers.

"Little Saki, don't be dazed, just follow."

"Oh! Here comes mother!"

I quickened my pace and stumbled to keep up, grabbed the hand extended by my mother, and disappeared under the snow-like vine flower rain.

This body disappears, without asking where it returns, without tracing the way it came from.

The author has something to say: Haha, it's over.