his little stutter

Grandma Zhang looked at the two people who came out, "How is it? Does it fit?"

"It fits well, thank you grandma." Yu Nan replied politely.

Grandma Zhang said with a smile, "Thank you, you're welcome, I'm afraid that you children think the clothes are not good-looking."

"How could it be?" Yu Nan said, "Then we will return this clothes to you tomorrow."

"Okay, okay, then go ahead."

Xu Zhao said, "Let's go, grandma."

Grandma Zhang thoughtfully packed the two people's clothes in a bag, and Xu Zhao followed Yu Nan with the bag and left.

Walking past a small shop, Yu Nan wanted to go straight there, but Xu Zhao stopped him, "Don't you want to buy something?" He pointed to the shop.

"buy what?"

"Who goes there empty-handed? If there are no flowers for sale, just buy some fruit." Xu Zhao shouted in, "Is there any fruit for sale?"

The boss didn't know what he was doing in the room, so he came out after hearing someone shout, "There are apples and oranges, which one do you want?"

"Is there any fruit basket?" Xu Zhao asked.

"Fruit baskets?" said the boss. "No one sells fruit baskets in this place."

"Then let's have a catty of it all." Xu Zhao said, "Take some money paper, a lighter."

"Buy so many fruits, what are you doing?" Yu Nan said, "Just a few."

"It's all for our parents anyway," Xu Zhao said.

"I was an uncle and aunt before." Yu Nan smiled, "You bark very fast."

Xu Zhao took out his mobile phone, "So, don't rob me, I'm shopping for my parents."

After he finished speaking, he asked the boss, "Where to sweep?"

The boss weighed everything and handed it to Xu Zhao while asking, "What are you sweeping?"

"QR code."

"What size?" The boss asked with a questioning face.

Xu Zhao word by word, "QR code."

"I've never heard of this." The boss said he didn't understand at all.

"Let me do it." Yu Nan smiled, "How much is it?"

"A total of 20 yuan."

Yu Nan was about to take out the money, but Xu Zhao grabbed his wrist, "It's agreed that I'll pay."

Yu Nan said, "Have you brought cash?"

Xu Zhao said silently, "No."

"Look, it's not that I don't want you to pay, and they don't either. Mobile payment." Seeing his appearance, Yu Nan laughed, "Would you like to invite me to dinner tonight?"

Xu Zhaozhan smiled, "Okay."

The two of them made twists and turns all the way, and finally came to the wilderness behind the town.

There were no houses in this area, and it was originally a wasteland, which was later used by the townspeople as a cemetery.

Although he hadn't been here for a long time, he remembered his parents' cemetery very clearly. Based on his past memories, he quickly found it.

The tombstone reads: the tomb of the loving mother Xu Jinzhu and the loving father Yu Ao.

The last time I came here was several years ago, and the grave was covered with grass. Although it was withered and yellow, it was piled up over the years, and it was a bit messy.

Yu Nan straightened things up a bit, and sorted things out.

Xu Zhao stacked the apples and oranges one by one in front of the tombstone.

He said while stacking, "I'll take it as you said it casually, you haven't come back for a long time, and the willow branches on the monument are all withered."

This is the custom of people in the west of the city. Every Ching Ming Festival, one must bring gold ingots, paper money, and willow branches to sacrifice to the tomb.

The willow branches are inserted on the stele, because the willow branches are green and long. People think that the willow branches represent new life, and they hope that the dead can get new life after death.

"Well, I haven't been back for a long time." Yu Nan threw out a pile of dead grass.

There is a photo on the stele, it is Yu Nan's parents when they were young, his mother was wearing glasses and looked like a young girl, and his father was wearing a red army cap.

The two are smiling at the camera.

"Your dad was in the Red Army before?" Xu Zhao asked.

"Well, it seems to be a long time ago, I haven't seen it before." Yu Nan squatted down, "Take out the money paper."

"Oh."

Xu Zhao bowed his head and took out the money paper, lit the fire, and it burned quickly.

"Aren't you going to say something?" Xu Zhao looked at him.

Yu Nan said while burning the money, "Say what?"

During the period after the accident, he ran here almost every day, but he never said a word, just stood blankly in front of the tombstone, waiting for a passing neighbor who knew him to call him, "Ah Nan, go back quickly, God It's going to be dark."

"Say whatever you want." Xu Zhao said, "You don't have anything to say?"

"You know them, but you can't hear them." Yu Nan said.

"I know." Xu Zhao gestured, "But at least you have to make a show."

Yu Nan paused, raised his head, looked at Xu Jinzhu wearing glasses on the stele, and said in a low voice, "Mom."

"I'm here to see you."

"How are you there?"

"Is Dad with you?"

After he said a few words, he felt that there was nothing more to say. Many things had already been said in his heart, but now he said them without meaning.

Xu Zhao squatted on the ground looking up at him, and he said silently, "I, me, don't forget to mention me."

Yu Nan laughed, her expression softened a lot, "Mom, this is me..."

He paused, not knowing what name to use to introduce Xu Zhao to his parents.

He thought for a while, and then said solemnly, "This is my lover."

Xu Zhao hurriedly called someone respectfully, "Hi, Mom and Dad, take a look at me, my name is Xu Zhao, and you can leave Yu Nan to me in the future."

In fact, they are very clear that it doesn't matter whether they say these words or not, but they can't regard it as a dispensable thing.

Chinese people all pay attention to the dead.

In front of the dead, no matter how meaningless things are, they have to be well-behaved, one by one, and done well.

"Is this considered to be seen?" Xu Zhao asked softly.

"Then what do you want?"

Yu Nan picked up a wooden stick on the ground and lightly picked up the nearly burned paper money on the ground. The sparks under the paper absorbed the oxygen, and the fire ignited instantly, quickly devouring the unburned paper money.

He stood up, "Let's go."

Xu Zhao also stood up, "Mom and Dad, tell me in a dream what you need in the future."

After walking a long way, Yu Nan suddenly turned her head, glanced at the parents in the photo, and then turned her head away again.

The old house that had been engulfed by the fire had already turned into ruins. When Xu Zhao and Yu Nan arrived, they could only see a pile of broken bricks and tiles.

"No wonder you never came back." Xu Zhao jumped over and jumped over a wall.

Yu Nan walked in step by step, this place was no longer connected with her childhood memories.

"What are you looking at?"

Only then did Yu Nan come back to his senses, "No."

"Go back." He came down the steps.

"Let's go now?" Xu Zhao said.

"Yeah." Yu Nan was a little silent.

Xu Zhao thought he felt uncomfortable because he came, so he didn't ask any more questions, and left with him.

It was past six o'clock when we returned to school, and the cafeteria was closed. Xu Zhao and Yu Nan wanted to have a meal outside, but they didn't expect to see any small restaurants after walking around. It gets dark quickly in winter, so they I came back immediately.

Because there was nothing to do and nowhere to go, both Ma Yijie and Ge Yisong stayed in the dormitory.

Ma Yijie was reading a book, while Ge Yisong was looking at his mobile phone.

Seeing Xu Zhao coming in, Ge Yisong got up quickly, "Damn it, are you going to work in the field with your attire?"

Xu Zhao was too lazy to talk to him.

"Why did you go today?"

"Turn around casually." Xu Zhao replied perfunctorily.

Ge Yisong didn't bother with this topic anymore, he thought of another thing and said, "I'll tell you something if you're not here today, the Cao Bin who brought us said that he would take us to the back mountain tomorrow afternoon, what should I say? Limited to the form, give us an interesting class."

"Oh." Xu Zhao said while taking off his clothes, "Isn't that good?"

"That's right, but here you are so poor, what can you do in the back mountain?"

"You ask me how do I know?" Xu Zhao said, "Have you eaten?"

Ge Yisong complained, "I've eaten earlier. The food here is really bad. I eat big pot rice. I dare not eat the fat meat."

"Then what did you eat?"

"Snacks, luckily I'm smart enough to bring a pack." Ge Yisong snorted.

"Bring it." Xu Zhao said.

"what?"

"Snacks, ask."

"You didn't eat either?" Ge Yisong said.

"Well, hurry up." Xu Zhao said.

"Oh." Ge Yisong curled his lips and handed the bag over, "Save some for me."

Xu Zhao opened the bag and took a look. Inside were some instant noodles, ham sausage, potato chips and biscuits, all of which were necessary outdoor snacks.

He picked up two buckets of instant noodles, and said to Yu Nan, "Something?"

Yu Nan didn't eat, so she didn't pick anything, "Yeah."

Xu Zhao told Ge Yisong, "Get water."

"No, why are you calling me?"

"Stop talking so much, don't hurry up."

Ge Yisong pouted, so he had no choice but to go down to fetch water.

After eating, it was a little hot, and Xu Zhao was really uncomfortable wearing the old clothes after running for a day, so he went into the bathroom to take a shower.

It wasn't until he finished taking a shower happily that he remembered one thing.

He has no clothes...

I wanted to go shopping with Yu Nan today, but he forgot about it.

He had no choice but to open the door and call Yu Nan.

"What's wrong?" Yu Nan was flipping through the book.

"Have you any clothes? I haven't."

Ge Yisong moved his eyes away from the phone, glanced at Yu Nan, and said with a teasing smile to Xu Zhao, "I have it, Brother Sheng, I'll lend it to you."

I only heard the reply from the bathroom, "Get lost."

Ge Yisong clicked his tongue twice and shook his head.

Ma Yijie looked up at Yu Nan, then lowered his head again without saying a word.

Yu Nan found a white shirt and a pair of black long johns and handed them to him.

Xu Zhaogang took it, "No underwear?"

"Are you wearing no underwear?"

Yu Nan was a little surprised.

"If I wear it, can't I change it in the shower?" Xu Zhao said.

Yu Nan didn't say anything, just took the underwear and handed it to him.

"Thank you." Xu Zhao smiled, "Would you like to come in and wash, the water is quite hot."

"No." Yu Nan said.

Xu Zhao packed the old clothes in the bag after washing, Yu Nan was a little strange, "What are you doing?"

"Get dressed."

"Aren't you going to wash?" Yu Nan asked with a questioning face.

"Wash?" Xu Zhao said, "It's so troublesome for me to wash it myself. I'll pack it up and go back to the servant to wash it."

"We're going to stay here for a week." Yu Nan said, "If you cover like this, your clothes will stink."

"Smelly?" Xu Zhao said, "Throw it away."

He said that he really looked like he was going to throw one away.

Yu Nan was a little convinced by Xu Zhao.

He got off the bed, "Forget it, give it to me."

"Will you wash it for me?" Xu Zhao raised his head and smiled.

"En." Yu Nan took the bag and took out the clothes one by one.

The school was quite careful, and put a special washing powder on the corner of the water table. Yu Nan poured some, and he washed it seriously. Xu Zhao lay on the bed and yelled, "Can I help?"

"No need," he said.

Ge Yisong clicked his tongue twice, "Hey, I also want to have a good brother who can help with laundry."

Ma Yijie saw it, but he didn't dare to say anything, it had nothing to do with him anyway, he didn't need to offend Xu Zhao for these irrelevant things.

By the time Yu Nan finished washing, it was already past nine o'clock, and the students had already left for evening self-study, so it was a bit noisy.

He packed up and went to bed.

Xu Zhao slept on the opposite side of him. In order to get close to Yu Nan, he slept on the other side close to him. There was only twenty centimeters between the two of them.

"You still brought your books?" Xu Zhao leaned against the bedpost, and half of his body reached Yu Nan's. "My man just loves to learn."

Ge Yisong let out a "puchi", Xu Zhao's expression changed, and he shot him with blade-like eyes.

Ge Yisong quickly waved his hand, "sorry sorry, you go on, go on."

"What do you see?" Xu Zhao asked.

""Cultural Journey"." Yu Nan turned a page.

Hearing this name made Xu Zhao feel bored.

"Talk to me." Xu Zhao turned over and approached his head, "Reading is so boring."

"Aren't you talking?"

Just finished speaking, suddenly, the lights went out.

Ge Yisong said "I'm going" and said, "The network operator, the lights are still turned off, it's boring, if I knew it, I wouldn't come, I'm going to sleep."

Ma Yijie had nothing to do without reading, so he put down the book and fell asleep.

Yu Nan also put down the book.

"Are you going to sleep?" Xu Zhao asked.

"Well, the lights are turned off, and there is still class tomorrow." Yu Nan explained.

Xu Zhao turned over and lay back down, "Oh, it's so boring."

He looked at the phone for a while, and soon he heard calls from Ma Yijie and Ge Yisong, one after another...

Noisy, he thought.

He turned off his phone, trying to sleep for a while, but when he closed his eyes, thinking about going to the cemetery with Yu Nan today, he couldn't fall asleep anyway.

He opened his eyes, looked up at Yu Nan's direction, and called softly, "Yu Nan."

There was a quick response over there, "Huh?"

"It's okay, I thought you were asleep." Xu Zhao said.

"Can't sleep." Yu Nan said.

"Me too." Xu Zhao said.

There was another silence.

Xu Zhao raised his head again, "Yu Nan."

"Ah."

"I want to sleep with you."

Three seconds later, he said, "Come here."

Xu Zhao got up quickly, lifted his quilt, and got in.

"It's so warm." Xu Zhao's voice was a little satisfied, with a smile, "Do you go to the toilet in the middle of the night?"

"will not."

"But I will, will I disturb you?"

"It's okay." Yu Nan stuck a sticker inside, "Come in, don't fall."

Xu Zhao smiled, "If you hold me, won't you fall?"

"En." Yu Nan said as she raised her hand and hugged him.

Xu Zhao was taken aback, and hugged him too, "Why are you so obedient all of a sudden, I thought you would say, don't make trouble and go to sleep."

"Stop fussing and go to sleep."

The two were very close, face to face, there were no curtains in the dormitory, through the dim light outside the window, Xu Zhao saw Yu Nan's face, his eyes were deep, staring at him all the time.

When a person is most vulnerable, it will always be at night.

Because darkness can cover up a person's weakness.

"Don't just come here for whatever I say." Xu Zhao looked at him, "What's wrong with you, I think you're weird."

"No." Yu Nan said.

Xu Zhao smiled maliciously, "You said that if I..."

Yu Nan kissed his forehead, "Go to sleep."

His voice was gentle, he closed his eyes and hugged him tightly.