Remember a girl I love GL

I didn't mean to, I really didn't mean to.

I don't know what's the point of writing this diary, Dasha can no longer read it.She moved today, moved away!However, things definitely shouldn't develop like this.

Obviously after I said I liked that boy, Da Shacha should be very angry and should rape me, or beat me severely, but she didn't.She didn't believe it at first, but then her expression became stiff, as if telling me to stop making trouble.She also asked me a lot, why I didn't want to be with her anymore, and what went wrong with us.I answered her questions in the most beating tone in my life, but she didn't beat me yet, and she went out without saying a word.

What does this mean, Da Shacha was not like this before, she cared about me very much, cared very much.However, I have never accepted other people's confession.I don't know how I accepted it, that boy is very good-looking and has a warm and masculine atmosphere, he is really the best choice for a boyfriend.I love Liu Nian, but I am subconsciously unwilling to be chained by Liu Nian for the rest of my life.I haven't been in a relationship yet, and Liu Nian has always been with me. I can't even tell what kind of relationship it is.I know it's wrong for me to do this, but Liu Nian should stop me, she should not let me go, so that I won't make mistakes and cheat.

I'm not as crooked as Liu Nian. I've thought a lot about the two of us.I am big, and I really love Liu Nian, otherwise we would not have passed these four years.I just thought Liu Nian would keep me this time and wouldn't let me be with others.Although accepting other people's confession, I haven't done it since I was with Liu Nian.I didn't know Dasha would react like this.

I don't know how I feel right now.I don't know how I can save it, I have already promised that boy.He also took me to drink yesterday, I shouldn't have gone, I think I'm doing more and more wrong things.I just drank a little and got drunk, I don't know what I've done, I'm less and less like myself.

Sometimes, I thought, anyway, Dasha doesn't want me anymore, so I'll just get along with that boy, anyway, his family has money, so it's good for me.Why do I have to be with Liu Nian for the rest of my life? Who made the rules.I have never been with a boy, Dashacha has had several girlfriends.I'll try it with the boys to see how it feels, well, that's it, Dasha will definitely wait for me to go back.

But why, my heart is so uncomfortable, so uncomfortable.Da Shacha has also been in a low mood recently. Once I saw her crying, and my heart was broken.How could Da Shacha be so sad, I am here, but I am not qualified to comfort her, I started to hate myself, greedy.I have been spoiled by Dasha so much, I am so inflated that I can't recognize myself and this relationship.

I'm really wrong, but what should I do.I didn't dare to do anything out of the ordinary with that boy, but I didn't dare to be too unfamiliar, after all, I promised him.His family seems to be quite powerful. I was quite afraid, and I don't know why I was confused at that time.That boy disliked me for teasing me every day, so I had to get up early every day to clean up.I was afraid that I would wake up Dasha, so I could only gently kiss her who was sleeping softly, but I couldn't, I wished I could beat myself to death.

Dasha actually moved out today, and when I went back after class, all I saw was an empty dormitory.

I cried for a long time, very sad.I know I did it all myself.I won’t have Dashacha with me anymore, my heart feels like being put in a meat grinder, it hurts so much, I feel a little bad, really bad, but Dashacha is not around, I start to tremble , The negative emotions in the past few days have almost overwhelmed me.

Liu Nian, Liu Nian, I was wrong, I was really wrong, can you come back, I really don't want to be alone, I won't be willful anymore.

No one has ever been as good to me as you have been to me.

Why don't you keep me, why?After we broke up, in the same dormitory for so long, with so many opportunities, you didn't say a word to me, and you didn't give me a smile.

Those that I used to enjoy, so take it for granted, now I know how extravagant expectations are.

The author has something to say:

It's impossible to die,

The author has done a lot and has a deep understanding.