Remember a girl I love GL

It's been a long time since I wrote a diary, and I didn't plan to.When I was playing games today, I saw my encrypted folder and thought it was a bit ridiculous.

Well, Xiaonian dumped me, she fell in love with a guy.That man has always been nice to her, I think Xiaonian accepted my marriage proposal, so I didn't say anything.After all, I don't want to bother her too much about this kind of thing. I also play basketball with a bunch of boys. I have no position on this matter.Just a few days ago, Xiaonian suddenly told me that the man confessed to her, and even made fun of me, saying he confessed, the first boy in college who confessed to her.I felt a little uncomfortable, but Xiaonian also said that she rejected this kind of thing, so I can't say anything more.

That man seems to have heard something, or anyone with a discerning eye can see the relationship between Xiaonian and me.He also came to talk to me, saying that I was disgusting and that he would be with Xiaonian.In short, it is a very clichéd development, I thought Xiaonian would not care, my Xiaonian believed in me very much.Unexpectedly, Xiaonian still proposed to break up. I asked why, and she said that she didn't necessarily only like girls, but wanted to try with boys.I thought these four years were all a joke?Xiaonian is obviously so real, and the diary she wrote is all about us. I have no clue, and even lost my composure, but I didn't do anything to Xiaonian, except for asking a lot of idiotic questions.

We still live together, I try not to stay in the dormitory, I either go to class or play basketball, if I can't, I just stay in the library.But it is inevitable that you will encounter them, and when you encounter them, you will be sad, and your heart will be very painful.I have also been drunk and cried, but I didn't know it all these years.Sometimes, I also comfort myself that Xiaonian finally got on the right path, which is very good, and I have also experienced this relationship. The snuggling for nearly four years is probably the sweetest time for me.

I want to be a strong loser, and I don't want to be so embarrassed.It's just being dumped, but it's okay, just get used to it.

Sometimes I also listen to the song "To You" by Zhang Yu. It seems that I can still smell the sweet smell when I proposed.When I listen to it, I will cry secretly, and the tears will flow down my cheeks, as if I can't stop it.I started to smoke, and I stopped smoking after I learned it, because I thought that girls who smoked would smell bad on their bodies and it was not good for their teeth.But I still wanted to learn, so I did.It's rare for girls to smoke in school, and I don't really want to smoke. I just think that doing more plots that will only happen when a broken relationship occurs, and release myself, maybe it will make me feel better.

But the effect is minimal, and sometimes I even meet Xiaonian eating in the cafeteria with her boyfriend, looking very happy.That man's family is quite rich, so Xiaonian should not have to worry about money anymore.But why am I still so sad.

Taking advantage of my free time today, I went to look for houses around the school, and asked among the boys playing basketball.There is a very good buddy who rents a house outside, the environment is good, and there is just an empty living room.I told my plan, and he said that he could move there tomorrow.

I thought, since Xiaonian broke up with me, it's better for me not to disturb her and move out.It also prevents me from begging her weakly to give up that little boy and be with me.Yeah, what good is being with me, I can't give her sperm and big boobs.

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I feel sorry for Liu Nian,

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