Woke up and I became Da Jae's bandage

The train was running on the track, and this carriage was very empty, only Osamu Dazai was sitting.

The sound of waves lapping on the sandy shore, this is a seaside train, and you can see the Sea of ​​Japan from the window.The sky after the rain is beautiful, jewel clear.A rainbow hangs over the sea, colorful.

"Ah, it's a rainbow on the sea, we're going to have good luck, Osamu Dazai!" I shouted excitedly, "It's a rare opportunity, why don't you make a wish?"

The air around him was quiet, and the wind from the car ruffled his forehead.Dazai didn't say a word.

"It's really boring." I muttered, "Then I'll try my best to make a wish for you. Hmm... May you be rich and become a rich man as soon as possible? Tsk, this picture is a bit unimaginable, so let's change it. How about I wish you to find a girl you like as soon as possible? Tsk, forget it, if you drag her to die for love, wouldn't it be harmful. Let me think about it..."

He interrupted me suddenly.

"Ache."

He raised his right arm and put his left hand on my body, his voice was very soft.

"I'm very sorry."

I paused.

As soon as he said these words, it was like opening a floodgate to stop the flood.The sour taste is like a vine, climbing to my heart little by little, and then tightening and entwining.

I have been trying to suppress it for a long time, only in this way can I pretend nothing happened.

We left my house three or ten minutes ago, and I don't know if it is right to still use the name "my house" now, so let's use it that way for now.

Maybe it's because I didn't talk much on the way, Osamu Dazai's expression was always heavy, and I realized that I had to say something interesting to make him happy-Okay Dazai is here for vacation, and I can't just because of a little thing about me. Spoiled the whole vacation.

Hence the conversation above.

But, Osamu Dazai, why are you apologizing to me?

I am content, really.

To be able to look at them again is already a wish I dare not dream of for the rest of my life. You helped me realize it. It is too late for me to be grateful to you. Why do I still feel sorry?

I opened my mouth slowly.

"Osamu Dazai, I am actually very easy to be satisfied. I have lived a very happy life since I was a child. My parents love me very much, and my friends are willing to get close to me. I have never had any troubles, so I usually think less and don’t have so many extravagances. After making the bandages, to be honest, I have everything I should have. You are already very good to me. Don’t take what I usually complain about you too seriously. I just It's just a habit of nagging."

Osamu Dazai smiled: "Yes, I know."

"It's just that once in a while, I mean occasionally, I still feel lonely." I sighed, "It can't be helped. Humans live in groups, and I used to be such a family. In the face of all this, it is understandable that the state cannot be adjusted.”

"Well, Ache, you have done a great job." Osamu Dazai said.

"Hey, it's right to praise me, you will find that I am really good, and then confirm this more and more day by day." I said boldly, "In the future, I will continue to work hard as a bandage, and the goal is to become the world's Put on the best bandages!"

Osamu Dazai laughed: "Yes, there is no one better than our Ache."

I was startled.

We...Ache.

Osamu Dazai, can you stop being so smart, poking at the softest part of my heart every time.

Well, I know, I am not alone now, I have companions.

Time passed by in silence.

"Dazai, ah, I mean, can I call you Dazai?" I lowered my voice very softly.

"Ache, you can do whatever you want."

"Then, Dazai, please teach me more in the future." I said, "I will live in your house forever, and I will rely on you, the kind that I can't drive away. I will grab your game console and use you The bathtub will occupy your big bed!"

Dazai smiled lightly.The sound of seagulls chirping came from the car window, and the golden sunlight slanted on Osamu Dazai, making him extremely warm.

I paused.

"Dazai, it may sound a bit spineless, I only have you."

The waves rolled, and the train made a "bang bang bang bang" sound.

Osamu Dazai didn't speak, just put his right arm against his chest, I could hear his heartbeat, strong and powerful.

"Just live in." The corners of his mouth curled up, "You are always welcome."

Where do you live?

Can I extravagantly ask for a space in your heart for me to live in?

As a companion, as a friend, or... as a family member?

I don't know when, the word "Dazai Osamu" seems to be imprinted in my mind, lingering.

He is not a good boss, he will bully me, oppress me, and make me do many things.

But I can't hate him.

I know he has a lot of bad habits, I know what kind of vegetables he hates, and what kind of wine he likes.I know that he kicks the quilt every morning when he gets up, and I know that he often forgets to turn off the lights and falls asleep.

Every trace of his smile, every loss, everything that happened to him, every bit of him.

I keep it all in my head.

He is indeed, shining in my eyes, brighter than the stars in the night sky.

An arc of light streaked across the sky, and I looked out the window again.

Look, the rainbow hasn't disappeared yet, it's still too late to make a wish.

I hope that Osamu Dazai will always be safe, happy, and happy, and I hope he can live happily and every day is colorful.

Look at me, what a dull person.

It's not that I can't get rid of it, it's not that I can't escape, but I don't want to leave at all.

From what second did this subtle liking start to sprout?

I belatedly realized it until today.

*******

We arrived in Otaru around [-] o'clock in the evening and found a hotel to stay temporarily.Osamu Dazai said he was not hungry, so he didn't go to buy food.He took some bottles of peach wine from the vending machine and sat on the tatami to drink.Someone outside the hotel was singing a ditty, a congratulatory song for autumn.

Is it almost autumn in a blink of an eye?I didn't even catch Xia Tian's tail.

Osamu Dazai gulped down the rest of the wine in the bottle and hiccupped.

"Ah—moonlight, wine, it would be even better if there were beauties at this time! What a happy night!"

"Hey, Osamu Dazai, I'm warning you." I said solemnly, "If you drink too much, no one in this place will accompany you to get drunk."

"It's just peach wine, Ah Che, would you like to have a taste?" He opened another bottle.

This person pretended to be confused when he was sober, and when he was confused...he didn't seem to have been confused before, he was always pretending to be crazy.

"Dazai Osamu, you idiot." I muttered.

Osamu Dazai: "...?"

So why should I like this kind of person? I really don't understand.

As Osamu Dazai downed his third bottle of peach wine, I realized I had to do something to stop him.

"Dazai, can you get a pen and paper?" I asked suddenly.

"Huh? You can just order room service. What's the matter, Che, do you want to measure your length?"

Measure your size!Don't remind me of the identity of the bandage all the time, please!

"It's drawing, drawing!" I groaned angrily, "Dazai, don't think that you are the only one who knows how to draw. I am also a person who has learned sketching for more than ten years."

"Oh!" Osamu Dazai crossed his hands in front of his chest, his eyes seemed to be twinkling with stars, "Ah Che is amazing, don't worry, I'll call room service right away."

After 10 minutes, I stared dumbfounded at a dozen pencils, erasers, a large stack of paper, and even colored pencils in front of me!

How on earth did this guy get ink marks with the waitress, and get such a lot of things over here.

"Draw it." Osamu Dazai smiled and lay on the table looking at me.

I rolled up the pencil with the end of the bandage and traced it across the paper - sure enough, crooked.

Well, after making a bandage, I'm still not used to using a pen, but it's okay, it can be remedied.

"Dazai, press the corner for me." I raised the eraser and said to Dazai.

Osamu Dazai was very easy to use today, he actually helped me press the paper obediently, which is worthy of praise.

I erased the unsatisfactory parts and filled in the lines.

First of all, the hair, well, some parts should be pressed down, and some parts are curled up, so it's a bit disheveled anyway.

Then there are the eyes, unfortunately, I am not convenient to use the brush now, and I can't draw the essence of his eyes, so I can only try to sketch his appearance like a cat or a tiger.

Then there is the mouth, it should be slightly raised, yes, it should be raised slightly, his appearance is the most irritating.

You can also draw clothes and arms. After all, I see them every day. I don’t need reference objects, just take them out of my memory.

And finally... the bandages.

I'm in trouble.

To be honest, I don't want to draw it together with other ordinary bandages. I personally feel that I am different, and for Osamu Dazai, it should be the most important one.

I hesitated for a long time without writing. Suddenly, the pen in my hand was taken away.

I looked at Osamu Dazai in surprise, with a faint smile on his face, he twirled the pencil in his hand and poked it against the edge of the table.

"Let me try it."

He started to write, and the pencil and ink began to be painted from the tip of his right finger, and the bandage moved along his finger and wrapped around his wrist softly.I thought this was the end, but he didn't stop, but drew a brief stroke, stretched upwards, the belt hooked his neck, brushed his ears, went around his cheeks, and bit his teeth between.Then it went down again, climbed onto his left hand, landed on his palm, and finally the tail drooped to the edge of his clothes.

Osamu Dazai put down his pen, and said softly, "How is it?"

I didn't speak.

I can't speak at all.

There are only four words in my mind - "extremely lingering".

The steaming heat spread to every corner of my body. If I had any expression, I must be blushing at this moment.

"It's good." My voice was as small as a mosquito.

"Ah, then take it home, frame it, and hang it on the wall. Ah Che can watch it day and night, when he wants to see it, and when he doesn't want to see it." Osamu Dazai said.

Frame it...

I am dying of shame.

"Um... Dazai, some parts of my drawing are not very good, please ask me to correct and fix it." I picked up the pen on the table.

Dazai took the pen away again.

"There's no need to change it, it's just as natural as it is."

very natural……

It's over, Osamu Dazai can make my brain blank for 10 minutes every time I say a word, if this continues, I will definitely become an idiot.

"Then we won't fix it, let's do it like this." I quickly pushed the painting away to prevent him from continuing to make fuss.

Osamu Dazai smiled, he must have drunk too much tonight to make me so willful.