Bit by bit

Xiao Min told me to get engaged in May and get married in October.I don't know what kind of feeling it is, I just want to change my life now, I feel very busy and tired every day, I still feel confused deep in my heart, I really want to be my own Then I will be financially independent, and I won't have to live a heavy life of "bearing the burden of humiliation" every day.After marrying him, I can also change the current status quo of my life.

In class today, teacher Zhang Fengxian refused to let the students in her class come over, saying that it was too time-consuming for me every time, and it took almost one class.Said to let them come over for the third class, but there are two fourth-grade classes in the third class.I can bear it when I think about it, why bother to argue about these trivial things every day?How long can I stay here?Every day I feel that there is no hope for the future, and I feel lost.

I think I will resign after this semester is over.Everyone says to persevere, but for me, I am a little afraid of this kind of life with no future and no tomorrow.Let’s talk about it in the future, let’s try our best to live today!Why forget to enjoy the present for the sake of the future, it is not worth it.

Money is all I want.Freedom is what I want.If I can't have both, I want to choose freedom.What's the use of reading so many books, what's the use of being so serious and meticulous in everything you do.After so many years of unhappy life, and so many years of low self-esteem, I also want to live a free life of my own without being affected by these external things.Don't torture today with fear of the future, it's not worth it.I really want to live the life I like very much, be free and not let people push me away, so passive.