Bit by bit

I don't know why, every time my mother tells me about going on a blind date, I can't sleep. Maybe it's because I'm getting older, and my parents will worry about it.

I don't know what love is, so I don't have much interest.I don't have much experience, and what I have seen and heard are all obtained from novels and TV shows.

I like a love that can last, a love that lasts for a long time.The most recent Korean drama I watched was "When I Loved You", which tells the love story of a pair of childhood sweethearts Choi Won and Ha Na.In fact, their love is not gorgeous, but it feels so comfortable and natural.Do you think that people like Cui Yuan can exist in real life?

Many times I have an urge to escape here and live a life of seclusion. I really feel so tired, as if I can’t see life, and I can’t get rid of the status quo.Do I have to find any man and marry me for the rest of my life, and then live a life of being a husband and raising a child?But what can I do with such a life?

Every time my mother told me this kind of thing, I couldn’t sleep. I woke up again at three o’clock last night. It should be called today! Is life always so helpless?All of a sudden, I wanted to scold myself for being worthless, having no abilities, and living this kind of life of being pushed away forever, which was not what I thought about.I don't want to complain, I just feel that the life of the poor is really not easy.

I think so!There should not be many girls like me who haven't dated before!I am that weirdo.

Last night I had a dream, dreaming about many things in my childhood.I dreamed that I first studied in Songtao Primary School. I dreamed of Lu Wentao, who likes to get up early every day and is smart. I dreamed of the best grades in my class. I dreamed of the story he told me about the four statues in Beijing. Now I tell these tutorial centers The children liked it very much! They also dreamed of Hu Tingting, who was second only to her in grades, of her family's vineyard and strawberry field, and I also dreamed of picking magnolia flowers at school.Next, we dreamed that we had transferred to Zhenggong Primary School, lived in the storage room on the first floor of the uncle’s house, had many playmates, including Ma Yi, Chen Xiaohai, Zeng Yaling, dreamed of Ma Yi’s handstand qigong, and Chen Xiaohai’s pranks.I dreamed that we were being criticized by my uncle for cooking in the education department. I dreamed that I fell into the stinky pool in the education department and desperately shouted for help. I dreamed that a boy playing table tennis and wearing glasses rescued me. I dreamed of me, Deng Yu. , Xiao Wangcheng, and the boy who saved me. We play table tennis together every day.When I woke up from the dream, I felt a little sad. Since I came to Hunan from the lake, I have never seen these people again, and I don’t know where they are, as if it was just my dream.

Guo Jingming said that when a person starts to recall her past, it means that the person is old.Maybe I'm not old, but tired.I also hope to live a happy life every day. It may be that I am too sensitive, my body is weak, and I love to get sick. My life is always not satisfactory.

When I woke up in the morning, I saw a variety show on my roommate’s computer, introducing a writer born in the 90s, and said his book was called "You are the only difference between me and the world". I have never read this book, and it attracted me. On the contrary, his illustrations make me feel interesting. Using various fruits, flowers and small beads can show what he wants to say, which is more convincing than bare language...

It's also very late today, and I still can't sleep... tossing and turning.