crazy growth

Qin Huai stayed at home like a walking corpse for countless days. He didn't dare to sleep these days. The lights at home were brightly lit. He hated every dark night. He didn't want to just sleep like that. Clean up, grab something to eat when you're hungry, don't care about the wound on your arm, let him be good or bad, or bad, it seems that only when the wound is bleeding, he can wake up a bit.

He was smoking a cigarette, he thought he was about to start acting, but if he acted, what would Bai Xia do?But if he doesn't act, he will be tortured for the rest of his life.At this time, Baixia called and told him to come over tomorrow.Qin Huai looked at the mess at home and thought that Bai Xia must have seen something wrong, so he called the housekeeping service and went out to buy a series of things by himself.After the whole house is finished, it's like a new house, everything is new.

The next day, when Baixia opened the door, he was startled, and the house changed drastically.He looked at Qin Huai's face very badly, with big dark circles under his eyes.And he couldn't easily see the wound on Qin Huai's arm. Although it had healed, there was a shallow scar.

"What happened to Qin Huai?" Bai Xia vaguely felt that it was related to the incident before he left, but Bai Xia didn't want to open Qin Huai's wound. "

As usual, Baixia cooked rice, made Korean-style platycodon stalks, and brought mountain wine.They were still chatting, but Bai Xia clearly felt that Qin Huai's mental state was not good.

When going to bed at night, Qin Huai started having nightmares again. Bai Xia hugged Qin Huai tightly, but he couldn't stop Qin Huai from trembling. My heart also became painful.

Then, on the second day, and the third day, Qin Huai was still having nightmares, Bai Xia still couldn't comfort him, and couldn't push him to wake him up. Seeing Qin Huai's painful appearance, tears came down, and the tears dripped onto Qin Huai's face. The cold sweat on Qin Huai's face mixed with this tear. "It can't continue like this, it must not." Bai Xia said to himself.

That night, Qin Huai was still the same as usual, his body was covered with ice swords, he couldn't move, the pain was so painful that he almost passed out.At this time, I felt a drop of water falling on my body, and the ice sword instantly turned into water.He moved his body, his arms and legs became smaller, what happened, this dream changed for the first time.

"Qinhuai, Qinhuai, look, how beautiful this rock is. Qinhuai Qinhuai, look, this fish is frozen." He heard a child's voice calling him to go over, why did he think this child looked so familiar.When he ran over, he saw his own reflection on the ice and was startled. The reflection was a chubby-faced kid dressed like a bear.

He went back to his childhood!Then this boy called him is Baixia! ! !Qin Huai is in a mess, because he doesn't have a deep memory of his childhood, he only vaguely remembers playing in the sand together, which is not very clear.

He ran over and saw a fish swimming, but it happened to be frozen. The ice was thick and deep, and there were air bubbles above the frozen fish.

"Wow, this fish is so pitiful," Xiao Bai said.

"It doesn't matter, when spring comes, he will be alive."

"Really?" Xiao Bai looked happily at Xiao Qin Huai and blinked.

"Really, I heard what the old man said. This fish is hibernating now. When the water melts in spring, he will wake up."

"Really, that's great, the fish will wake up then, Qin Huai."

"Well, yes, but it's fun to look at the fish like this." Xiao Bai showed his small white teeth, squatting on the ground like a ball, looking at the frozen fish.

Later, suddenly at night, they held paper candle lanterns in their hands. When the lantern was illuminated, the surrounding area was covered with light yellow light, and the moonlight reflected on the snow. Although it was night, it was not too dark. It is bright on the ice and snow.They stood on the ice, and this time there were many people on the ice, they were playing and making noise, some set off firecrackers, and some slid on the ice.They are still dressed like a ball, looking at the frozen fish.

"I really hope that spring will come soon, so that he can wake up," Xiao Bai said, showing his small white teeth.

The frozen fish under the lantern is still swimming, under the deep ice.

"It's coming soon, Baixia, the new year is coming soon. Today is the fifteenth day of the first lunar month. The moon is so round. The year has passed, and spring is coming soon."

"Wow, that's great! Then the fish will wake up." Baixia had nothing else to say anyway.

When Qin Huai woke up the next day, he vaguely remembered this dream. He really wanted to know if it was a dream or if it really happened when he was a child.Bai Xia hugged him right behind him, he turned around, looked at Bai Xia's face, the morning light shone on Bai Xia's face, he stretched out his hand to touch, feeling the warmth, he thought of the recurring line Frozen fish, he felt like that fish, and Baixia kept saying to him in his ear, "Great, I'm about to wake up".

Baixia was awakened just like that, and when he opened his eyes, he saw Qin Huai looking at him tenderly.Having been stared at by Qin Huai this early in the morning, Baixia almost wanted to jump on him and commit a crime.

"What are you thinking?" Bai Xia asked.Actually, he really hoped that Qin Huai would tell him some nasty thoughts, and then he would pounce on Qin Huai and eat Qin Huai.

"I'm thinking about our childhood, do you remember the fish in the reservoir in winter?"

"Ah, remember, a batch of them will be frozen every year, and they will be frozen while swimming, but they will live well in spring."

"Will they really live?"

"I don't know. Since I was a child, I heard that the old people said that they will live, but I really don't know the specifics, but there is some truth to it. Otherwise, the fish in the reservoir are not dead, why can they still be caught every year?"

"If so, that would be great."

"..."

Bai Xia wondered what Qin Huai was thinking about, why he didn't think about anything else so early in the morning and only thought about fish.This frozen fish is delicious, but I don't think so.But Bai Xia saw that Qin Huai's appearance was much better. When he hugged Qin Huai in the middle of the night, Qin Huai finally calmed down, and he finally fell asleep. These days, he stayed there until Qin Huai fell asleep in pain. .

Bai Xia went to consult a famous doctor of psychology at B University that day, and he told Bai Xia that some people’s trauma in their hearts when they were young seems to be nothing on the surface, or they feel that they have forgotten the pain, but it is very likely that it is buried deep in the heart. In his own subconscious, his series of dreams were probably his state of mind at that time, so it was useless to escape from the past, only to face it bravely and face the pain and sadness of the past in order to get rid of it.

"But how can we face it directly?" Bai Xia thought about how he could help Qin Huai get rid of the past.