lucky me

On the 27th day after I left Yang Hao, I chose to leave this city. I didn’t know what the future would be like. I just wanted to leave here. I wanted to leave urgently. I submitted my resignation letter to the company. Quietly left the city, I really felt a feeling of saying goodbye when I left, familiar streets, familiar traffic lights, maybe, in this life, I will never be here again like in the past 3 years This city has lived, maybe it will never be seen again.

In fact, I didn't think about what to do, I didn't know what to do, I was tired of work, and I didn't want to do the kind of work that tortured myself and was exploited, but I really didn't know where to go. Years ago, my first thought was definitely to go out for a walk and travel, but now, I don’t have the same feeling about travel as before. If I am alone, so what if I can see all over the world.

Not long ago, I met an old college friend who was ready to take root in this city. I embraced both career and love. Thinking about it, I can only smile bitterly. I don’t even know where my next foothold is. Let alone the future, there are still so many years in my life, where do I go, the world is so big, where do I stop, maybe I will always wander, maybe this is my fate, maybe what I did in my previous life A matter of forgiveness, maybe, I am atoning.

I packed my bags, but I didn’t know where to go. This city is so dazzling and full of vitality, and I was covered in bruises and bruises. I didn’t even feel that I had been close to it and I was about to say goodbye. This is one of the cities with the most opportunities in China. When I came here I also want to make a difference here, and now, this original intention has long been forgotten by me.Suddenly the lights at the station flashed so dazzlingly that I wanted to go home. I didn’t tell my parents about my resignation. I always felt that it was not a big deal. He bought a ticket to the provincial capital, and set off on his way home without a plan.But I know I can't go home, I can't let my parents know that I'm old, but I'm still floating alone, with no job, no future, nothing, and then go back angrily, the one they should be proud of My model student came back with a disgruntled failure. I knew they would tell me it was okay, but I couldn't stand that kind of face. I used to think that I could conquer the world early and repay the nectar, but now I look back with a sad face.

I didn't go home, but I changed the car and went back to my alma mater, I don't know why, I didn't feel tormented at all, I just did it, I did it naturally.I rented a single-room dormitory next to the school, and wandered around in the school, not caring about or thinking about anything. In the place where I lived and studied, I felt that everything was so familiar, yet incomparably different. Heartache, if I go back to university, I will make myself good enough, I want to go back to the university that year, I think of my classmates who are scattered all over the world, everyone should be well, although I don’t have much contact with my classmates , but I really miss everyone, looking at the couples on the side of the road, I suddenly feel, maybe, if I go back, I definitely want to have a good relationship in college.Enjoy your four years in college.

On the first day, at night, I had a very strange dream, just a dream for a moment. I dreamed that I was standing next to an open-air swimming pool, looking at the sea not far away and thinking. I am sure this is not a domestic , but I don't know what this place is, and I don't know why I have such an idea, it flashed by, and I really suddenly felt that maybe I saw my future self, my future, at least I was still so young For me, standing in such a luxurious environment, maybe my future still exists. Without the company of others, even if I am alone, I still have to live a wonderful life and live my own life well, even if I am alone. , this is your own world, it has nothing to do with others, the road of life is so long, not only love, you are born to go through it, there are so many beautiful things waiting for you to chase, you still have your life Ideal, your pursuit.