Midsummer Night's Ashes

gray of night

12

I welcomed a new roommate after Lou Wei left.

I am not reconciled, I am not reconciled to let Lou Wei leave me like this, I always feel that the story between us cannot end like this.

Of course, this can also be understood as I don't want to let him go, I must pester him, and I must try my best to disturb him so that he is not at peace and then forced to return to my side.

On the day my new roommate moved in, I deliberately sent a message to Lou Wei, telling him that someone else lived in my house. To prove that I was not lying, I even secretly took a photo of my new roommate's back and sent it to him.

I thought that Lou Wei would come back to me in a panic, and drive away the other man in the house.

But actually, no, he didn't even reply to my messages.

This frustrates me a lot.

Resentful and annoyed, but at the same time, I couldn't believe it.

Lou Wei and I are a natural match. There is no one in this world who is more compatible than us. How can he just leave?

I firmly believe that he still loves me, but I just don't know how to deal with our conflicts-of course, in my opinion, there is no conflict between us.

Lou Wei ignored me for a few days, and I was like a wandering ghost, drinking and sleeping at home, shutting the door out.

I was surprised that the new roommates behaved very well.

When he came to see the house, I didn't think that he would really comply with the requests I made, and even I just wanted to use his existence to force Lou Wei to come back.

I know it's unkind, and I know I'm a villain.

However, Lou Wei did not come back, nor did he violate the treaty I made.

This man named Li Hantang rarely sees me face to face, even though we live under the same roof these days, and even the two of them hardly ever go out.

I always have the feeling that he is deliberately avoiding me, but this is also good, so as to avoid the embarrassment of meeting unfamiliar people.

What makes me more satisfied is that he is very quiet, except for the occasional footsteps that he has to make while walking and the sound of washing and going to the toilet regularly every day, there is almost no sense of existence.

He doesn't make noise or even speak.

I like such a quiet roommate, but I feel uneasy.

Like I said, I'm a very conflicted person.

Moreover, apart from being too quiet, this roommate also made me feel a little strange, such as the sense of familiarity he brought me, and the inexplicable sense of weirdness.

From the beginning, I thought about Lou Wei every day, and then I started to think about when and where I met this man named Li Hantang every day.

This Li Hantang obviously didn't do anything to me, but it made me more uneasy.

I have already lived a life that is neither human nor ghost, but he seems to be more like Nether than I am, the kind of ghost who will come to claim his life in the middle of the night.

Lou Wei's show stopped.

He is not by my side, and there is no voice from him to accompany me at 11:30 in the evening.

In order to be able to fall asleep steadily, I had to listen to the recordings of his previous programs repeatedly.

However, at the end of each recording, I would suddenly wake up, facing the darkness alone, looking at a void with fear.

I miss Lou Wei, his hugs, his kisses and his warmth.

I miss the days and nights when he was there, and when he entered me, he said to me: "Now, feel at ease?"

Only he can bring me a sense of security. For me, he is like air.

Now, Lou Wei has disappeared, and I am about to suffocate to death.