Be first and do both

On the way home, Chen He kept his head down. Su Tang could see that he was sad, but he didn't know how to comfort him, so the two walked silently all the way to the community.

Chen He didn't go home, but turned to the underground garage and rode his motorcycle out.

Sitting in the back seat, Su Tang first supported Chen He's shoulders, and then gently followed Chen He's back.

Chen He rode his motorcycle all the way to the newly built Linhai Highway, where the motorcycle was parked. They rolled over the guardrail and sat on the edge of the elevated road.

Overhead was the darkness of night, and below was a sea of ​​frighteningly dark color.

"Aren't you hungry?" Su Tang asked.

Chen He didn't speak, and leaned his head on Su Tang's shoulder. After a while, several horns sounded on the empty road.Su Tang looked over, and the car looked familiar.Xun Liu got out of the car with a few bags in his hand.

"Barbecue, beer, and boiled peanuts." Xun Liu handed the food to Su Tang, and looked at Chen He, who was facing the sea in silence, "Look at him ordering o'clock. I'll come pick you up after ten o'clock."

After he finished speaking, he rode Chen He's motorcycle away.

Su Tang returned to Chen He with food and sat down, took out a can of cold beer from it, shook it in his hand, "Do you want to drink?"

"I want to drink," Chen He hummed, "I want to eat and drink when I'm in a bad mood."

Su Tang nodded, opened the tab of the can with a click, and handed the beer to Chen He, "There is still a difference between eating and drinking and drinking away your worries."

Chen He took a sip, nodded, grabbed another handful of boiled peanuts, broke them, raised his head and threw the peanuts into his mouth, "There's a difference, it's too useless to use wine to relieve your worries."

"Did you hear what Haotian said today?" Chen He said softly, looking at the endless sea from his feet all the way to the distance.

Su Tang didn't speak, and opened a can of beer for himself.

"Me, Hao Haotian, and Qin Yu, the three of us grew up together. In terms of friendship, it depends on my father's generation. My father, Hao Feng, and Uncle Qin are Qin Yu's father. Social." Chen He's tone didn't fluctuate, but Su Tang could feel how sad he was.

Chen Tianyou, Hao Feng, and Qin Younan, the three of them met when they were hanging out in the Hong Kong city. At that time, everyone was young and had no family or career. They ate and drank wild ways to make some money every day.

Chen Tianyou was the most capable of the three, and he was the oldest, so he became the eldest brother, Hao Feng's second child, and Qin Younan's third child.Qin Younan had studied, but after his parents passed away one after another, he stopped studying. He was the most tempered of the three.At that time they were always joking that if Qin Younan gave birth to a daughter in the future, Chen Tianyou and Hao Feng would have to rush to recognize their daughter-in-law.

Coincidentally, the three families gave birth to three sons.

Qin Younan's son, Qin Yu, was born first, and Da Chenhe and Hao Haotian were one year old.

From the time when they couldn't walk, the three of them played together.

"Didn't I want to be a big brother when I was young, and Hao Haotian also wanted to. We fought every day, and Qin Yu fought every day, just like a world peace ambassador." Chen He turned his head away and sniffed.

"Qin Yu said, we can both be big brothers, and he calls us both big brothers. He is very interesting, he likes to be quiet since he was a child, he doesn't like chasing and beating us, and when he is sensible, he says he wants to mess with us society."

"Didn't Hao Haotian say that I killed Qin Yu? He said that I was the lone star of the gods and killed him. Sometimes I almost believe it when I think about it..." Chen He's hand holding his hair was suddenly taken by someone. Hold on, Su Tang's hands are cold, but Chen He feels at ease.

He heard Su Tang say firmly: "Don't believe it."

"I don't believe it, I think Qin Yu doesn't want me to believe it either." Chen He held Su Tang's hand instead and said.

That summer, Chen He and Hao Haotian were in the fourth grade, and Qin Yu skipped a grade to the first grade, and the three families went to play in the reservoir together.

The reservoir is part of the South-to-North Water Diversion Project, and the water is very large, so they found a farmhouse next to the reservoir to fish and barbecue.

After dinner, the adults played mahjong, and Chen He and the others ran to the reservoir to play.

There is a small shoal upstream of the reservoir, with big stones piled on it, and the stones are out of the water. Chen He and Hao Haotian stepped on the stones and splashed water for each other.Qin Yu was steady and stood on the bank watching them, reminding them not to slip.

"That day, the weather was very good and the water was very strong. We were playing on it, and the water was rushing down below," Chen He said with some difficulty. , I couldn’t step on it to the bottom, so I panicked.”

"Qin Yu jumped down to save me and lifted me to the shore. He lost his energy and was washed down by the water." Chen He gasped for breath, holding Su Tang's hand tighter and tighter.

"I can't remember what happened afterwards. I can't remember how the adults dealt with it. I just remember that when I was taking a bath, I got water in my nose, and I cried all night. For more than a year, I don't know Dare to take a bath, dare not swim, dare not even use the shower head. As soon as I touch the water, I think of Qin Yu, because I am dead..." Chen He spoke faster and faster as he reached the back, and his breathing became more rapid. When it came to "death", Su Tang couldn't take it any longer, and pulled Chen He into his arms.

Chen He buried his head in Su Tang's chest, his body trembling and screaming in pain.

Su Tang didn't feel the same way with anyone, but he also felt the pain in his chest cavity as if it was being torn apart.

Because of Qin Yu, Chen He reacted so strongly when he saw him sitting on the railing by the sea when we first met.

He gently pinched the back of Chen He's neck, and the body that was tightly attached to Chen He also heaved and fell due to the increased breathing.

"Su Tang, don't be afraid of me." He heard Chen He say so.

"Not afraid." I like you.

Su Tang knew what this feeling was, maybe it was the liking that people of their age casually talked about.But he is not casual, he only likes Chen He.

Because he only likes Chen He, seeing Chen He like this, he also feels pain in his heart and lungs.He really likes to see Chen He smile. When Chen He smiles, his eyes are so crooked that it makes one's heart skip a beat. He wants Chen He to be happy in the future.

I don't know how long it took before Chen He raised his head and looked at Su Tang with bright eyes, "I didn't cry."

"Well, I didn't cry." Su Tang said, even though Chen He's eyes were full of tears.

Chen He changed his posture, took the opportunity to rub his eyes and nose, and then sat up straight, "Later, you also saw that Haotian hated me to death, and my two best brothers are gone." He yelled After taking a sip of beer, he peeled the peanuts again.

This time, Chen He didn't raise his head and throw it into his mouth, but pulled Sutang's hand, and stuffed the handful of boiled peanuts he peeled just now into Sutang's hand.

"I'll give you all the peanuts, can you not leave?" Chen He said hoarsely.

Su Tang looked at the peanut in his hand and was stunned.

"You are different from them," Chen He said, "I don't want you to go."

Only then did Su Tang realize that he had been here for four months.

I don't know when it started, but he no longer thought about leaving after a year, as if he silently decided to stay here.

He didn't know why what Chen He said was different, but Chen He said he didn't want him to leave.

He didn't want to leave either.

There is nothing good here, except Chen He.

Su Tang lowered his title and took a peanut, humming.

Chen He looked at him in surprise, "You agreed?"

Su Tang gave half of the peanuts in his hand to Chen He, "Well, I'm not leaving."

He can go to many, many places to find his biological father who may not know his existence, but he promises that Chen He will not leave, and he will always have a place where he can return.

The two sat shoulder to shoulder, neither of them talking.

"Su Tang..." Chen He spoke quietly for a long time.

"What's wrong?" Su Tangxin raised it again.

"The barbecue is getting cold."

Su Tang: "..."

Chen He came over slowly, sniffed his nose and smiled, and handed the beer to Su Tang, "Come on, let's celebrate your decision to stay in this beautiful city, the decision is up to you... very handsome and handsome with excellent grades and omnipotent at the same table."

Su Tang looked at Chen He, and after a while, the corner of his mouth slightly raised, and the beer bottle in his hand touched Chen He's lightly.

"You look so pretty when you smile." Chen He said suddenly.

Su Tang is glad that the night will be dark, even if the two of them are close, in such darkness, they may not be able to see that they are blushing...

"What about your dad?" Chen He remembered that he asked Li Sheng last time. He hadn't figured out how to tell Su Tang. Any clue would be enough for Su Tang to look for it, but if If he found nothing, he should feel distressed to death.

"Yang Zhe knew someone who was a private detective, and he said to ask for me." Su Tang said.

He didn't want to let everyone know that he was looking for someone. When he caught up with the phone call that time, Yang Zhe listened to him twice and eagerly wanted to help him.Although I don't know if it's reliable, and it's hard to say that it won't be like the two liars Jiang Hao and Li Sheng before, but Su Tang wants to try.

In fact, if one day he really finds that person, Su Tang doesn't know how to deal with it.No one taught him how to get along with his father.One day, Chen He would be by his side, and with Chen He by his side, he would not be afraid of anything.

When Su Ying was in a good state, she mentioned to him about her love with Tang Qiong.At that time, Su Tang sounded like love was illusory, useless and bothersome.But by Chen He's side, he was moved to go to the romantic heart that Su Ying said.

"Do you want baked beans?" Chen He asked him.

Su Tang came back to his senses, turned his head to look at Chen He, but met the infinitely magnified Chen He's face.

Chen He put the hand holding the skewers to Su Tang's mouth, and he followed suit, but he didn't expect Su Tang to turn his head suddenly.

The corners of their mouths rubbed together.

For a moment, the sound of their heartbeats overwhelmed the sound of the waves hitting the reefs on the shore.

The cold moonlight sinks into the deep sea, but the boy's thoughts are tumbling violently in the waves. No matter how high the waves are, they can't beat the strong heartbeat that everything in the world knows.