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And Nan Jiu seems to be because of drinking, and the room itself is a bit stuffy, the clothes are pulled down by her unconsciously, revealing the milky white fragrant shoulders, which are faintly visible, making the people watching even more hot and uneasy

The man with glasses sat on the edge of the bed, his movements were a little slow, even a little trembling, he took off the gold-rimmed glasses, without the decoration of the glasses, the original temperament of the person has undergone an earth-shaking change, no longer elegant nor The taste of books is a bit more sharp

The glasses were randomly placed on the bedside table, and the reflected light from the lenses shone on the man with the glasses. His greedy eyes showed a hint of excitement, and his hands began to move when he was excited.

The hand landed on Nan Jiu's small face, because of the wine, the small face was flushed slightly, and it seemed to be filled with other flavors

He stroked Nan Jiu's cheek lightly, intentionally or unintentionally, the touch was so smooth that people couldn't put it down, Nan Jiu felt a little itchy, and stretched out his hand to push away the existence that made him uncomfortable

But at this moment, the man in glasses swept away the gentleness before, and suddenly became tougher. He grabbed Nan Jiu's hand. The pain on his wrist gave the people in the chaos a little bit of clarity. It's all spinning

The man with glasses no longer has the gentleness in front of outsiders, and the sense of greed in his smile gradually becomes a little obscene. The eagerness to try makes the drunk person a little conscious, but the discomfort in the body makes people unable to resist. What caught his eyes was A disgusting face, the feeling of the moment is disgusting

Nan Jiu almost subconsciously wanted to push away the person who was already pressing on her, but her strength was too great, and at the moment her whole body was so limp that she couldn't exert any strength at all.

It was a sequela after excessive drinking, so these pushbacks seemed to the other party to be a bit of an illusion of refusal and welcome

"What are you doing, let me go"

The tone was angry, and Nan Jiu anxiously wanted to push away the person who had been kissing her neck. The touch from the neck made people feel sick, but these anxious and even threatening words were shaken at all. Nothing about this man

At the beginning, it was a threat, and finally it was a pleading, until it turned into a pleading. Seeing that Nan Jiu's attitude softened, the man's expression became interesting, and he looked at Nan Jiu with a playful look, and did not forget to insult him

"You don't like women because you haven't tasted men before..."

He seemed to be unable to bear Nan Jiu's endless struggle, he stopped before he finished speaking, and completely restrained Nan Jiu's struggling hand in a somewhat rude manner.

"Don't worry, my skills are at least as good as that woman's..."

With a strong kiss attached to Nan Jiu's lips, the kiss made people feel sick, his hand was pressed hard on the mattress, the pain was so painful that it made people frown, desperately resisting, screaming, Calling for help, I almost tried to kick this person away with both hands and feet, but it still didn't help

Desperate cries for help, painful begging for mercy, mixed with the man's triumphant and unbridled laughter, he turned his head away and tears slid down his cheeks along with the pain.

At that moment, Nan Jiu thought of the scene when her mother left, and the pain of her father stepping on her hand after being drunk.

Every moment, every second, the pain

Nobody came to help her, never

Nanjiu once regarded Xiaohui who pulled herself up from a tall building as the only one

After many years, I will regard Bai Bai, who likes piano as much as myself, as my destination

But everything is a luxury, nothing, everything is still the same

dark pain helpless

The man's crooning sound mixed with the violent shaking of the bed made a creaking sound, echoing in the empty and lonely room

After everything calmed down, Nan Jiu curled up in the corner of the bed by herself, hugging her knees with her hands, resting her head on her knees, hugging her tighter and tighter, her eyes were a little empty

He had stopped crying a long time ago, just staring blankly at the smear of red left on the bed sheet.

The bright red is also terrifying, and the desolate ones are blooming, piercing and dazzling

Not crying or fussing, the disheveled hair looks a bit decadent, this is the first time for a person who has always been proud and unwilling to bow his head, to feel this decadent feeling, it feels like the last belief has also been shattered

The man in glasses was already dressed neatly and walked to the bedside, glanced at Nan Jiu, and helped the gold-rimmed spectacle frame, the elegant sense of books came back to this man again, the corners of his eyes were slightly raised, as if proud of himself to the extreme

At first when I saw the bright red, I was a little surprised, but then I was excited, so excited that I couldn't hide it, as if I had found a treasure

He leaned close to Nan Jiu and tidied Nan Jiu's messy hair a little with his hands. The hair was soft and smooth, and the person who was touched didn't struggle, not even the most basic dodge, which made the original mood nice people just got happier

He lowered his head and leaned over, and kissed Nan Jiu's cheek. Nan Jiu didn't respond at all to the kiss, and just stared blankly at the bed sheet.

The man with glasses seemed to have said something, but Nan Jiu didn't listen at all, and he didn't dodge his kiss, he was in a daze, as if he was a body without a soul

And when Nan Jiu was the only one left in the room, she still maintained such eyes and movements, dazed and empty.

This situation didn't ease up quickly. She has been in this state for several days. It seems that she has fallen into an extremely dark world, and no one can wake her up. She won't wake up and won't wake up, just like a doll Ordinary machinery is at the mercy of others, and it seems to be broken at the touch of a button

She has always been unwilling to stay, refused to show weakness, it was because the results told her time and time again that those were all in vain, when her mother left, her face was still full of tears, begging her mother to take her with her Leaving, but what I got in exchange was leaving without nostalgia, so I lost the most important relatives

When my father was drunk and stepped on his right hand, he begged his father to wake up, but what he got in return was only more ruthless strength, so he cut off his favorite piano and cut off his last hobby forever

Rao, many years later, the person who pushed himself off the tall building once begged himself, but there was nothing behind that resolute gaze, only boundless despair remained

So I learned to hide it later, because no matter how weak you are, it will not change the essence of the matter. Instead of that, it is better to pretend, at least it does not look so sad, at least in the eyes of others, I am still the seemingly strong and free-spirited person people

So when Xiaohui got married, even though Nan Jiu was reluctant to let go, she never kept her, so when Bai Bai left, even though she still loved her, she never let go of those figures

After all, the person who is going to leave, why stay

But You Zai once again begged yesterday, letting go of all pretense, and only hoped that the person would let him go. After so many years of begging, it was desperate, dark, unbearable

Sure enough, the result was still the same, numbness, that kind of numbness overflowing from the bottom of my heart, finally overwhelmed people, and finally there was nothing left

Is time passing? I can’t feel it anymore. Someone seems to be talking in my ear. I can’t hear clearly. There seems to be someone’s shadow flashing in front of me. I can’t see clearly.

I don't know how long this state has lasted, but why the numbness still hasn't eased?

There seemed to be the yelling and scolding of my father, the doctor's order, and the sighing of Uncle Li, but these were not what I wanted to hear. What exactly did I want to hear?

The body was being shaken constantly, the doctor hurried forward to stop Mr. Nan's radical behavior

"It's useless for you to be like this, she has a heart disease and needs to be mediated"

Mr. Nan blew his beard and stared at the young doctor

"It's been a month, and she's dying like this. I've seen a lot of psychiatrists, and you're just talking nonsense. I don't think there's any need for recuperation. You just wake up after a beating."

Said Nan Lao pushed the doctor away, although Nan Lao said that he was old, but he was still full of spirit, the young doctor staggered and was pushed one meter away, hitting the next door Medical equipment, made a bang

Uncle Li who was standing in the corner of the room silently shook his head, motioning for the doctor to step back, but the doctor also hesitated and walked out after a few words

Ever since Mr. Nan pushed the doctor away, he didn't really step forward to do anything, but suppressed the anger in his heart and said

"You look half dead, but you are exactly like your mother."

These words still didn't arouse any reaction from Nan Jiu. A numb person can't relieve it. Nan Lao seemed to be patient to the limit. He raised his hand and slapped Nan Jiu's face forcefully.

He let out a muffled grunt when he was hit by this gravity. The person who was originally sitting on the bed was hit by this action and fell down.

After falling down, he didn't move any more, just followed the fallen body, didn't get up again, and just lay on his stomach like that, still with the dazed expression, and didn't recover any pain because of the pain.

And Mr. Nan also heard Nan Jiu's muffled groan because of the pain, thinking that this behavior worked, but he was not happy yet, and the result of no response was disappointing

In fact, there was no distress in Mr. Nan's furious eyes, but more impatience. He has always been impatient. He has always been impatient since he was a child. He beat him when he didn't like it. He didn't show mercy and he didn't care. It was like raising a baby. pet

After being silent for a long time, I thought it would just be quiet like this, but the people who came in next made the quiet boil again

Elder Nan seemed to have found a source of venting, rushed forward, and punched the man who had just come in, his glasses shattered, and the temples of the glasses scratched the man's nose, and there was a tinge of redness. Drops of blood spilled out, scratched the corner of the nose, and dripped onto the snow-white floor

"I want you to cook raw and cooked rice, but who wants you to make her look like this?"

These words finally aroused a little reaction from the person lying on the bed.

No wonder, how could such a well-behaved person suddenly behave like this? It turned out to be because of his father's instigation, what a joke in the world

Want to cry, but can't cry, want to laugh, but can't laugh, and finally those slight bitterness will return to the emptiness and confusion again