Yifeng + Continuation: Qinglian + Continuation: Angel Tears

It's a question I can't answer for you in my life. "

"So..." He also seemed discouraged, and didn't say anything.

Then, without a word, he left my room.

I kind of want to comfort him, but I know that I can't respond to him, so it would be better to be cruel to him.I don't mind being hated by him. I can't make him happy, so I can't hurt him.

From dinner to night, he didn't come out of the room. Although I was a little worried, I still didn't express anything.

The next morning, after breakfast, my father, stepmother and younger sister all went to their respective schools.In the corridor, I saw Guangyan.

I don't know if I should say hello, but I didn't move.

"Qinglian, even if you don't like it, there is still some affection for saying hello." With a little resentment, he gave me a light look.

"Excuse me, good morning, Guangyan."

We all laughed, maybe I thought the problem was a bit serious, maybe he just boldly confessed to me who has already been in a relationship with a man just because his first love is by his side.

"That...about yesterday..." He was a little embarrassed, scratching his head and said to me.

With a thoughtful smile, I said to him first: "I have forgotten what happened yesterday." Then, I patted him on the shoulder, "You also forgot, right?"

"No, I remember."

His answer was a bit beyond my expectation, why do I always meet people with dead heads?Didn't go on, I thought he had something to say to me next, so I waited.

"Qinglian, you may not know that I have always liked you——I have dated many people, but none of them lasted long, all because I like you more than them. And they are all like yours Like a shadow, let me look for you at any time." He paused, looking straight at me like yesterday, "I've thought about it, even if you can't accept me, it doesn't matter. I will always I'm very good to you, as long as I can be by your side, I can do anything."

"But I really don't like you, I don't want to hurt you, Guangyan. You are my friend, my irreplaceable childhood sweetheart, I don't want you to be hurt by me."

"I have already decided, even if you will never like me in your life, I don't care."

I really don't know how to respond to him because he really likes me.Seeing him is like seeing Ling Xiaofeng at that time, with such persistence and affection.

Is it wrong?Forcibly let him leave my side, to pursue the kind of life with him in my heart, or, in order to satisfy my desire for self-sacrifice, I use him to let myself play a tragic role as I wish?

It’s been a while since such days, Guangyan is still very kind to me, so good that I can’t face him.

TV news revolves around those people almost every day, the world of the rich, the world of the powerful, and the world of the powerful and rich.

"Next, we are honored to invite the CEO of Ling's Pharmaceutical Group - Mr. Ling Xiaofeng, to accept our interview."

The TV announcer said these words with a mechanical smile and voice, but I couldn't take my eyes off the TV screen.

The successful man on the screen has an impeccably handsome appearance and personable demeanor.There is no pretentious style, still such a gentle and restrained smile, and a touch of sarcasm under that smile.

Nothing has changed, he, he is still the same man who seems gentle but actually indifferent.

Didn't hear what he said, I just stared at him, unable to move.

I'm not wrong, there's nothing wrong with it.

He is a man who should stand in the highest position and be noticed by others.He wasn't the kind of man who should be buried on the podium of a school, he was born to enjoy power.He is an eagle who is trapped in my hand with shackles and thinks he is a parrot. One day, he will still be able to break free from my hand and my iron shackles?Soaring beyond nine days.

8

In this way, I went back to school.After I got to school, I realized how long I hadn't lived a truly normal life.

Very chaotic days, I almost lost the ability to reinvent myself.Ling Xiaofeng hasn't changed, and neither have I. I don't need any changes.I'm me, I'm still me, there's nothing wrong with it.

"Qinglian, do you want to think about this?"

When the dean of the department gave me that letter of introduction, I hardly knew what words to use to describe my surprise.A student who has been on vacation for a long time can actually get a letter of recommendation to work as a secretary under the doctor's family who has lived abroad and returned to China?

It's just that the doctor seems to be in another place.

I smiled at the head of the department and told my decision——

He was not surprised and smiled at me.

I wanted to go home and pack my things, because I was in a hurry and didn't bring my necessary things with me, and it would be unnecessary to buy more.

Pushing open the door, I didn't expect to see a familiar figure - Long Xiaohai, also Ling Xiaofeng.He wasn't in the house, I just saw his shoes and clothes.

I froze for a moment, I didn't say anything, and went straight back to my room to get things.He fell asleep, lying on the only bed in our apartment, very tired.

He wasn't covered with a quilt, so he would catch a cold.Gently, I covered him with a blanket.

After moving a bit, he opened his eyes immediately.

"Qinglian..." He smiled at me, "You haven't eaten yet, I'll do it."

Shaking my head, I smiled at him, "Xiao Hai, I'll go to sleep, I'll go back to my father's place to eat."

Immediately, he sat up.He scratched his hair indiscriminately, as if trying to wake himself up. "I forgot, we are not at that time anymore." Then, he grabbed my hand, "Can't we go back?"

Slowly taking off his hand, I moved a chair and sat opposite him.

"We should have a good talk, Tsunami. Since then, we haven't had a good talk."

Looking into his eyes that made me love, I smiled slightly.

"Xiao Hai, in fact, I have long wanted to have a good talk with you. There is something I must inform you: I am leaving, going to Shanghai, about a year or two, maybe it will be longer."

"why?"

I didn't think about his question, so I answered him immediately: "Because I'm going to study, and the doctor recommended by the school, although he is a secretary, I think I should be able to learn a lot—this is An opportunity that I cannot and do not want to pass up."

"Are you leaving me? I don't have feelings for me anymore?"

I repeated the shaking of my head, and to calm his agitation, I put my hands on his shoulders and looked straight into his eyes.

"I like you very much, love you very much. Really! If there is a second person in this world that I like as much as I like you, it may have to wait until the next life. It is very strange in the days without you , I didn't think about committing suicide. Maybe it's because if I die, I won't be able to see you, so I still live with regret."

Moving my hand down, I caressed his neck - the place where I like to suck kisses most when making love.Then, I continued with my own words:

"However, I want to realize my own value. We are not equal, now, but I don't want to be in the future. I want to have my own business, really, I am a man, and I can't be like a woman, shrinking forever In your arms, live a lifetime of doing nothing. Even if you will be happy to be relied on by me, I can't allow myself to be incompetent."

Kissing his forehead, I smiled, and for the first time even when facing him, I could be so cheerful.

"It's not necessarily a bad thing for us to separate. You can think about what kind of relationship we have. Maybe, after the pain is over, you will suddenly and suddenly realize that it turns out that the love affair that exhausted your energy at that time is not good. The feeling like you will die if you don’t have it is the frivolity of young people. Maybe, you will regard this period of time as a bitter and sweet memory in your memory. When you think about it, you will feel a little bit It’s all about nostalgia.” Then, I kissed his eyes again, “If you still have the same feelings as before, when I have the qualifications to be equal to you, I will desperately snatch you back and let you This life belongs to me alone!"

"Really?" Carefulness was written in his eyes.

Hugging this restless big child, I found that my mood can be calmed down.

"Of course, my favorite person, my favorite person! I love you, you know?"

He looked at me and nodded deeply.

"I know."

Kissing again, lots and lots of kissing, and beyond kissing, physical contact.

I love him, love him very much, I only know this fact now.

Will you come back?I asked myself.

I don't know, I really don't know.

……

Sitting on the train to Shanghai, I looked at the scenery flying by outside the window, and remembered the farewell to Guangyan.

I asked Long Xiaohai to say to Guangyan for me: "Take care, and... I'm sorry."

As for Long Xiaohai, yesterday, our passion was lingering.Then, again, while he was asleep, I left him.

Sorry, Tsunami.I have no way to face you, face you who are about to part.

Maybe, the weak me, will not