Kuai Chuan Zhi Won't Love You Again

I also once said to myself, I have walked bridges in many places and seen clouds in many places, but I have only loved one person, a person of the right age.

Su Nianen is used to death, and death is a very painful thing.Shock, coma, high fever, sometimes body convulsions, convulsions, vomiting, disheveled hair, incontinence.Various tubes have to be inserted into the body, and the sharp sound of the instrument can be heard while lying on the bed.The doctor walked back and forth, as if there was a cork in his throat, always calm and depressed.At a certain moment, I suddenly woke up and saw bright lights, like a living fire deep in my soul that would never go out.There are a lot of things I want to say, but the memories flash through my brain, mottled.

She saw many people and saw the cold and delicate scalpel in the doctor's hand.It was a long, long journey, the night was dark, and the window was barren.Death is the destination, and it should be accepted calmly. Maybe there will be no next life, and the memory in the brain will disappear with the destruction of the body.Happiness, or misfortune, is just a secret buried in the soil, no one can know.Will not take the initiative to mention.

When you face death, what do you think about?Su Nianen stared at the doctor's chin in a daze.She suddenly thought of a word, ideal.This word is out of reach and absurd.But Su Nianen had to face herself, walking on the verge of death, she really thought of her ideal.

Jiang Li's ideal is to be a rich man who can spend the rest of her life in peace and comfort. She doesn't need a man, nor does she need to rely on her. Money is her lifelong pursuit; Zheng Feng's ideal is to be a rich man. An excellent doctor, overcoming all kinds of difficulties, saving lives and saving lives from the hands of death; Su Nianen didn't have any ideals before, or Jiang Li was her ideal.Now, she once again felt the approach of death, maybe the next moment, she would stop breathing.There are a lot of unsaid and undone things. If you don't say or do it again, you probably won't have a chance again.

The doctor pushed Su Nianen out of the operating room and dragged her back from the hands of death after thirteen hours.An Li's eyes were red, she didn't sleep, she cried loudly when Su Nianen came back.All the fear and self-blame fermented and deformed at this time, forming feelings that no one could have expected.Even Su Nianen himself would not have imagined that the shock that death brought to An Li even surpassed love itself.

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It was the third day Su Nianen was transferred from the intensive care unit to the general ward.

Just as Xiao Rong left, An Li and Zheng Feng ended their deadlocked conversation.According to Su Nianen's intention, this matter should not have been told to Zheng Feng, but the fire could not be contained in the paper, Zheng Feng had already been in contact with the hospital, even if An Li helped her hide it, she still did not hide it from the other party.Knowing that Su Nianen had turned the corner, Zheng Feng called and cursed, so Ning Chenzhou joined the melee, and several people talked their own way, and often broke up unhappy.An Li didn't want Zheng Feng to come back.In Su Nianen's words, she doesn't want to be a stumbling block to others, even if her life is hanging by a thread.As for An Li, she just didn't want Su Nianen to feel that she was Zheng Feng's stumbling block, even though she really wasn't.On the other hand, Zheng Feng, he is crazy, it is very unreasonable to attribute Su Nianen's critical illness to An Li and Ning Chenzhou.

But An Li knew that love doesn't need reasoning.

An Li pushed open the door, staring at Su Nianen who was deeply asleep.Before parting, she would never have thought that the next day she would see a dying Su Nian'en, and she did not dare to imagine that if she hadn't opened the door that day, would Su Nian'en have died silently on her bed.She couldn't go on thinking about it any longer, the guesswork suffocated her.

Habitually probing the other person's breath, seeing her slightly rising and falling chest, An Li thought of the doctor's analysis of Su Nianen's condition a few days ago.He said that Nian En's kidneys were failing and there was no other way but surgery.The heart, liver, and kidneys all need to be removed and replaced like replacement parts, but her physical condition cannot afford such a repair operation.If you don't have surgery, you will die; if you have surgery, you will still die.At that moment, she suddenly realized the faint but incomprehensible smile on the corner of Su Nianen's mouth.It is nostalgia, but also powerless.Su Nian'en, who was smiling every day, made her forget that many years ago she was shy and introverted. In fact, she was never elegant and indifferent. Her only courage and enthusiasm were all dedicated to herself, without reservation or leeway.And she kept telling herself that it was her self-righteous love, which could not stand the test of time.

As it turned out, she was wrong.

Su Nianen opened her eyes, staring at An Li who was in a daze without moving.She seemed to be looking at herself, but her thoughts had actually drifted far away.Su Nianen thought a little self-deprecatingly, it must be guilt.Because of guilt, she tolerated herself unconditionally again and again, just because she died with her once.She didn't know whether she should cry or laugh.

"Nian'en, are you feeling better? I'll call the doctor for you." Seeing that Su Nian'en woke up, An Li knelt down to talk to her, because she was so nervous that she knelt on the floor without noticing it.However, Su Nianen did not realize that the other party was actually kneeling due to the problem of his sight.

"It's fine now, no discomfort."

"I'll call the doctor for you. It won't hurt after another examination. You wait a moment." An Li still insisted on calling a doctor for her. She didn't let go of her heart until she was sure that she was fine.

"Ah Li, I have something to tell you." Su Nianen was panting with some difficulty, with a long-lost genuine smile on his face.

"what's up?"

"I thought, write a screenplay."

An Li was stunned for a moment, unable to react, "What do you want to write?"

"One, it's a love story." Su Nianen lowered her eyes as she thought about it.

"You're still sick now, so let's talk about it later? When you're well, you can write any story."

"But Ah Li, I'm dying."

I'm dying.

If I hadn't met you, I could still lie to myself that the former self had died with your disappearance, and I could accept it regardless of illness or death.But one day, you appeared.You are no longer that stubborn girl who has nothing, you don’t have to work hard, you don’t have to work so hard, you don’t have to eat instant noodles every day, you don’t have to wear inferior cosmetics worth hundreds of dollars, you don’t have to deal with the pursuit and pursuit of men with different personalities. The abuse of women.Jiang Li is dead, and only An Li appeared in front of me nine years ago.

And I'm just a disabled person who can't walk.When you are striding in the sea of ​​people, I am destined to be left in a corner. Even though my love story can make countless young men and women cry, my love will end without a problem.

"I am, doomed to die, maybe it's just a matter of time. Tomorrow, or next year, it doesn't really make much difference. I have studied screenwriting before, and I want to write a script, be a director myself... go... go and shoot one , my own movie."

"Nianen, what are you talking nonsense about yourself! What... don't talk about it, okay?"

"Ali, can you help me?"

Su Nianen grasped her hand tightly, blue blood vessels protruding, and her hands were pale, as if grasping at the last straw, "Let's finish it together, a very, very good movie that makes everyone's heart beat."

Please accompany me back to the past.Before that fire, I still loved you, deeply in love with you.

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When Zheng Feng rushed back to China, Su Nianen had already been discharged from the hospital. As a condition of compromise, Su Nianen agreed to Zheng Feng's request and promised to perform the first repair operation after the film was completed.During this period, she will take good care of her body and prepare for the operation.Stubborn as Su Nianen and paranoid as Zheng Feng, this is the biggest compromise the two can make.

The script written by Su Nianen is called "Buried Love", the writing is smooth, like flowing water, and the story of the two girls is told from the age of 23.Even though she had to go for a check-up every day, take medicine, and ensure enough sleep, Su Nianen still finished writing the script in a relatively short period of time.There is no other reason, what she wrote is nothing more than the past of Su Nianen and Jiang Li, from the time they met to the end of their lives, those bits and pieces have already been integrated into the bone marrow, and they will never be forgotten.Zheng Feng read the script and was silent for a long time. He threw it down and watched Su Nianen say the words he wanted to say most, "Nianen, she is dead."

He changed positions seven years ago and became her attending doctor, and later became a friend, brother, and cohabitant. When he dreamed back at midnight, he always remembered the scene when she was sent to the ambulance. She was only 25 years old at the time, but she was like crazy. Generally attacking all medical staff.He never thought that a weak woman who lost her legs would burst out with such great strength.Then one day she asked him, "Do people who are burned to death look ugly after death?" For the first time, he didn't dare to answer her, and for the first time, he began to take this young woman who had escaped from the fire seriously.For nearly ten years, they never mentioned Jiang Li's name. She was as strong as a weed, but death was irresistible after all.It's been a miracle for ten years.But miracles can never be replicated.Just like the miracle of Su Nianen falling in love with Zheng Feng, it will never happen.

"Zheng Feng, this is the first time I really realized how small love is in the face of death, but it is because of its smallness that it can have an irresistible charm, just like the piano piece you taught me, if Xiao En hadn't dived into the bottom of the sea , how did he find the sunken ship that disappeared 20 years ago and compose music based on it, and then shocked the world?"

"If possible, I want others to know that I have come to this world, and I have loved someone. Although my life is short, I did not come in vain in this life."

I just hope that after I die, she can remember me, just like Su Nianen remembers Jiang Li.One year, two years, three years... until she died.Even if it's not love, she is satisfied as long as she is a friend and will never forget her from life to life.

After the script was written, the casting process began.The two leading actors that Su Nianen chose were not well-known film and television actors.She found two Internet celebrities, one named Ji Jie and the other named Song Lian.When the news came out, everyone was shocked.It's not that no one invited Internet celebrities to film before, but most of them were not leading actors, and Su Nianen used two Internet celebrities at once, which were still unknown, which aroused people's various speculations.Netizens asked to change the leading actor, but Su Nianen ignored it.The funder is An Li, and the assistant director is also An Li. There is no need for her to change actors, let alone, they are perfect for each other.

Yes, it couldn't be more appropriate.An Li had to admit that Su Nianen was right.Perhaps no one can see through the former An Li as deeply and sensitively as Su Nianen.The moment Song Lian appeared, she seemed to see another living self.It turned out that Su Nianen had never forgotten.She has always seen An Li and Jiang Li clearly.

"This is the last chance I'll give you. If this movie succeeds, Dad won't stop you in the future. You can be with whoever you want. But if you fail, go home obediently and take care of yourself." The company manages the company, get married when you should get married, and never contact Su Nianen again, do you agree or not?"

"I promise you."

An Li recalled her father's words, looked at Su Nianen who was trying to explain the script to Ji Jie, lowered her head and wrote two lines on the script.

"Well, Miss Su, can this change work?"

"...I say yes."

Nian En, from now on, I will give you many comedies, and they all have happy endings.

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Sleep and sleep, thank you for your support, I am grateful.Goodnight everybody.