poorer than

After parting with Lu Wei in the parking lot, he walked back to the dormitory. On the way back, he was thinking about how to communicate with Xia Xingche. He didn't know if what he did yesterday would cause Xia Xingche irritation. If Che's character can't find him, he will probably be cornered.

Now he understands why Xia Xingche is always careful with him. He really can't imagine how painful it would be to keep remembering such a scene. The memory recovered in his mind still can't let him completely put into that scene, because his subconscious have lifted themselves out of that pain.

But Xia Xingche obviously wasn't, he was still in pain.

You can't blame Xia Xingche for what happened when you were young. After all, they were young at the time, and they were innocent when their parents were involved. He forgot that he could save the pain for a few years, but Xia Xingche always remembered, Obviously, he was more stimulated than him, and he couldn't imagine how terrible it would be to remember such a painful picture for more than ten years, nor could he imagine how painful it would be to remember so many years.

The fault was his father's fault from the very beginning. Even if their mother had mental problems, they should not be forced to separate them from their mother. It was a wrong step.

The figure that once jumped down was like a bird longing for freedom, but because of its broken wings, it fell too badly.

He shook his body as if empathizing with him, his eyes were full of resistance, no, he won't give in, he has strength now, this time he won't compromise on anything.

The dormitory door was not locked, and it opened with a twist. Suddenly, an indescribable smell wafted through his nose, a faint fishy-sweet smell.However, there were voices from inside that attracted his attention, because they were all familiar voices.

There was an entire wardrobe between the two beds, so people inside couldn't see him, and it seemed that the inside was so hot that no one heard him coming in. He tiptoed and squatted under the wardrobe, poking his head out cautiously.

When he saw the posture of the two people on the bed, he quickly took down the lollipop and opened his mouth wide open, dumbfounded.

His younger brother is sitting on his old iron body and massaging, and his old iron is groaning/groaning whether it is comfortable or painful. He is scratching the wardrobe full of doubts, when did the two of them get so good?

I couldn't help being speechless, then stuffed the candy into my mouth again, completely forgetting that I was going to come back to settle accounts, and silently became a melon-eating crowd.

"Xia Xingche, is that how you treat your savior? I'm running behind your back, otherwise you wouldn't even know if you were still here, so you hit me?!" Jiang Chengyun, who was lying on the bed, had a slightly ugly face. The big characters were lying on the bed as if they were lying dead.

Xia Xingche was a little sorry, he looked at the bruises on Jiang Chengyun's back: "Sorry, come over these few days, I will press for you, and try to push the bruises away for you."

Jiang Chengyun slightly turned his head and looked at Xia Xingche who was sitting on top of him: "I was wondering, isn't it just to touch you? Why is the reaction so big?"

Last night, he just wanted to help Xia Xingche change his clothes. Who knew that this guy had a reflex and beat him on the bed. Fortunately, this guy didn't have much strength, but even if he didn't have much strength, he beat him badly. Especially his back, it hurts badly.

It was a night of unspeakable suffering, and it was a shame to think of it. He knew that a dog biting Lu Dongbin did not know a good heart.

Xia Xingche looked at Jiang Chengyun's resentful eyes with a bit of guilt on his face: "I'm sorry, I..."

He has calmed down a long time ago, so he doesn't know what would have happened without Jiang Chengyun in the unstable situation yesterday.

Jiang Chengyun really didn't know where to vent his anger. Thinking that this guy's body hadn't fully recovered, he could only raise his hand and stroke Xia Xingche's hair angrily.

Xia Xingcheng had already changed from a squatting position to a sitting position. He sat cross-legged and ate a lollipop with his chin in his hands to watch the two interacting. When did these two become so good?

So isn't he fighting alone now?

"Okay, you lie down for a while and wait for the medicinal wine to heat up before putting on your clothes." Xia Xingche got off Jiang Chengyun, and when he turned around to get out of bed, he was startled by Xia Xingcheng who was squatting next to the closet.

Sitting back on the bed.

"Damn it—" Jiang Chengyun's calf was crushed by his buttocks, and the moment the weight was pressed down, he let out a cry. He turned his head suddenly to start scolding, but he met Xia Xingcheng who was squatting next to the closet, and tugged in a panic. Kai Xia Xingche sat up from the bed: "Chengcheng?"

This scene is a bit like a rape scene.

Xia Xingche was pushed, even though it was just a slight push, but the emotion in his eyes was so dark that he frowned and looked at Jiang Chengyun, seeming very dissatisfied.But he quickly hid his emotions, and when he raised his eyes again, nothing happened at all.

Then he got up and walked in front of Xia Xingcheng: "Why is there no sound when you come back?"

After speaking, he stretched out his hand towards Xia Xingcheng, his fingertips trembling slightly, but in the next second, as if he remembered something, he immediately withdrew his hand and put it behind his back.

No, he can't be seen, it will scare his brother.

Xia Xingcheng saw Xia Xingche stretch out his hand towards him and then stretch it back. He inadvertently caught a glimpse of the gauze on his wrist, gauze?

As if thinking of something possible, he laughed speechlessly.

But in the depths of his eyes was almost bursting with anger, and now he was trying his best to suppress it.

Maybe this laughter stimulated Xia Xingche intentionally or unintentionally, his pupils shrunk and his brow moved lightly, as if trying to suppress his emotions, he put his hands behind his back and remained silent.

Jiang Chengyun glimpsed Xia Xingche's bowed head from the corner of his eye, as if he had done something wrong, his eyes flickered, and an unknown fire raged up. It's really this time. clear.

Anxious to die.

"How about we go eat hot pot at noon later, I really want to eat spicy food." Xia Xingcheng directly ignored the person in front of him, went to a chair beside him and sat down, his face was the same as usual, looked at Jiang Chengyun and smiled and asked if he was okay The brothers chattered about the common question of what to eat for a while.

Because he regarded Xia Xingche as transparent.

Xia Xingche's body froze.

Feeling the subtlety of the atmosphere, Jiang Chengyun scratched his hair in a headache, his face showed embarrassment: "Cheng'er, don't do this."

"I'm not going to eat at your restaurant this time. I'm tired of eating it. Let's go to another restaurant to eat hot pot. You can also learn other people's hot pot ingredients by the way. I really want to eat tomatoes recently—"

"Xia Xingcheng!"

The smile on Xia Xingcheng's face stopped abruptly, he looked up at Jiang Chengyun, his eyes flickered slightly: "What are you doing so loudly?"

Xia Xingcheng like Jiang Chengyun made his whole body feel uncomfortable. Thinking about Xia Xingche's suicide yesterday, he is now in a panic and doesn't know what to do:

Just as he was about to say what happened yesterday, a hand grabbed his waist fiercely. He gasped in pain and turned his face in surprise. Looking into Xia Xingche's eyes, he saw someone warning him not to do so. explain.

Ah, fidgeting!

"Where did you go yesterday? I kept calling you but couldn't get through. Xia Xingche has also been looking for you for a long time. I don't know if we are in a hurry!" After all, he didn't say anything about Xia Xingche, so he could only tell Xia Xingcheng like this , the involuntary voice was stained with sullenness.

I don't know why I was angry.

"You two have been together?" Xia Xingcheng won't act this time, and he is also coming back to deal with his and Xia Xingche's affairs, but he was a little surprised that Jiang Chengyun would lose his temper with him: "So you two are on good terms, right? No wonder you always talk about Xia Xingche and always talk to him, it seems that this is an organized and planned event, you want to be a peacemaker between me and Xia Xingche?"

not that simple.

"...What together?" Jiang Chengyun glanced at his naked upper body, and was cut off just as he was about to explain.

"No need to quibble, I know everything." Xia Xingcheng bit a lollipop and folded his arms and looked at the two people in front of him: "Since the two of you have teamed up to deal with me, I'll make it clear today."

Xia Xingche looked at him with timidity and anticipation in his eyes.

"You hurt me with a vase a year ago, I don't care what your thoughts are, I will always remember it, this is your mistake, it can't be erased." Xia Xingcheng didn't expect that he could really So calm, he met Xia Xingche's eyes, and this guy dodged because of his gaze: "It's not entirely your fault when I was a child, it's my parents' fault, but you always do things that hurt me because of things like this." It’s wrong for you to do things right, it’s wrong if you haven’t reflected on your own way, it’s wrong for you to think that you’re always being nice to me, and you’re telling me now, are you really being nice to me?”

After Xia Xingche finished listening, the forbearance in his eyes was like a broken dam, and the hands beside him gradually clenched. Who could understand his grievances, and his eyes fell on Xia Xingcheng, wanting to say something, but after a few struggles, But he didn't know how to speak.

The eyelids drooped, and the whole body was uncomfortable.

That's right, what Xia Xingcheng cared about wasn't what happened when he was a child, but what happened to hurt him that time.

He didn't think about it either, he knew he was wrong, he knew he shouldn't be so impulsive back then, but he couldn't stop Xia Xingcheng, his heart seemed to be filled with a fire that he couldn't vent, and his eyes were uncomfortably hot.

"Xia Xingcheng, if I didn't get you out like that, you would have died, you know?"

The voice was like a murmur with tearing emotions, it was not loud but full of anger and trembling, Xia Xingche looked at Xia Xingcheng in front of him and couldn't help but say what he wanted to say, and couldn't help himself after all. Tears of grievance.

"Do you want me to watch you die or make you hate me? Of course I choose to let you hate me...how can I...be willing to let you die..."

Xia Xingcheng was stunned. Looking at Xia Xingche like this, he seemed to be back to the way he was yesterday. The sudden change of mood caught people off guard. This guy was trembling all over with fear, and the gaze that fell on him was so strong that he felt wronged. I feel like I'm a villain.

But no matter what, the injury was still an injury. He knew that Xia Xingche was wronged, but under such a critical situation at that time, he could choose to explain to him that there was no need to use such an extreme method, yet he was still hurt by Xia Xingche.

So now the most insurmountable thing between them is the matter of injury. Brothers are brothers, but injury is injury. He can't deny the existence of blood relationship, but he can't forget the injury he has suffered. Blood relationship is a fetter. I can't talk about it, the only thing I can do is to talk about it completely.

Then deal with it slowly.

Because he didn't dare to provoke Xia Xingche anymore, Brother Wei was right, there must be something wrong with Xia Xingche.

So he has to be calm, he can't escape when everything is ready to get better, what he wants is the truth, what happened to his parents, which memory is true.

Jiang Chengyun looked at Xia Xingche who was standing beside him. He looked a little haggard just after he was discharged from the hospital, and he was always cautious about Xia Xingcheng, so he felt a little uncomfortable for some reason.

As long as the two brothers don't open up and have a chat, they will never resolve the conflicts that have occurred between them.

"Cheng'er, let's talk slowly, shall we? Xia Xingche also...it's not easy." Jiang Chengyun moved to the side, half of his body was in front of Xia Xingche, as if he had done something. Prepare.

Xia Xingcheng looked at Jiang Chengyun's actions unexpectedly, the posture of protecting the guardian was already very obvious, why didn't he believe that these two people had nothing to do with each other?

"Jiang Chengyun, get out of the way." Xia Xingche frowned when he saw Jiang Chengyun standing in front of him.

Jiang Chengyun was a little annoyed: "You—"

"This is a matter between me and my brother, don't interfere." Xia Xingche turned his face to Jiang Chengyun, his eyes were full of strong struggle, and the hand behind touched Jiang Chengyun's waist, saying please the meaning of.

Jiang Chengyun's hands are poisonous, and it itch to touch him, so he curled his lips and silently moved aside, all right, as long as he doesn't fight, he will be at ease.

Xia Xingcheng looked at the two people in front of him speechlessly, isn't he talking about business now?What is this doing.

"Xia Xingche, I'll give you a chance to clarify what's wrong with you, so I'll give you a chance." He raised his eyes to look at Xia Xingche, and rarely put away his playful smile: "It's true that you were also a victim of what happened when you were young. But we have all grown up, people always have to look forward, so why do you always look back and live in fear. Yes, you still remember what happened when you were a child, and you haven’t forgotten to feel the pain, I do It’s lucky to have forgotten, and you don’t want me to remember, no matter whether you are afraid or worried about me, but what you do afterwards is not protecting me, but hurting me.”

Xia Xingche bowed his head and did not speak. That's right, what Xia Xingcheng said was right. He lived his life cautiously, and in the name of protecting him, he hurt Xia Xingcheng again and again. In the end, it was Xia Xingcheng who was hurt. play a protective role.The way he expressed his guilt was wrong, but he couldn't help himself.

"The studio is on fire, you can stop me to prevent me from going in, but why did you throw a vase at me? No matter how you say it, I can't justify it. Your incident will never be erased from my heart." Xia Xingcheng played with the lollipop in his hand Stick, a little distracted, as if thinking about something: "I don't understand, what are you afraid of, my painting dad stops me, and why are you, why can you watch so many of my paintings being burned? Now, you know how much I like to draw."

After he finished speaking, the dormitory fell into silence, but he waited patiently, waiting for Xia Xingche to say everything.These things are like hot potatoes, and only after spreading them all out will he realize how terrible these things are. He doesn't want these things to affect what he is going to do.

Dream chasing hasn't started yet, so it can't be interrupted anymore.

He should be free.

But things were far different from what he had imagined. Because of last night's dream, he suspected that his memory was still incomplete, so he wanted to ask Xia Xingche. If Xia Xingche couldn't ask him, he would really Going to find his father, this is the last thing he will do.

Because the first decision he made after leaving home was to not want this father anymore, never to see him again.

"I'm afraid." Xia Xingche said after a long time, his voice seemed to be trembling, as if the cruelty and bloodshed that happened before him were still vivid in his memory. He couldn't forget that when he was a child, he had nightmares every day. Crying, kept shouting why he didn't save him.

He didn't dare, he was afraid, and he admitted that he was useless.

"What are you afraid of?"

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