Genius Enlightenment

Xin also helped Meng Pingchuan sort out his thoughts, took Meng Pingchuan's textbook, and helped him underline concepts that he didn't fully understand. After underlined, he said: "Sometimes your understanding of some concepts is vague. So you You have to do problems to try to understand concepts, so you're doing more wasted work than anyone else."

……

After the library closed at ten o'clock, Xin also returned home.He saw the message from Pei Yan and asked him, are you home yet?

Xin also replied: Here we are.

Pei Yan then sent a video communication.

Pei Yan was dressed very formally, a gray sweater over a white shirt, because it was indoors, he took off his coat.He put the phone in place.

The camera is focused on a row of bookshelves.

Pei Yan's voice was out of the camera, "My mother went to the hospital today. Her mental condition is very bad. I'll pack my things first and go to accompany him later. I... I'm also in treatment."

"……Um."

"Have you seen Pei Shu recently?"

"He only showed up once. Just made a phone call. He said - he came to me."

Pei Yan was outside the camera and never appeared: "Well. When I woke up that day, I found that I was at the airport. The ticket in my hand was at four o'clock in the morning."

Xin Ye was slightly stunned and did not speak.

Pei Yan: "When I woke up, it was three o'clock in the morning. I thought for a long time whether I should board the plane."

Xin also interrupted him, "—Pei Yan, I understand everything."

"Ah."

"Ah."

After a while of silence, Pei Yan put his face into the camera and said, "If you want to rest, you should rest first."

Xin also looked at Pei Yan's face, his eyes moved slightly: "I'm not sleepy."

"If you have any books you are interested in, remember to tell me. I will send it to you in due course."

"Okay, Teacher Pei."

Although I am busy with my own affairs, I can chat a few words from time to time.Or sitting there chatting alone, busy while chatting alone, maybe it looks boring, but the two people in the bureau don't think so.

Across the ocean, it doesn't seem that far away.

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Meng Pingchuan always followed Xin Ye to the library.Although the goals of the two are not consistent, the state of learning is almost comparable.Meng Pingchuan is mainly concerned with performance, while Xin is also mainly concerned with competition.

Day by day, winter is getting darker and earlier.

After finishing their dinner, the two returned to the library and each took out a test paper.Meng Pingchuan took out a general science paper, and Xin also took out a competition simulation paper.The two began to write questions.

After finishing the test papers, the two helped each other to correct each other.

"261." Xin Ye said after finishing Meng Pingchuan's comprehensive paper.

"272." Meng Pingchuan said after approving Xin Ye's competition paper.

The two smiled at each other.

Their life has always been very boring, basically school, library, and home.Go back and forth between the three locations.In the corner of the library, Xin also finished his last time to participate in the provincial competition, and Meng Pingchuan also finished his last time for the final exam.

Many people have a long period of losing themselves when they really live up to their expectations.Such as Xin Ye, such as Meng Pingchuan.

Xin is also not sure why he would help Meng Pingchuan.

But one of the reasons that can be determined is that he saw himself in Meng Pingchuan who had never met Pei Yan, who was on the edge of a dead end, lost himself, depressed, downcast, and self-pitying.

But as long as you go through this period of time that will not be told in advance, it may be a long time, or it may be very short, and if you stick to it during this period of time, you will always gain something if you have worked hard and worked hard.

Pei Yan accompanied him through this period of time.Pei Yan taught him to accompany others to overcome such difficulties.

Xin wanted to too.

If you must define it, then this may be called growth.

The day before the provincial competition, Xin also received a call from Pei Shu.And received Pei Yan's package.There are two books in it, and some local German snacks.There is another note.The note contained only a string of letters and a sentence, ALQBH.

I don't know when it will be delivered.If it is before the provincial competition, just read it after the test.

There is also a notebook with a digital combination lock.It was a dark blue thick cover, with the word Pei Yan written in a signature pen on the lower right corner.

Driven and powerful.

Like a tall cedar.Just like Pei Yan.

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On the day when the provincial competition ended, parents and cars came and went outside the examination room.Xin also put on his earphones and bag, and walked out of the crowd silently.

He kept his head down, but walked slowly.

He doesn't feel so alone.On the contrary, as long as he thought of Pei Yan and the pick-up and drop-off of these parents, the waiting seemed insignificant.

People don't have everything.

His way of thinking has become less extreme.

Xin also walked to the nearest coffee bar and took out from his satchel the only notebook he brought into the exam room.He did not open before the provincial competition.

He studied the code first.

The hint Pei Yan gave was a string of English letters, but what is the connection between English letters and digital passwords? What do the five letters ALQBH mean?

A is 1?Sort by serial number?

It doesn't seem to work either.Because the password has only five characters, obviously five letters represent five numbers.These numbers are single digits. LQ These numbers are all double digits.

What is the number five?

Xin also thought about it, and got up again. He continued to think while riding in the car.When he arrived at Pei Yan's house, it was already five o'clock in the evening.

Xin also walked into Pei Yan's bedroom, looking for some clues.

He found a key in Pei Yan's pen holder, he used the key to open the drawer, and suddenly found a book lying in the drawer.

It is a book related to cryptography.

Xin also turned two pages. He tried to use two or three simple passwords to correspond to the original text.

Soon, he found the password used by Pei Yan.

The simplest cipher is the Caesar cipher.

ALQBH, refers to XINYE.

Xin also translated the five letters. Although he had hinted in his heart, his heart was still beating very fast.

Can't help but go fast.

Looking at the notebook, he couldn't help but feel that there was a bigger mystery in it.

Thinking of this, his temples beat faster and faster without rhythm.

Xin also suddenly thought of something, he took out the phone's Jiugongge keyboard, XINYE, the number on the Jiugongge keyboard is: 94693.

Xin Ye's eye sockets became slightly hot.

Why did he think of Jiugongge?

Because that's his name.Either speak, write, or type.

What to type out, use the keyboard.

I typed it so many times that these numbers were engraved in my mind, so when I used the password, I just went with the flow and thought of this string of passwords.

Xin also turned the combination lock with a very pious attitude.

94693 .。

Sure enough, the code was instantly unlocked.

Xin Ye's heart seemed to jump into his throat, and he couldn't hold it back.

He opened the cover extremely slowly and solemnly. The first page of the cover was a thick light yellow page with Pei Yan vigorously written on the lower right corner.

Xin also turned a page down.

Inside was a piece of paper, which was Pei Yan's notes.

It's very new, it should have been written in it when it was mailed to him.Because he was holding the notebook at an angle, the note fell to the ground following the tilt of the notebook.

face up.

Xin also read along, and saw Pei Yan's clean and comfortable qualifications.

"Happy birthday."

The inscription was on January 1, and it was given to Xin Ye.

It's Xin Ye's birthday.

Xin Ye's whole body seemed to be set off by a huge wind and waves, and he felt the swelling heartbeat in his ears.

Xin also shook his hands, picked it up, and looked at a line of small characters on the back.

What is written in small print is: It is uncertain when the courier will arrive, so I will send it to you together.The provincial competition is on January 1rd.I hope it can be sent to you before and after the provincial competition.

Xin also carefully clipped the note back into his notebook and read it down.

The pages inside the notebook are an elegant old yellow.On the first page is Pei Yan's clean handwriting, with three lines written on it:

You don't always seem to know what I'm thinking.

This is my fault.

This diary is what I recall every time I miss you after returning to Germany.

Perhaps because it is the content of memories, there is no date marked on it.Just a few lines of words constitute a paragraph, and then the paragraphs are separated from the paragraphs, which seems to imply that Pei Yan fell into a pause when recalling.

The second page.

The first day of transferring to Zhichuan No. 1 Middle School.Lesson [-] has started.A boy came in at the door.He has a long scar on his hand.Most of them were scabbed with blood.There are still some parts that are oozing blood.

His skin was sickly white, his hair was soft, and his eyes were long and thin.The face is small and delicate.Slender and thin.The scent is very unique.

Overheard your name.Your name is Chen Xinye.

Maybe it was overheard, maybe it was intentional.It's been too long, and I can't remember how I learned your name in the first place.I only remember the 37 students in the class, and I am the first one to remember your name.

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Xin was also slightly moved. He was stunned for a while, as if he had just noticed the change of person in Pei Yan's diary.

Pei Yan used him at the beginning.Later, "you" was used.This kind of intimate address seemed to be saying these words to Xin Ye in such a clear and gentle tone as Pei Yan.

Then scroll down.

page three.

The next day, in physics class, I recited Schrödinger's equation.

You see me, and I see you see me.It's just that you look at me with disgust.

why?

In physical education class, I played badminton with you.I rarely play with my peers.In the past, my mother helped me find a coach to play with me. The most important thing I pay attention to in playing is that the movement must be standard, the posture must be accurate, and the trajectory of each ball must be shaped in my mind like a quadratic function.

But that's not how you play.You are only in charge of attacking and scoring.

Of course you get very little.You're not really a lefty.

Even so, you chase points quickly.It made my original playing mode loose, and I even started to attack regardless.

It's a pity that there is no comparison.After the physical education teacher came to stop, you left.He didn't speak another word to me.

But, you—

It's like pretending to be left-handed just to get close to me.

why?

After the head teacher said that the subcontracting area would be cleaned up, you seemed to have left.I thought you were leaving early.

I didn't expect you to come back again.

After the health committee has arranged everyone else's work.

you--

It was intentional.

why?

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Xin also lingered on this page for a long time.

There are three repeated questions on this page, each of which is "why".

Why, Xin also asked himself in his heart.

Maybe it was the envy and hatred that he found that he had everything he didn't have at the moment he saw Pei Yan for the first time; maybe it was the envy that made him have a strong curiosity, wishing to see Pei Yan Decompose it atom by atom to analyze why he grows like this; maybe it is hatred that makes him have a strong desire to destroy, makes him want to destroy him, defeat him, defeat him, and want to see him calm and calm. A look of collapse and panic on his face.

Xin also hesitated for a long time, thought for a long time, and then slowly turned to the next page.

Fourth page.

Shen Hao's book is gone.

I have a hunch you did it.Because Shen Hao spoke ill of you to me yesterday.

It's just that I don't know if you mind the content of his bad words, or if I know about your family affairs, or occasionally (Note).

-

A small note is marked next to this section of the diary.There is a short line of comments at the bottom of the page.

Note: Actually, I don't care about your family affairs.I only care about your feelings.

Xin also turned down.page five.

You seem to be looking at me.Always looking at me.

Page Six.

you are looking at me.

You seem to be following me.

Page Seven.

you are looking at me.

You have been watching me.

I'm sure.

page eight.

You are following me.

I'm sure.

……

The contents of Pei Yan's diary for several days are similar to the same content - it seems that he jumped into the pale yellow paper, plunged into it, and when he came to his eyes again, it was Pei Yan lying on the table, under the moonlight in a foreign country. He held the pen loosely, but his eyes gently drifted to the boundless night outside the window. In the endless dark night, the scene at that time was suddenly recalled before his eyes.

There is such a pair of cold and bright eyes.It seems that these eyes are cold and unreasonable, and they even glance like swords and swords.But when those eyes chased Pei Yan, they were like a beam of spotlights that could focus on their own, so bright that they became hot.Focus to the extreme.

Until page No.14.

There is a photo attached to it.

The photo is from a long time ago.At that time they had dinner with Jiang Youqi and Xu Zehou.Under Xu Zehou's brainwashing, they tacitly went to the library to borrow "Tao Te Ching" after dinner.

After parting in the library, the two went in opposite directions.But not long after, Xin also turned around and rode in the direction of Pei Yan, and waited downstairs at Pei Yan's house for a long time.

The photo is the back view taken by Xin Ye when he walked a little further after waiting for a long time.Because it was dark, the pictures were very blurry, there were street lights, and the dim street lights made Xin Ye's thin back fairly clear.

A photo says nothing.Maybe Pei Yan didn't intend to explain everything.

Pei Yan didn't say anything.How did he make sure that Xin was also following him, how he deliberately turned off the bedroom lights to make Xin Ye mistakenly think that he was asleep, and how he hid in the dark night and watched Xin Ye stay near his house until he left.

Pei Yan didn't say anything.In what mood did he ride home in his usual posture when he knew that Xin would follow him home.He also didn't say how much he ended up knowing about what Shin Ye did.

But this is Xin Ye in Pei Yan's eyes.A Xin Ye who can't even express liking, but can do many things quietly in an unknown corner for the person he likes.

It is Xin Ye that only Pei Yan can own and witness.Because only people like Pei Yan would sit quietly and watch the real Xin Ye quietly in the dark; It is doing the most common and ordinary things, but it can make Xin Ye go on and on.

At the bottom of this photo, there is a line of writing.The handwriting notes are heavy, and it should be that I deliberately wrote very slowly when writing.It shows that the writer's attention was still in the memory at that time.

He wrote: When you gaze into the abyss, the abyss gazes into you.

No. 15 pages.

Xin also thought that there would be more details of Pei Yan's memories in the future.But after Pei Yan wrote this, he didn't look back on what happened to them before.He wrote a long paragraph on the following page.

It doesn't look like Pei Yan's style.But looking at the content written above, it seems to be very similar to Pei Yan's style.

He wrote:

My life is actually very boring.

I follow the steps.I follow the rules.I self-denial.Whether my soul is me or not, I will act like this.This is like a set of procedures that have been set up by Qi Tong from beginning to end. Even if there is no my soul, this procedure will go on as a matter of course.

You observed me.

When you look at me, I want to express myself, to show my true soul.Sometimes whether you look at me or not, I will feel that you are looking at me, so that I can get rid of Qi Tong's setting for me, and I will want to express myself in your eyes, so as to attract your attention more .

The more you pay attention to me, the more I want to live as myself; the more I live as myself, the more I want to attract your attention, and I want you to keep paying attention to me, and even imitate me.Because the closer I am to my heart, the faster my demons are released, the more I want to be Pei Shu.

look.

You observed me.

You control me.

You decide the trajectory of my life.

My fate is decided by you after meeting you.What I became was formed after I met you.

I am what I am in your eyes.In other words, whatever you need from me is what I want to be.Because of this, you can continue to pay attention to me.

From the moment I felt you watching me, I knew you were going to change my destiny.Just like the single electron in the single-electron double-slit interference experiment, once it is observed by the detector, it is destined to change its path.

Just as light encounters water, it will inevitably be refracted.And when the light is incident, as long as its incident angle is determined, no matter whether the light enters the water surface or not at this time, its path has been determined.Just like when you observe me, no matter what I think at the time, you will change my fate and activate Pei Shu.

When I come back to see you again, I think my illness will be cured again.But I think that Pei Shu who loves you will always live in my body and continue to love you together.Because Pei Shu was originally awakened by your observation and reborn to love and protect you.

Maybe everything was doomed before everything happened.

I am doomed to indulge in your observations.

Your observation makes me feel that I am truly alive.

Maybe observation isn't a romantic enough word.So can it be said that it is——

I like it when you look at me.

Just look at me.

Even more romantic, when I look at you, you look at me.

……

Xin also cried when he saw the last line.The tears seemed to be self-conscious, and fainted on the sentence "I like you to look at me. Just look at me".

He cried very softly.It is a cry that has been slowly relieved from the pain that has been suppressed for many years.

He once felt that his methods were shameful.When he was young, he stalked and imitated the clean and beautiful Dong Qianxun who was popular with others. He also wore white shirts and got good grades in the exam, but Chen Xiuli still didn't like him. Dong Qianxun even led other classmates to isolate himself.

He had observed Dong Qianxun and imitated Dong Qianxun, but in the end he was severely cast aside.His situation never changed.But his problem can't be changed.He is not confident, he feels that any behavior he does is not flattering, and no one taught him how to behave in the world, he still just hides in the corner and secretly observes and imitates others.

Until he met Pei Yan.

Pei Yan is the same as Dong Qianxun, clean, beautiful and smart, able to get along well with everyone.

His dark psychology is at work, he secretly observes him, wants to imitate him, surpass him and defeat him.But he always felt that this was shameful. Even after the relationship between him and Pei Yan became stable, he didn't take the initiative to tell Pei Yan that he secretly monitored him and followed him secretly.

But to Pei Yan, his observation was not a bad behavior, but a magic that awakened the real Pei Yan.

Xin wanted to too.

very nice.

Pei Yan calmly pulled back step by step to be a normal high school student; and he even activated Pei Yan who had no interest in life little by little.

The alarm clock goes off.5 minutes passed.Pei Yan's call came as scheduled.

The bedroom hadn't turned on the lights, and the entire space was filled with darkness.Xin was also in the darkness and connected to Pei Yan's phone.

Pei Yan spoke first: "Have you finished reading?"

Xin Ye's voice was very low: "Yes."

Even though Xin Ye deliberately lowered his voice, Pei Yan still clearly heard Xin Ye's slightly hoarse cry.For some reason, when Pei Yan heard that Xin had the same reaction, he was even more relieved, and even smiled softly for some reason.

He said, "Xin Ye."

"Ok?"

The bedroom window was open.There is a cold wind, blowing gently and slowly.

Pei Yan's tone was rare to be arbitrary and decisive, "You are finished. You can only be mine."

There was a silence on both ends of the call.

Xin also laughed silently at this end.

Xin also remembered a small incident a long time ago. He asked, "What you wrote missed a lot of things."

"Ok?"

"A long time ago, in gym class, we did sit-ups together. Remember?"

Pei Yan obviously hesitated, "—huh?"

"Actually, you didn't count clearly at that time, did you? You said I did 58 sit-ups."

"……………………"

"Actually, I don't know how many I made. But it shouldn't be that many."

"..."

"What were you thinking at that time?"

Pei Yan did not answer directly, but pondered for a while, and said: "Then when I come back, do sit-ups again. Then I will count for you again, how many you can do in 1 minute. Maybe you You know what I'm thinking."

Quiet for a while.The two laughed tacitly at both ends of the phone.

Xin Ye suddenly said at this moment: "Look, you are finished too."

The diary is placed on the table, and the night wind blows from time to time.Flip through the diary.After blowing through four or five pages of the diary, I stopped on a page with a line of German written on it.

Write it right in the middle.

Ichliebedich.

Xin also accidentally discovered this line of writing.

It's obviously three words, but it seems that these three words can make a sound, and what Pei Yan said in my ear suddenly changed into this sound.Repeated over and over again.

Xin also looked at these three words, and his throat suddenly choked up again.His voice seemed to echo through the valley, rippling throughout the bedroom.He repeated what Pei Yan said just now, solemnly: "You are finished. You can only be mine."

……

Xin also raised his head and looked into the distance.His vision was a bit blurred, and at the end of the blurred vision, Pei Yan's clean and clear appearance seemed to vaguely reappear.

Xin also didn't know how he and Pei Yan's life would end.But what is certain is that in such a long life, he will only treat Pei Yan like this.

Pei Yan enlightened Xin Ye's love and redeemed Xin Ye's life.

Just as Xin also enlightened Pei Yan and saved Pei Yan.

If it wasn't for Pei Yan's appearance, maybe Xin would have become an unscrupulous person like Chen Xihe;

If Xin Ye didn't appear, perhaps Pei Yan might become the next tragic Pei Dongqing.

But they just met.

No one else can replace their pivotal weight in each other's lives.

The author has something to say: END.

There may be one or two episodes after Pei Yan comes back.

Because of the number of words, about 40% or so is the ending content.

The first Danmei, all in all, is very gratifying.I like both babies very much.They are the cutest babies in my world.If Xin didn't meet Pei Yan, he might become a character like Chen Xihe on the edge of crime. If Pei Yan didn't meet Xin, he would just become another tragic Pei Dongqing beside Qi Tong. The reason for the appearance of the two fathers.They redeemed each other because they met each other.

The original ending was posted on Weibo, feel free to check it out if you want to, just take a picture and have fun.

I still love the setting of these two.Ah woo.What pot goes with what lid.The two were just right.

one way or another.A thousand words.Thank you very much for your company.grateful.

The next book was written by Xu Chengfeng and Guan Sheng.I can't think of a title for the book.The current title of the book is Comparing Silence.Not sure though.But one thing is certain, the occupation of these two people is the occupation of "your name is unknown, and your deeds will last forever".It should be very touching.Ha ha.