saint ruthless

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You... can only love... all the people in the world...

Guo Changcheng repeated these words in his mind.

This... Who is this talking about... Are you talking about him...

There must be something wrong, how could such a worthless man save the world...

He is obviously just such a useless person, like the humblest speck of dust in the vast world.Travelers passing by in a hurry will not stay for him for a second, and no one will care where he goes with the wind.

He has always been the kind of person who stands in an inconspicuous corner.

From the time he was a toddler, he wasn't as cute and cuddly as other kids.He was dull, timid, and cried endlessly.He neither acts like a baby, nor does his parents act like a baby to him.The kind-hearted uncle and aunt gave him a home and loved him as much as his son. The little and clumsy him just thought that he should be obedient and never cause trouble to them.

After going to school, he will always be the kind of boy that no one in the class will pay attention to.He has a mediocre appearance and a stupid mind. He has neither a chic personality to attract boys to play with him, nor can he talk to make girls happy.Most of the time, he just came alone and left silently.But he is still very happy, he does all the dirty work, and he doesn't fight for good things.When friends went out to play, they often couldn't think of calling him, and even so, he didn't care.As long as he is in the group and can look at everyone like this, he will be very happy.

He never expects anything, doesn't ask for anything, just like a shadow that no one notices, standing in the shadow, watching the people coming and going pass his world, and go away without stopping.

Only occasionally, there would be some people who stumbled into his line of sight by mistake. Those people were burdened with too much suffering, unable to move, squatting in the center of the road in pain.Then he would come out from the shadows, reach out to them, pull them up with his thin arms, and watch them go.

He is so small, but he really loves everyone... He thought.

But he is neither a saint nor has the ability to be a saint.It's just because he is too ordinary that he can see the suffering and misfortune that exist in the world but are often ignored by people.

He thought of the person in his heart again.

That person was always dressed in black, with a dignified aura, but the pair of slender phoenix eyes under the sharp eyebrows were full of affection.

That person was arrogant and powerful, and he was so strong that he didn't need his weak self to reach out, but he always felt distressed.He never wanted anything extravagantly, but when he looked at that person, he began to have desires.

He wanted to shake off the coldness on his body and smooth the wrinkles between his brows.

That person was like light, and he couldn't help but get closer.When looking at that person, my humble and ordinary self also began to seriously want to love someone.

... This feeling is clearly true...

However, the man's desperate roar just now seemed to suddenly ring in his ears again.

"Do you know that you only fell in love with me because of that damn possession!"

no it's not...

He denied it powerlessly, but it was as if an invisible hand was strangling his neck, slowly tightening it, and suffocating bit by bit.

There was a voice in my heart rampaging, trampling the already barren land fiercely.The voice shouted:

Wake up, what's true.

Your liking for him is fake.

It's all fake, fake.

Are you still obsessed with it?

That love is not yours, but your borrowed one.

borrow.Come.of.

Now, the time has come for you to return.

With a crash, a hole was torn open in the heart, and blood gushed out.

Guo Changcheng shook violently.He just wanted to find a dark place to curl up in, and he didn't want to hear or see anything.

In fact... everyone knows that he fell in love with Chu Shuzhi only because he was possessed.

...Chu Shuzhi knew it, Zhao Yunlan knew it, everyone in the special mediation office knew it, and he himself knew it too...

Everyone knew that one day he would have to return this borrowed affection.Then it disappears, never to be seen again.And then he'll never want to love him again, he'll never love him again.

Everyone knew that he was originally...unable to love.

Only myself who was in the middle of the game foolishly took it seriously with that bit of self-righteous sincerity.

Guo Changcheng felt dizzy for a while, and closed his eyes in pain.The people from the special mediation office surrounded him and supported him in a panic.

"Xiao Guo!" "Xiao Guo, don't listen to that female ghost talking nonsense!" "It's not such Xiao Guo!"

They anxiously explained and comforted him, but he seemed to be standing alone in a field of ice and snow, the world was lonely, and the surroundings were surrounded by deathly silence.

I don't know how long it took, Guo Changcheng gradually regained a little vision and hearing.He looked up and saw that everyone was looking at him with concern and concern.

In the end he smiled bitterly, his eyes were ashen, and his voice seemed to come vaguely from a distant place.

"...Zhao Chu, I understand, then you can take away your love..."

Just let it all go back to where it was.

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After a burst of light, the night returned to a scene of chilling.

It's over... so it's all over.

Guo Changcheng touched his chest indifferently, and looked up at Chu Shuzhi who was in a coma.But why am I still...

He heard Zhao Yunlan say: "The spiritual consciousness has been in your body for too long, even if it is taken away now, there will be no sudden change. You go back to sleep, wake up tomorrow, and it will probably return to the way it was before. "

Turns out, there was still some time.Guo Changcheng thought sourly but happily.

Zhao Yunlan patted him on the shoulder, "...I don't have to go to work tomorrow, I'll give you a few days off, take a good rest at home."

"Don't worry about Lao Chu's injury. Although he is still in a coma, his condition has stabilized. Shen Wei and I will watch over tonight."

Guo Changcheng shook his head. "Zhao Chu, tonight...let me stay with Brother Chu."

Zhao Yunlan stared at him, hesitated to speak, finally sighed, patted his shoulder reassuringly, and said okay.

After sending Chu Shuzhi back to the special ward of the Special Investigation Department to settle down, Zhao Yunlan drove Shen Wei home.The old hooligan was silent for a rare moment, staring intently at the road ahead, not knowing what he was thinking.

Shen Wei sighed quietly beside him, and asked warmly, "Are you still worried about Xiao Guo?"

Zhao Yunlan nodded, "Well... I just feel that there is no other way? Can we just watch Xiao Guo alone for the rest of his life?"

Shen Wei also looked disappointed, and shook his head helplessly, "You can also see that even if we can find another love hole for him, we can't fuse with his soul."

He felt that his words were extremely cruel. "...I can only hope that after tomorrow, if he loses his affection, he won't be sad again in the future."

Zhao Yunlan's hair was blocked.He casually found some comfort for himself and said, "Fortunately, I don't think Old Chu has any other meaning to Xiao Guo, and he has been avoiding him recently. That's good, otherwise, when Old Chu woke up, he would It's going to be hard."

Shen Wei was silent when he heard it.It would be fine if that was the case, but...

He vaguely remembered that recently he often saw Xiao Guo secretly looking up at Lao Chu from a long distance, and after watching for a while, he came back to his senses, and then hurriedly lowered his head like a guilty child who had done something bad.

However, several times, he found that when Guo Changcheng looked away, Chu Shuzhi raised his head inadvertently, and looked back in the direction of the child with a complicated look, as if he had already discovered Guo Changcheng Peeking at yourself, just pretending not to know.

Shen Wei felt that he was very familiar with the forbearing but inexplicable emotion in Chu Shuzhi's eyes.

It was very similar to his expression when he looked at Zhao Yunlan before.He didn't dare to get too close, but he was greedy for the warmth of that person, reluctant to let go, so he could only stubbornly and silently guard behind him.

He looked forward, and the flashing light of the signal light flickered on the side of his face.

They are all idiots, Shen Wei thought a little sadly.I hope I am wrong.

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In Nuo Da's ward, there was only the sound of Chu Shuzhi's steady and slow breathing.

Guo Changcheng dragged a chair over and sat down, quietly watching him in a daze.The man still frowned slightly in his sleep, his side face was as sharp as a knife, and even when he was asleep, there was a kind of inaccessible coldness.

Guo Changcheng sat motionless for a long time, then, he stretched out his arm cautiously, reached in front of Chu Shu's forehead, and pushed the word Chuan wrinkled between his brows.

"Brother Chu, you must have been in pain just now. I'm sorry." He said to the sleeping man with soft and distressed eyes.

"When I saw that white bone piercing your chest, I was frightened to death, but you still didn't say a word."

"Actually, it's all my fault."

"If I hadn't let you go, you wouldn't have fallen. If I hadn't jumped off with you, you wouldn't have suffered such serious injuries..."

"At that time, I just thought...if it was you, you might be able to land safely, because you are so powerful. But...if I let go of that child, he will definitely die."

Guo Changcheng paused for a while, staring at Chu Shuzhi bewilderedly.

"So I thought, if you die... then I will die with you. Anyway, wherever you go, I will follow you. Even if you feel annoying, I will follow you."

Speaking of this, the child thought of something, his smile melted like ice and snow, and his delicate eyebrows were clear and moving.

"You don't think I'm annoying, do you? You... kissed me just now."

"...Brother Chu, is it true...Actually, am I not in unrequited love?"

Of course no one answered him.He stared quietly at the person on the bed for a while. "Thank you for never bothering me."

"I obviously did so many stupid things... like the time when I wrote the love letter in the talisman."

"But I was forced to write that one by the deputy director. Well, well, I also had fun writing it... Actually, I wrote a big stack, and then I picked one that didn't look so stupid, haha. "

Guo Changcheng recalled it in a rambling manner, as if that person was listening to him quietly and patiently. "When I first met you, I was really afraid of you. You know, I think even the ghosts we caught looked kinder than you..."

"But now you can't frighten me."

"For example, when you scold me for being stupid, if you just stare at me, you're saying that it's okay. If you turn your head and walk away after being angry, it means that you are actually very happy, but you are just embarrassed. However, If you even wrinkle your eyebrows, then you really think I'm stupid..."

Guo Changcheng imagined Chu Shuzhi's expression, and couldn't help laughing.

"Later I also discovered that you are actually very gentle. Every time there is danger, you will subconsciously stand in front of me. I was injured a little, and you were more nervous than anyone else. You taught me how to catch ghosts, and I made progress. You Just touch my head. You never ignore me, you say you dislike me, but you always reach out to me. "

His slender fingers slowly covered the back of Chu Shuzhi's hand, then gently pushed the man's fingertips away, intertwined with his fingers. "Brother Chu, you are so gentle. When I saw you, I felt, ah, this person is my light. I like him so much, I like him so much..."

"Obviously I should be satisfied to go out with you, but I'm getting more and more greedy. I can't help but wonder what it's like to live with you.

"I cook breakfast for you every day, go out together, and wait for you to go home together in the evening. On weekends, I just stay at home. I know you like quiet, so I won't disturb you, I'll just read a book next to you, but... Maybe I will secretly kiss you when you are not paying attention..."

"If you don't mind, I really want to raise a big dog, just like the cute one Zhao Chu raises..."

"...And then, once in a lifetime, it will be over in a blink of an eye."

He had a sweet smile, as if the imaginary scene really appeared in front of his eyes bit by bit.However, the sockets of the eyes became sore, and the shadows were blurred in the vision.He was crying and laughing, tears rolling down his thin cheeks.

"Thinking about it, it doesn't seem fair. When I get old and lose all my teeth, you will still be so young and so handsome. At that time, I will consider hiding away, otherwise people will think you are my son..."

A sense of drowsiness hit him, but he tried hard to open his eyes, greedily wanting to engrave the appearance of that person in his mind.He leaned down, and a feather-like kiss tremblingly landed on the corners of the man's eyes and lips.

"...Brother Chu, I lied to you. I don't want to live with you."

"...I don't want you to like me."

"I regret it. If time goes back a bit, I won't secretly deliver food to you, and I won't watch you giggle anymore. I will definitely keep myself far away from you, and I won't provoke you again."

Tears can't stop like a floodgate.

"Don't be sad. I'm sorry."

I'm sorry...he repeated it over and over until the overwhelming drowsiness could no longer be resisted, the voice and smile of the person in front of him blurred little by little, and there was some heavy emotion in his heart that flowed away like a river that couldn't be stopped.

He fell completely into darkness.