Light Snow to Beginning of Spring GL

Opening the door of the off-road car, climbing into the co-pilot, Yan Fei adjusted the seat to a suitable position, leaning against the back of the seat, as if lying in a familiar embrace, staying alone in the car in the desolate hospital parking lot, With some pain in her head, she put on her coat and prepared to fall asleep again.

After a long time, when I saw He Xueyan again, I didn't know how to face it.

Yan Fei was in the car at night, looking at the lights of the building, closed his eyes, and opened them again. He remembered in his mind a few years ago, probably not long after he joined the company, and accompanied He Xueyan on a business trip. It was also this winter, taking the train to Visiting a writer in a small city, passing through a strange place, she had a cold and fever, He Xueyan heard her coughing at night, and got up to take care of her.

She drank the warm water He Xueyan handed over, ate the medicine in her palm, heard her comforting words, and the light was soft, and she lingered like this all night.

She and He Xueyan, when they think about it, are all such small things, not to mention how earth-shattering, not to mention how affectionate they are, but working overtime together until midnight, going on business trips together, shopping together, scolding people in the unit together, and then Ordinary things, the vigor and excitement of her love have passed, and He Xueyan's has already passed, thinking that after suffering from emotional torture, she can start from scratch and do better than last time, but the torture of life is not only emotional. Same.

When Seventeen and Eight can not think about family and society, when she loves someone purely and passionately, she did not meet He Xueyan, nor did He Xueyan meet her.The timing of the emotion is really subtle to the point of mystery.

For some reason, Yan Fei had a sore nose, covered her mouth with her hands, and still shed tears in the jeep.

This was just a failed page in her relationship, but she suddenly felt a little scared, worried about whether she really had the courage she said, and worried that if she met someone again next time, she would lose the ability to love again.Love is so complicated, it’s best to fend for yourself if you don’t love. In order to get rid of loneliness, is it really worthwhile to invest in harm?

In the deserted sky, she fell asleep after crying.

……

It seemed that she came here for whatever she was afraid of. Before 9 o'clock the next day, the leaders of the agency came first. My mother was almost sick and climbed out of the car, went to the hospital to freshen up, and quickly uploaded the order to communicate with the hospital to make arrangements. After 9 o'clock, the leaders of the club came first.

He Xueyan was really not in the mood to deal with it, this matter was just right for her sister, she kept her head on her head and kept silent all the way, He Xueming shook hands with the leaders of the club first, and the president comforted her sincerely, saying that such a big thing happened, There must be support from all parties in the agency to coordinate hospital experts for the old editor-in-chief to wake up.

He Xueming cheered up and said thank you, received the flower basket from the president, and lined up outside with the president, editor-in-chief, and hospital leaders, saying that the leader of the publicity system was coming. A group of people waited for a while, and the leader came again I came to give condolences, and only told the second sister of the He family to be stronger, I believe that the editor-in-chief will get better, and instructed the hospital to do its best to save her.

The leader of the hospital stated first that an expert team has been formed, and they are contacting overseas experts for consultations, so please rest assured.

People come and go, and this scene doesn't feel like a family affair for a while.

He Xueyan couldn't do it and nodded in agreement, thanking Dade for what she had done, she stayed in the ward and didn't go out. The big guys knew her temper well, and let her hide to prevent her from coming out to deal with it.Everyone was busy outside, and Wang Xudong was the one who took the blame in the end. The leader heard the news from somewhere, and held his hand and said, "You are a famous writer, and you are Mr. Xu's favorite student. I heard that you and Mr. The second girl has been in love for many years, have you set a date to get married? This is a big deal for everyone, and you marry her as soon as possible, so that Mr. Xu can rest assured."

He co-authored it because he never married a girl, and made the old lady sick with anger. This big leader also knew that there was such a thing as Chongxi.Wang Xudong kicked in his heart, this is the reputation of being a good man bestowed by the emperor, it is really hard for him to say that this is not the case in front of a group of leading cadres, listen to me to explain.

"Hey, I'll discuss it with Xueyan." Wang Xudong still didn't have the courage to say that the leader was wrong, so he could only recite the matter casually. If the media stirs up in the future that he promised to get married and found an actress, he won't It's strange to be called a sieve by netizens.

Yan Fei didn't hurt him until this group of people left: "Wait a minute, he will urge you to marry He Xueyan after he makes the headlines. If you want to cheer the old lady up, you have to line up from the front gate to the North Sixth Ring Road. In the future, if you don't If you marry, you just wait for the seniors in the literary and art circles across the country to criticize you."

This pot is hard enough, this is Wuzhishan, Wang Xudong's heart was bleeding and said: "I can marry anytime, is the problem with me?"

Yan Fei ignored him: "You deserve it." Whoever told him to talk nonsense, always calling out He Xueyan's wife and wife, this time he was dumbfounded, even if he jumped into the Yellow River, he wouldn't be able to clean himself up.Yan Fei said to Bai Linyu: "Teacher Bai, don't worry, he has nothing to do with Xueyan, he just wants to take advantage of it."

Bai Linyu walked all the way and said: "Xueyan doesn't like to receive people, thanks to your help." She looked at Yan Fei, and said another sentence: "Thank you for telling me to look for Xueyan, she was touched by this It’s just that I didn’t tell her that you asked me to find her. In fact, if you were the one who was looking for her, I believe she would make up with you. Up to now, she is panicking, and I There is no need to talk about the cause and effect with her, whether the matter between the three of us can be settled, and when Mr. Xu's matter is over, she will go to France with me to relax for a while."

Wang Xudong frowned and wanted to answer, Yan Fei nodded, and said calmly, "Yes."

Wang Xudong picked Yan Fei with one kick, but Yan Fei didn't seem to fight back when she was limp, so Bai Linyu thanked her again and opened the door to go into the ward to accompany He Xueyan.

Wang Xudong pulled Yan Fei's fox ears and said, "What are you blindly admitting?"

Yan Fei patted his hand and said, "Let go of me, what's the matter? I quit in the first place."

Wang Xudong almost strangled her: "Quit you bastard, you hid in my car and cried last night."

Yan Fei really convinced him, he didn't sleep in the middle of the night, did he see it from the car window?Then he went all out: "I'm sad Mr. Xu, can't you?"

Wang Xudong ignored her stubbornness, pulled her arm aside, and said, "You silly fox, that Bai guy is stern, why is he so thoughtful, he won your favor, and if he doesn't blush and doesn't beat his heart, he tells you to get out."

Yan Fei sighed and said, "She's not that capable of telling me to leave, I was going to leave, I don't worry if she takes care of Xueyan."

Wang Xudong shook his head and said: "Your heart is really big, so you can rest assured." After a pause, he touched Yan Fei's head and said, "This trip is gone, don't come back, and develop outside. If you make money in the future, you can return can support me."

"Didn't you raise me?" Yan Fei pursed her lips in displeasure.

Wang Xudong therefore said: "Look at the situation today, if I can't marry He Xueyan, maybe the leaders will ban me down in a few days. If I can't publish a book, why don't you support me?"

Yan Fei pondered over this matter, so she refused to agree to him: "Just be a badass and be raised by other female stars. It's impossible to count on me."

Wang Xudong suddenly felt emotional, looked at the sky outside the window, and said in a gray sky: "I didn't expect that there would be a banquet that would never end, and the three of us would go our separate ways. I originally thought that the three of us were an iron triangle. I write the book, she edits it, you promote it, if the two of you leave, what will happen to my manuscripts in the future, no one can rest assured."

He was a big man, for some reason, his eyes were red, and some tears were shed, as sad as the whole class who was about to graduate from university and broke up together.Yan Fei hadn't cried yet, so he acted first, then scolded Wang Xudong and said, "Is this something about your manuscript? Both parents are sick, and you still miss your manuscript."

Wang Xudong wiped his tears and said: "This is not my own business, it is related to millions of readers, I cry first for the loss of two good editors." Paused, sighed: "I was thinking of you. If I can chase her back, she won't leave after I chase her back, and you won't leave either. You two can still show me the manuscript. I didn't expect you to be so disappointing. Obviously you can go to her and give it away , This has harmed thousands of readers."

Yan Fei heard that he was fabricating a crime for himself, stuffed him with a handful of toilet paper, and said without coaxing: "Don't label me blindly, I have made up my mind, I just don't chase He Xueyan, what can you do to me!"

They were busy bickering, and it was cold, and behind He Xueyan was thinking of visiting her father in the next ward, and said coldly: "He can't do anything to you."

……

Wang Xudong stood straighter than a tree stump, and he didn't pretend to cry, Yan Fei pursed his lips and wanted to jump off the building.

The two of them fell silent, He Xueyan frowned slightly, with a face like the class teacher lecturing, but with a slightly tired expression: "How is my father today?"

"Okay, the director just had a consultation." Yan Fei replied.

He Xueyan sighed, and forced herself to go here to see her father again. She ran back and forth between the two wards, her heart fluttered up and down like an electrocardiogram.

She opened the door to go in, but Yan Fei couldn't control her mouth and said: "What I just said is false."

He Xueyan glanced at her with haggard eyes and said, "Then why didn't you come to see me?"

When she asked about the point, Yan Fei's heart thumped, tears came down and she said: "I thought you liked her more."

……

In He Xueyan's tired eyes, she saw Yan Fei's tears streaming down her face. Her head hurt so much that she couldn't take Yan Fei's words.At this time, she didn't even think about who she liked more.

He Xueyan's silence made Yan Fei's tears break, and she suddenly couldn't control herself. She wiped it with her hand, but it was useless: "I'm sorry, I shouldn't..." She really shouldn't be so naive at this time, and He Xueyan One more layer of worries, entangled in this boring answer.

Wang Xudong just felt embarrassed and didn't know which one to comfort: "Yanyan, don't cry..."

Yan Fei seemed to be a teenager again for a while, she didn't understand why it took so long, she just said a few simple words, her sadness was uncontrollable, she really didn't want to make trouble for He Xueyan, so she said sorry again, and then wiped her hand With tears in his eyes, he turned and ran downstairs.

"Yanyan, don't run around." Wang Xudong wanted to chase, but turned to He Xueyan and said, "Why didn't you say a word, you scared her, she didn't sleep a wink for several nights because of your family."

He Xueyan stood at the door of the ward, frowned slightly, lowered her head and opened her mouth and said, "Thank you two for helping me, I know, without your help, my sister would have been in chaos. Xueshan is far away, and he is not in charge temper."

Seeing her mentioning this, Wang Xudong sighed, and reached out to pat her on the shoulder: "Xueyan, the three of us, those wines are not in vain, and those big rivers and rivers are not in vain. Your brother and I will die in our lives, only one A bald pen begs for a living. It’s hard for you to look up to me. I will help you without ambiguity. If you want to scold you, I will keep it for you. You don’t need to thank me. I know that you are not in the mood to think about Yan Fei. Just take care of your parents."

He is an elegant man with a bit of genuine temperament. He Xueyan listened, nodded, and chewed all his thoughts: "I want to spend a while with my dad."

"Go." Wang Xudong can't be harsh, sometimes, especially at this time, he still doesn't control his stinky mouth and says: "Xueyan, you are unhappy and unhappy in this life, it's not someone else. It's my fault." He felt that after so many things, he should tell her: "There are many unsatisfactory things in this world, but you have to learn to grow up, you can't hide anymore, you hide in the pile of old papers, but you still can't hide from the intrigues of the publishing house. , you hid in the courtyard of your house, but you still couldn't escape the birth, old age, sickness and death of your parents. Bai Linyu was self-righteous, she thought she was your life-saving medicine, and thought she could protect you. In fact, everyone has to admit that living is all lonely, Go alone, no one can help anyone."

He babbled a lot, and felt that he had finally done what a life mentor and a famous writer should do. Seeing He Xueyan's expression was indifferent after he finished speaking, and he didn't answer, Wang Xudong felt boring again. He was full of talent. Running to He Xueyan, let him show his timidity, as if he was playing a big knife in front of Guan Gong, and Lu Ban talked about wooden work at the door: "Anyway, you...you don't listen, I don't have a good life. If I teach you, you just treat it as a I'm just farting."

A man in his 30s, scratching his head, said goodbye and turned to leave. The high school stunned young man was as lame as a teacher who comforted a divorce, with wrong timing, ugly words, and very sensational.As embarrassing as writing a bad book.

Everyone left, He Xueyan sighed, pushed open the door of the ward, and went to see his father by the bed.

The sky was dim and the lights were on in the ward. She took off her scarf and sat beside her old father, seeing him sleeping.Reaching out to grab his callused and age-spotted hands, thinking of when he was young, pulling himself to school.

She thought a lot, but she didn't really understand it, but her heart became heavier and heavier.

What she wanted to escape was nothing more than a deception.

In a person's life, why must there be so many unsatisfactory things.

……

This afternoon, He Xueyan finally waited for the doctor to come and announce to her.

The mother left, without even returning to the light, and passed away in a coma.

He Xueming pulled her hair, quarreled with the doctor in a high-pitched voice, and then burst into tears by the hospital bed. He Xueyan was beside her, quietly watching the nurse pull the white cloth on her mother. Her brother arrived at the last moment. Only the remains of the old man were seen.

He Xueshan shed tears himself, and first comforted the emotional elder sister, he wiped her tears, hugged her in his arms and said something, He Xueyan just looked aside indifferently, with the corners of her mouth pursed, there was a piece in her heart that was forever missing , that is irretrievable comfort.

The body was finally pushed away, and life and death parted, which was an irreversible matter, but it was considered complete so far.

Late that night, after she finished all the formalities and funeral arrangements, He Xueyan walked to the roof of the hospital alone. She was wrapped in a scarf and put her hands in her pockets in the smoggy day, wanting to see the night sky. Dirty rags.

The one who stayed in the hospital was Bai Linyu, who silently followed behind her and handed her a tissue to wipe her tears.

He Xueyan's sad reflex arc became longer, and it took several hours to react. When her mother left, her tears fell, and she was called a fickle name in front of others, and her sleeves were wet when she was crying.She complained to heaven and others, and in the end, faced with these realities, she still had to stop and learn to shed tears when she should be sad.

Bai Linyu didn't know how to comfort her. The first time she saw her crying so fiercely, it made her feel a little scared. She was afraid that the glass man would be crushed again, so she had no choice but to hold her in her arms, "Don't be afraid, I'm here, I'm with you."

He Xueyan didn't reply, didn't nod or shake her head, just leaned in her arms, crying until she couldn't breathe, her throat became hoarse, crying until she seemed to have no strength at all, Bai Linyu took her back to the ward with her arms in her arms, put her on the bed, Let the emaciated He Xueyan sleep for a while.

But He Xueyan opened her eyes, pulled her clothes like a child, and said calmly: "Actually, I've hated her all my life. She has never cooked me a meal, washed a piece of clothes, or bought me food once." Yes. She taught me how to write. She only gave me a pen, a piece of paper, and a post, and let me practice. She couldn’t remember whether I was in junior high school or elementary school. She was always busy and didn’t allow me to stay at home. Watching TV, because it will disturb her to draw." She said flatly, and then said with dark eyes: "I have never felt safe, I want someone who only cares about me, and I want her to surround me, and I will also surround her. with her."

Bai Linyu leaned down, kissed her forehead, and stroked her crying hair: "You have me."

He Xueyan shook her head with empty eyes and answered her words: "I think it is."

Bai Linyu sighed, took off his coat, lay down with her, and hugged her in his arms: "This time it's true, I won't leave you."

He Xueyan is too tired, too sad, it should be good to relive such old dreams, today, at this moment, her heart is so empty, but she doesn't want to grab someone casually, a child wants to stuff her mouth like sugar to fill the void: " Lin Yu..."

"What?" Bai Linyu asked.

He Xueyan leaned on her shoulder, but said: "I went to Guizhou, but I couldn't remember how you were kind to me. I kept thinking about your bad things, and I realized that after so many years, I I miss you in my heart just because I am not reconciled. I am not reconciled, I love you so much, and you are with someone else.” After a pause, he said like a memory: “Actually, thinking about it now, what is there to be reconciled to? Okay, but I’m still in my early twenties, too young. A person’s life is so long, you will always meet a few people you like. I thought about it for a long time in Guizhou, and I finally figured it out. You have nothing to do to me. We It’s just the end of a relationship, you didn’t kill and set fire, that foreign girl must have been very kind to you when you were most unhappy, there is nothing wrong with you choosing her.”

Bai Linyu took a breath slowly, listening to He Xueyan's hoarse voice, chatting about the past in the middle of the night, stroked her hair, hugged her and said distressedly: "You are tired, go to sleep for a while."

He Xueyan nodded, being protected by her, she still told the truth: "Lin Yu, I do still like you. I am very relieved that you return to China. I will still think of you after leaving you." Keeping it hidden, on this night when I lost my dear one, I said to her, who has been thinking about her for half my life, "But I don't want to lie to you. When I was in Guizhou, when I was alone, Yan Fei was what I thought about the most. I was a little worried about her." She is afraid that others will treat her badly, and that she will fail to start a business in Hong Kong and be deceived again..."

Hearing this, Bai Linyu frowned slightly: "Do we have to talk about this at this time? Go to sleep, you are tired." Still hurting in his heart, he said: "I received a notice the day before yesterday that I can settle down .I will do another signing, and I will go back to France to deal with some things. It may take a while. I thought, I can take you around."

He Xueyan answered in her arms: "My father still needs to be taken care of, I can't leave here." After a pause, he looked up at her, as if the person holding her was still a young person, reached out to touch Bai Linyu's cheek, raised his head Went to kiss the corner of her mouth: "Lin Yu, thank you for being with me for so long."

It was not a very sweet kiss, but Bai Linyu felt that she was very smart in choosing to say these words at this time. At this time, he could no longer argue with her, and he had no reason to force her to do anything: "You fool, I said this at this time because I don't want me to pester you, if I beg you... With your temper, you will definitely soften your heart to me and force yourself to be with me. "

These things are so familiar that there is nothing new about them.

Every time we break up, we will fall into that routine, one person says soft words, and the other person softens his heart, and then we continue to wait for the next torture together.

He Xueyan didn't mind what she said, and said lightly: "Then don't open your mouth." Then she continued in her arms: "Let me choose a different result once and leave this repeated cycle, but you still understand, we Just having each other in another way, you are still my important friend."

Bai Linyu sighed, said she was a fool again, put her arms around her and said, "I respect all your decisions, don't talk now, let me sleep with you in my arms, okay?"

He Xueyan nodded, she was too sleepy, and He Xueming had to take care of it outside, so she had to take a rest, she leaned against Bai Linyu's arms and closed her eyes, this time, she really fell asleep.