sleep in your heart

gay.

You Zeyi found that it was not that difficult to say these three words after drinking.

Unlike in the past, he was entangled with these three words and had continuous nightmares for a long time.

He stood there, watched the change of Zheng Zhi's expression, and then pulled out a drunken smile and said, "So, you shouldn't bring me back."

"Why?" Zheng Zhi asked him expressionlessly, "Why not? What happened to homosexuality? It's not a virus."

You Zeyi didn't know what to say, after so many years, no one said such words to him again.

Zheng Zhi took out his tie from his pocket, threw it on the sofa, then started to unbutton his shirt, walked past You Zeyi, and said to him, "Take a bath and have a good sleep."

There are always some evil seeds in people's hearts, which are usually buried in the soil obediently, but no one can guarantee that they will never come out to make trouble.

When Zheng Zhi rubbed You Ze's shoulder and walked over, the restless factor in You Ze's heart awoke, and he was inexplicably unhappy, and the reason for that unhappiness was Zheng Zhi's gentleness.

In high school, because he was rumored to be gay, he suffered bullying for more than half a month. During that time, Zheng Zhi and Zhou Tong were protecting him. After that incident, no one mentioned it again.

You Zeyi once thought that it was just a fragment of his growth path, which would eventually become a memory, but he did not expect that something even more terrifying and capable of changing the trajectory of his life was still waiting for him.

Even after his father was imprisoned and his mother passed away, You Zeyi still had expectations for the world. He felt that as long as he worked hard enough, life would be better one day.

However, those things he experienced in college made him have to admit that people's hearts are always evil, and he shouldn't have illusions about anyone.

The same goes for Zheng Zhi.

Zheng Zhi said, "What's wrong with homosexuality? It's not a virus."

That's just because he hasn't been entangled by this "virus" yet, You Zeyi thought evilly, when his own virus body pounces on him, the other party will definitely avoid it.

"Zheng Zhi." As soon as You Ze called him, he turned around and hugged him from behind in the next second.

Zheng Zhi was stunned, and the hand that was unbuttoning his clothes stopped there. When he felt the temperature from You Zeyi spreading from his back to his whole body, his brain stopped thinking.

He heard You Zeyi say: "You said homosexuality is not a virus, right?"

You Zeyi caressed Zheng Zhi with his hand: "But I am like this, don't you feel sick?"

Perhaps it was because of the effect of alcohol that You Zeyi became bolder. He went around and held Zheng Zhi's face, getting closer and closer. He stared into the other's eyes and asked emotionlessly, "What do you mean?" , is homosexuality really disgusting?"

You Ze's eyes were red and he was trembling all over. He gritted his teeth and asked Zheng Zhi, who was hugged by Zheng Zhi.

"No." Zheng Zhi knew that he drank too much, but he also knew that part of You Zeyi who was drunk was the most real. He patted the back of the man in his arms and coaxed him, "Are you Tired? Then don't take a shower, just go to sleep."

You Zeyi pressed his face against Zheng Zhi's shoulder, and said in a daze, "Zheng Zhi, you don't understand."

"I see."

How could Zheng Zhi not understand?From the crush in high school to the cherishment after the reunion now, Zheng Zhi couldn't understand it better.

Hearing You Zeyi's voice, Zheng Zhi's heart ached. He kissed You Zeyi's hair lightly, and said softly, "Don't deny yourself, you've always been fine."

Zheng Zhi wasn't sure if he drank too much, but normally, these few glasses of wine didn't affect him at all.

However, when he entered the bedroom with You Zeyi in his arms, and was accidentally brought down on the bed by the other party, he felt dizzy and just wanted to kiss the mouth in front of him.

You Zeyi was really drunk, his whole body was dizzy, a little tired and a little excited, physically tired and mentally excited.

He put his arms around Zheng Zhi's neck, welcoming his kiss.

This is not the first time he kissed. The last time was on the campus of Eleven High School, behind the teaching building, and the person in front of him at this moment took away his first kiss without saying anything.

Eight years later, they kissed again, but this time was obviously different from the last time.

is hot.

It's like a burning flame.

with a desire for each other.

Zheng Zhi has never been a person who indulges selfish desires, and You Zeyi is even more reserved and restrained, but this night, I don't know if it was caused by alcohol, or he met the right person, they hugged each other and dissolved in the crimson moonlight.

When You Zeyi woke up, he had two feelings.

The first was a headache, caused by the alcohol he had drunk the night before.

The second is that a certain private part of the body hurts unbearably because he did something with a man after he was drunk that he hadn't done in 27 years of his life.

That man was Zheng Zhi, and that incident was a bed incident that made him blush and heartbeat just thinking about it, wishing he could completely lose his memory.

He stared at the ceiling with his eyes open for a long time, thinking that he would have a vague memory of what happened that night in the past, but he didn't expect that every moment and every picture was so clear.

You Zeyi couldn't accept this matter, even though Zheng Zhi had been hidden in his heart for so many years, he still couldn't accept that he slept with Zheng Zhi.

It's not that I don't want to, it's not that I don't want to, but I dare not.

Everything he encountered told him that no matter how society develops, homosexuality is still unwelcome.

He was already miserable enough not to drag Zheng Zhiye into the water.

As soon as You Ze leaned on the bed and sat up, he gasped for some pain. The clothes were beside the bed. He grabbed them and put them on. When he put on his trousers, he felt his headache was about to explode.

There were no slippers beside the bed, and he walked out of the room with bare feet, enduring the pain bit by bit.

On weekdays, it was already past eight o'clock in the morning, and You Ze thought that Zheng Zhi might have gone out, took the things by himself, and didn't know how to help lock the door when he left.

However, he had just walked to the bathroom when he heard the sliding door of the kitchen open.

He followed the sound and looked over. Zheng Zhi was wearing an apron, holding a white porcelain bowl with a small spoon in it.

"You're awake." Zheng Zhi smiled at him, walked over and said, "Why are you putting on that dress again? It smells like alcohol, didn't you see the pajamas I put next to you?"

You Zeyi looked at him and didn't speak.

"Are you going to the toilet?" Zheng Zhi put the porridge on the coffee table in the living room, walked over and turned on the light in the bathroom for him, "I'll get you clothes, and you can change after you go to the toilet, or do you want to wash them?" a bath?"

You Zeyi still looked at him steadfastly, without saying a word.

Zheng Zhi felt that the atmosphere was a bit strange, so he continued to search for topics: "That last night... You fell asleep later, and I didn't bother you, so I just wiped it with a wet towel, or I put water in the bathtub, You can take a bath to feel better."

"Zheng Zhi." You Zeyi finally opened his mouth, his face was pale, and he said weakly, "Don't bother, I'll go to the toilet and leave."

Zheng Zhi frowned: "Where are you going?"

"Go home." You Zeyi said, "I'm on vacation today, go home and have a good sleep."

"Just sleep here," Zheng Zhi stepped forward, trying to support him, but was avoided, "What's wrong?"

You Zeyi really didn't know how to face Zheng Zhi. In his opinion, what happened last night was because of him. The more he thought about it, the more afraid he became, and the more afraid he became, the more he wanted to hide.

"I'd better leave now." You Ze stepped back in panic, looking around, looking for his backpack.

"What do you mean?" Zheng Zhi couldn't understand him at all. Although he was blessed with alcohol last night, it was your choice anyway. Why did it come to morning, as if he was forced to bow by the overlord?

You Zeyi took two steps back and explained: "Don't be angry, I don't mean anything else, I just want to say, you are not... You are different from me, even if you do it once, don't label yourself like that , I won't ask you to treat me just because of this one time, it's okay, everyone is a man, it's normal, really normal."

"What nonsense are you talking about?" Zheng Zhi was in a hurry, pinching You Zeyi's thin shoulders with both hands, and said displeasedly, "You mean we can sleep together once? What label did I put on myself? You put Speak clearly!"

You Zeyi already had a headache, and his mind was still confused, and he was even more dizzy after being yelled at by him.

Leaning against the wall behind him, he sighed and said, "Zheng Zhi, don't worry, I'm just afraid that because of this time, you'll think you're gay too."

"You shouldn't be like this." You Zeyi gently pushed him away, raised his head and looked at Zheng Zhi with deep eyes, he suddenly found that Zheng Zhi had actually changed a lot, more angular, more handsome, and more mature than before , Such Zheng Zhi is something he shouldn't be able to achieve.

"I shouldn't be like this?" Zheng Zhi slowed down his speech and his tone, "What? Should I sleep with you, or should I like you?"

The three words "I like you" sounded like a heavy blow to You Zeyi who was still drowsy after he woke up. His eyes widened, and Zheng Zhi's words just echoed in his ears repeatedly. The phrase "I like you" seemed like Traveling from the distant eight years ago, it is the echo of the world after he can't forget.

"You Zeyi, listen carefully. I, Zheng Zhi, am not the kind of casual person. If it weren't for you, no one would have slept in that bed yesterday." Zheng Zhi's hand stroked You Zeyi's cold cheek, " Do you know why I suddenly kissed you back in high school?"

Zheng Zhi smiled, and wrapped his other hand around You Zeyi's waist.

He leaned forward slowly, and for a moment he seemed to have returned to that cool autumn morning when two boys in school uniforms were getting closer and closer to each other by the small flower bed behind the teaching building. Finally, their lips stuck to each other. together.

You Ze opened his eyes in a daze, and Zheng Zhi said softly, "Close your eyes."

Then, he closed his eyes obediently, feeling the other party's kiss as light as a feather, and the hug that was getting tighter and tighter.

The author has something to say: at this rate, it will be finished this month