sleep in your heart

When Zheng Zhi opened the letter that You Zeyi forced to him that year, he hadn't realized what it meant to him, let alone thought that eight years later, the edges of the paper would be wrinkled and torn , but he still wrapped it in a small plastic package and stuffed it in a certain place in the wallet. It was not until two months before the reunion with You Zeyi that he lost this little thing in an instant .

This is the first time that You Zeyi has written a serious letter that may be called a "letter". At first, he just wanted to show Zheng Zhi that he didn't mean to argue with him at that time, but he just didn't understand why everyone He was so repulsive to homosexuality, and then he began to try to persuade Zheng Zhi to accept and understand that homosexuality is not an unforgivable sin. He wrote a large article, which was more enjoyable than his usual writing.

Zheng Zhi saw You Zeyi wrote: I checked the information, and homosexuality was excluded from mental illness in 2001. It is neither a disease nor a crime. We should not look at homosexuals with colored glasses.

He remembered the expressions of the two when he bumped into Ning Lu and kissed others, especially Ning Lu, who panicked like a frightened rabbit, with pleading eyes, afraid that he would say something terrible.

It took Zheng Zhi so long to realize suddenly that he looked indifferent at the time, but for Ning Lu who was unprepared, that scene was terrible.

In today's society, everyone is clamoring for equal rights, but it's just casually clamoring. Who has really made any efforts for those minority groups?

In Zheng Zhi's heart, You Zeyi is like a soft persimmon, as if anyone can squeeze it. The reason why no one squeezes it is because he has no sense of existence and does not pose any threat to others. Everyone is busy with their own affairs , I have no time to talk to him.

And he himself is a bit clumsy and blunt, and he is working hard to learn in life, but with little success.

Zheng Zhi didn't expect You Ze to say such words in a while, and suddenly he looked at this guy with admiration.

Zheng Zhi does not reject homosexuality, nor does he think there is any problem with liking homosexuality. Everyone has their own way of life, so why care about so many others?But in the final analysis, in their lives, sexual orientation is still a topic that cannot be casually mentioned, especially in front of the elders, homosexuality seems to have been equated with unfilial, depraved and perverted, if possible, who Also don't want to be gay.

After reading this letter, not sure if it was a letter, Zheng Zhi folded it, opened the drawer of the desk, and put it in the sheet music that he had used when he was learning guitar.

You Zeyi actually regretted it when he sent the letter, but he couldn't find someone to get it back, so he had to bite the bullet and run away, and then pretended nothing happened.

When he went to class the next day, he was too embarrassed to look at Zheng Zhi, but Zheng Zhi took the initiative to ask him if there were any questions he couldn't understand in the past two days, and said by the way: "I don't see it, you can write well." of."

"Ah?" You Zeyi was taken aback, staring blankly at Zheng Zhi.

Seeing his dumbfounded appearance, Zheng Zhi couldn't help laughing, raised his hand and snapped his fingers in front of him and said, "It's okay, let's talk, is there any question you don't know?"

There must be. From the beginning of the class on Monday, You Zeyi felt awkward. The two of them didn't talk much, and he didn't dare to bother Zheng Zhi. He piled up a lot of questions and didn't want to ask Zhou Tong, so he could only endure it. , Waiting for the day Zheng Zhi takes care of him, he will ask again.

Now, it seemed that everything suddenly became clear. You Zeyi couldn't help laughing, lowered his head, took out the workbook, found a corner page and said, "Mr. Zheng, I didn't even understand this sample question."

In the past, You Zeyi felt that the word "the years are quiet" was very pretentious and hypocritical, and these days, there is no such thing as a quiet time.

He lived in that kind of living environment before, and every day he could hear the cursing voice of his drunken father or the wailing voice of his hysterical mother.

Later, the cursing and crying stopped, and he was the only one left, let alone quiet.

In the past more than ten years, You Zeyi has never had a peaceful and stable life. During the time at his aunt's house, the warmth was indeed warm, but there was no day that made him feel at ease. He really couldn't feel at ease. Enjoy what others give you.

At that time, You Zeyi felt that his entire life had deviated from the normal track, but this train called "life" was still running forward without thinking, not knowing where the front was, and where the focus was .

But it’s different now. He’s sitting in the classroom, sweating profusely, fanning the paper with a roll. Beside him, a very nice person is patiently giving him a lecture, which makes him feel like his life has been pulled back in a trance. on the original track.

At the end of September, when the second monthly exam was about to begin, You Zeyi finally got into the mood, studying all day long, and obviously felt much better when doing the questions by himself than before.

He was gearing up and looking forward to the monthly exam, but the teacher stood on the podium and said: "This monthly exam will be postponed for one week, and there will be a sports meeting for three days on Friday, Saturday, and Sunday."

You Zeyi asked Zheng Zhi in surprise, "Do you want to participate in the senior year?"

At his old school, all activities were canceled in the third grade, and there was even no gym class after that.

"That's right." Zheng Zhi leaned on the chair and turned his pen, "Last week, the sports committee asked everyone to apply for the project, didn't you know?"

"I don't know!" You Zeyi didn't pay attention to what the sports committee member said at all. For a while, he didn't know whether he should feel that he was too deaf to the outside world or should reflect on whether he was too out of group.

"Are you annoyed?" Zheng Zhi looked at him with a smile, "What project do you want to apply for? You can ask the sports committee, maybe you can still apply."

"No, no, that's not what I meant." You Zeyi is a sports scumbag, he used to wander wildly on the verge of failing every time in the sports exam.

On the podium, the teacher talked about the time schedule. There are two and a half days in total. There is a holiday on Sunday afternoon, and classes will continue as usual on Monday. At the end, he specifically asked: "You guys take a good rest these three days, and take care of yourself when you come back on Monday. Test, you can figure it out for yourself."

The teacher had just made the arrangements, and Zhou Tong had already started calling the girls to form a cheerleading team.

Zheng Zhi glanced at him, "cut" contemptuously, and then took out a new exercise book from the desk.

"Huh? You bought this too?" Zheng Zhixin bought this exercise book You Zeyi has been doing for a while, but the questions in it are a bit difficult, and he has to drag Zheng Zhiwen for a long time every chapter.

"Well, I'll finish this book soon, and if you ask me a question, I can tell you about it."

When Zheng Zhi said this, there was no special expression or tone, everything was as normal as the wind blowing in summer, but when this wind blows into You Zeyi's heart, it becomes a little different.

He thought: Zheng Zhi bought the same exercise book specially for me, and in order to give me lectures, he deliberately spared time to do this.

In fact, he also knows in his heart that this so-called "deliberate" is probably just a self-indulgent sentimentality, but he still feels that this kind of Zheng Zhi is so good that he is a little at a loss.

He began to be afraid, but he couldn't tell what he was afraid of.

The day before the sports meeting, the school canceled the evening self-study. After school in the afternoon, Zhou Tong came over and asked You Zeyi: "I'm going to the city library, do you want to go together?"

"Ah? Won't the door be closed at this time?"

"The city map will be open until 10:30 at night." Zheng Zhi replied casually while packing his things.

"Zheng Zhi, are you here too?" Although Zheng Zhi was not willing to talk to Zhou Tong, Zhou Tong wanted to provoke Zheng Zhi from time to time.

Zheng Zhi glanced at You Zeyi and asked him, "Are you going?"

In fact, the reason why Zhou Tong came to ask You Zeyi was because You Zeyi had a sudden whim two weeks ago and wanted to look up some books about homosexuality, but the school library didn't have any books about it. He heard that it was not far from the school. It was the city library, so I asked Zhou Tong about it, but I didn't have time to go, so I dragged it to now.

"Uh, I kind of want to go."

Zheng Zhi looked at Zhou Tong: "Then let's go together."

Zhou Tong curled his lips in disgust: "It's true, if you don't go with Lao You, you won't go either."

Zheng Zhi ignored him, but You Zeyi took this sentence into his heart.

Some things are changing so quietly, and some emotions are being nourished so quietly.

At that time, Zheng Zhi had already planted a small sapling in You Zeyi's heart, but one of them didn't care about it, and the other didn't want to care about it, for fear that this well-regulated life would be broken.

The three boys walked out of the school with their schoolbags on their backs. Zhou Tong yelled that he was hungry and wanted to have a bite first. Zheng Zhi was a little reluctant to eat with him, but there was nothing he could do. He could only sit opposite Zhou Tong with a straight face. While eating, he said in a cold voice, "Speak less and eat quickly."

The more Zheng Zhi said that, the more Zhou Tong was annoyed with him. You Zeyi thought the way the two of them got along was very interesting, and couldn't help laughing when he bowed his head to eat.

By the time they finished eating, it was almost seven o'clock.

You Zeyi suddenly remembered that Zheng Zhi said that his father drove to pick him up every night, but today he didn't see anyone, nor did Zheng Zhi call home, so he asked curiously: "Your parents know you come out?"

"The two of them went out to celebrate my grandma's birthday."

You Ze nodded, and walked slowly beside Zheng Zhi.

He still envied this boy very much. Apart from his own excellence, he also felt that his happy family was out of reach.

I haven't enjoyed it before, and I won't have it again in the future.

You Zeyi finally understands that there is really no fairness in this world, but he doesn't feel jealous, nor is he cynical, because at least he is living a good life now, and there are some people who let him see how life treats him. be kind.