Cannon fodder always wants to blow me up

Li Qiuxian sat on the stool in the living room and took out the things he brought back.Although the movement was very light, it still woke up the aunt in the bedroom.

The door of the bedroom opened, and Aunt Li came out from inside. The temperature difference between the inside and outside of the room made her feel a little uncomfortable, and her complexion was a little pale.

Aunt Li was very happy to see Li Qiuxuan, "Xiangxuan is back? Didn't you say you won't come back this weekend? You should call me and tell me that Auntie can go out to buy vegetables and cook some soup for you! Hey, Your aunt is at home alone, she hasn't cooked any good dishes, and there's nothing in the refrigerator..."

Aunt Li babbled a lot, but Li Qiuxian was not impatient at all. When she was about to go back to get the money and go out to buy groceries after she finished talking, he said, "No need, Auntie. I'm going back to school in the afternoon. , I came back to see you today. Eat whatever you want!"

Aunt Li seemed a little reluctant, "You only come back once a week, the food in school...do you want me to get you some good ones?"

"No need, what can I not eat outside? You save the money to buy yourself delicious and comfortable clothes! Don't worry about me." Li Qiuxuan got up and pushed Aunt Li into the bedroom. The temperature outside was very high. Aunt Li's face was obviously getting paler.

Aunt Li, who was forcibly pushed back into the room, felt helpless. The room with the air conditioner turned on was indeed much better than the outside. After the discomfort from alternating hot and cold subsided, Aunt Li's complexion was obviously better.

Li Qiuxian found a small stool and sat down, "I brought back a box of nuts, in small bags, each containing many kinds of nuts, and my aunt opened a bag to eat when she was free, as a snack to pass the time. "

"You brought something back, I can't eat it by myself."

"Throw it away if you can't eat it!" Li Qiuxian thought of what the two mother and daughter said just now, and her tone was a little offended, "Auntie, I bought these things for you to use and eat. If you can't eat it, just throw it away. Don't give it to that family."

Aunt Li was stunned for a moment, then fell silent.It took a while for her to speak, "What about this family and that family? Those are your parents, brothers and sisters. I was also..."

"Stop it," Li Qiuxuan was in a bad mood, he interrupted Aunt Li, "Didn't they sell me to you, I am your child, not theirs."

Aunt Li was a little embarrassed when she heard the word "sell", "What is 'sell'? Where did you sell you? I am your father's biological sister, but your aunt and I have no husband and son alone. I beg your parents to hug you." Raise me, let you be filial to me, and send me to the end."

"Your parents are also reluctant to part with you. If I hadn't insisted on asking them to raise you for me, and they have grown up again, they can't take care of you, and your parents would not give you to me." Aunt Li looked at Li Qiuxuan's expression Hei Shen hurriedly explained.

"That's how you excused them since you were young," Li Qiuxian said, "I don't care, I have nothing to do with them anymore. Let's not sell me, then I am your child, not theirs."

"Then you didn't call me mom!" Aunt Li got angry in a hurry, and she was a little out of choice for a while, and she regretted it when she said it, but she couldn't take back what she said and the water that was spilled. .

'It's not Auntie, don't you allow me to call you mother? ', Li Qiuxian took a deep breath, knowing that he was a little emotional just now, he didn't say this, "Auntie, you are not in good health, don't be angry. You take a rest, I'm going back to the room."

After finishing speaking, Li Qiuxian got up and went out, returning to her room.He pulled out a big fan, plugged in the power and turned it on to the maximum, and sat in front of the fan to blow the air.

Because of the environment and experiences he lived in since he was a child, Li Qiuxian is not an emotional person.

The two mother and daughter I met on the road just now are Li Qiuxuan's mother and sister. Li Qiuxuan is the eldest son of the Li family. Because he is a son, he was very loved by his parents and elders when he was young.

Before he could speak, his eyes would often be fixed on something.

When he was a little older and able to speak, others often saw him talking to the air.

Li Qiuxian was born with precocious intelligence. When he saw that he was talking to some "people" and other people showed strange expressions, he knew that there are some things that not everyone can see.

From then on, he began to learn to restrain himself. When he was a child, he couldn't tell who was visible and who was invisible, so he ignored them all and treated everyone as invisible.As a result, he has been given the reputation of being withdrawn and not talkative since he was a child.

Because some children's eyes are "clean" when they are young, it is indeed possible to see certain "things". This ability will disappear with the "cloudiness" of the eyes as they age, so no one doubts that Li Qiuxian is born with "yin and yang eyes". .

Before the age of four, Li Qiuxian was the baby of the Li family. After the age of four, everything changed.The change began when Li's mother was pregnant with her second son, Li Qiulin.Originally, four years old was the age to go to kindergarten. I don't know if the whole family was negligent in taking care of the pregnant woman, or other reasons, until Li Qiutong was born, and after all his peers went to school, he still "played" at home.

After the birth of the second son, Li Qiufeng, this situation became more serious.The whole family seemed to think that he didn't exist. During that time, he started to be self-reliant, washing clothes by himself; when he was not full, he searched for wild fruits in the mountains and plains by himself, or picked up small sweet potatoes that other families didn't want to bake to eat.

At that time, although he felt alienated from his family, he also had hope that one day they would be the same as before.He has no resentment towards his younger brother who robbed him of his "love", but has a strong curiosity about a relative who is younger than himself.

However, Li's family did not allow him to get close to Li Qiuxian, they felt that Li Qiuxian would hurt him.I don't know how this kind of thinking came about, but it is so deeply rooted in their thoughts, and every time they will drive Li Qiuxian away from Li Qiuxian extremely forcefully.

There was even one time when Li Qiuxuan sneaked up to Li Qiuxuan who was sleeping soundly in the cradle, and saw a corner of his quilt covering his nose, fearing that he would be out of breath, he kindly stretched out his hand to lift the quilt, but was caught by the returned mother Li. See.Mother Li gave him a slap when she came up. This was the first time he was slapped, and it was a slap that did not hold back. He was almost sent flying and fell to the ground with his forehead on the pedal. Big bag, face swollen up.

Mother Li's words at that time are still ringing in my ears, "You immature dead cub, you want to kill your brother at such a young age?! Let me tell you, everything in this house belongs to your brother. You have a grain of rice Don't even think about it!"

There were still some unspoken words, which were stopped by the grandparents who came over later, "What are you talking about! Are you crazy? How can you say this in front of your children!"

At that time, Li's mother seemed to be willing to go all out, "I don't care, I was thinking of killing my life at such a young age, and I will have it when I grow up! He will definitely compete with the family property and rob me of my things. I want him Send it away! Be sure to send it away!"

Later, the situation became more serious, and his survival in Li's family became more difficult. He was almost seven years old, and he didn't even go to preschool.Clothes are only old clothes that don't fit well, and they were given to him by villagers in other villages because of their pity.

During that time, he almost became a wild child, sneaking into the school in the morning and hiding in a corner to secretly listen to the first grade children in class.Go home at noon to have a look, most of the time there is no place for him, so he goes outside to look for wild goods, occasionally a neighbor sees him and gives him some food, or catches some wild small loach fish in the rice field to roast After eating, I went to school to eavesdrop on classes in the afternoon.I don't know whether it was to see him as pitiful or because I didn't realize that during that time, no one came to drive him away.

This situation continued until his aunt came back from the field.

The situation of the Li family was not good before. Aunt Li went out to work when she was young.She went to other places alone, and no one knew what she was doing outside. She would come back every Chinese New Year, bring some money back to the family, and leave after the year.

Because the money she brought back was not small, at least she earned more money than some men, and she refused to disclose what kind of work she was doing. In addition, Aunt Li was also very beautiful when she was young. Some idle women in the village Just gossip and gossip behind her back.

The three became a tiger, and none of the men in the village dared to marry her, and Aunt Li did not bring anyone from outside the village back.Whether she is married or not, no one knows.

When Li Qiuxian was seven years old, Aunt Li went back to the village to settle down and never went out again.Aunt Li still had some savings in her hands, but Li's father and mother refused to give her a house on the grounds that they supported their old parents.

Li's mother regretted seeing her sister-in-law bought an outsider's house, but she bought everything, and she couldn't ask her sister-in-law to return the house and buy her own house.

At this time, Mother Li, who wanted to get rid of Li Qiuxian's burden, turned her idea on this sister-in-law who lived alone and had no children.She used raising a child to prevent old age as a temptation, and threatened to take Li Qiuxuan out and throw him away if she didn't raise her, so Aunt Li took Li Qiuxuan to her side to raise her.He even went so far as to ask Aunt Li to give her a "foster care fee" to make up for Li Qiuxian's childbearing expenses for the previous few years.

This scene happened to be witnessed by Li Qiuxuan. Although he was young at that time, his mind was forced to grow up early because of his premature understanding of the world. He only heard a short sentence and he understood that he was sold by his mother!Shamelessly sold to his aunt.

Because there are more souls than living people who have been exposed to another world since childhood, when she learned that she was leaving her parents to live with Aunt Li whom she had never met, Li Qiuxuan did not cry like ordinary children.

He was very calm, he didn't take any stitches from the Li family, and he came to Aunt Li's house wearing the unfit clothes that others gave him.At the same time, he also cut off all the feelings with the Li family in his heart. Since Aunt Li has already given money to buy him, he is Aunt Li's child. He only needs to repay Aunt Li for his kindness in the future.

Sometimes, Li Qiuxian himself finds it unbelievable.He can handle these emotions so rationally, as if he is different from ordinary people.Maybe it's because he can see things that others can't?

In any case, he has been with Aunt Li for more than ten years.Ordinarily, the irreconcilable conflict between him and the Li family has been going on for a long time, Aunt Li is soft-hearted, and it is not once or twice to bring the things he brought back to the Li family.He pretended he didn't know before, why was he so irritable today and even choked with his aunt?

Li Qiuxian took a deep breath and rubbed her face with her hands.Because what he saw today made him a little panicked, almost overturning his previous cognition.