Jian An Kee

Note 1: Shanyin, the seat of Kuaiji County, which is now Shaoxing, is in the east of Zhejiang Province.

I put on my clothes and floated out, found Huzhu, and silently opened the bed curtain to show her the person.

Huzhu covered her mouth in horror: "Miss, what's going on?"

"This man is spying on me."

"Who sent it?"

I shook my head and spread my hands: "It doesn't matter, I don't have the energy to track it down now. However, her appearance reminded me of one thing."

"Miss?"

"Whether this person is doing it on purpose or not, her behavior is telling me that I must get well soon. You try to get some cloth bags of food in the kitchen over there, and keep out of sight."

"Yes, but what are you going to do with...?" She frowned worriedly.

"It's better not to know." I signaled her to back away, ripped the skirt into strips, and bound the person in the bed tightly.

That night, in the city of Baqiu, there was a slight plop in the lotus pond where Ah Xun and Ah Yin used to play, and then it was forgotten by the quieter night.

The funeral procession finally set off, preparing to return to Chaisang, where Zhou Yu would stay until his seventh day, and then return to his hometown in Shu County, Lujiang.

I never knew there were so many relatives in the Zhou family, especially a bunch of female relatives who ran out of nowhere were crying there, and I was very angry.I admit that I am too paranoid.Subconsciously, I refused to accept the fact that Zhou Yu died, even though my reason told me that what I saw that day was indeed his body that lost his soul.

When he was lying there quietly, his eyelashes seemed to be trembling, and his lips were as bright as blood.He looked so peaceful, as if he was just asleep, like a long time ago, taking a nap on the balcony in the garden, and it was up to me to wrap him in a thin blanket.

I witnessed the process of his encoffining with my own eyes. The long and sharp wooden nails were driven into the thick wooden boards, as if they were inserted into the hearts of everyone present.His weak widow passed out more than once, but she held on strong again and again.This side of her is something I never expected.

Sun Quan’s relatives came to Wuhu to welcome the funeral. I was dressed in heavy filial piety, watched him walk into the procession blankly, and wept bitterly while supporting the coffin.

A little bit of joy actually rose in my heart, after all, the two of us are still thinking about the only same thing.

In the evening, I kept vigil as usual. After he entered the mourning hall, he ordered everyone to be sent back.

The moment he passed by, he fixed his eyes on the spiritual seat in the hall, and said flatly: "You stay here, we just have a talk with Gong Jin."

He wore mourning for Zhou Yu!Although there is only a little white on the hair, I am already grateful.As the lord of the people, he is willing to wear mourning for Zhou Yu, which is the highest honor for the courtiers.Does he really value Zhou Yu so much?

He sat down, stared at the hideous coffin, and asked me in a strange tone: "Is he lying in it?"

His hands shook, and the tears he thought he had dried up poured out again.My voice has long been hoarse, and I haven't spoken for many days, so I moved my throat with difficulty and answered him: "What did the general say, uncle, he... naturally here, he will never go anywhere again, he is tired yo."

I heard my own tone trembling with fear, maybe I will go completely crazy soon.

He didn't look at me again, raised a cup of wine, and said: "Gong Jin is my best general, he is gone now, it's like I lost my arm. I'm afraid the land in Jiangdong will be shaken because of this."

We both said the most crazy things to Zhou Yu.In fact, the dead is dead, so what can he know?Those words are just what we ourselves are afraid of, and we say it in this way.

Worse than death is the cruelty of the world.Everyone understood that the Zhou family had fallen, and no one could gain Sun Quan's reliance like Zhou Yu. The Zhou family no longer had the glory of the past, although the funeral at this time was so grand that it couldn't be more grand.

Finally, Mr. finally came.

I no longer want to take into account anyone's gaze, and stand beside him to examine him.I want to see his expression and mood.

I realized that I had a kind of hatred, hated my own helplessness, and hated his hard-heartedness that refused to have even a few words of persuasion.

In his white robe and soapy boots, he greeted everyone present in a polite and orderly manner, and even greeted me. Then he opened a jar of wine, knelt down in front of the coffin, and unfolded the sacrificial rite, reading:

"Woohoo Gongjin, unfortunately died young! To shorten the old world, will people not be hurt? My heart is really hurting, and I drink a cup of wine; you have a spirit, let me taste it!... Woohoo Gongjin! Farewell to life and death! Park Shouqizhen, When the darkness is extinguished, the soul seems to have a spirit, so I can learn from my heart: From now on, there will be no more friends in the world! Oh, it hurts! Fu Wei is still eating."

He was the kind of person that outsiders couldn't see any flaws.There were tears in his eyes, for me, this was his true feelings, and for others present, it was a kind of smooth wrist.

Regardless of the angle of view, as long as I saw him kneeling motionless for a long time, with a solemn and solemn expression on his face, the broken grief made him haggard and empty—even I was moved for a moment.

And when he turned around and left calmly, when that plain figure melted into the rolling river, and then was covered and melted by the mist on the river, I finally realized: in this drama of life, I will never understand his grief.

Pang Shiyuan, who lives in Jiangdong, contributed a lot to the funeral.He once came to me specially: "Let's wait for this matter, let's leave along a certain path."

"Mr. Fengchu is going to Jiangbei?"

"Miss Zhou heard about it? I mentioned this to your elder earlier, and he agreed. You and I cross the river together, and someone asked me to take care of you."

I shook my head: "Thank you very much for your kindness, but the matter at hand is not over yet...I'm afraid I can't leave."

He looked at me carefully with pitiful and sad eyes, and finally left without saying a word and sighing.

A month later, I returned to Jingkou for a temporary stay.My aunt took all the children to the countryside of Shu County, where they lived not more than three miles away from Zhou Yu.She firmly opposed me going with her: "Alan, you are young and you still have your own life."

I know, I don't have the qualifications, I was not his relative within the three servings, so the so-called name is not justified.

Gongsun Shao is now by my side all the time.I found that people around me were wary of me doing terrible things.We went for a walk, so I asked him, "Gongsun Shao, if I commit suicide, would you dare to stop me?"

He replied calmly, "You won't."

With a swollen face, I looked at the clouds in the sky: "Why?"

He leaned against me in an ambiguous posture, put his hand on my lower abdomen very impolitely, and whispered in my ear: "You have a child."

My heart seemed to be tightly held in the palm of my hand, I turned around and asked in a daze, "What did you say?"

His palms were warm and pressed against my lower abdomen, and his voice filled my ears: "A mother will not do anything harmful to her child."

I screamed in horror: "Don't talk nonsense! It's impossible, I won't have children!"

He took a step back, with a rare surprise on his face: "Miss can be surprised, but don't be hysterical, okay? That will not benefit you and the child."

"What do you know!?" I waved my arms wildly: "I won't have children, I'm..."

Then I stopped my mouth and unconsciously put my hands on my lower abdomen. All the strange reactions of my body in the past few months had the most reasonable explanation at this time.And what Mr. said at that time, I'm afraid he said it specially for me, but I didn't realize it.

But this is impossible. So far I have accepted this fact, and I am no longer mentally prepared to be a mother.

"This is ridiculous." Although I had already believed eight percent in my heart, I repeated mechanically in my mouth, "I knew a long time ago that I couldn't."

"That's obviously not the case." He said coldly, "Did Miss not notice such an important matter?"

"Who told you that?"

"Of course it's the one from Jiangbei. He said that he had personally diagnosed your pulse."

"You know about such a private matter."

"Are you unhappy?"

I sighed: "Forget it, I should have realized that I never cared about your people and your affairs. Now that I know the truth, I won't get angry easily."

He said seriously: "At this time, I wondered if you were a woman. When I heard the news, I recovered from my gaffe in an instant."

"Shao, you are away all the time, don't you understand such a simple truth? I only have myself, and I can only rely on myself for everything. Who will I act like a baby?"

His complexion was unusually solemn, and he came to help me: "It's very windy, is Miss going back?"

I smiled: "It's okay, I'm fine."

He looked left and right, and said in a nonchalant manner: "Miss has only had a child for less than three months, and it is the most uncertain time. Since you said that you can rely on yourself, you should be more careful."

I patted him on the back and laughed, "Shao, you have a conscience."

He smiled brightly and said, "Naturally."

For a moment, countless petals seemed to fall in front of my eyes, making me dizzy and speechless.

The next day, I started to pack my things and prepared to move to my grandmother in Kuaiji County.This luxurious, almost unfamiliar Dudu Mansion to me will probably be empty for a while after the people leave. When the tide of time smoothes the sandy beach left by the space, there will be new relatives of the current dynasty occupying it and enjoying it. it, and then abandon it or be abandoned by it.That's how things are.

Until the night before departure, Pearl still lingered in front of the house for a long time, refusing to leave.I stared at the maids packing up the last box, and turned around to see her still blowing the night breeze in the yard outside. I couldn't help being a little surprised, and went to ask her: "What are you doing outside, stupid, go to bed early, tomorrow It's early."

She hesitated to speak, and kept sneaking glances at me again and again. Seeing her like this, I laughed and said, "Just say what you have to say, don't you want to come with me?"

"Miss, who do you think Zhu'er is! Where does the lady go, the servant follows you..." Her eyes turned red, and she simply had no scruples: "The servant is sorry for the lady, General Sun will not come to see you for a long time. .”

I was touched in my heart, but I couldn't say much, and finally patted her on the shoulder reluctantly: "I won't talk about this matter in the future. Let's cheer up, San'in (Note 1) we are going to is a good place."

Zhou Yu's departure was a huge blow to most people in Jiangdong, and the ensuing impact is even more difficult to summarize.Sun Quan, who came back from Wuhu, never saw me again. The memories of those youths, those sworn promises seem to be still in my ears, but the person who made the promise has long since lost the original feeling.What's more, Zhang Suyan, who doesn't want to settle down, was sentenced to [-] lashes a month ago according to my wishes, and was exiled to the south of Jiaozhou.Except for an accidental seed in the belly, he and I are clearly in a state of not owed to each other.

At this time, I thought, between me and him, I am afraid it will end without a problem.

In fact, I am no longer an important bargaining chip for contacting the Zhou family, or even Zhou Yu. Naturally, Sun Quan does not need to perfunctory me all the time. After all, I have such a weird temper. After getting along for a long time, anyone will feel subtle rejection. .What's more, both of us are extremely selfish people, and I privately think that it is mostly a coincidence that we will not turn our faces in two or three years.