mountain snow

Some thoughts cannot be started at all, and they can't be lingered from the beginning.

Before today, I always firmly believed that I was a little sun parrot. After practicing for countless years, I passed out when I crossed the catastrophe. I fell headlong from the sacred tree where I was living.

As for why you can't have the form of a bird after you have successfully transformed into a bird, I think maybe something went wrong when you crossed the catastrophe.

But now, I'm shaken.

I didn't fall asleep all night, but I didn't dare to toss and turn, so that Yue Sheng would know.

If, I mean, if I am not Little Sun, I am a person, such as the one who dances on TV, or Ning Ye mentioned by Yue Sheng, then why am I in Bieyue Village?

My head hurts like I drank fake wine.

In the darkness, I saw Yue Sheng's dark silhouette.His back was facing me, just a side lying on his back, was infinitely attractive to me.

Am I drawn to him?

Why do I like him so much?

Why was it that when I opened my eyes and saw him in the cabin in the forest, I was so happy as if I had gotten what I wanted?

Before dawn, I finally fell asleep in a daze.But it was different from the past, this time because I had something on my mind, I fell asleep very lightly, and I vaguely felt Yue Sheng fiddled with my hair and said something to me.

I heard "Ning Ye" again.It's just that I don't know if I'm dreaming, or Yue Sheng is calling this name as nice as "Shanxue" in my ear.

When I woke up, Yue Sheng was no longer on the bed, I didn't sleep well, I felt weak all over, and my head was dull.

The dwarves often say that I am dumb. They have to see my current appearance before they know what I used to be called dumb, and I was obviously called an invincible clever ghost.

"Are you up?" Yue Sheng was tying ropes in the yard. Although the sun hadn't risen to the zenith, it looked like a sunny day, and he could dry his quilt and winter clothes.

He said breakfast was in the kitchen, and I had no appetite for the first time, so I simply moved out the clothes and quilts with him and hung them on the tied ropes.

When I was working with him, I seemed to calm down after worrying all night.

I feel that I am like a plant, and he is my light, heat, oxygen and water, as long as I am around him, I have vitality.

After drying, I felt better and went to eat breakfast immediately.

There is no school today, but Yue Sheng has plenty of things to do.I came out of the kitchen just in time to see him go out.

"Brother!" I couldn't help shouting.

He turned around, "Huh?"

I shook my head and rubbed my hands behind my back nervously, "No, I'll call you."

I was the only one left at home, so I sat there for a while, and then began to wonder if I was a human or a little sun.

I found that there is a swamp that is constantly pulling me down. I want to break free, but I sink deeper and deeper.

I think the disc taken away by Yue Sheng may have the answer I want to find. The little guys all said it was similar, but I didn't see it. How similar is it?

If I see it, I can definitely judge whether it is "like" or "is".

Yue Sheng probably won't come back for a while. Our house has only four rooms in one courtyard. If I search carefully, I might be able to find it.

Probably because Yue Sheng was very reassuring about me. Since I was picked up by him, he has never locked any cabinet drawers at home.It's also true that I haven't peeped at his stuff-except this time.

I searched both bedrooms, but I couldn't find the disc, so I went into the storage room next to it. This room is smaller than the bedroom, but the boxes and sundries are densely piled up.In a box, I saw the luxury bag that Yue Sheng picked up from the woods last time, and the cell phone that I washed and damaged.

I picked up the bag and froze for a moment.

At that time, when I saw Baby Yue Sheng’s bag, I thought he would use it by himself, but I didn’t see it for a long time, so I forgot about it.I didn't expect him to hide the bag here.

I continued to search, but I didn't find the colorful disc, but found a bunch of discs and magazines in a small dusty box in the corner.

When I saw the people and names clearly on the cover, I felt a splitting headache, as if the sky and the earth were spinning.

Ning Ye, Ning Ye who looks exactly like me.

My hands were trembling, and I opened one of the magazines tremblingly.

It was a magazine five years ago. This man named Ning Yi was very popular, and there were more than 20 pages about him in it.

My back was gradually sweating, and I wanted to concentrate on reading the contents of the magazine, but I still couldn’t concentrate. I knew all the words, but I couldn’t read them to form sentences. I only knew that Ning Yi was a star, especially good at dancing, Singing is also good, and she also acted in a TV series, which is very popular, and the future is infinite...

The magazines are a bit old, and the most recent one is four years away.When I looked at Ning Yi's face, I felt more and more that it was me.

Because no one can be like this, right?

My heart was beating fast, my mind was in a mess, and I didn't dare to think deeply.

I don't think I should hold a farewell party for Yue Shanxue's graduation. I should grow old with Yue Sheng in Bieyue Village in peace.

And now I have something on my mind.

I packed the box, but took a disc, and hurried to the village chief's house.

The little thing was eating corn at the door, and when he saw me, he immediately grinned, "Brother, do you want to eat corn?"

"I don't chew." I said, "I want to borrow your player."

Watching me put the disc into the player, the little thing circled me curiously: "Brother, are you addicted to disco?"

I was so nervous that my palms were sweating, and I was not in the mood to talk to him at all.

Soon, a picture appeared on the TV, at first it was a close-up of Ning Yi's face.

The little thing suddenly jumped up, "Brother! Look at yourself! Shame!"

I'm not ashamed, my head is empty right now.

If the photos in the magazine hadn't convinced me completely, then this clear image did.

This is not me, who else could it be?

I walked down the path in a daze, feeling very dazed.

I'm not Little Sunshine, I'm Ning Ye, but why can't I remember?

Did Yue Sheng know me long ago?Did he think I was lying to him when I told him I was a little sun?

For so many days, is he acting with me?

He still hugged me and asked me to promise not to leave Bieyue Village for the rest of my life.

In fact, in fact, he is also very suspicious!

When I got home, Yue Sheng had already returned, and the disc was caught in my trouser waist, but he didn't see it.

I wanted to ask him a lot of questions, but I couldn't open my mouth, for fear that if I asked, there would be disasters that I didn't expect.

Maybe I can pretend that I didn't see those discs and magazines. I'm still a transformed little sun, and I can't change back to my original shape because I met someone I like.

It's so romantic.

I convinced myself and said loudly: "Brother, I'm back, I want to eat pickled pepper loach, I want you to carry my two big white legs tonight!"

Yue Sheng: "..."

My legs were really lifted at night, and I wrapped around Yue Sheng's waist, forgetting all the worries of the day for a moment.

But I dreamed of Ning Yi in my arms.

He walked towards me, wearing exquisite makeup, better than the photos and videos, he stretched out his hand towards me, and my wrist seemed to be tied with a rope, and I also stretched out my hand towards him.

I looked at him, he looked at me, and I felt like I was looking in a mirror.

Then he stepped out of the mirror, with a soft glow, and merged with me.

I woke up in a cold sweat.

During the day, I was out of my mind, and only when Yue Sheng possessed me at night did I feel that my soul had returned.

I wanted to ask him countless times, but in the end I timidly gave up.

I became less happy.

Early summer is the season when wildfires frequently occur, and young adults from Bieyue Village and nearby villages take turns patrolling the mountains.I asked Yue Sheng how long he was going, and he said that the journey was long and time-consuming, and it might take more than half a month to come back.

Before he left, he made me a lot of food. I pretended to be happy, but my heart was covered with ashes.

Both Yue Sheng and Huang Xiaoye left, and Teacher Xiaoyu was the only one attending the school.She worked very hard, and I went to school to help her with physical education classes when I had nothing to do, so as to reduce her burden.

Teacher Xiaoyu is not as talkative as Huang Xiaoye, but he also chats with me.

She was fairer than the women in the village, not like the natives of Bieyue Village.Sure enough, she told me that she grew up in a small town, her family was poor, and she went to college on a stipend. After graduation, she wanted to repay the support of the society, so she volunteered to teach in a remote area.

"Teacher Yue's situation should be similar to mine." Teacher Xiaoyu said, "But I don't know why he stays here."

I asked, "Are you going to leave one day?"

Teacher Xiaoyu seemed a little sad, as if reluctant to part with her, "Well, I don't belong here. When the teaching period is up, I may stay for another year or two, but I will leave eventually."

I suddenly wanted to ask, what about Huang Xiaoye, aren't you two in a relationship?

But I care more about my love than other people's love.

I asked again: "Will all the teachers who come to teach from outside leave like you?"

Teacher Xiaoyu nodded, "Yes, I am here to take over from the last supporting teacher. When I first arrived, he hadn't left yet. Before I leave in the future, there will definitely be a new teacher to replace me."

"Then Brother Sheng..."

"Teacher Yue may be rooted here, he is worthy of respect."

I sat in the courtyard of my home and thought, why didn't Yue Sheng leave with the other teachers who supported the teaching?Why not only not leave, but also let me stay?

I couldn't think of an answer, and I became more and more anxious.

In the past, when Yue Sheng was at home, I would hug him when I was thinking wildly. Now that he has gone to the mountains for a week, I feel that I am going to be exhausted.

I couldn't sleep at night, sometimes I felt that I was Ning Ye, and sometimes I felt that I was actually a little sun.

I can't figure it out anymore.

I couldn't sleep all night, so I went to the utility room to take out the bag Yue Sheng picked up, filled it with food and water, and walked out of the village just after dawn.

That was the way Yue Sheng carried me back, I still remember it.

I wanted to go back along the way and find the cabin and find where I fell.I have to seriously confirm whether I am a star named Ning Yi, or a transformed little sun.