the seventh year he has been here

"what…?"

Yan Ye's eyes widened in doubt, in Liang Yisheng's eyes, they were exactly the same as before, just as ridiculous.

"I said, break up." Liang Yisheng stood up unsteadily and wanted to leave, but was supported by Yan Ye.

"Let go." Liang Yisheng said without a trace of emotion.

"I'm not loose...Yi Sheng...Are you worried because you didn't get engaged today or something else...It's okay! It will get better..." Yan Ye slowly clenched his hands, afraid that Liang Yisheng would leave.

"Do you not understand people's words, let go." Liang Yisheng finally stopped speaking in a good-tempered manner like before, he impatiently withdrew his hand, and then went to the bathroom.

After walking a few steps, I felt warmth behind my back, "You know... I can't do without you... Do you know how hard I worked to be with you? I..."

Liang Yisheng interrupted her coldly, "I'm not the Liang Yisheng you like anymore, I'm gay, and I don't like you, do you know that?"

When it came to the end, Liang Yisheng actually felt very relaxed, yes, the secret he had been hiding in his heart for a long time, finally at this moment, it was no longer a secret, but an aboveboard fact, and he had nothing to fear anymore .

Yan Ye let go of his hand suddenly, didn't say anything, just looked at Liang Yisheng.

Liang Yisheng seemed to think of something again. He turned around when he wanted to leave, and smiled contemptuously, "If you still insist on going your own way, then I don't mind, what do you think, Miss Yanye?"

Yan Ye's eyes were red, he took out the key from his bag tremblingly, and left Liang Yisheng's residence step by step.

Liang Yisheng looked at the leaving figure, still with the frivolous smile on his face, then turned around and walked into the bathroom.

Turned on the shower and kept spraying water into the bathtub, the heat was steaming, Liang Yisheng's vision suddenly blurred.

He likes Cheng Sixue, this is out of the question, and he won't think about what will happen later, and the so-called ending.

He always felt that it was because he was too timid before, but now, he finally recognized himself, but he could never find Cheng Sixue again, maybe he only met Cheng Sixue in his dreams.

In this way, he can boldly say "I like you" to him without any hesitation, even though he has cut off all escape routes.

But it doesn't matter, as long as there is Cheng Sixue, right?

Liang Yisheng watched the water in the bathtub getting more and more full, finally turned off the shower, and then slowly immersed himself in it.

Cheng Sixue, where are you?I miss you.

On September [-], Luo Yijiu's funeral began on a rainy day.

Although Luo Yijiu still has the identity of his father more or less, there are very few people who come, probably only family members and some good friends, including Liang Yisheng.

Everyone held an umbrella and watched in the rain. Some looked sad and couldn't bear to watch. Some even cried aloud. The sound of the rain fell quietly, and they seemed to feel sad too.

Liang Yisheng saw Zheng Du who was wearing a black suit. He was obviously an elementary school boy who was easily agitated and could not hold his breath. Now, he was unbelievably calm, with only sadness in his eyes.

"Zheng Du." Liang Yisheng stepped forward.

Zheng Du heard the voice and looked at Liang Yisheng, and nodded lightly when he saw Liang Yisheng, "Brother Yisheng."

"Don't be too sad." Liang Yisheng patted Zheng Du's shoulder.

"I'm much better now, thank you." Zheng Du said.

"I sometimes think, how good you are, you can make him do this, obviously he can leave here, but he stays for you again and again." Zheng Du seemed to have thought of something, and added.Muttering.

"But in front of someone you don't love, everything is nothing." Liang Yisheng said.

"I think you seem to have changed, so if that's the case, why do you still come?" Zheng Du continued.

"Come and apologize for the person he liked before." Liang Yisheng walked up to put a bouquet of flowers, and said softly.

"Then why didn't he come himself?"

"Because it's dead."

Liang Yisheng turned and left, going against their direction.Perhaps this is a grand farewell. Many people's memories and feelings have been diluted by the past, and some even dispersed, unable to find the way back.

Liang Yisheng has been at home for the past few days, ignorant, like a poisonous feast, living day after day.

"Yi Sheng, get up! Look at what you look like!" The good mother pulled her drunken son up on the sofa.

"What are you doing! Let me go!" Liang Yisheng's sleeping Zhengxiang was woken up by the sudden visit of his mother, and his tone suddenly became harsh.

He has suffered from insomnia recently. Although he doesn't need to take sleeping pills, he still needs alcohol to fall asleep, isn't he embarrassing?so.

Liang Yisheng didn't dare to close his eyes because he was afraid of seeing Cheng Sixue, but now he couldn't sleep no matter what.

The habit left by the repeated torment by the nightmare before had clung to his body like maggots, devouring his soul like a ghost, so that he couldn't fall asleep for a long time at night.

Or Luo Yijiu left.

Liang Yisheng laughed at himself when he thought of this.

"What are you laughing at! I'm your mother, can you be sober, don't be so big and make people worry!" The mother screamed, seeing her son become like this, her heart ached.

"Cut..." Liang Yisheng disdainfully turned his head away.

Then he replied, "You know, your son is gay, he fell in love with a man, and he..."

Before he finished speaking, he was slapped. He touched the place on his face where he had been slapped, and it was still burning. Then, he left the house without looking back.

It was already dark when he went out, Liang Yisheng was walking carelessly on the street, he saw a bar along the way, subconsciously touched his pocket, he still had some spare money, and planned to go in for a drink or two.

He spent all the money on his body, and he also drank a lot before, the whole way was unsteady, and then he bumped into someone on the way out of the bar.

"What are you doing, kid!" Several unscrupulous youths beside the man scolded him.

Liang Yisheng ignored it and planned to leave the place of right and wrong.

The person who was hit didn't speak, but the young man couldn't hold back, "Are you looking for a fight?"

With great strength, those people picked up Liang Yisheng, who was drunk and had no human figure, and walked to another exit, probably the alley leading to the slums.

The dim light hit his face, Liang Yisheng seemed to be more awake, opened his eyes slightly to look around, and found that he was no longer in the bar, struggling to leave, but was held tightly by the young man.

The two stalemate for a while, the young man didn't dare to do it directly because he didn't speak directly, and Liang Yisheng couldn't get away.

Until someone came and said a few words in the young man's ear, the young man let go.

Liang Yisheng fell to the ground by surprise, and let out a low growl in pain. He looked at the position where the young man was standing just now, and there was no one there. He tried his best to stand up and patted the ashes on his body. , and coughed a few times.

Liang Yisheng continued to walk, the dim lights turned on and off for a while, stretching his shadow very long.

After drinking, he stepped up a few steps to the side of the alley and began to vomit, as if he wanted to vomit out the contents of his body, one after another.

When it was over, Liang Yisheng wiped his mouth with his sleeve and continued walking, already very weak.

This is life, so depraved and helpless, more and more ugly, but he lives very freely, even though he is physically and mentally exhausted.

At this moment, he was as fragile as a thin piece of paper, tripped lightly by a stone, and fell down.

Weak hands and feet, damn it.

Cheng Sixue's face suddenly appeared in his mind, it was so beautiful, and so unattainable, how humble that face once told him about the feelings that were as low as dust, he flinched, He left, and now, it might be the best punishment.

It is even more pitiful than the humble, unattainable, and even never seen again, and can only be recalled in memory, or one day he will gradually forget, and then he will no longer remember everything and cry bitterly .

There was a sound of hurried footsteps in the alley late at night,

"Sir, are you alright!?"

A deep and magnetic voice came, damn it, why does it sound like Cheng Sixue's?Is he already having auditory hallucinations?

"Leave me alone!" Liang Yisheng shook his hands, trying to get up by himself but almost fell down again.

He hates this feeling of being restrained the most. Since he was a child, he was taught to behave in class and not to speak. When he grows up, he should behave in a human way, and he rejects and hates homosexuality. All these rules and regulations make him breathless.

The man supported him, "Sir, this is very dangerous, alone late at night..."

Liang Yisheng didn't want to hear him say any more, because that voice was more and more like Cheng Sixue, and he even thought it was.

This is impossible, these, besides proving that he has lost his mind, what else?

But fate sometimes makes fun of people like this. When you want something, it will not appear, making you think about your dreams until you put it down, but fate will put it in front of you with both hands, tempting Your mind, and then make you feel like a clown in which you juggle and become a joke.

It is an indisputable fact that Liang Yisheng likes Cheng Sixue, so let it go, too.

Because I can't see each other again, I let go, so the encounter at this moment is a bit unreal.

At the last moment, he looked at the face of that person reflected in the dim light, it was Cheng Sixue.

It was Cheng Sixue who he missed so much, he was very afraid that the person in front of him would fall into a coma with his eyes closed, so he subconsciously grabbed Cheng Sixue's sleeves and passed out, perhaps because of the farce of the past few days Make the body exhausted, or it may be impossible for him and Cheng Sixue to meet each other.

Liang Yisheng slept for a long time, which was rare recently. Since when did he start suffering from insomnia?Maybe it was the time he woke up in the hospital. Since then, he has been afraid of dreams, and he is afraid that something more cruel will happen after the next dream, maybe it is like this.

"Are you awake?" Cheng Sixue walked from the living room to Liang Yisheng's room and saw him looking deep in thought.

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