I meet a lot of people in my life, keep a distance from anyone in my life, but only want to meet you

As I become more sober, I miss you more and more; I tell you that I have nothing else to do but miss you, I miss you when I eat, I miss you when I sleep, and today I know more and more that I can’t scold you like I used to; I scolded you for a whole year, and you came to my world for 4 years; we haven't seen each other for 4 years; YZ. And the first thing you did when you met me was to save me

Today my head doesn't hurt but my neck still hurts; it's uncontrollable.I always want to get well soon and see you.I got better and better, and finally understood that I couldn't bring you to my house; at that time, because I liked you so much, I clamored to arrest you to my house.It's really funny now that I think about it.

One day, when I regained my memory, I would tell him that I was like that when I was fine, I was unwilling to deal with others, and I was used to being alone; I had already formed the habit when I was studying.At that time, I was very strong, not afraid of the sky, not afraid of the earth.There were only three girls in one class, and they excluded me; since then, I dare not deal with people, and the kind of intrigue and calculation hurt me very much.