unspeakable ice

This point has not yet opened for business, except for Shi Jie and the others, there is almost no one in the store.

The overall light is dimmed, and the tables and chairs are all black, white and brown. It is hard to be bright, but surrounded by soft and slow music, it looks very quiet.

When Yu Xiaolong entered, Shi Jie was standing behind the bar counter, wiping the glass and winking at him, "What's going on?" With a suspicious look on his face, he pouted at the seat in the corner, "It can't be such a coincidence. Summer, right?"

When he contacted him just now, he must have met someone face to face, and he could get a glimpse of it from the face that was seven or eight points similar to Xia Cong.

"I'll tell you later." Yu Xiaolong said.

"What to drink?" Shi Jie dropped the cloth in his hand and looked at him.

"Has he ordered?"

"Clicked."

Yu Xiaolong looked at the table, Xia Yi was flipping through the decorative magazines on the shelf behind him, Shi Jie was not too negligent, and specially turned on the row of light strips for him.

"I don't need it." Yu Xiaolong walked there.

Xia Yi heard the voice, raised his head, closed the pages of the book and smiled slightly, "Long time no see, Xiaolong."

He has not changed much from two years ago, he is still gentle and educated. In fact, if a person does not experience too much fluctuation in his life, his temperament and conversation will not change much in two years.

He spoke calmly, and looked at people with sincere and polite eyes, which easily made people feel good. This may be the reason why Shi Jie didn't show too obvious disgust and called him after hearing that his surname was Xia.

Yu Xiaolong didn't say anything, just nodded slightly, looked at the sip of untouched orange juice in his hand, "I'll get you a cup of hot one."

"It would be great if it's convenient." Xia Yi looked a little sorry, and asked Yu Xiaolong what to drink.

"No need." Yu Xiaolong went to the bar and asked Shi Jie for a cup of hot tea. Of course, the store doesn't provide these, but it's another matter as entertainment.

When returning back, Xia Yi leaned against the back of the chair, clasped his hands in front of him, his posture was much more relaxed than before, "I thought you might not want to see me."

"I even met him." Yu Xiaolong sat down opposite him without much emotion.

"It's not voluntary, is it?"

Xia Yi looked at him and smiled, Yu Xiaolong followed suit.

"Are you trying to control him?" He speculated that this might be Xia Yi's purpose, as Xia Cong's elder, he came to apologize to him, and promised to restrain him in the future, so that similar things would not happen again.

But Xia Yi shook his head, "I might say something about him, but I won't really intervene. He is an adult now."

After finishing speaking, he added with a smile, "When I was not an adult, I couldn't control him very well."

So I came to be a lobbyist, Yu Xiaolong thought.

He wondered if this was Xia Cong's trick again, knowing that no matter what he would do against him, he would not use the tactics against Xia Yi on Xia Yi, he would just sit here, thinking about the old love in the past, and obediently listen to the words .

"So he sent you here?"

Yu Xiaolong was almost convinced of this idea, but Xia Yi still shook his head, "No, he doesn't know."

"He's a lot more conservative now than he was before," he said, in a sort of joking tone.

"Let's chat casually, don't be nervous." Xia Yi saw Yu Xiaolong's vigilance, and tried to ease the atmosphere, "Just treat me as a drop by, no matter what I say tonight, you don't have to take it too seriously ,Is this okay?"

"Okay, what are we talking about?" Yu Xiaolong asked cooperatively.

"Xiao Cong, did he tell you about our childhood?"

"...a little bit."

"You can tell from the tone of this sentence, it must not have been mentioned."

Xia Yi was smiling, and seemed a little helpless, "In fact, there were many happy things in my childhood and youth, but he seems to only remember this one."

"Indeed, this one is shocking and unforgettable enough, right?"

Yu Xiaolong looked at him, but didn't speak. He actually didn't want Xia Yi to talk about it casually, just like he would deliberately not look at his crippled leg many times.

That is the trauma of a person's life.

But Xia Yi didn't seem to think that this was a taboo topic, nor did he regard it as a pain that was still tormenting him.

His gentle expression and relaxed voice reminded Yu Xiaolong of that time when he asked him if he was cool with his trousers up.

"Gulu" twice, Xia Yi leaned on the crutch on the corner of the table and rolled twice because of his sudden movement of drinking tea, Yu Xiaolong helped him up, he took it, his eyes stayed on it for a while, and said thank you.

"Let's talk about when he was a child." He looked back at him and smiled, "Look at him now, you can't imagine how clingy he was before he was seven or eight years old."

"The little guy was only this tall at that time." Xia Yi gestured a height that was not much longer than the table, "His mother just passed away, so he felt very insecure in this family, and the only person he trusted was me, so he was always on the lookout for him. Sticking to my side, sneaking out even in kindergarten, coming to my school to look for me, not seeing me for a day, and being able to follow behind my butt all night when I go back."

"Really?" Yu Xiaolong couldn't imagine.

"I have the opportunity to show you the photos of him when he was younger. He is very cute, especially when he cries and holds back his tears. It's hard to make people feel compassionate."

"Later, that incident happened, and when I woke up, he seemed to have grown up overnight. After that, I never experienced the joy of being his brother, but instead he took care of me everywhere. "

"If there is anything about that incident that makes me really regret, it's not that I lost a leg, but him. Guilt really changed him too much."

"Even if I have repeatedly corrected it for so many years, it was not caused by his mistake, but he insisted that he was responsible. If he could be less attached to me and not let me go with him at that time, nothing would have happened."

"Can you understand his feelings?" Xia Yi asked, and before Yu Xiaolong could answer, he said, "Maybe, but no one can truly empathize."

He got off the back of the chair, sat up straight, clasped his hands on the rim of the glass and turned it gently, looked at Yu Xiaolong, and said in a softer tone: "If this still doesn't make you understand him, I can say something else .”

"What do you want me to understand about him?" Yu Xiaolong asked, he knew and thought about it, but it was not enough to be the reason for him and Xia Cong to come to this point.

"He must have mentioned Guo Feiyan to you." Xia Yi didn't answer him directly, but said: "This cruel and jealous woman single-handedly directed that car accident, and is the source of all evil, right?"

"wrong?"

"It's not wrong." Xia Yi shook his head, "But to Xingming, she is just a corner of power."

"Behind such a huge group, there is a network of intertwined interests. The intrigues are far beyond what you can see. It is not easy for me to find peace in such a family, let alone him."

"You may not be able to imagine how a child who is not protected and loved by anyone can survive in such an environment and grow up to the present."

Yu Xiaolong frowned slightly when he heard this, "Isn't there still..."

"Our grandfather?" Xia Yi said.

"Yes, he may be the only one who still treats him rationally, but this old man who he said treats him equally once said in front of him that it would be fine if he was the last disabled person in that car accident gone."

Yu Xiaolong's heart tightened when he heard this. Xia Cong never told him about it. He knew that he felt guilty towards Xia Yi. This guilt has never been let go. It made him easily give up on Gu Ran, whom he liked, and turned around to use him. .

But he didn't know his situation. He didn't slip into the abyss after the death of Mr. Xia, but he was already in the abyss from the very beginning.

Shi Jie personally came to their table to add water, and threw a cup to Yu Xiaolong, probably thinking that he was yelling no, but his expression did not mean it.

Xia Yi thanked him and pushed it to Yu Xiaolong's hand, "So you know how difficult it was for him to make the decision to take you over."

The snow seemed to have stopped outside, the sound of the rain on the rear window became less and less, and a few gusts of wind leaked in through the gap, blowing the candles floating in the water basin and swimming around. Yu Xiaolong looked at it for a while and asked: " Is he married?"

If Xia Yi hadn't said so much, he might never have asked this question. He believed that Xia Yi's character would not have come to tell him these things when Xia Cong was married.

"Of course not, didn't he even tell you this?" Xia Yi felt unbelievable, and couldn't guess what Xia Cong was planning, "Then what did he say when he came to you?"

Entangled.

Such words popped up in Yu Xiaolong's mind, he seemed to have mentioned that at his house that time, Xia Cong didn't deny it at that time, and even retorted.

Of course, it may also be that at that time he was only concerned with revealing his desire to him, and felt that the rest was not worth mentioning.

"Maybe he has his own thoughts." Xia Yi said: "After Shi Jie's incident happened, I persuaded him to send you back. He said he would take care of it. I didn't know about him until you left. What is the so-called treatment."

"You think he's doing it for my own good?"

"Perhaps, he doesn't communicate with me about emotional matters, and I guess many of them." Xia Yi rarely showed a serious look, "But I shouldn't have guessed too far."

Yu Xiaolong laughed, Xia Yi's words led to this point, but he couldn't agree, if it was really for his own good, why didn't he make it clear, or rather than making it clear, he deserved such a rough treatment.

He hadn't seen how they got together, how many lies and deceptions were filled along the way, and he didn't even know why he appeared at his home like that the morning he greeted him when he met him for the first time.

"you do not believe?"

Yu Xiaolong shook his head.

"Okay." Xia Yi smiled, he seemed to understand why Xia Cong didn't explain everything to him at once, "Then why do you think he decided to come back to you after two years?"

There is another reason that made him so sure that Xia Yi didn't mention it, it was too private and it would embarrass Yu Xiaolong if he said it.

It was almost a year after he left. One day when he went to live with Xia Cong, he heard weird noises from the next room in the middle of the night, similar to the sound of a man's breathing, and Shen Yin intermittently suppressed.

He thought Xia Cong had brought someone back, but no one came out of the house the next day.

He heard it again two or three times over the next year.

It should be a recording, Xia Yi guessed, sometimes this recording will be inserted into a song, Xia Cong may have such a bad taste, but Xia Yi still guessed something, and then felt that the tone was familiar.

It's just that the door is closed tightly, and no one knows what was going on in the mind of that slutty young man who lingered in front of him, listening to this recording in the dead of night.

"I shouldn't have come. It's just that he might never tell you what he said just now. Instead, it's easier for me as an outsider. Now I'm done." Xia Yi picked up the crutch from the table and slowly stood up. .

Yu Xiaolong looked at him, the firmness that he shook his head just now fell into his eyes, and a rare flash of doubt and confusion flashed across his eyes.

Xia Yi walked up to him and patted him on the shoulder, "You don't need to express your opinion, and don't preconceive it. He will probably come to you again, and you can decide at that time."

Yu Xiaolong was silent for a while, then got up, "Where do you live? I'll see you off."

Xia Yi put on his coat and gave him a not-so-relaxed look. Yu Xiaolong sent him to the intersection, and he saw Lin Weiqian waiting in the car.

Xia Yi saw that he still had something to say, so he deliberately slowed down and waited for a while.

"What does Xingming's current situation mean?" Yu Xiaolong finally asked, "Did you lose or win?"

"Do you think I'm going to lose or win by saying these words for him here on my own initiative?" Xia Yi asked with a smile, and then said: "If my grandpa hadn't passed away so suddenly, we should have won. "