unspeakable ice

"Fuck, why are you squatting there? You can't feel the heavy rain!" Shi Jie poked his head out from the balcony on the third floor, looking at Yu Xiaolong like he was crazy.

Yu Xiaolong regained his senses after being yelled at by his voice, only to realize that it was raining heavily and his entire back was soaked.

The dog was still eating in front of him, and he got carried away with it. He fumbled around, helped it bring the food bowl into the house, and put some more in it.

"Where did you go in the middle of the night, and you didn't answer the phone, I'll wait until you are now." Shi Jie came out of the stairwell, complaining.

"Why are you waiting for me?" Yu Xiaolong wanted to take off his coat, but just as his hand touched the zipper, he realized something, turned up the collar and pulled it up again.

Xia Cong made a lot of noise on him, these marks are now as disgraceful as his person, he is afraid of being seen.

"I'll let you wait for me when I come back." Shi Jie didn't notice his deliberately concealed movements, and only thought he was freezing from the rain, urging him to go upstairs and change his clothes, "If it wasn't for Cai Gan, he would really be finished." I'm really worried about you...what's wrong with your mouth?"

The mouth was bitten off, Yu Xiaolong remembered this, he stuck out his tongue and licked it lightly twice, it hurt a little, "...knocked."

Shi Jie was dubious, "How did it happen, and who did it?"

Yu Xiaolong: "..."

Yu Xiaolong frowned, "Anyone else but myself."

Shi Jie: "Can I take such a big blow by myself?"

Shi Jie couldn't help but looked at him twice, always felt that something was weird, he couldn't tell for a while, he followed Yu Xiaolong upstairs, wondering where he had gone, Yu Xiaolong told him to go to sleep, in front of him face closed the door.

For such a simple action of undressing, the muscles in his arms were so sore that he almost couldn't lift it up. The feeling of being wrapped in wet clothes was cold and sticky, which made people feel weeds for no reason. Yu Xiaolong tore them off and kicked them hard on the cabinet kick.

The old cabinet door squeaked twice, beeped for a while, resisted, Yu Xiaolong put his head on it, his mood was surging, and he was extremely irritable. Only then did I feel a little slower.

He stood in front of the mirror and looked at the mottled self inside. He sneered at first, and then felt a little pity. Whose fault was it? The wisher took the bait and bit his mouth, and he could blame others for not throwing the bait down.

What's more, what can be done, Xia Cong is right, he is that kind of person, this circle is like this, sooner or later he will fall for someone else or someone else will fall for him, will he be like them, thinking that people who are willing to lie down are born to be degraded? ?

Yu Xiaolong withdrew his gaze, moved his hand holding the clothes, and something fell down with a crisp sound. He thought it was a ring, and watched it roll to the corner of the table, only to find out that it was a one-yuan coin.

That ring never appeared again, no matter how he looked for it, the more he cared about it, the more he couldn't remember what happened that day, did he see it, did he bring it back, or everything was just him. imagine.

Maybe, subconsciously, he didn't want it to be found. It was the other side of Xia Cong. Yu Xiaolong couldn't imagine what kind of person he was, who could make Xia Cong admit that he liked him, give him tenderness, and put him in a cherished way. on heart.

It was a phantom, a dead man.

Take his place?Xia Cong said so in the original words, he actually gave himself such a special case and honor, so shouldn't he be more flattered, instead of slamming the door and leaving ignorant of praise.

This night was particularly long, both physically and mentally overloaded, Yu Xiaolong was so tired from thinking, he just wanted to fall asleep, compared to the last time when he blindly vented madly after the same incident, he seemed to have improved.

He took his clothes and was about to take a shower first. He just opened the door, and when he saw Shi Jie standing outside, he quickly closed it again.

"What are you doing, what was the sound just now?" Shi Jie didn't understand, so in his opinion, Yu Xiaolong's weirdness this night was all criticism, "What's wrong with you, where did you get injured? Who did you fight with?"

He probably didn't see much, otherwise he wouldn't have asked this question. Yu Xiaolong had a headache, so he found a long-sleeved dress and put it on, making sure that there was nothing obviously suspicious around his neck, and then opened the door again, "Aren't you sleeping?"

"I've been waiting for so long, I'm still in a hurry." Shi Jie rubbed his nose and followed behind him, "I haven't finished telling you about the vegetables, I heard..."

"I know everything." Yu Xiaolong said.

"How do you know?" Shi Jie was taken aback, "How much do you know?"

"Almost, what do you want to ask?" Yu Xiaolong didn't want to go into details, he knew who made the move, who instigated it, and also knew that the vegetable pole was not dead, these were enough, Xia Cong refused to say too much , and he didn't want to pursue it.

"Is he... dead?"

"No."

"Oh." Shi Jie replied, unable to tell whether it was regret or relief.

Yu Xiaolong believed that it was more of the latter. Although he hated what Cai Gan had done, if he just died like this, especially if he still had something to do with him, he would not get any satisfaction from it.

What he wanted was for him to serve, not for him to die, but the matter is now resolved in this way, which is a good thing for them, Shi Jie suddenly changed his tone, "Do you want to eat late at night, there is something in the refrigerator dumpling."

"...Where did it come from?"

"Zhao Fei made it." Shi Jie's eyes drifted a little, but the corners of his mouth couldn't help but curl up, "Isn't this...not a threat, she wants to come back for a meal by herself, so I can't stop it all the time. "

"I don't have any appetite, you can eat." Yu Xiaolong closed the bathroom door, Shi Jie yelled again from outside, asking him whether he really wanted to eat or not, but he didn't hear an answer, so he muttered a few times and left.

Uncle Yin was going to participate in some chamber of commerce event, and asked Yu Xiaolong and Xu Yinliang to accompany him. It happened that Yu Xiaolong didn't want to stay here these days, so he agreed very readily.

With Uncle Yin around, Xu Yinliang behaved fairly along the way, except one night when he was drinking, he asked him who Xia Cong was and what relationship he had with him. His tone was aggressive, as if he had already grasped something.

Yu Xiaolong didn't bother to play around with him, and treated him in silence. He didn't even think about who he was and what others could see for him.

This trip lasted four or five days, during which he had no contact with Xia Cong, Xia Cong didn't come to him, and he didn't take the initiative to mention anything.

His meaning that day was very clear, let him think, the initiative is his, if he figured it out and let him be rough, then continue, if he can't figure it out, it's just a shot and two.

What kind of bullshit is this? Xia Cong's insistence on saying something so ugly meant that Yu Xiaolong didn't understand, so he avoided talking about it, and didn't want to delve into it.

But when it comes to this, Yu Xiaolong knows what Xia Cong is thinking, but he can't understand himself. He has been asking himself repeatedly during this time, what exactly he wants to do, and what he wants Xia Cong to do.

Maybe his idea sounded too ridiculous for either of them to admit it.

Xia Cong had a clear attitude from the very beginning, throwing everything to him, clearly marking the price, being fair and impartial, leaving him room for honesty, it looks like a veteran style.

Compared to him, Yu Xiaolong was as naive as a preschooler.

On the night when he came back, he went to the bar street. Since the matter of the vegetable pole was resolved, the bar street has followed a lot of peace and quiet. During this period of time, nothing happened, and even his usual troublesome head shrank go down.

This is not necessarily a good thing for Yu Xiaolong, it means that he is very free and has nothing to do, especially the idea of ​​wanting to beat some idiots to vent his anger has come to nothing.

It was so quiet that he was not used to it.

The weeds in his heart gathered together and grew savagely in the desolate place. His hands and feet seemed to be dislocated and had nowhere to rest. Sitting in this bustling place in the middle of the night, under his flawless face, he looked completely muddled.

He fumbled in his pockets, changed clothes when he went out today, and forgot to bring his cigarettes. He didn't smoke much before, but recently he couldn't leave his cigarettes. Zhao Fei saw him a few times and asked him if something happened to him.

Yu Xiaolong leaned on the back of the bench, bored, pulled a grass from the flower bed next to him, and kept twirling it back and forth on his fingers. The bustle in front of him made him impetuous, but he lost a little because of the pompousness that filled the gap. Lonely.

The wooden chair sank slightly, and there was a loose and crisp sound. Someone sat down next to him and handed him something.

A bar of chocolate wrapped in aluminum foil in the shape of a wine bottle.

Yu Xiaolong followed that slender arm and saw Xia Cong who was sitting across from him. Xia Cong moved his hand forward and motioned for him to accept it.

"How did you know?"

"what do you know?"

Yu Xiaolong glanced at his hand.

"Do you like chocolate?" Xia Cong asked.

"Pretend I didn't ask." Yu Xiaolong took it over.

Xia Cong sat quietly for a while, then suddenly asked: "Do you like sweets?"

Yu Xiaolong didn't speak, Xia Cong turned to look at him, "Then do you want to eat now, I just know how to do the same."

Yu Xiaolong also looked at him, and sure enough, the next second, Xia Cong tilted his head and leaned closer to his ear, "Go to my place?"

"If I don't object, have I promised you something?"

"If you don't object, you just want to go back to eat candy with me." Xia Cong said, smiling a little on purpose, "Or are you expecting something?"

Yu Xiaolong's eyes were calm, the chocolate curled up slightly when he was kneaded by his fingertips, he didn't speak, Xia Cong stopped laughing, and wiped off the weed crumbs on his hands bit by bit, "I'm not kidding you, let's go Bar."

Yu Xiaolong followed Xia Cong, and walked into the door again. Due to the weather during this time, the room was a bit stuffy, and all the breath of that day seemed to be blocked inside. Yu Xiaolong smelled a little bit for a moment. Absent.

Stepping by the door, his footsteps paused, Xia Cong didn't notice his abnormality, after he entered, he turned his head and smiled at him, the smile behind his back was a little different than usual, and it was rare that there was a little tenderness in it.

Yu Xiaolong walked in, and as soon as the door closed, Xia Cong's warm body pressed against him, he half hugged him, his lips wandered around his ears, and he said in a complaining tone, "You can hold your breath .”

You are quite calm, Yu Xiaolong wanted to say, he pushed, but Xia Cong didn't let go, smacked at the corner of his mouth, and then slid towards his neck, "I said I won't force you, you just I really don’t come to see me anymore.”

"Did you say you won't force me?" Yu Xiaolong hoarse, his tone was cold and pointed.

Xia Cong picked up the clothes around his neckline, bit him lightly on the shoulder, stopped reluctantly, hugged him for a while and let go, "Have you eaten yet?"

Yu Xiaolong shook his head.

"Then why are you sitting there?" Xia Cong walked towards the kitchen, and stopped suddenly when he reached the door, "If you say that you don't think about eating and drinking for me, I will be very happy."

Of course Yu Xiaolong would not make him happy, Xia Cong was a little helpless, and the corners of his mouth drooped in self-pity, "I really miss you a little bit."

Yu Xiaolong looked at him, Xia Cong's eyes flashed a smile, he pointed to the sofa and let him sit there, "Food or noodles, young master?"

"Let's meet." Yu Xiaolong said.