Have fate with you

I looked at Liu Yuan in front of me. Compared with her ten years later, she looked very young, but her inner essence was still exactly the same.

Just like now, she was staring at the notebook under her feet, she obviously didn't speak, her eyes were stubborn and serious, and she questioned me wordlessly, what was going on.

I couldn't answer, she couldn't answer why she went back to ten years ago, she couldn't answer the meaning of this black book, and she couldn't answer the answer Liu Yuan wanted.

I wanted to touch her face, but I noticed that Liu Yuan's body shrank back indiscernibly, and her eyes showed distrust that had never been seen before.

I could only step back step by step. The short distance of ten meters was like a moat. The wooden door was gently closed. No one chased me out, and my body slid down along the door.

Sitting on the solid wood floor, hugging his legs tightly, burying his head in his knees, the tears he held back finally slipped down, soaking the notebook again.

If... I could see my own mind clearly earlier, would the result be different?

The notebook was solemnly placed on the table in the living room, the most conspicuous corner.This is what I just reborn, at a loss, holding the draft on the desk, and recorded it.It was filled with little thoughts and feelings of her rebirth.

From the beginning of getting close, I thought that she ten years ago and her ten years later are simply two people; after getting in touch with her silently, I discovered that Liu Yuan also has so many weaknesses, but ten years later, she pretended to be Li Ning's technique was more advanced, and Li Ning did not discover it; until the end, falling in love, which sounds like a high-sounding thing, became so simple.

I want to see her, every day, that's all.

At the beginning, the book recorded a lot of the past. At that time, I had not yet escaped from the haze left by Liu Yuan's death, and my heart and eyes were full of fantasies, what would have happened if... at that time?I found out earlier... so what?Maybe she will be rejected, maybe she won't, but she can't just disappear on such a rainy night. This kind of thinking makes me feel that I am also an accomplice in Liu Yuan's death.

So when I see her, I always think about the past.I listened and watched and felt her everywhere.

Later, I gradually realized that Liu Yuan and Liu Yuan may be two people at all. I don’t know what effect ten years have had on her. It can make a person change so much. I have observed her carefully. She is not as good at dancing in the crowd as I imagined. Many times, she actually likes to stay alone in the corner and do what she likes, but this is just the effect of time. If there is no rebirth of me, maybe the life of this life The trajectory is no different from the previous life.

So it is possible that everything that Liu Yuan concealed in front of me was just a disguise.Pretending not to be weak, pretending to be strong.It was only then that I realized that Liu Yuan was always smiling when we got along with me, without showing any negative emotions.

It was only after she cried in front of me during that 800-meter race that I realized that maybe Liu Yuan’s feelings for me had deteriorated long ago. Love is a more sacred existence, but the me in this existence?really the real me?And not the me she imagined?

No one can live in the world without stains. Everyone has stains, and because of stains, they become more real.

It's ridiculous to think about it. During that year of companionship, I only regarded Liu Yuan as a friend, but in less than three months, I saw the real her. She would cry, laugh and be afraid. It's easy to fall in love with her inadvertently.

I also finally understood why Sun Zhao guarded Liu Yuan for a full ten years, because she had witnessed her like that, witnessed her weakness and helplessness, presumably at the beginning, what Sun Zhao liked and always liked was the same. Liu Yuan.

Although helpless, he never gave up. Although he stood here, he still had a distant heart.

But this always makes people have such a strong sense of guilt, which makes me feel that I am sorry for Liu Yuan.

On the day of her birthday, I was with her, as if I had unloaded something, I felt very happy, but Liu Yuan's face suddenly appeared in my heart, stained with blood, but with a gentleness that never disappeared Smile, ask me:

"Li Ning, why can't you love me?"