Before graduation, hold down the restless you

In the evening, when Gu Ze called him, he was holding a presidium meeting in the Humanities Building.After a day of absent-mindedness and absent-mindedness, I even forgot to mute my phone during the meeting.

The secretary's speech was suddenly interrupted by SpongeBob SquarePants' sharp laughter. The devilish laughter seemed to be still echoing in the air, and the fifteen people at the table were all staring at him.

Yan He's face was hot, he lowered his head, hurriedly said "I'm sorry", picked up the phone, and quickly turned the phone to silent.

Seeing that he was out of shape today, their counselor kindly excused him, and said worriedly: "Yan He, didn't you say that something happened at home recently? Go out and deal with it before you come in."

"It's nothing important." Yan He shook his head, and stuffed the vibrating mobile phone on the table into his bag.

The secretary coughed lightly, and continued the previous topic: "I didn't have any important things today, I just wanted to talk to the chairmen, secretary-generals, and counselors about the shortcomings of some current college-level associations... "

After a lot of tedious and complicated discussions, the meeting was broken up.

Yan He stared at the three missed calls displayed on the screen, still sitting in his seat, lost in thought.Until Fan Jun suddenly patted him from behind.

"Is there anything else?" Yan He withdrew his thoughts, closed his phone, and looked at the person sitting next to him.

Fan Jun thoughtfully helped him pick up the pen cap that fell on the ground and put it back on: "Aren't you in a good mood recently?"

Yan He put the meeting minutes into his bag and said vaguely, "No."

"But you..."

"Have you said it all?" Yan He's tone suddenly became heavier, and his eyebrows furrowed together.

Fan Jun was stunned for a moment before seeing him so emotional, and his ready words were blocked in his throat.

Realizing that he was overly emotional, Yan He turned his head and smiled apologetically at her a little tiredly: "Maybe I'm too tired recently, I'm sorry..."

The team members decided that the work, the funds, programs, and later stages of the welcome party, as well as large and small meetings, and the studies that must be paid attention to... will indeed be very tiring.Fan Jun shook her head, indicating that it was okay.

The two walked all the way in silence and embarrassment, and when they were about to send her downstairs to the dormitory, Fan Jun pretended to be relaxed and said, "By the way, you seemed to know Ralph very well at the last signing. ?”

"If there is a chance, can we come out to have a meal together?" Fan Jun's expression seemed shy. Since that day, she has put on delicate heavy makeup every day, as if waiting for someone's joy, "I like him It’s been a long time, and I hope to be friends with him.”

Yan He's footsteps stopped, and he didn't know whether it was the thick pile of makeup on Fan Jun's face that bored him, or because he was baffled by the fact that he confessed to another man.

The strange irritability made him feel a little annoyed. Looking at the faces of his colleagues and classmates in front of him, he also felt awkward.

He considered the words: "We don't know each other well."

Obviously not believing his words, Fan Jun sized him up suspiciously, she clearly saw something that day.Her probing and suspicious eyes caused Yan He to suffer inexplicably, as if she was a prisoner who was seen through by others after getting into the execution cart.I feel uncomfortable all over.

The phone vibrated again in due course.

Yan He's heart skipped a beat, and there was a hint of urgency that could not wait, and the secret anticipation in his heart was secretly causing trouble.

Seizing the right moment, he hurriedly said goodbye, leaving Fan Jun who was still frozen in embarrassment, walked quickly to the quieter back woods, and pressed the answer button.

Almost the moment the call was connected, he regretted it.

After a brief impulse, he realized that it was irrational to do so.

Yan He searched in a panic to find all kinds of excuses, and finally with a straight face, pre-emptively said in a deep and cold voice: "I'm in a meeting."

"...I'm sorry..." The man's slightly apologetic and cautious "Thinking" has not yet come out.

The voice suddenly stopped.

Broken in the air awkwardly.

Because there are few people, the back woods are relatively quiet, and because the back woods are relatively quiet, every little movement can be heard very clearly.

So the small groans and satisfied sighs were transmitted to the other end of the phone smoothly and without hindrance, so that even the other party who is far away can truly experience the heat of the scene, and the agile melody and space. Good sound for surround.

The two were quiet for a while.

"...What kind of meeting are you having?" Gu Ze's voice floated faintly.

Yan He, who just realized what happened, clutched his phone in a panic, and fled to the back door of the dormitory building in embarrassment, feeling a strong sense of shame of being caught watching pornography in an instant.

The tofu dregs image built in a few seconds instantly collapsed.The sudden accident made him hesitate even to speak: "No, no, it's not me, hey, I didn't, no, I mean, I didn't watch it, bah, no, that..."

The more anxious and the more he explained, the more he felt like there was no silver 300 taels here.

Gu Ze pondered for a while: "...to bother you... have you studied?"

It was very difficult for the other party to pick out a word to summarize a certain behavior of delving into low-cost small videos for two people.

And the object is, "you".

"We", "We", "We".

Yan He desperately wanted to run to the road and lie down immediately, and let the car run over him, repeatedly and quickly, until he became a flat paper man.

He has always thought of himself as an honest gentleman... Even if the reality is a little bit different from what he thought, in the eyes of most people, he has always been a sunny boy who is happy, cheerful, cheerful and positive, happy and handsome chairman, doing things Meticulous, conscientious, is a very reliable and honest person.

But every time I met Gu Ze, why did my taste change?

It was like this when they reunited, and it's like this now, as if he would never be able to hold his head high in front of that person in his entire life, and be a mature person who would impress him.

Unexpected accidents always follow, and it is simply a disaster.

Depressed, Yan He forgot his various resistances to him for a moment, and even said with some self-defeating frustration: "Yes. What's the matter with you?"

I didn't expect him to admit it so readily, the other end was speechless for a moment.

After a while, Gu Ze's low voice was mixed with a little helplessness: "Look less, it will hurt your health."

Yan He was so angry that he vomited blood.

The swear words that had been pressed all the time finally couldn't help but burst out, and he said viciously: "Damn, what the hell are you calling?"

"...I just want to have a good chat with you." The voice on the other end of the phone suddenly slowed down, soft and slow, like gentle water waves.

The voice was quiet and distant, and Yan He immediately recalled the dark and lonely figure in front of the dormitory building yesterday.A soft place in my heart was pinched severely.He opened his mouth, and somehow the little night wind made his eyes hurt.

He squatted down along the corner of the wall, and the image of waiting for someone foolishly appeared in front of his eyes again. He gritted his teeth and said slowly: "There is nothing to talk about."

The two were silent for a few seconds.

"What did you want to say to me that day?" Gu Ze clenched his teacup unconsciously, his voice hoarse, "The night you called me to the hotel."

Yan He blinked his dry eyes, shook his head, his heart was throbbing with pain, but he couldn't express any emotions.He used to recall what happened that night over and over again, recalling the numbness, even when facing that person, the wound would still ooze blood slightly, but the pain would no longer be so unbearable.

He lowered his eyes and said in a low voice, "I don't remember."

"You're still blaming me." The person on the other end of the phone was confident, even with such a gentle and gentle voice, Yan He felt so oppressed.

He hated himself for still being moved now, and even more hated Gu Ze, who seemed like nothing had happened, who was always gentle, tolerant and calm. His confident tone and firm tone made him feel uncontrollably uncomfortable.

Because Gu Ze was right.

His lie was sternly exposed, as if another big hole had been poked in his heart.

He couldn't get used to Gu Ze's calm and calm appearance the most.

Yan He gritted his teeth, swearing one after another: "Don't fucking fart."

For a moment, Yan He almost thought that Gu Ze would hang up the phone angrily, and then never see him again.

But no, the call continued.

"...I seem to have missed something very important." Ignoring his sarcasm mixed with dirty words, the man on the other end gave a wry smile.

Yan He was silent.

"It's okay." The man smiled gently, as if talking to himself, "We still have a long, long time. Long enough for you to remember."

Yan He was furious and couldn't help shouting: "Are you out of your mind?!"

Gu Ze didn't try to argue, he smiled and said softly, "Go to bed early, good night."

Before he could answer, he hung up the phone.

Yan He was left trembling with anger.

This person, this person.It was him who left, and he was the one who came back.Don't say no, don't do it more ruthlessly than anyone else.

Three years ago, the moment he woke up from the hospital and saw Yan Yangdong, he understood that he was nothing in that person's heart.

We have been together for almost two years, and we get along day and night every day without looking up or down, and I don't even have an important weight.Could it be that after three years, when he saw him after returning from abroad, his conscience suddenly realized that he was as important as air, water, and sunshine?

impossible.He has worked hard for two years but failed to achieve, what can he do in the blank three years?It was nothing more than widening the distance between the two of them, making that person feel fresh again.He won't be fooled again.

Yan He lowered his head and took out his mobile phone, and put Gu Ze's number into the blacklist.